write our ending together

Chapter 18 Can't Survive Homecoming, Can't Escape The Boy

Part1
Su Yi finally took the initiative to contact her, which saved her precarious friendship.As soon as she walked into the appointed tea restaurant, Qing Wan couldn't help complaining, "I thought you had forgotten me."

"How could it be? I've forgotten everything about Baozi, and I won't forget you either." Su Yi was still as casual as ever.Qing Wan had a sore nose, and she didn't want to speak sullenly.

Su Yi glanced at her and asked, "Could it be the wrong time for me to look for you?"

"Why did you ask so?"

"Your eyes are very swollen. I won't be narcissistic and think that it's because you miss me."

Qing Wan rubbed her eyes, today her eyes hurt and she came out without makeup on, "I suddenly feel that God loves to tease people, some things and some people, if they don't show up, it's all there, once they show up, it's a mess that can't be cleaned up. "

"So you always came to me a few days ago, and you want to tell me a lot, right?"

"Yes, the only good friend who calls me is you."

"Sounds so pitiful." Su Yi said, "Hurry up, if you want to talk to me, please tell me."

Qingwan told everything that happened recently, including the unsuccessful divorce with Rusheng.

Su Yi asked, "Then do you want to start over with Fan Rusheng?"

Light night silence.

"Don't forget, you and Tang Peng are still flirting." Su Yi adjusted the coffee in the cup, "Did you know? I used to hate pretty girls, they would pull their eyes because of their looks Go to the sky. But you are different, you are the only beautiful woman among my friends, in my eyes, you have always been a kind girl, no matter how many suitors you have, you will never show off to others. But now you have trapped yourself Who can be blamed for the dilemma? If you couldn't give up Fan Rusheng back then, you shouldn't have started with Baozi."

Qingwan froze for a moment, and then said, "I really didn't mean it, I thought I could let go of the past, but every time Rusheng appeared in front of me, all my emotions collapsed. I hate this too Own."

"Fan Rusheng is such a troublesome man." Remembering that what he said just now was a bit heavy, Su Yi sighed, "Maybe it's because I played with Baozi since we were young, so I'm on his side. Feelings are such a thing, It's really hard for outsiders to say anything. Qingwan, don't cry anymore, your eyes will be ugly if you cry again... Forget it, no matter what decision you make, I will support you. Even if you still choose to go back To be with Fan Rusheng is also predestined, who told you to love him so badly from the beginning? Hmph, as for Baozi, he will never lack a woman anyway, it's just a moment of sadness, so he won't lose love so badly."

"Actually... I didn't say I would go back to him." She said sullenly.

"Don't you want to?"

"Some things can't be done just because you want to, for example, I don't want to love him now, but the real emotion is that I still love him very much." Qingwan said wearily, "I really don't want to hurt anyone .”

"Then, don't force yourself, let nature take its course."

Qing Wan laughed, "From your tone of voice at first, I thought you were angry with me. You are fighting for Tang Peng!"

Su Yi also smiled, "Yes, that was my mistake. These days I finally figured it out, there are many things in this world that are more important than love. For example, the friendship between us. From today on, I stand On your side, whoever you are with, I support you."

Qingwan felt warm in her heart, and said emotionally, "Xiaoyi, you are so kind."

There was a bitter smile on the corner of Su Yi's mouth, "Fool."

Part2
The two good friends haven't seen each other for a long time, so naturally they have a lot to talk about. For example, what Su Yi saw and heard when she was traveling, she said that she really met the legendary "Twilight Love" and witnessed a 70-plus A love story between a granny and a grandfather.There are also wedding customs in various places, which gives her the feeling of one word - "tired". Even though the expression on the bride's face is very happy, she still has no desire to get married at all.

The most worth mentioning is that she met a girl on the train back, and the two chatted and talked about the story of the girl's first love.

