Concubine like a house

Chapter 118: In the middle of the game, you lose yourself (2)
After hearing this name twice, Chuxiu really remembered it. It turned out that the woman in green was named "Zihan" yesterday.She didn't want Shen Yu to see her guilty conscience, so she buried her head even lower and didn't say another word.

Seeing her like this, Shen Yu still refused to give up and insisted on forcing her to tell the truth: "Han Chu, your level of lying is too bad. If what you just said was the truth, why didn't you dare to look up at me? ? What are you running from?"

escape from what?Chuxiu calmed down, suppressed the rage that was gradually surging in his heart, and forced himself to look at Shen Yu: "I didn't escape, and I don't need to escape. I have always only had Lord Hou in my heart. You want me to look up at you, is it true?" What do you want to prove? Shen Yu, give up."

"Give up?" Shen Yu took two steps forward, the blazing heat in his eyes made Chuxiu unable to look directly at him, very uncomfortable. "Don't come here again." Seeing Shen Yu approaching her direction, she backed away unconsciously.One advances, the other retreats, Shen Yu is silent, presses step by step, and finally pushes Chuxiu into a corner against the wall.Chuxiu was at a loss, and shouted again in embarrassment and anger: "Don't come here again!" But Shen Yu did the opposite, approached two more steps, and stood face to face with Chuxiu.At this moment, the distance between the two of them was so close that it couldn't be closer, as long as Shen Yu lowered his head, he could stick it to Chuxiu's cheek.His body has a faint medicinal fragrance that has been accumulated for many years, and her body is a woman's natural fragrance. At this moment, the two fragrances merged into one, and turned into another extremely suitable and attractive fragrance.Shen Yu sniffed deeply, almost unable to hold back, his tall and straight body cast a thick shadow in the corner of the wall, slowly surrounding Chuxiu.

This was an extremely ambiguous gesture, Chuxiu subconsciously turned her face away, bent down in panic, trying to get out from under Shen Yu's ribs.Unexpectedly, the other party had quick eyes and quick hands, and bent over to stop her. Chu Xiu couldn't dodge and dodged backwards, but he used too much force, and the back of his head was about to hit the wall.

It was too late to say it, but Shen Yu suddenly stretched out his right palm to protect the back of her head.But hearing the sound of "bang", Chuxiu felt the back of his head resting on something thick and warm.She closed her eyes to gather herself, only to realize that Shen Yu had relieved her strength with the palm of her hand, protecting the back of her head from touching the wall.

"Are you injured?" She saw a few bloodstains on the joints of the back of Shen Yu's right hand, obviously just scratched by the wall.

"It's okay, are you hurt?" On the contrary, Shen Yu caressed the back of her neck nervously, as if probing to check the back of her head.

Chuxiu was stunned for a moment before realizing how intimate this was. Looking from a distance, it looked like the two were embracing each other.She only felt her cheeks were hot, and quickly pushed Shen Yu: "I'm fine, let me go."

Shen Yu paused, as if hesitating for a moment.But in the next moment, he has already exerted more force, taking advantage of the situation and hugging Chuxiu into his arms.He rested his chin on her fragrant shoulder and sighed deeply: "Why are you so stubborn! Is it so difficult for you to admit that you care about me?"

When he spoke, the hot breath passed Chuxiu's earlobe bit by bit, which made the other party feel even more ashamed. Chuxiu just pushed him firmly with both hands, each time getting stronger than the first hand.

But what is this strength?To Shen Yu, it was like a kitten scratching an itch.He chuckled lightly, and hugged the delicate body in his arms even tighter: "It's been two and a half years, I really miss you... What about you? Have you ever thought of me a little bit?"

With these two short sentences, Chuxiu immediately softened her heart, and the hands that had been fiercely resisting gradually became weak, and slowly fell down along Shen Yu's robe.She didn't know how to answer, and the bitterness that had been pent up in her heart for a long time seemed to have finally found an outlet...Suddenly, Chuxiu burst into tears without any scruples, and the tears slid down, and finally fell on Shen Yu's arms unknowingly In the middle, I was shaking from crying all over.Counting from that New Year's Eve two and a half years ago until now, too many stories have happened in the middle, and she was too tired to carry and endure alone:

A chastity archway, Yun Muge's misfortune, the old butler Yun Zhong's death, the downfall of the Ming clan, changes in Nanxi's situation... and the sudden 5000 million taels of gold, and everything Yun Ci did...everything Everything was like a mountain pressing on her, making her exhausted and exhausted.

It's not that I don't want to find someone to confide in, but where can I find a suitable confidant?But facing Shen Yu's aggressiveness at this moment, Chuxiu couldn't bear it anymore, and just wanted to cry aloud, leaving behind all the hardships and hardships in his heart.

Shen Yu didn't say another word, just hugged her and let her cry in his arms.Mu Chun's thin clothes were soaked by Chuxiu's tears, and a whole piece of cloth on his chest was sticking wetly to his chest. This should have been an uncomfortable feeling, but Shen Yu felt extremely happy.This moment, the moment when Chu Xiu opened his heart, he has waited for too long.

From Hanchu, who was 14 years old, to Chuxiu, who was 22 years old, the eight years in his life were the most glorious and desolate eight years in his life, the most indulgent and ignorant, and the most enlightened eight years, the most comfortable and lustful, The eight most difficult years of life and death were all passed under the witness of this woman.

