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Chapter 1010 Extra Story (End): Jun Lin Yuan (7)
However, that night, the sunshine I finally saw was completely wiped out again!Huangfu was caught in the cold of Qianduanxue, and I entered his room under human design. When he grabbed the skirt of my clothes that I forcibly tried to tear off, it seemed that the scenes from many years ago overlapped. Humiliation, it all came back to my head!In the end, I knew he had been hit by Qianduanxue, so I didn't kill him in extreme anger!But, that night, I killed many people, and I didn't spare anyone who might be related to this matter!

Everyone saw my anger, but no one saw my trembling hands under my sleeves!That's... scary!Yes, be afraid.I am afraid and avoid those scenes all the time, the slightest memory and fragment can make me feel trembling all over!My mother later pleaded for mercy, which aroused my anger even more, and instantly extinguished the little desire in my heart to stop!Very decisive and ruthless order to kill those people!

Later, the queen mother left, and I, still immersed in the monstrous anger, suppressed my anger and asked that woman to bring the bathtub, but she actually brought the imperial bucket!I was very angry and wanted to laugh, and the anger in my heart suddenly dissipated.Then, I went out of that room. The night was very dark and the stars were very bright, just like back then.

I thought about everything that happened just now, and I couldn't help but walk all the way to Mingyinju, the place where I thought I would never go again in my life.Every step I take, the pain in my heart becomes heavier, and every step I take, it seems like I am going back to the past step by step.That road is short and long.It was only a short while, and I finished that road.So long, this journey reminded me of myself, the vows I made, the instructions of the master, the instructions of the emperor, and many, many.Then, I also thought of the blood on my hands and the filth all over my body!

When I arrived at the gate of Ming Yinju, I just sat under the tree in a daze.Just at the door, watching quietly, and then, I found those memories that I had avoided for a long time, and I thought they were far away, but in fact, it seemed like it was yesterday, and it seemed to happen in front of my eyes.Every scene is very clear, and you can even feel the pain on your body.And all of this, if Huangfu Huaihan hadn't been hit by Qian Duanxue today, I had to revisit it again, and it would be absolutely impossible to force myself to face it again today.

I thought, come and take a look, if you forget, let it all go away with the wind.But……

I sat there for a long time, and after a long time, I suddenly wanted to cry.He forgot his obsession with cleanliness, and let the clothes flutter on the ground.I have been thinking, thinking, thinking about how I became like this, thinking about where I put the promises I made in front of Master and Father.

A gentleman carries things with virtue.And I have been tortured by my own mother.When I was torturing her, did I really feel better?However, I looked at the room dejectedly, bit my lips to see the blood stains, and asked myself involuntarily: "What should I do? I can't forget it, I can't forget it no matter what..."

The familiar fishy sweetness surged from my throat again, and finally, I decided to put an end to all this!Let me draw the end!
"It's all over, it's all over..."

Back in the bedroom, I looked at the knife on the table indifferently.After looking at it for a while, he picked it up, and stabbed himself in the chest without hesitation.The moment the knife sank into my chest, I didn't even feel any pain. I thought, if I can't forgive, then I can just kill myself.You don't have to torture others like this anymore, and you don't have to torture yourself like this anymore, and you don't have to be trapped in nightmares every day, reliving those unbearable scenes night after night, and you don't have to live in guilt for your master and father every day.

I just sat quietly in the imperial study, staring blankly at the medicine basket hanging in the corner, the one that came back from the snow mountain.Originally, that thing could not be brought into the Imperial Study Room, but I let someone put it in, and asked it to remind me of what I was once and what I am now.Every time he killed a person, looking at the medicine basket, he felt a stronger sense of guilt.And he was far away from the young man who hung the pot to help the world.

That night, I thought a lot, and what I thought about the most was to hope that I could be freed from this.Just like that, I let the blood in my chest flow for a whole night.Until the next day, the Internal Guard reminded me to come to court.I felt like I was running out of blood, but I wasn't dead.Maybe it's because Master gave me too much medicine since I was a child, except for the bloody disease, other parts are far more solid than ordinary people.

I thought, this is my fate.It is also what God wants me to bear. Even if it is death, God is not willing to fulfill it.This is more likely to be a punishment for me, for punishing me for clearly agreeing to my father and master, but in the end... If this is the case, I will never forget it.Then... let everyone live in hell with me!

After hastily bandaging the wound, he went to court.

On the day when Huangfu Huaihan was sent away, Huangfu Ye also smelled the Jasper Resurrection Pill on his body.And I saw the boldness of that woman, she even kicked Huangfu Huaihan's ass!The reason... Huangfu Huaihan owed her 100 taels, wouldn't he pay it back?Probably.He gave the order to beat her, but was rescued by Zi Mo.

At the same time, that idiot Jun Mengya told me that she fell in love with Huangfu Ye, and I mercilessly told my plan to send her to southern Xinjiang for marriage. Whether she can survive depends on her own destiny!But she scolded me for that.

"Jun Linyuan, do you think that by killing me, my mother, and all of us, you can wipe out everything from that year? Let me tell you, even if we all die, even if everyone in the world dies Well, you too are a dirty scumbag! You..."

right!Even if everyone in the world is dead, it won't change my filth and lowliness!So, how can I be dirty alone?It turned out that she still remembered!She remembered everything back then, and the medicine I asked my mother to give them, my mother didn't give them any!I ordered someone to take her to Ming Yinju.Then I went to trouble that woman, Su Jinping, because I was in a bad mood, and I thought it was good for that woman to be mad at me.

But at this moment, the queen mother also came.I talked a lot with my mother, that woman is too smart, and I also saw the clues in our conversation. I originally planned to kill her, but unfortunately, the old disease relapsed.I lied to her, saying that she was poisoned and I did it, but she saved me helplessly.

But when I woke up, I didn't understand why she helped me cover the quilt and serve me drinking water after she just bandaged my wound. This woman is not so kind.

However, she told me irrelevantly that one cannot choose one's past.In the face of an unbearable past, in addition to letting oneself stay in the present in pain, there is also a grateful heart to face the future.The future, do I have a future?I told her viciously that she was not poisoned, and then asked her if she would regret saving me.But she said, thanks to my kindness and compassion, I didn't poison her.

(End of this chapter)