Kunming, who will you forget tonight

Chapter 30 Needs to Release

All my pretense of strength completely collapsed at this moment, I dare not think about the consequences of my mother knowing this, I am afraid to hear her disappointed cursing, and her heartbroken voice.

I didn't go home that afternoon, but sat in a daze in a small square near Repulse Bay. I stubbornly sat there from afternoon to night until night fell... When I touched the cigarette case with my hands, I found that there was no smoke in it. At that moment, my mood fell to a new low.

Someone in front of me quietly handed a cigarette to me. I froze for a moment, then raised my head, and saw the "lame beggar" who had met once before standing in front of me. He was still so unkempt and embarrassed Hu stubble gave people a vicissitudes of life. He was carrying a guitar bag, and said with a friendly smile on his face: "I see you have been sitting here for a long time."

I took the cigarette, laughed at myself, and didn't know what to say.

He took off the guitar bag and hugged it in his arms, sat beside me and asked, "What's the matter? Is there anything you can't think about?"

I said depressedly: "I was expelled from the school, and I will be graduating in more than two months, but I was expelled from the school at this time. My college is over, and my life is over."

"Wrong." With a cigarette in his mouth, he said with his legs crossed: "The end of college does not mean the end of life. I was expelled from the Central Conservatory of Music. Haha, don't I still live in a free and easy way now?"

I turned my head and looked at him with incredible eyes and asked, "Are you from the Central Conservatory of Music?"

"It used to be." Speaking of these, he didn't show any sadness on his face, "Later I was expelled from the academy."

"Why?" I looked at him and asked, "Why don't you cherish your admission to such a good school? How many people in the world want to go to the Central Conservatory of Music? If I'm not wrong, the Central Conservatory of Music is the most important school in China. I really feel sorry for you, you didn't make it to graduation from such an awesome music school."

"There is nothing to regret." He leaned back in his chair and took a puff of a cigarette. "Eight years ago, when I was a junior, I had a quarrel with my tutor, because he said that the works I created were nonsense and could not be considered elegant. I said he doesn't understand music, and being a professor at the Central Conservatory of Music is a waste of fame... We quarreled fiercely, and then I got impulsive and tore his creations to pieces. He hit me, and I fought back... I was fired just like that.” Speaking of this, he especially emphasized, “But I don’t regret it, because I don’t think that old man can continue to teach me. Afterwards, I thought about it for a long time. He has his style. There is my pursuit, there is no right or wrong between us, but I continue to study with him, it can only obliterate my personality, so it is good that I am expelled. Life is like this, we are always unconsciously There are many choices to be made in life, and some choices have nothing to do with right or wrong, as long as you don’t regret it in retrospect, it’s enough.”

I took a deep breath and said in a low voice, "Yes, there are always trade-offs and choices."

"I don't know why you were expelled from the school. Just ask yourself, do you regret this step?"

"No regrets."

"By the way!" He pushed me and said, "It's rare to be free and easy in life, as long as you don't regret it, I know you must have a guitar too, take it out and let's have a good time tonight, in this small square, Release the depression in your heart, dare you?"

I looked at him and asked, "Why not? Whoever doesn't sing happy tonight is the grandson. You fucking wait for me here. I'll be back soon." The Repulse Bay community is very close, and I returned home a few minutes later. Su Yubing was cleaning the floor, and I didn't care about changing my shoes, so I rushed directly to my room.Behind him, Su Yubing shouted loudly: "Qiu Han, where have you been? Why haven't you turned on the phone, you..."

When she said this, I rushed out of my bedroom with the guitar in my arms, and said to Su Yubing without looking back: "Don't worry about me, I'm fine." After I finished speaking, I ran out of the house again.

Returning to the square again, the "lame beggar" had already set up the stereo, and was waiting for me with a cigarette in his mouth and a guitar in his arms. I came back to him panting, and he handed me another audio cable. Said to me: "Take a breath first, I will send you a song."

As he said, he threw the cigarette in his hand on the ground and extinguished it with his foot. After lightly strumming the strings, a dense rhythm came. I never thought that he would give me the old song "Believe in Yourself" by the Zero Band. He The voice is sonorous and powerful, especially in the climax part, the instant explosive power is particularly strong, I flicked the guitar to dub him, at the end of the song, half of the people in the small square were attracted, and the applause was unusually warm, which is what he should have done. Got it.