At this moment, at this moment, a pair of people who hug each other tightly don't need to say any more words.Chuxiu cried and hurt like this, and after an unknown amount of time, a gleam of clarity flashed in her eyes, she subconsciously dodged back, and stopped crying.

Seeing that she started to dodge again, Shen Yu frowned again: "What's wrong?" Chuxiu only felt that his eyes were blurred, and his vision was blocked by overflowing tears.But her heart and mind were also blurred, making her afraid to recall what she said and did just now.Knowing that there are some words that should not be said, she still said: "Sorry, I was in a trance just now...I took you as Lord Marquis."

With one sentence, Shen Yu who was in the cloud was immediately sent back to hell: "What did you say?" The chilling coldness around him spread out again, and he shot at the delicate girl beside him.

Chuxiu's face turned pale, and she didn't dare to look at him again, she was ruthless, and explained: "The medicine fragrance on your body is similar to that of Lord Hou... I miss you very much, and I recognized the wrong person."

"Admit the wrong person?" Shen Yu's face was as dark as water, and he asked back with a restrained voice.If Chuxiu looked up at him at this moment, he would see how ugly his face was—cold, sharp, cruel, broken...all intertwined on Shen Yu's face, and finally turned into disappointment on the verge of collapse.That kind of pain that comes to nothing after being intoxicated by dreams, that kind of pain that is peeled off by cruel reality... He felt that Chuxiu's body was covered with thorns.Pain is pain, disappointment is disappointment, but Shen Yu also clearly felt Chuxiu's shaking.He has reasons to believe that she is just looking for an excuse to comfort himself, and he is willing to make this excuse: "Even if you take me as a holdover, I will admit it... One day, you will see clearly who I am. "

What kind of deep and humble emotion is this?How could he make the once proud Lord Shen Xiaohou compromise so far?Chuxiu wanted to cry again when she heard it, she couldn't help but raised her hand to cover her cherry lips, and said with a sob: "But I'm already awake, you're not him, never will be."

She didn't want to delay Shen Yu anymore. He is already twenty-five this year. Other men at this age have already gathered wives and concubines and fathered several children, but Shen Yu has to bear the burden of a nominal marriage and waits hopelessly. Letting others down, and continuing to waste time foolishly... Naturally, Shen Yu didn't know what Chuxiu was thinking, but he didn't want to discuss this topic again, for fear that they would break up unhappy at the end.He didn't come here with the purpose of quarreling, he wanted to seize this opportunity, so he changed the subject: "It's getting late, and I have to rush back to Daying in the west of the city in a while. Aren't you going to Qingxinzhai? I'll take you there .”

The afternoon in late spring is already hot and dry, the sun is like gold, pure and transparent, shining in the sky.Shen Yu accompanied Chuxiu to the gate of Qingxin Zhai, thin sweat was already oozing from his forehead.He strode into the arched door with hanging flowers, and looked at the grass and trees, the houses and the tiles, feeling extremely sad.

This is the place where my friend Yunci stayed the most during his lifetime. He spends more than half of his time in this Qingxinzhai every day, studying poetry and books, compiling books, and handling general affairs... It has been a long time since he has set foot here, but Shen Yu feels that this place seems to have never changed However, Yunci's unique atmosphere is everywhere, as if the man in white who looked like a banished immortal never left.

Shen Yu asked himself, in the past few years in his official career and on the battlefield, he is used to the impermanence of life and death, and when he confronts the enemy, he bleeds but not tears. A voice reminded him—cherish the present and grasp the future.

He couldn't help turning his head to see Xiu.The sky was as blue as washing, and her clothes were as white as snow. The spring breeze blew her skirts and her hair fluttered.But the expression on her face seemed to be... ashamed?
Seeing her appearance, Shen Yu couldn't help but his heart sank, so he pretended not to see her, frowned and asked, "What are you going to Qingxinzhai for?"

Chuxiu didn't respond, and walked into Yunci's study, and took out a manuscript from the bookcase.She didn't know why she came here, she just said that she wanted to come to Qingxinzhai, it was just an excuse, but when she really came, she didn't want to leave.Perhaps, only in this place can her heart truly calm down, truly belong to herself, belong to Yunci: "You go back. I heard from King Cheng that you will leave for Jingzhou to return to your mission in two days... You should have a good rest these few days." An order to evict guests so soon?Shen Yu's eyes slowly descended, and finally landed on the manuscript in Chuxiu's hand.With just one glance at the cover, he knew it was Yun Ci's handwritten manuscript.Shen Yu suddenly understood Chuxiu's reason for coming, but he didn't want to give her another chance to escape, so he said, "Han Chu, are you playing tricks on me? You persuaded me to cheer up more than two years ago, and I hugged you and kissed you too." I have passed you, and even tied up your hair with my own hands, have you forgotten?"

Hearing this, Chuxiu's face became even paler, and even her cherry lips lost a trace of blood.She looked away and responded in a low voice: "You also said that I was trying to persuade you to cheer up...that's just a way to comfort you."

"What happened just now? You even wet my front from crying, how can you explain it? And you are jealous of Zihan, so what?"

(End of this chapter)