The last Onmyoji

Chapter 68 The Past 1
My father's answer was unexpected, but also unexpected. From my father's reaction after waking up today, I can know that it is not surprising to my father that my mother will become a paper doll. .

Maybe even when he woke up, he knew what he used to wake up.

He wasn't talking, and I didn't ask, but I knew that everything would have an answer tonight. Since my father called me out at night, as my father, he should confess the truth to his son.

The peach garden in Houshan is the peach garden of Grandpa Seven. The children in the mountain village do not like romance like the people in the city. They think that the peach garden is the most beautiful when the peach blossoms are in full bloom. In our childhood eyes, no matter how beautiful the peach blossom is, it cannot compare. The trees are full of strong peaches, some are crispy and delicious, some are soft, but without exception they are all sweet and delicious.

We will even find the biggest peach on the tree in the peach orchard, and make it the peach king, and then a group of people will start a duel to choose the most powerful one, and make it the monkey king. Only the monkey king can eat the biggest peach , the rest of us can only watch him eat with relish, and then he will deliberately make a really sweet expression, let us eat other little peaches, and feel inferior.

Thinking about it now, we were not the Monkey King at that time, but the funny ones invited by the monkeys, but the happy times of the funny ones when we were young have passed away.The Monkey King who was the strongest back then has now married a wife and had children.And I am already half a head taller than my father.

As soon as we arrived at Houshan Taoyuan, the black dog that would chase us all over the yard when we came to steal peaches when we were young barked a few times, but the sound was not as clear and loud as before, and even that dog was already dead.

Seventh Grandpa heard the dog barking, came out with a lantern, and said, "Who is it?!"

"Seventh Grandpa, it's me. It's too hot to sleep at night. Come out to get some air." I hurriedly told him that if he saw our grandpa holding a paper doll for burial in the middle of the night, the old man's heart would probably be hurt. no.

"There are a lot of mosquitoes, do you want mosquito coils?" Seventh Grandpa asked me.

"No, go to bed early, I'll just turn around and go back." After I finished speaking, Seventh Grandpa walked back with his back bent and the lantern in hand.

The two of us walked around Taoyuan. In a secluded place, my father gently put "mother" on the ground with gentle movements. Then he took out the erhu on his back. My father has an erhu. I'm so big that I don't even know it.

"It's been more than 20 years, and I just remembered that I haven't given you a name. Is it too late to give you a name now? You like mahogany and wood, so Muzi Li, you have a good temperament. You can tell that it is a golden branch and a jade leaf, I have no education, so don’t blame me if it sounds ugly, just call me Li Jinzhi.” The father put the erhu beside his mother, and said to the mother who was lying on the ground.

After speaking, he struck a match, his hands trembling slightly, and finally the flames slowly fell on the face of the picturesque old lady.

Quickly ignites.The paper figurine was swallowed by the flames in the blink of an eye, and it was his father's erhu that was swallowed by the flames at the same time.

The imperial concubine was drunk that night, and it really became a swan song.

An indescribable feeling spread in my heart, I don't know if it was sadness or something else, there were no tears, only bitterness and anxiety in my heart.But I don't know where the anxiety comes from.

I took out the suicide note my mother left to my father from my pocket. I hesitated for a day whether to give it to him, but finally I gave it. My father is much stronger than I imagined.

"Dad, this is the last word Mom gave you." I said to him.

He took it, smiled slightly, didn't look at it, and threw it directly into the fire, saying: "I don't need to look, I know what she wants to say to me, it's nothing more than what she owes me, and she gave it back to me. More blame me for making decisions for her on my own, right?"

I was stunned for a moment, I didn't know what to say, how happy it is that people can understand each other like father and mother and live an ordinary life in a lifetime?
The paper figurine burned very quickly, quickly turning into a pile of ashes.The two of us just watched like this, and when it finally burned out, my father said: "Xiao Fan, kowtow to your mother."

I knelt down and solemnly kowtowed three times.

"Xiao Fan, don't blame your mother, she cares about you more than anyone else." My father whispered in my ear.