When the girl was 12 years old, she fell in love with her brother next door who was one year older than herself, but she was afraid to tell him because of her short hair and masculine appearance. She knew that boys always liked long hair and big eyes. girl.Girls often bullied him on the pretext of being young, and always followed him every day to school, causing a lot of trouble with him, and driving away all the girls around him who were interested in him.Until one day, the boy complained to him, if you do this again, I will ignore you if I can’t find a girlfriend.So the girl decided to be a real girl once, and she took out all the pocket money she had saved at school to buy a black skirt, because their summer school uniform was white, and she thought it would look good with it.

For the effect, she even put a butterfly clip on her head, but when she mustered up the courage to appear in front of the boy, what she got was the boy's surprised eyes, and then laughed out loud, saying "XX, you Did you have a fever today? Why are you dressed like this? It’s so funny." The girl showed a rare embarrassment on her face, and said, "Am I ugly like this?" The child's dress?" The girl who had finally mustered up the courage to confess her love heard such a sentence, and suddenly, a wave of disappointment overflowed her heart.

After returning home, she tore the black dress to shreds, hugged the pillow and cried all night, but the next day she appeared behind the boy as if nothing had happened, looked at his still pretty smiling face, and thought that if she really confessed to him Now, what will be the expression on that forever smiling face?Will you faint on the spot?That was the only time a girl wore a skirt, and it was also the only time a girl liked a boy, but she was rejected before confessing. Since then, the girl has never liked any boy.

Su Yi said, "When I first heard this story, I thought of you. If the girl had been bolder at that time and had taken the initiative to pursue the boy next door, wouldn't it have ended like this, but sometimes you just have to believe it Fate, something seems to have been predestined in the dark. So Qingwan, no matter how you end up with Fan Rusheng, at least you have worked hard to get what you want, and you got it. You are much happier than that girl. "

Qingwan asked, "Then what happened to the girl and boy now?"

"What can I do?" Su Yi shrugged, "The boy has a girlfriend, a very beautiful girl. The girl is still his best friend."

Qingwan didn't speak, Su Yi also fell silent suddenly, both of them finished the cold porridge, until Su Yi suggested to go shopping, the two of them checked out and left, but just as they walked out of the door, Su Yi suddenly stopped He came down and looked angrily at Tang Peng who was not far ahead...and a beautiful woman beside him.

"Damn bun!" Su Yi cursed in a low voice, and before Qingwan could react, she was dragging him to Tang Peng's beautiful woman.

"Rotty bun, why are you hooking up with this vixen again?"

Tang Peng probably didn't expect two people to appear suddenly in front of him, and he didn't react for a while.On the contrary, the beautiful woman who looked like a white-collar beauty was uncharacteristically, and said fiercely, "Mother, you have traveled all over the country, why did you appear here?"

"Who told you I was going on a trip?" Su Yi gave Tang Peng a hard look, "Baozi, you said that, right?"

Tang Pengte looked at her innocently, "This is not a secret that cannot be told."

"Who asked you to tell her about me, don't you know that I hate that dead fox very much!"

"Men, pay attention to your tone, do you think I like to hear about you!"

"I don't like to hear that you are sick!"

Standing by the side, Qing Wan stared at the two of them quarreling like this, she had never seen Su Yi like this before, even when she quarreled with Ru Sheng before, she didn't scold so badly, as if she saw a rival in love .

Cursing and cursing, she turned her eyes to Tang Peng and said, "Baozi, have you forgotten what you promised me! You said you would not associate with her."

Tang Peng had a headache, "Su Yi, let's talk about it another day, don't make noise on the street."

Part3
Today's Su Yi was making trouble unreasonably like a child who hasn't grown up, Qing Wan tried to persuade her, saying: "Xiao Yi, stop arguing, let's go first."

"No!" Su Yi became arrogant, and pulled Qing Wan in front of Tang Peng, "Qing Wan, I want you to break up with him right now!"

For a moment, the atmosphere became extremely stiff. The beauty probably didn't expect her reaction to be so strong, and her arrogance disappeared instantly.

Tang Peng lost his usual smile and looked at her coldly without speaking.

