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Chapter 398 Human Nature

"All hope is lost?"

I repeated these four words softly, then turned to look at him again, "Does it mean that I am going to commit suicide?"

Facing the calm river, he was a little speechless again, "Who made you commit suicide?"

After finishing speaking, he faced me with an attitude of forcing himself to show enough patience, "Let it go, is it suicide?"

I didn't answer, but he put the fishing rod in his hand towards his side carefully and stood up, "I ask you, did you feel relaxed after you realized the white fox's obsession?"

Nod, "Yes."

He put his hands behind his back, and looked at me with bright but not sharp eyes, as moist as jade, "Since you have understood it, why did you choose to commit suicide? The last blind love you want to experience is all hopeless, but who will let you know?" damn..."

Ask me confused.

"I, I let go, isn't it..."

He took a step closer to me, pointed at his head, "Since you have thought about the root of appearance and you know the white fox's obsession, why take the most extreme step if you want to let go?"

Before he finished speaking, he pointed to his heart again, "Ask yourself, do you really think what you are doing is right? In a word, you should understand that after seeing it through, everything is no longer a problem, you have a high level, then nothing can influence your heart, you can choose to go to a temple to relieve your white fox obsession, isn't it?"

I have nothing to say.

Looking for a temple to save the white fox?
You really stand up and talk without back pain. In that case, if I find a temple and directly save myself, it's almost the same.

"My waist is fine, don't talk about me in your heart..."

I couldn't help shivering when I heard his teasing tone, and covered my heart, "Can you..."

He raised his hand, still looking directly at me, "That's right, you got the last savage love, saved the white fox in an extreme way, and understood that all thoughts are lost, but is this all lost thoughts caused by your fear or you? The escapism deep in my heart is obstructing?"

"I……"

He raised his hand and pointed to my chest, suddenly a little aggressive, "Ask yourself, Xue Baosi, have you really... put it down?"

I looked into his eyes, my mind was unusually sober, and my thoughts seemed to be boundless. I thought of Lu Pei, my second uncle, Xiao Liu and An Jiu——

He opened his mouth, "Is it true that if you really let go, your heart won't hurt?"

The expert raised his eyebrows slightly, "Of course, you can become a fairy if you see through the essence of all things. I can also help you here..."

"Do not."

I shook my head, "I don't want to become a fairy, and I don't want to lie. Maybe, when I didn't experience the last blind love, I was a little extreme, and my thinking was distorted. As you said, I have the obsession of a white fox in my body. I want to let go, I feel relaxed, but when I face Lu Pei, my heart will hurt, I will feel reluctant, but I dare not think deeply, because I have no idea, you are right, probably, it is my escape. , I want to escape, far away..."

I finally understand why I still feel heartbroken at Lu Pei when I put an end to Baihu's obsession!

Because I don't want to, I really don't want to!
After talking for a long time, my heart was sour, but my eyes were dry. I faced this expert directly, and my mind was very clear. He would not appear here for no reason. Maybe it was to enlighten me, or he was What unknown gods will ask me any questions.

If I say, I let go completely, or I really see through everything, then maybe that is the standard answer.

Every gentleman who walks the path of yin and yang, in the end, probably pursues this.

But I want to be honest, this is also my original character. I used to hate death the most. I thought it was the most useless and useless approach. But when I was pushed into a desperate situation, I actually compromised with myself. How extreme am I? Alone, I dared to kill myself.

I found that at this moment, I really saw a lot of things. Since I am not afraid of death, why don't I dare to face my life directly.

"Sorry, maybe I was wrong..."

Looking at the expert, I slowly lowered my head, my eyes were so dry, but I really wanted to cry, "This is my love disaster, people eat five grains, you must know all kinds of flavors, why I will not understand until after I die Only when you have all the emotions can you see your own mistakes."

There was a cool liquid dripping from the tip of the nose. When I looked up, it was raining from the sky, and it fell into the river. The water splashed lightly and rippled——

He stood still, "If you were given a chance to do it all over again, and you deal with it with your heart that has experienced all kinds of emotions, what would you do?"

"I can……"

I looked at the river in a daze, and smiled slightly, "I will knock on my husband's door and tell him that no matter what happens, I will live and die with him, and I will not leave him alone In the world, I will not leave him dejected in a dark room, I will hold his hand, give him all my encouragement, I will let him see clearly in my heart, how beautiful it is to love each other, why should we hurt each other, Obviously, I can..."

It's raining a little bit harder.

