Wanqingsi

Chapter 49
Yu...don't go...

Heizhou was pitch-black, and his back was like a gray shadow that would be blown away by the wind at any moment.I chased him and called him desperately behind him, but he seemed to be unable to hear anything, and just walked straight forward. I just felt that he was getting farther and farther away from me, so far away that I dared not blink. I'm afraid that in the blink of an eye, he will disappear, and he will be wiped out....I chased after me until I fell to my knees powerlessly, watching the grayness gradually disappearing into the black mist in despair, and crying out heartbroken...

Woo...

As if waking up from a nightmare, I opened my eyes profusely with sweat, and Xiaohong said in surprise, "The girl is awake." A whole room immediately gathered around, Hongye, Yueniang, Chu Shang, and a white beard The old man, the old man with the white beard caught my pulse, checked for a while, and said with a smile: "Okay, okay, the girl will be fine when she wakes up, there is no serious problem."

I wanted to prop myself up and sit up, but the white-bearded old man stopped me and said: "The girl's fetus is unstable, so you shouldn't make too much movement in the future, so you have to give birth well."

I looked at him inexplicably: "What is the tire unstable?"

The old man with white beard smiled and said, "Young lady has been pregnant for more than a month..."

What nonsense is he talking about?I looked up and scanned the expressions of everyone in the room. Hongye was happy, Xiaohong was shocked, Yueniang was worried, and Chu Shang had an unpredictable expression. They all had complicated expressions, but none of them expressed doubts. The old man with the white beard has already said it once.As if being hit in the head, I excitedly grabbed the old man's hand with white beard: "What are you talking about? Why are you pregnant? How could I be pregnant? You are talking nonsense..."

The old man with the white beard was frightened by my reaction, Chu Shang stepped forward and hugged me tightly to stop my crazy behavior, and said to the people in the room: "Get out!"

I struggled in his arms, but I couldn't break away from his brute force. I was so shocked by the news just now that I was out of my mind. I cried and beat him, beat him, and grabbed him: "Let me go, you Go to hell, go to hell, why don't you die when so many of you are dead..." He hugged me tightly and let me beat and scold him, neither speaking nor moving, I was tired from the beating, and my whole body suddenly limp into a ball, Unable to control the fear and panic in my heart anymore, I burst into tears: "Why? What did I do wrong? Why did God torture me like this..."

He hugged me tightly, as if he wanted to rub me into his body, I felt extremely desperate, why?Why am I pregnant, why am I pregnant with his child, why?No, I can't have this child, this unpopular child, whose father hates his mother, whose mother hates his father, he will grow up in a loveless environment, why bother to let a clean life, to suffer in this evil world of mortals?

I stopped my tears and said dumbly: "I don't want this child."

His arms tightened, and I repeated dumbly: "I don't want this child, I don't want to give birth to your evil seed."

"Xue'er..." He whispered, with a hint of embarrassment and begging in his voice.This is the first time he called my name like this. Every time before, he always looked at me coldly, calling me names and surnames. I sneered, what is this?court?Beg for mercy?Why do you want something from me?

"I'm tired, you go out." I said coldly.

He let go of me and looked at me with a frown. I lowered my eyelids and didn't look at him. He stood up silently and turned to go out.I suddenly fell limp on the bed, feeling that all the strength in my body had been exhausted.

Xiaohong entered the room, sat on the head of the bed and watched over me.I looked at the top of the bed silently, and slowly stroked my lower abdomen with my hands, feeling sore in my heart.There is my only relative in this world. I'm sorry, baby, you came at a bad time. It would be great if you were born in the love of your parents. I will love you like a jewel, but why did you choose Come at this hour?Mom can't protect herself, how can she protect you?What would it be like if you grew up without love?Will you become the second Chu Shang?
I remember once chatting with a friend on the Internet in my previous life. I didn’t know how to get involved with the psychological endurance of a child. I told him a joke when I was a child.When I was five or six years old, the doctor misdiagnosed me with congenital heart disease.One day, the neighbor’s kid suddenly stopped playing with me, and told me very seriously: “My mother said you have a heart disease, so I don’t want to play with you.”

Depend on!Heart disease is not AIDS!Ignorant women and children!But I was devastated and very, very humbled.Because of the child's expression, it seems that I am a poisonous bacterium.This inferiority complex has been inferior for many years, until I knew what heart disease is, my inferiority complex has seriously affected my character, making me timid and cowardly.

Very sad joke.A child is a very vulnerable animal. Who knows where and what kind of injury he will get?So, I told my friends, how dare you raise a child?It’s fine if you don’t give birth to him, you have to bear the responsibility of raising him, be responsible for his basic necessities of life, moral conduct, mental and physical health….He is simply a living debt collector, why should an ignorant and ignorant life be wrapped in a cloud of mud in the world?

After hearing my words, my friend said, "I would never raise a child with someone I don't love." At that time, I laughed at his innocence, saying that in fact, having a child has nothing to do with whether you love it or not.

I laughed, does it matter?Ye Haihua, what are you sad about right now?Sad what?It turned out to be easier said than done.Xiaohong was frightened by my chuckle for no reason: "Girl, what's wrong with you? Are you okay?"

I glanced at her and said softly, "Xiao Hong, please do me a favor."

"What did the girl say? Just tell Xiaohong to do whatever you want." Seeing me standing up, Xiaohong hurriedly helped me sit up.

I grabbed her hand and said firmly, "Xiaohong, go quietly to the pharmacy and get me a pair of abortion pills..."