"Xiao Yi." Qing Wan frowned, worried and helpless, pulling her and said, "Stop making trouble, come with me."

"Don't go!" Su Yi shook off her hand, "You are my good friend, just do as I say!"

"I..." Qingwan looked at her in embarrassment.

Until a voice came, "We've never been together formally, why break up?" The three of them looked in surprise, Tang Peng's face was rare cold, "If you want to make trouble, continue, I won't accompany you gone."

Turn around and leave.

"Tang Peng, wait for me." The woman hurriedly called to Tang Peng, thought for a while, walked back and said to Su Yi, "I don't know that you still care about the past so much, I have nothing to do with him at all, today It's just a need for work." After finishing speaking, she left.

Qing Wan was stunned for a while, then looked at Su Yi who was at the side, the expression on Su Yi's face was extremely empty, she looked at her worriedly, and asked: "Xiao Yi, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing." Su Yi said sullenly, "I'm losing my mind, don't talk to me!"

"..."

The two were silent, and finally Su Yi took a deep breath, and she said: "The woman just now is one of the hated women I told you. When I was in the same class, she always showed off because of her beauty. I was so special at that time. Seeing that she was not pleasing to the eye, Baozi actually dated her later. Everyone knew that what she wanted was a boyfriend who would make her more attractive. The woman ran away with a child from a rich family and kicked Baozi. I hate her so much that Baozi swore to ignore her."

"So that's it." Qingwan gave her a weird look, "But the people who get dumped don't mind, why do you care so much?"

"That's because she did something that I'm sorry for!" Su Yi said fiercely, "Chou Qingwan! Are you on my side or on their side!"

"To be honest, you are wrong this time. What do you want me to do with Tang Peng in the future when you said such a serious thing?"

"I was mad just now." Su Yi calmed down a bit, and said, "I'll apologize to Baozi when I find some time."

"It's better not to apologize for some things." She said, "But it's okay, let me know that he doesn't regard me as a formal girlfriend, Xiaoyi, do you think you indirectly helped me solve a problem?" problem?"

"I don't know." Su Yi looked at the sky, "I just know that I'm not in the mood to go shopping now and want to go home."

"Okay, then I'll accompany you back." Qing Wan said, "It's just a matter of time to meet my uncle and aunt. I haven't been there for a long time."

"You also said that when I came back, my mother kept nagging me. Qingwan is more filial than your own daughter. She will visit us once a week. Every time she comes, she not only brings a lot of delicious food made by herself, When we were chatting, it made us so happy that we had such a daughter! It's not like you, you have no conscience at all!... My ears are getting callused, my parents seem to like you more than you I have more."

Qingwan couldn't help laughing out loud, "That's because I don't have any relatives in City G, so I often go to see it when I have nothing to do, and I will do my filial piety for you."

"Really?" Su Yi gave her a contemptuous look, "Then should I thank the Lord for his grace?"

"No, no, no." Qingwan waved her hand, "I excused you."

The two looked at each other and laughed at the same time.

Part4
In the evening, Qingwan came back from dinner at Su Yi's house. Seeing other people's homes happily, she couldn't help but think of her own family. When she was on the bus, she called home, but no one answered, and then called her father's cell phone. After three rings, it was connected. When asked why there was no one at home, Dad said that he and Mom went to see grandma at night, and they were walking on the street now.

After chatting about trivial matters, my mother snatched the phone and asked, "Wanwan, can't you come back on May Day?"

She thought for a while and said, "Let's talk about it. When the company has nothing to do, go back. Mom, you know I'm lazy. There are so many people on May Day. I don't want to go out. Or you and Dad can come to my place to play."

Mother Song said, "Your dad and I are both very old, and we don't even bother to leave. In fact, we have no other intentions, just think about your age, so hurry up and take a friend home to have a look. The upstairs Dabao has already married a wife, and our two elders can only watch helplessly. Your mother and I have raised you until you were two years old when you were your age!"

