The queen bullies me every day

Chapter 426

That day, the two of them got drunk, staggered, hugged each other and slept in the main hall of Chaoyang Palace.

Chu Jin ordered Liu Qi to carry Xuan Jue back to the bedroom, and Gu Chengge to the side hall to rest. After cleaning Xuan Jue's body and taking care of his pillow, he left Chaoyang Palace alone.

She was walking on the long street in the night, and the bleak wind blew in front of her, making her bones ache.

A guard on night patrol met her, and after respectfully saluting, asked, "Where is the empress going at night?"

Chu Jin replied, "I am going to see an old friend."

The guards naturally didn't dare to stop her, and said they wanted to escort her, but Chu Jin refused.

When she reached the West Sixth Palace and came to the former Candle Yin Palace, she stopped and looked up at the plaque hanging high.

After Zhao Sijin left the palace in the past, Xuan Jue regained control of the government, changed the decoration of the Candle Yin Palace, and put up the signboard of the Changqiu Palace.

Standing in front of this door, Chu Jin suddenly felt a lot.

She still remembered that when she first met Zhao Sijin, her gentleness, calmness and alluring appearance quickly caught her attention.

In her opinion, Zhao Sijin at that time was flawless, so perfect that she didn't look like a stunner in the world.

I still remember that when Youdu first entered Dazhao, Chu Jin slapped Jiang Mubai in front of Zhao Sijin, reprimanded him for what kind of man he was, and even protected Zhao Sijin and said to her, "If you don't want to be with him again , I have my own way to send you out of the palace. '

At that time, Zhao Sijin had tears in her eyes, but still bit her lips aggrievedly, and replied to Chu Jin that she did not want to leave Jiang Mubai.

It is true that Zhao Sijin is an extremely scheming woman, and she hates poison in her mind, even Chu Jin can't match her.

But it was such a woman, such a hurtful Chu Jin who had gone through so much pain and suffering, at the end, Chu Jin didn't hate her that much.

Chu Jin's temperament of revenge must be revenge, it seems that Zhao Sijin has completely changed his temperament.

She pushed the door open and stepped into the hall with light steps.

The inner sanctum was very dark, and there were no candles.

When walking to the sleeping hall, Chu Jin still saw Zhao Sijin sitting under the Ling window at a glance.

Clothed in moonlight, she stared at the open space in the courtyard in a daze.

Like Gu Chengge, she looks much older.The hair on the forehead was loose and drooping, rough and dull, with a few strands of white hair mixed in, making it look even older.

Chu Jin stood under the screen door for a long time before Zhao Sijin noticed her arrival.

She looked up at Chu Jin, and there was no hatred in her eyes.

After looking at it for a while, she laughed at herself and said, "You won."

"Win what?" Chu Jin asked.

"I have won everything. I have been fighting with you for so many years, and today, I have completely decided the winner. I lost to you, and I am convinced."

"Do you think it is necessary to decide between us?" Chu Jin walked to Zhao Sijin's side and sat on the warm seat opposite her, "From the beginning to the end, you and I should not stand side by side. People who are on opposite sides. You are your Youdu, I am my Dazhao, each of them is their master and each performs their own duties, so why have I won against you?"

"I heard that you gave birth to a daughter safely?" Zhao Sijin changed the topic and asked, and his eyes focused on the open space in the courtyard again.

Chu Jin hummed lightly as a response to her, but she just smiled wryly, "That's great. Now you have both children, Dazhao has regained Youdu, and your husband is sitting in the world. In the end, you have everything, and I have nothing. Do you see the clearing? My boy, he was buried under the clearing."

"You killed your child with your own hands. You shouldn't resent me."

"I know, I don't hate you in the morning. I hate myself, but I can't face the fact that I killed my child."

There were tears running down Zhao Sijin's cheeks, she reached out to wipe them away, there was not much sadness on her brows, "I am the same as the maidservant beside you, I am not supposed to belong to this world .God has never been kind to me. Everything I do is what I deserve. You came today to give me a ride, right? Well, I’m tired, and it’s time for me to take a good rest. "

Chu Jin shook his head, "It's not that you have nothing, at least you have someone who is willing to treat you sincerely. If today's incident fails, you will have no way out. It was Brother Jiang Liu who interceded with me and the emperor, let us let you live, Give you a chance to reform yourself."

"He?" Zhao Sijin smiled wryly, "From the beginning to the end, the only person he loves is you. What am I? I'm just a pawn used by him. Yes, but I still believed in him, as I believed in Jiang Mubai. I once thought about giving up revenge for my child, and I told him that I don't want anything, as long as I can be with him. Yes He, it was he who used all his rhetoric to arouse my hatred for you and Emperor Zhao in my heart, and it was he who made me have to take revenge and not soften my heart. I thought he did all this for me, but now I know haha"

She laughed and stopped talking.

"It was he who told me himself that he had feelings for you. It was he who asked me to keep you alive. It was he who wanted to take you away from home and lead you to live the life he promised you."

Chu Jin reached out and touched Zhao Sijin's hand on the table. Zhao Sijin dodged instinctively, but Chu Jin grabbed her hand firmly in his palm, "Your hand is hot. Yes, your heart is also hot. I want to ask you, what exactly do you want? If Xuan Jue and I died in your hands today, would you be truly happy? There is someone who protects and loves you Is it really more important to have people by your side than your so-called revenge? Have you ever thought that if you kill me and Xuan Jue, not only will Dazhao not submit to you, but Xuan Ting and Xiaoxiao will even send troops to attack you for killing me and Xuan Jue? Let's take revenge. Luan Yu is also a real dragon. In order to avenge us, he will not let you go when he grows up. Living in dire straits every day, worrying about being sought for revenge and dying, is this the life you want?"

After she finished speaking, Zhao Sijin's hands stopped struggling.

She looked at Chu Jin with calm eyes. It has been a long time since she looked at Chu Jin with such eyes, "How can I not know your temper? If someone hurts you, you will repay it. How could you treat me like that?" Don't hate me?"

"I hate you, but you are the woman Jiang Liu likes. What do I hate you for? As the queen mother often said, it is better to let go and be at ease. Look back, this world is not a mess. As long as you want, you can There are many good things waiting for you. Is it worth it to completely deny your life for a moment of dissatisfaction?"

"Can I still turn back?" Zhao Sijin looked back, and what her eyes touched was the empty courtyard.

She saw that there seemed to be light in the courtyard, and on the land where her child was buried, the light spots slowly gathered into the shape of a small boy.

He stood where he was, waved at her, and smiled at her.

Zhao Sijin covered her mouth and nose, crying so hard that she couldn't make a sound.

After running aimlessly forward for so long, she thought that the only way for her was to run forward.

But he never slowed down, he calmed down and looked back.

See if you have a chance to turn back on the paths you know are wrong.

Check the road behind her to see if anyone is waiting for her to turn around.

In her life, she has endured more pain than most people.

Fate may have treated her unfairly, but fate has never blocked her way to happiness.

It was she who, step by step, forced herself into the abyss beyond redemption.

It is too late to wake up now.

God will not give every person who hates his mistakes a chance to turn back. This is a naked life.

(End of this chapter)