"Girl..." Xiaohong exclaimed, "How did this happen? Mother Yue told me to take good care of you and not let you get hurt."

Dare Chu Shang really want this child?I sneered, or did he want to grab a bargaining chip to control me?If this child is really born, I will really be entangled with him for the rest of my life.

"Xiaohong, I beg you, I can't have this child." I grabbed her hand tightly, feeling extremely desolate in my heart, "I really can't have him."

"Girl..." She was shocked by my miserable tone.I looked at her sadly: "Xiaohong, I beg you."

She bit her lip, and finally nodded: "I promise you, girl, don't be so sad."

I looked at her gratefully: "Thank you, Xiaohong."

She went out for a long time before buying the medicine back.I said to her: "When you boil the medicine, avoid people, don't let people find out."

"Understood." She responded and went out, and after a long time, she sneaked in with a bamboo basket with a cover.This girl is careful.I smiled at her: "It's done!"

"Yeah." She took out the medicine and hesitated when she handed it to me, "Girl, do you really want to drink this medicine? This medicine is very harmful to the body..."

"Give it to me." I stretched out my hand quietly, preventing her from continuing.

Xiaohong's hands trembled, and she handed me the medicine bowl tremblingly.I took it, and an unpleasant smell of traditional Chinese medicine hit my nostrils. I felt nauseous and almost vomited it out.Hesitating for a moment, I squeezed my nose tightly, brought the medicine bowl to my lips, and was about to gulp it down, when the door burst open, before I could react, the medicine bowl in my hand was knocked to the ground with a "slap", and it shattered. In pieces, the brown concoction splashed ferociously all over the ground.

I raised my face, Yueniang looked at me with a pale face, turned her head to look at Xiaohong, and said sharply: "Drag this girl out for me and lock her up!" The two turtle slaves who followed her immediately stood up. Xiaohong dragged out, Xiaohong cried: "Mother Yue, please forgive me, please forgive me..."

"Stop!" I was startled and angry, and wanted to get out of bed to stop the turtle slave, but Yueniang stretched out her hand and tapped me, and I sat on the bed stiffly, unable to move, and said angrily, "Mother Yue wants to tell Xiaohong How about it?"

"This girl is disobedient, I'll let her know who is the master of this red building." Yueniang snorted coldly, then turned her head and said to Guinu, "Drag me out, give me ten lashes, and then lock me into the firewood room! "

"Don't!" I screamed, "I told her to buy the medicine, it's none of her business, don't hit her."

"Girl, there are rules for leaning on a red building." Yue Niang looked at me coldly, "Don't say she was whipped ten times, the mistake she made today, even if it took her life, it would not be an exaggeration to drag her out." !"

"Girl, girl, help me..." I watched Xiaohong crying and being dragged out of the room by the turtle slave, and glared at Yueniang viciously. How could she belittle other people's lives at will?I was too angry to speak: "You..."

"Miss, is it because I've indulged you too much these days, that's why I'm so aggressive?" Yue Niang met my angry gaze indifferently, and said coldly, "Miss, don't forget, my indulgence to you has a limit." Yes, it’s not boundless, if you keep messing around like this, let alone Xiaohong’s life, even the girl’s life will be in question.”

"Just kill me!" I said angrily, startled and angry in my heart, Yueniang really behaved so easy to talk these days, everything went according to my heart, so that I underestimated her.She knows martial arts and secretly helps Chu Shang, how could she be a kind person?Controlling other people's life and death power in his hands, that's why he seems to be more generous than ordinary people. Being scratched by a small person like me is not a big deal at all, maybe he is secretly watching me joke?
"Little girl can live a good life, so Xiaohong can live a good life, girl can figure it out." Yueniang said coldly.

"Mama Yue is threatening me?" I bit my lip and said angrily.

"Whatever the girl says, she can decide for herself." Yueniang snorted softly.

"I find it strange. Every time I come back from the General's Mansion, doesn't Mother Yue bring over the Chongxi soup in a hurry? You don't want me to be pregnant, so why are you blaming Xiaohong today?" I followed suit. Be calm, be calm.

"Because the child you are carrying belongs to Chu Shang, not General Ji." Yueniang said in a deep voice, "Since Chu Shang didn't say that he doesn't want this child, you have to have it."

"If you want me to give birth, I have to give birth?" I sneered, "Mother Yue, didn't you hear the doctor say that my fetus is unstable? If I don't want this baby, how many times do you think you can stop me?"

Her face changed, and I continued to sneer: "Why do you think that I will give birth to evil seeds for the enemies who wiped out my family, just because you hold Xiaohong's life in your hands? You really underestimate me."

"Shut up!" Yue Niang glared at me angrily, "I never wanted to tell you, but you are too paranoid, Chu Shang didn't kill you at all, he just kidnapped you father and daughter... "She shut up suddenly, and I gave her a surprised look, so what?Even if he didn't kill the servants, cats and dogs in the prime minister's mansion, everything he did to me was enough to make me not want this child.I mockingly chuckled: "Mother Yue, will you tell me next time that it was my illusion that he forced me to kill my father? It was my illusion that I was thrown into the brothel by him? Even I am pregnant at the moment Is Chu Shang's evil seed also my illusion?"

——2006, September, 9——
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I. . .Waterfall sweat. . .You guys are really smart.I just said something so lightly before, everyone guessed that Xiaoka was pregnant with a baby. . .I. . .hit the wall. . .In this case, let's talk about whether you want this baby or not. . .Khan crawled away. . .

(End of this chapter)