"Got it." Qing Wan perfunctory, "Mom, I'm almost home, let me tell you this first, and I'll call you another day. Bye."

After finishing speaking, she hung up the phone, and every time the family mentioned the matter of finding a significant other, her head would get big, and it was too late to hang up the phone.

I got off the bus and walked in the community, but in a blink of an eye, there was a light rain in the sky.A black BMW parked beside her, she looked subconsciously, the owner of the car got down from it, and opened the front door for her.

Sitting in the warm car, watching the raindrops hitting the transparent glass under the lights, Tang Peng asked, "Have you been playing at Su Yi's house until now?"

"Yes." Qingwan said, "I'm really sorry about what happened this morning, Xiaoyi didn't do it on purpose."

"I don't mind," he said, "it's just that I've never seen her like this. And... you're not angry, are you?"

"Ah?" Qingwan was taken aback for a moment, then shook her head, "Not angry."

"Really?"

"Really." Qingwan gave him a smile, smiling lightly, but she didn't see more disappointment than joy on Tang Peng's face.

"Actually, you don't care at all, do you?" He turned his head, looked out the window, and asked, "Qingwan, you won't be jealous for me, will you?"

"I..." She looked at his profile in surprise, but didn't know what to say.

"So, if I were replaced by him today, what would you do?"

Qingwan froze for a moment: "Who is he?"

Tang Peng ignored her pretending to be ignorant, and said: "I kept telling myself, just wait, give you time to try to fall in love with me, and we can finally get together. Is it because I believe in my own charm too much, or is it because you Never tried to forget the past and try to accept my feelings?"

Qingwan bit her lip habitually, and it took a long time before she said regretfully, "I'm sorry."

He turned his head: "It's the latter, right? It's not that you can't forget the past, but you have never tried to get out of the past, so neither me nor anyone else can enter your heart. Would you rather Let him hurt you again and you are not willing to accept others, are you?"

Qingwan was silent.

Tang Peng closed his eyes and asked desperately, "Have you ever tried to love me?"

"Yes..." she said softly, "I tried it." It really happened, but she still couldn't get out of that knot by herself.Suddenly he understood what Fan Rusheng said before, "I really thought about jumping off the balance beam for you..." It's just that his balance beam was too high, and he might be crushed if he jumped off it.

She really tried to open her heart and fall in love with another person, but five years was not enough for her to learn to forget.

Part5
Tang Peng offered to take her downstairs, but she refused.

She stood in the rain, looking at the black car that was gradually going away, feeling silent for a while.Such a sunny and gentle man should be the dream of many women, but she can't deceive herself, for him, she has never heard the voice of her heart from the beginning to the end.

Her heart, which had been beating for that person since she was five years old, died again five years ago, and recently came back to life.

After such repeated tossing, I am afraid that her heart will not be able to bear it in a few years.

Standing where she was, Qingwan raised her head higher, letting the raindrops and tears mix together.

Suddenly, a transparent umbrella covered the icy rain.

She looked over—

"Rusheng?"

She was slightly startled, why did he appear here?

"Are you crying?" There was obvious concern in his voice.

"No." She wiped her face stubbornly, not admitting that she had cried.

Knowing her temperament, Ru Sheng didn't ask further, he said: "I'll take you back."

She should have refused, but by some coincidence, the words she said were, "Okay."

When she got home, she went to the bathroom to dry her head first, and then went to the room to change her clothes.What I saw when I came out was a harmonious picture of a cat and a person.

The cat is a white cat she has raised for three years. She raised it because she was too lonely. A female cat is lying gracefully on Rusheng's lap, squinting her eyes in enjoyment as he grows up. Rubbing its chin with fingertips.

This cat is simply too outrageous!The first time we met, I was so flattering to that man!Can you still be a little bit arrogant as a cat?

Ru Sheng had already seen her dazed expression standing at the door of the room, but deliberately did not disturb her.During the days when we met, she was always on guard against herself like a hedgehog. Even though he knew that it was her deliberately pretending to protect herself, his heart still felt distressed.Now it is rare for her to let go of her guard, Rusheng only feels warmth in her heart.