At the end of the song, he looked at me and said, "There are too many things restricting your heart. Putting all these aside, you will find that there is no big deal. Life is more than what you see in front of you."

Yes, there are too many constraints on me, especially my mother's expectations of me. At this moment, how much I wish my mother could say to me: life is more than just the mess in front of me.

I couldn't help plucking the strings, and once again sang the old song by Xu Wei, "Life is more than just what's in front of me". I played the main melody, and he cooperated with me. And poetry and distant fields...

In the crowd, I saw Su Yubing, she looked at me without blinking, when the song was coming to an end. "The Lame Beggar" suddenly plucked the strings quickly, and the style of the song instantly changed to Wang Feng's "Life in Bloom". Is there anyone who can play guitar who can't play this song?

After he sang the first stanza, I sang the second stanza. In the climax, we both screamed heartbreakingly together: "I want a life in full bloom; it's like standing on the top of a rainbow; it's like walking through the bright The galaxy; with power beyond the ordinary...

In the crowd, I don’t know who hummed along first, and finally dozens of people sang together loudly, releasing the most repressed part in their hearts, and the emotions of the audience were ignited. This feeling is really good. Fully immersed in the music, we release our inner depression to our heart's content. At this moment, time and place are no longer important. All we have to do is two words: release.

Su Yubing stood in the crowd covering her mouth with her hands, tears rolled down her cheeks, and I was already moved to tears. The climax of this song was sung several times until I felt my voice was hoarse. Don't move... I hugged the "crime beggar", and the feeling at this moment can only be described in four words: it's too late to meet each other!
It was that night that I learned his name, Ah Zhe.

There were hundreds of dollars in change in the guitar bag. A Zhe grabbed several and stuffed them into my guitar bag and said, "Don't look down on these money. This is not a handout from passers-by. This is your recognition and encouragement."

I didn't reject Ah Zhe, and said with a smile, "Is the sense of identity right?"

Ah Zhe was stunned for a moment, and after two or three seconds, he came back to his senses and nodded and said: "Yes, this is the sense of identity, identity with our music, no big stage, no high appearance fee, but this does not affect our pursuit of music .”

Ah Zhe and I left contact information with each other, and made an appointment to sing together when we had the opportunity. I like this feeling so much.

When I went back, I was walking with my guitar on the sidewalk, Su Yubing followed me, a bicycle passed behind us, I said to Su Yubing: "Let's change, you come inside."

"Why?" Su Yubing was a little puzzled, "You walked well, why did you change positions?"

"The cyclists are all near the motorway. It's a black light. Thanks to being hit by someone! I'm rough and thick, and you're still wearing high heels. Come inside."

Su Yubing's eyes were moved, she walked to the inside silently, and said in a low voice: "You have a melancholy aura when you sing."

"Is there?" I put my hands in the pockets of my jeans and said with a smile: "After reading my novels, you will find that my words still have a melancholic temperament."

Su Yubing leaned towards me, took my arm actively, leaned her head on my shoulder and said, "Lend me your shoulder for a few minutes, I want to cry."

I was silent, and the two of them walked silently along the sidewalk in the direction of Repulse Bay.

When I got home, there were still a few big footprints on the ground that I had just stepped on with my shoes on. There was also a basin filled with water in the center of the living room, and a small piece of rag was floating in the water.I knelt down to wash the rag and wipe the footprints on the ground, but Su Yubing took a step ahead and said to me: "Go and put the guitar away, how do you wipe the floor with this big guy on your back? It's not good if it's broken, it's still me bring it on."

I didn't pretend to reject Su Yubing. We got to know each other these days, and we should be polite when we should be polite, and there is no need to pretend to keep a distance when it is not important.I went back to the bedroom and hung the guitar on the wall, took out my phone and turned it on, and there were dozens of missed call reminders, the most of which were from my mother, followed by Xiyan, slap, and finally Su Yubing.

It seems that my mother knows that I was expelled from the school. What I have to face is to face it after all. I dialed my mother's phone with a complicated mood. I dare not go to see what will happen next. think……

(End of this chapter)