The last Onmyoji

Chapter 16 Let go of the obsession
Xu Lin lived here. According to him, a person from Fangwai must have a beginning and an end when doing a thing. He will not leave Linjiazhuang until he has disposed of the red coffin.Of course, he won't live in my house. After Lin Sanshui's incident, the original atheist party member believes in ghosts and ghosts. He can't wait to enshrine Xu Lin, plus Lin Sanshui's hardware facilities It is indeed much better than my family, so Xu Lin lived in his house.

And I was in charge of refueling the ever-burning lanterns in the ancestral hall. This incident reminded me of the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, which I was obsessed with, in which Zhuge Kongming used the ever-burning lantern to continue his life, but was kicked by Wei Yan, which ended the legend of Zhuge Kongming. like life.

So I really took care of this long light, because it looks like a dick.

Since then, Grandpa’s seventh day has really brought peace to the world. On the morning of the seventh day, I opened the door of the yard, and there were many villagers standing outside the door. Grandpa, youngest Lin, is he back?"

Although the villagers are watching the fun, there are also people who really care about my family. I reported everyone’s safety, and I also admire Xu Lin very much in my heart. Regardless of whether I believe in ghosts and gods or not, Deng Weiren said, whether it is Black cat and white cat are good cats as long as they catch mice.

I went out and walked around, feeling refreshed, grandpa is no longer noisy, my family has nothing to do, give me time, let me forget that three years in college I didn’t say anything but brought me endless A woman in pain, completely integrated into the life of the mountain village, I am still an ordinary person.

Marry a wife and have children, spend the rest of your life.

When I got home, my father had already packed everything up. He was going to give Fengshui master Xu Lin the money for this ceremony. In the past, but he didn't want to live or die, he said that this matter is really not a good deal, at least seven or seven or 1000 days later, no matter how bad it is, it will have to pass this every seventh day, and he can only accept it after making sure that grandpa doesn't come to make trouble.

And the result of my father's discussion with me is that the 1000 yuan is not a big amount for such an extraterrestrial expert. If you really wait until 49 days to give it, it will not be a problem. Dare I be busy? 49 yuan in 1000 days?My buddy still pays 1000 yuan a month.

As soon as the money was sent over, the matter here was considered real. Xu Lin said that he would stay for 49 days. When I returned home after school, my father said to me: "Mr. Your Uncle Sanshui went to the town to invite someone. In 49 days, he will come to arrange matters here."

All of a sudden, the days became dull, and I met Wu Mengke a few times on the road, she kept her head down and didn't even say hello, sometimes I dared to greet her, but she also dealt with her life absent-mindedly.Logically speaking, Lin Xiaoyao can see the hotness in my eyes when I look at her, and she shouldn't be able to see it when she comes here.

In fact, I can't distinguish my feelings for this woman. Is it really a morbid liking?Or fill in my lack of maternal love when I was young, my sustenance to myself, or pity this beautiful but rough woman?I didn't know all this, and I never regretted that time I didn't make up my mind to push her to end her virgin career of more than 20 years.

But I know that between the two of us, we can no longer return to the natural neighborhood relationship we used to have, and the beautiful time of that night has become the biggest estrangement between the two of us.

Because of this, I even avoided Lin Xiaoyao.

If it was because I couldn't accept the huge dark spots on her face before, now I can't face their mother and daughter.

But there are some things that can’t be hidden by hiding, especially for Lin Xiaoyao, a persistent woman. After school this day, he stopped me at the school gate, stared at the sandals on my feet and said: "Little Brother Fan, why don't you wear the pair of shoes I gave you?"

That pair of shoes is in my closet. The most difficult part is the sole, which is completely sewn with cloth layer by layer. It takes a lot of effort. He hid aside and said: "It's hot now, wear it to cover your feet, and wear it when it cools down."

Lin Xiaoyao groaned, looked at me and didn't speak, and I didn't even dare to look at her. Looking at her eyes, I felt a deep sense of guilt, not just because of Wu Miaoke, but more What is more, I blame myself for judging by appearances.

"Brother Xiaofan, do you hate me?" She asked me.

"It's nothing, don't think too much, go home and eat." After finishing speaking, I was going home with the students' homework.

Lin Xiaoyao stamped her feet angrily behind my back, I can even imagine the disappointed expression on her face, but what can I do?It is impossible for me to accept her, so why delay her?
"Lin Xiaofan!" She called me loudly, her voice was out of breath.