When Qingwan came back to her senses, she met Rusheng's deep black eyes, her heart tightened, and she used the reason of washing clothes to avoid his gaze.

I went to the bathroom and threw the changed clothes into the washing machine, cleaned the buttons, looked at myself in the mirror, but didn't have the courage to go out again.She scolded herself in her heart for being crazy, why did she ask him to send her back when she had nothing to do, she knew that she had no resistance to him, and every time she met her, her heart sank even more.

She thought angrily, hiding in the bathroom like this is not a solution after all, he is not a poisonous snake and beast anyway, could it be that she could be eaten by him?Comforting herself like this, she turned around and was about to go out, only to find that Rusheng was already standing at the door looking at her for an unknown how long.

"How long are you going to stay in there?" he asked.

Qing Wan's face blushed slightly, and she wanted to find an excuse, but when she got to her mouth, she became annoyed for no reason, she just loves to stay here!This is her home, let him take care of it!
She snorted, walked in front of Ru Sheng, and snatched her cat back, but the cat's sharp claws grabbed Ru Sheng's coat and refused to let go.

Damn!What now, damn cat!Qingwan stared at it very hard: "Thanks to me, I raised you up since I was a child, and I won't recognize your mother when I see a handsome guy! Which one is your master!"

Rusheng couldn't help laughing.

Qing Wan turned to stare at him: "Why are you laughing!"

Part6
Rusheng carefully opened the cat's paws, and said, "It's nothing." But the expression on his face still gave people a sense of something.

After making a fuss for a while, Qingwan herself felt that such an action was childish, muttered something, and went out with the cat in her arms, Rusheng followed her unhurriedly.

Qingwan put the cat on the sofa, opened the refrigerator and asked, "What do you want to drink?" But when I opened the refrigerator, I found that it was full of cola and other soda drinks. After thinking about it, I closed it, "Forget it, I Let’s boil water for you to drink.” When she was at home, she seldom drank water and used Coke instead.

"No need." Rusheng stopped her, reopened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of Coke, "I'll just drink this."

"No!" She snatched the Coke back from his hand.

Ru Sheng was puzzled, "What's wrong?"

"Did you forget that you have a bad stomach? Drinking this will hurt your stomach!"

What she said was too natural, as if when the two were still dating, she always cared about his diet.

"Qingwan..." Rusheng suddenly stretched out a hand towards her, before touching her, she was like a frightened rabbit, and said uncomfortably, "I'll go to the kitchen to boil water."

Embarrassed and fled.

The kitchen is used frequently, and she occasionally practices making soup during a week or two holidays. Now she can not only cook pork rib soup, but also crucian carp soup, vegetable soup, chicken soup, etc., and she can cook it until it tastes good. No, otherwise she would have devoted herself to this soup for a few weeks.Sometimes she also feels that she is boring, and she doesn't know who it is for after doing so much.

Qingwan was busy in the kitchen, Rusheng leaned on the door frame and looked at her without saying a word.

Although Qingwan turned her back to him, she could still feel his fiery gaze, which made her scalp tingle.Originally, she wanted to wait for the water to boil in the kitchen before going out, but now she felt even more uncomfortable in the small space of the kitchen.Just when she was about to turn around and go out, a pair of hands silently hugged her from behind, and then his breath, gently in her ear, the familiar embrace, the familiar breath made her want to cry.

The world was silent for a moment, and she was so nervous that she dared not even breathe.

Then he whispered in her ear, "Can I come to eat your pork rib soup often in the future?"

"Have all the restaurants in City G closed down?"

"No...but it doesn't smell like mother."

"Then you can ask Auntie to make it for you."

"But it's missing a feeling..." Turned around by him, she looked into his black eyes, so gentle that water could overflow, and he said, "I'm missing a feeling of having you by my side."

He is so close to her now, looking at her, his eyes are still her familiar eyes, as if nothing has changed, she is still the same as she was back then, and he is still the same him back then.

