waiting for your starlight

Chapter 289

It was very quiet in the ward.

Shen Yilu was sitting on the sofa, wrapped in a red coat and skirt, still looking glamorous.Yixi remembered that many years ago, she felt proud, because among all her friends, her mother was the most beautiful and noble.

"When I was young, I didn't have many chances to see you. Every time I was arguing for my mother, the nanny would show me your news, your movies, and your various programs. She would point to the people on TV. Tell me that the most beautiful is your mother, and that I look a lot like you, and I will definitely be a beauty in the future. At that time, I was happiest when you came home every month, because I could be with you Eat together, practice piano together, although you don't like to play with me, but I also feel satisfied...

"But you are getting more and more indifferent, or you have always been so indifferent, but I slowly began to feel your emotions. You don't like me, and you seldom even smile at me. I remember one time, the painting teacher asked I drew a family portrait, I spent two days drawing you, my father and myself, but when I excitedly showed it to you, you changed your clothes and were ready to go out. I chased out from the house, all the way I followed to the garage and wanted you to see my paintings, but you just impatiently told me not to stand in front of the car and wait for you to come back to talk about something. That day, I waited for you in the living room until late at night, until Sleepy enough to fall asleep. After the babysitter woke me up, I threw the painting in the pool. Luckily I did, after all, you were gone for two full months that time.

Shen Yilu fastened her fingers to the Birkin's handbag.

Yixi seemed to be lost in memories, and she paused for a moment before continuing: "When I was eight years old, my father took me to leave Hong Kong. Before that, I hadn't spoken to you for more than half a month. But when I was at the airport, I kept looking forward to I wanted to see if you would come to see me off. But I didn’t see you until the last second before boarding the plane. Then I read the news and found out that you attended a large commercial event that afternoon. No wonder you didn’t Time to come."

Yixi bent her lips and smiled, as if she was mocking Shen Yilu and herself, "I was too young at the time and didn't understand many things, but I already understood how much I hate you."

Yes, hate her.

Hated her at such a young age, before she even knew how to love.

Shen Yilu said coldly: "Are you telling me this to accuse me of how sorry you are?"

"A charge? No, if I wanted to make a charge, I'd have said that to you. It's just that after all these years, I think there's something you need to know."

In the vase is a fresh blue enchantress, which was brought by Shen Yilu when she visited the sick, but Yixi knew that she definitely did not pick it herself.It is impossible for her to know what flowers she likes.

She sighed softly, with helplessness in her voice, "For so many years, I have never understood what I did wrong. Even if you don't like Dad, why did you blame me? I don't even know more than an outsider. Look How do you treat Crystal now, and when you think about me back then, do you know how I felt?"

There was a slight change in Shen Yilu's eyes, but Yixi didn't care about it, and said to himself: "You have guessed it. I want to be an actor and want to make a difference in this circle. At first, a large part of it was because of you. I don't want to be called 'Shen Yilu's daughter', so only by surpassing you can I live completely as myself. For this wish, I made many decisions that would affect my life, including this conflict with Li Chenglang. But until my life was hanging by a thread, I thought I Only when I can't live anymore, I realize how worthless it is...

"You don't deserve my attention at all."

She didn't want to say these words.For so many years, no matter how resentful or wronged she was, she never uttered them.Because there is always a little pride in her heart, since she doesn't care about it, since she can be calm, why should she criticize like a resentful woman?
But now she doesn't care.Don't care what she thinks of her, don't care if she laughs again when she hears those words.All she wanted was to give herself a break.

Yixi stared at Shen Yilu, smiled very lightly, "Mom, I don't care about you anymore."

Shen Yilu's body shook, her indifferent expression was finally torn apart, her black eyes were fixed on Yixi.Under such gaze, Yixi felt very calm.It should have been like this a long time ago, and it took so long to figure it out, she had already taken too far a detour.

She got up, walked over and opened the door.Hu Zhengzhi was startled outside, and he was relieved after looking around the room.

"Are we done?" she asked.

Yixi nodded, "It's over. I feel very tired. If there is nothing else to do with Aunt, I won't see you off. I'll treat you to dinner after I leave the hospital."

Hu Zhengzhi looked at Shen Yilu, her face was a little pale, even the red clothes on her body could not save her.She stood up slowly, and when she passed by Yixi, she heard a sentence, "If there is no special matter in the future, we should not meet each other."

Hu Zhengzhi's expression changed.Shen Yilu looked at Yixi quietly, and the other party smiled and added, "I think this is good for both of us."

(End of this chapter)