I finally stood still, and when I turned around, she rushed towards me like flying, hugging me tightly, tearing her nose and tears, crying heartbreakingly.

My whole body was stiff, I didn't push her away, and I didn't hug her, even though the villagers passing by pointed at us.

In the end, she bit my shoulder fiercely, but I still didn't move. She bit it for a long time and cried even harder.

"Okay, little demon, it's getting late, you should go back." I said.

She still cries.

Until the end, she stared at me and said: "You don't like me, from childhood to adulthood, why did you treat me so well?"

I am speechless.

How should I answer that Lin Xiaoyao's so-called being nice to her is only because I am the only one who dares to play with her, and it is only because I stand in front of her when other children are bullying her?
She is a poor child.An ordinary act, even when she was a child, made her fall in love with me deeply.

I can't answer her.You can't lie to her, let alone tell the truth, who knows what stupid things she will do if she is paranoid.

She said: "Brother Xiaofan, if you're okay, go see my mother." After finishing speaking, she straightened her clothes, wiped away her tears and turned around to leave. Before leaving, she even smiled at me.

I don't know why, when I saw her face, I felt a sudden pain in the deepest part of my heart.

Back then on campus, I regarded her as the only one in my life. When she said goodbye to me, I also squeezed a smile on her face and turned away.

But only I can understand the unspeakable emptiness deep in my heart.

I seem to have an extra pair of eyes.You can see Lin Xiaoyao's heart with blood.

A beautiful woman who can be dumped by a man who drives a Poussin for a flat.

And an ugly woman who really loves you since childhood.

Lin Xiaofan, what do you choose? ——In the bottom of my heart, I asked myself a question.

For the first time, I whispered: "Xiao Yao."

If some people don't want to hear you call her, they won't turn back even if they use the horn.

Some people are waiting for your call, and can even hear your whisper.

Lin Xiaoyao stopped immediately and stared at me blankly.

"Give me time." I smiled at her.

She was instantly ecstatic.

And at this moment, I feel relaxed all over my body.

Some obsessions, just let go.

Saying goodbye to Lin Xiaoyao, I went to the ancestral hall to add lamp oil, checked the doors and windows, and was afraid that the night wind would blow out the ever-burning lamp that Xu Lin had arranged, because before I hugged Lin Xiaoyao, the feudal villagers were discussing, I didn't want to hear them gossip, so I stayed in the ancestral hall, and even wiped my ancestor's spirit card by the way.

Looking at the red coffin that scared even Xu Lin, I was not so scared.

No matter what kind of existence you are after death, when you are alive, you are all alone, full of emotions and desires.

I stayed until it was dark before I dared to go home by groping the path. When I entered the living room, I found that my grandmother, who was not in good health recently, was sitting at the dining table, my father was there smoking a pipe, and my second uncle was watching with a smile. I.

My heart sank, and I wanted to scold my mother. What happened at the school gate just now must have reached the ears of my family.

I squeezed a smiley face out and said: "Grandma, you can eat first, and you don't have to wait for me in the future."

Grandma snorted, and said, "Xiaofan, Grandma knows that there is a generation gap between us, but grandma will leave it here. Lin Xiaoyao will definitely not do it. Let's not say that Wu Miao is a doomed future. What about Lin Xiaoyao?" Looks? Do you know what other people say about her? The black pig is reincarnated! My Lin family only has such a college student, if you marry this, you are not afraid that you will lose your father's family?"

"Mom, don't say that about others." Father frowned while smoking a cigarette.

I took the steamed bun, and I was so embarrassed that I didn't know how to explain it to my grandma, because what she said was the truth, if I married Lin Xiaoyao, what would the neighbors say about me? ——Choose one after another, isn’t it because Lin Sanshui is the village head and rich?
Father just stopped grandma and stopped talking, his expression had already betrayed his attitude, and he didn't approve of this matter.

Grandma didn't say anything after that, in short, the meal didn't give me any good looks, and I ate the meal in a bad way, and I managed to convince myself to accept Lin Xiaoyao.

However, what should I do under the pressure at this time?
After all, I am not the hero in the novel, with unparalleled strength and courage.

My name is Lin Xiaofan, and I am an ordinary person.

(End of this chapter)