With a 'bang~', he propped up an oil-paper umbrella. I have to say, his umbrella appeared suddenly, that's all, I'm in such a bad mood and he only supports himself? !
Seeing that I was a little stunned, he seemed indifferent, and gestured with his chin, "Do you have any hatred?"

I sniffed and didn't cry, but I still wanted to sniff, the rainwater got into my mouth, it was so salty.

"Have!"

I raised my face against the rain and looked at him, "For me, or for everyone, the most important things are three things, family affection, love, pursuit, family affection and love are the inner help and help for me to enrich myself." Those who support me to realize my dream, what I hate the most is this injustice! Why does he force me to make a choice between these three emotions that are obviously clinging to each other!"

The expert nodded slightly, "So, do you regret it?"

I sneered, "You asked me this question, even if I died, I committed suicide to escape, but I still have no regrets, I, Xue Baosi, have come all the way to enlightenment, even if I did something wrong, after that Even if my body is completely yin, I am still working hard, if I don't die, I will continue!"

He smiled, "You mean, this has never been a multiple-choice question for you, right?"

it's wired.

The rain obviously poured on his face, but his hair and clothes were not wet.

My eyes fell on the small splashes in the river that were hit by raindrops, "Well, you have asked me, of course not, but expert, you said you are not a god, but you seem to have seen everything, So can I ask you a question?"

"Okay."

I breathed a sigh of relief, turned to look at him and smiled, "Your mother and your wife fell into the river, who do you want to save?"

He suddenly couldn't stop laughing, "Should I blame you for being rude?"

I was a little puzzled, but the rain was a little lighter at this time, "Why are you blaming me? It's my question. You can't answer it. Many people can't understand this multiple-choice question. Before I It seems that the logic does not make sense at all, now, I just want to know your answer."

Aren't you trying to scale me up?

At the very least, let me understand something.

He cleared his throat and looked at the river with a smile on his lips, "Well, let me change the parties to your question a little bit, and make four, one god, one monk, one Taoist priest, and one mortal. If there are two A person fell into the river in front of you at the same time, and the god passed by, who do you think he will save?"

I smiled lightly, "God can save both of them, as long as he waved his sleeves, these two people can go ashore."

Simple, isn't it.

He continued to speak without expression, "The monk is passing by."

I frowned slightly, "What kind of monk?"

"The monk who sees through everything, but these two people are close relatives of the monk. Oh, the premise is that this monk is not very good at swimming. If he goes down, he may also die."

His voice was soft, but I pondered a little, and after a while, I said, "The monk will chant scriptures on the shore to save his two most important people, because he has seen through everything, so naturally, he takes life and death lightly. His mission is to He wants to save more people, so he has to live to save more people from the sea of ​​suffering, all beings are equal in his eyes."

After hearing my answer, he still didn't respond, "A Taoist priest is passing by. The situation of a Taoist priest is similar to that of a monk. He also sees through everything, but he can't swim very well. But the water is his two most important people. What should he do?" manage?"

"Taoist priest……"

The mind broadened again, "The mission of a Taoist priest is to maintain the balance of yin and yang, and he cannot die. For the sake of more people, he is clear about his mission, so he will not save anyone. If these two people drown in front of him, then He will set up an altar to help souls die, and if wronged souls do evil, they will be wiped out by him."

"it is good."

He nodded, "The last one is a human, and he can't swim. What do you think he will do."

"he……"

I was thinking hard, but I couldn't get the answer. People who can't see through everything are entangled, painful, and torture themselves all the time.

"He might jump and die together."

I shook my head, "No, even if he doesn't die, if anyone is saved, he will live in pain and self-blame for the rest of his life, life is worse than death."

"So, the only people suffering here are people."

He turned to look at me, "The root cause of the pain is the feelings you need to understand. This is not a multiple-choice question, but a question that requires you to see through human nature. Do you understand?"

I met his eyes and raised my hand to my chest in a daze, "Fan Xin, it's Fan Xin."

He raised his lips slightly, "There are two strokes in the character "herringbone", one is blood, and the other is flesh, so people are born out of love and hurt because of love. As far as your question is concerned, it is not about choice. I will return the question to you." You, let me ask, what is the most important thing in human nature! How can we not continue to suffer?!"

I suddenly felt dazed, "I have a clear conscience!!"

Taking a deep breath, "The reason why I suffer is because I have an ordinary heart, which is also the original heart of a human being. Being a human is nothing more than what you choose. The most important thing is to have a clear conscience. For heaven, earth, and parents, Do the right thing! Then have nothing to fear!"