Enduring the tears all night, when my father said these words, the embankment burst instantly. I, Lin Xiaofan, am not hard-hearted, let alone have no feelings for my mother. It is because I still can't tell the difference. Is it a paper figurine or my old lady!

After everything was done, our father and I sat in place, looking at the dots of stars in the sky. If everything before was a nightmare, now I woke up from the dream, and everything seemed to be over, but I was so disappointed. I always feel that when I get home, there will still be a quiet and beautiful old lady sitting in my father's room.

A person stays quietly by your side, you don't care.

When she really left, she was so uneasy, feeling that something was missing in her life.

"More than 20 years ago, I was young at that time, and young people at that time did not have any entertainment activities. Before I left Linjiazhuang, I had the same idea with you, that is, I always wanted to go out of the mountains to venture out. I don’t even know whether I’m the Kuomintang or the Communist Party, and I’ve been criticized a lot, and I don’t have time to control me, and I don’t want to involve me, so I’m let out.”

"It was different from now. During the Cultural Revolution, it was chaotic, but it was definitely not as panic-stricken as it really was. But the poverty at that time was real, and it was quite poor. Today's young people, go out I can work part-time and work hard, but at that time, it was difficult to find a job to eat. Catch the tail of the bourgeoisie, where are there shops and factories? I want to save face, and I refuse to join the fleeing team to beg for food. I always feel that I have a hand It’s not a good idea for a man with feet to go begging.”

"Later, by chance, I joined an opera troupe and learned how to play the erhu from an old man. I didn't say anything and fell in love with the erhu when I saw the old man's posture and feeling when playing the erhu. The main purpose at that time was It's to fill the stomach."

"The troupe at that time was still a small troupe, and it was struggling. If someone really wanted to find fault, it could even be divided into the four olds, old culture, old ideas, old customs, and old habits. So the troupe at that time had no There is no fee, and the place where I run is also a rural performance, no money is charged, only some dry food from the villagers, just to fill their stomachs."

"I also met your old lady at that time. You should be able to see that she is a lady of every family. That's not bad. Her ancestors checked it out and even worked as a Daoist in Henan. Her family was quite well-off in the past. Because of this, they were criticized very badly at that time, your grandfather and your mother's father couldn't stand the torture and committed suicide at that time."

"The first time I saw your old lady was after a performance in the opera troupe. At that time, there was no place to live, and I used firewood to build a tent. I made do with it for one night. I saw your old lady when I was urgent to urinate at night, and she was all dirty. One of them hid behind a tree and peeked at me. I trembled in fright and lifted up my pants. I went forward and grabbed her who was about to run away."

"That night, the theater troupe ran away overnight because of pity for her. She was scolded very badly because of her poor family background, and because of her appearance, she was harmed by the production team leader."

"We saved her."

"Other opera troupes in Henan all sing Henan Opera. We used to sing this too. Every place has its own opera, Huangmei Opera, Errenzhuan, Peking Opera, Yue Tune and so on. After your mother joined us, she actually put Our opera troupe has sung live. Because of her family before, she is a young lady who likes Peking opera and can sing a few paragraphs. She is tall, handsome and sweet. Every time she performs, she takes pride in her. We You can always collect some food and come back.”

"At that time, apart from the fact that I picked her up, there was nothing lingering. I was in the troupe, and I was just learning to play the erhu. I couldn't get on the stage, so I could only be regarded as a handyman. But she suddenly became The top card is the same, and the person she liked at the time was not me, but another young student in the troupe. The young man was fair and good-looking. In your terms, he was very handsome. She didn't even notice I silently like her."

"Although we have been trying our best to hide her village, how far can the troupe go? Later, when performing in a place, we met the production team leader who abused her at that time. He humiliated her in front of everyone. Call her a feudal cancer, a prostitute, and slap her."

"I happened to be sick that night and was not there, so I slept in the shed. This is a fact, and it's not an excuse for myself. When I found out, she hanged herself on the stage, and she didn't close her eyes when she died."

"I heard people say that she was raped behind the stage by the production team leader that night, and the fair-looking guy she liked didn't say a word."

"She didn't close her eyes when she died."

(End of this chapter)