He smiled and nodded, "I just like your temper, aggressive, but happy."

I laughed too, my viscera are all relaxed, I have seen through the first step, and it was extremely painful in the multiple-choice questions between Lu Er and Daoxing. I said that I would choose Lu Er, but I couldn’t make up my mind until I Thinking of persistence in the box, I can fight with the sky and the earth, and I want to protect my happiness.

The choice later was very clear. Even if I didn’t regret it, it was true that I was annoyed and hated in my heart. Now, I understand that it’s just because I have an ordinary heart. I have to accept joy, anger, sorrow, joy and fear All I have to do is formalize myself, accept myself, and cherish myself.

Don't hate yourself.

I looked at the river, "I understand why I'm in pain, but I can't accept myself, so I do things that hurt myself, I'm just a mortal."

"Then when you think about it now, do you think any steps were wrong?"

I shook my head and looked at him firmly, "Except for the last death, I didn't feel that I was going wrong in all the roads ahead..."

Seeing the smile in his eyes, I raised my breath, "The world is suffering, and everything is my calamity. I am alive and will be saved, and I will die without complaint or regret."

The rain stopped suddenly——

I watched in a daze as the umbrella in the expert's hand disappeared together, touched my clothes, it was still dry.

"Why did it stop?"

The expert let out a oops and sat back to the position just now and continued to pick up the fishing rod, "What do you think?"

I was stunned again, what, what is this?
Why did he come out after a while, and looked around, "Where is this? Why is it still raining? After it rained, my face was wet, but why weren't my clothes wet..."

"You still don't understand?"

He looked at me leisurely, "This is your heart."

"My heart?"

I touched the remaining rainwater that fell on my face just now, "Then these are...my tears?"

Looked up at the sky, so I cried not tears from my eyes but rain?

Turning to look at the river again, "I cried all this?!"

God!
My 24 years of life cried out a big river with wide waves!

There was a feeling of horror in an instant. As soon as this feeling came out, there was still some wind. He frowned and looked at me, "Don't fluctuate so much... Calm down..."

I didn't care about this god-man, and turned my head to look at the flowers, plants and trees beside me, "It's not like this in my heart, I dreamed that my heart was all loess, very dry..."

He didn't pick up on it, and just left me time to digest it by myself. I patted my head, "I'm the one who cried and the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant here? I've become more emotional, so my heart isn't full of loess?"

Damn, I was so stupid, I thought of the scene when I was a child, suddenly I saw a figure from under a tree, I stepped forward a few steps in surprise, the tree seemed to open a curtain, and I saw a threesome The four-year-old child is desperately trying to get into a chicken coop, and the old man behind is shouting loudly, "Sibao! Come out! It won't lay any eggs in the bucket!!"

His eyes slowly opened wide, the child was me, the old man, my great-grandmother.

The picture seemed to flow with my thoughts, and in the next second, it became the scene of the seven or eight-year-old me leaning on my face and listening to my grandma telling a story drowsily.

It's very real, like a fast-forward movie I made, I watched myself grow up a little bit, and I watched myself turn my face away from Lu Pei's millet porridge and spit——

"puff."

The tall man actually chuckled, "You were really interesting when you were young."

I looked back at him, he was sitting by the river with his back to me, and he didn't turn his face back, why did he know everything I saw, didn't think too much, looked at the picture again, I grew up quickly, Eyes and smiles seem so clear——

When I came to Bincheng, there were even pictures of going to school. As long as I calmed down a little, I could see the details.

Until I saw myself in that warehouse, I huddled in the pile of cardboard boxes and my eyes were blurred. I deliberately looked at this place very carefully. A car broke into the door. That week, the lunatic really stood on the railing. I was very surprised to see it. Lu Pei shouted, but Lu Pei ran straight towards me, he hugged my shoulder and called my name, but I touched his face like a blind man...

It rained again.

I covered my mouth and watched the lunatic jump head down that week, but Lu Pei comforted me nervously in a low voice. He hugged me and ran into the car, his face was full of anxiety, I was dazed, Eyes half-opened and half-closed, and Uncle Lei, Uncle Lei indeed greeted me and said a few words to me, and then got into the car——

Sniffing, I waved my hand to stop the scene.

"Why don't you continue?"

I don't want to talk to him, can I show you what happened later!
After a while, the rain finally stopped.

I turned around in a daze, took a few steps and sat beside him, staring at the river in a daze.

After a while, he finally uttered a sentence, "Master, when will I start my journey?"

(End of this chapter)