His eyes narrowed slowly, and he moved closer to her.

"Don't..." She wanted to refuse, but his hands hugged her waist tightly, preventing her from resisting.

"I didn't say it before, because it felt disgusting, and because it was a promise I couldn't afford." He paused, "I love you, Qingwan."

"Qing Wan" and "Qing Wan" were the names that appeared in his dreams countless times.

Part7
Qingwan couldn't break free, but her hands were still pressed against his chest. Looking at his face that was getting closer and closer, she seemed to have lost any strength for a moment, and she still couldn't stand the time that passed by, couldn't escape the boy here?

In the past five years, she has thought about this scenario countless times. He finally came back from the United States. If she is brave enough, she should give him a slap in the face, or calculate him like the heroine of a TV series, let him fall in love with her, and then be cool kicked him away.

But she can't do anything, love is so short, forgetting is so long, she doesn't have enough time to forget, and she is not cruel enough to push him away, all she can choose is to close her eyes.

She thought, after persisting for so long, isn't that what she was looking forward to in her heart, that sentence, that moment?She is really tired, she is just a woman, even the Monkey King who can turn over hundreds of thousands of miles can't escape the palm of the Tathagata Buddha, let alone her?

At this moment, the kettle for boiling water suddenly screamed.

Before the kiss fell, she pushed him away, turned around, and pretended to be busy.

Rusheng murmured "Qingwan", low and helpless, the water boiled, and all sounds stopped.

In the end, Rusheng didn't drink the pot of water. He received a call from the hospital with a serious expression on his face.When Qingwan poured tea and came out, seeing him hang up the phone, she frowned slightly, and said apologetically when she came out: "There is something wrong with the hospital, I have to rush there."

"Oh, good." She put the cup on the table and opened the door for him, watched him put on his shoes, said goodbye to her, and turned to leave.

At that moment, it seemed as if he had returned to the only scene where he sent her home in the car. At that time, the young man was so thin, but now, his figure is still so thin, which made her feel that she was not the only one who was lonely all these years one person.

"Rusheng." She stopped him abruptly.

Rusheng turned around and stared at her.

She was startled, and said quickly, "If you want to drink soup, you can come here every weekend."

After finishing speaking in one breath, she quickly locked the door without even daring to look at him, as if returning to the feeling of first love.

She thought about it for a while, and found it funny again, how old are you, and you still have your first love!
When the door was opened again, the outside was already empty, and Ru Sheng had already left.

That night, Qingwan went to bed very early. This time, she finally didn't fall asleep with loneliness. It was the only time she had the most beautiful sleep in five years.

Sure enough, people sleep well, and their spirits are particularly good.

As soon as I came to the company in the morning, I heard someone shouting from afar, "Qingwan, the editor-in-chief is looking for you!"

Qingwan put down her bag and came to the editor-in-chief's office, knocked on the door, and there was a quick response from inside.

Pushing the door open, the editor-in-chief is a capable and straightforward woman in her 30s, considered a senior figure, and it is said that she has always been celibate.These days, beautiful and capable white-collar workers are prone to melancholy.

"Chief editor, what's the matter?"

"Oh, that's right." The editor-in-chief said, "The sales of workplace novels have been very good recently. In this issue, our company plans to do a special feature, interviewing the authors of workplace novels. It just so happens that you have a famous author named Ouyang Liuxu here. City G, you are in charge."

The next day, when Qingwan saw Ouyang Liuxu in person, she sighed in her heart that this world is so small. Before that, because of the sudden visit, she spent a whole night preparing the interview draft, and there was no time to see her own photos. I don't know that she turned out to be the "vixen" beauty next to the Tang Peng whom she hated so much that she met with Su Yi on the street last time.

Ouyang Liuxu is the manager of a large commercial group in G City. She has done such things at a young age. She is a strong woman among women. The two made an appointment to meet in the company's conference room. Ouyang Liuxu's first sentence when she saw her was The words are, "I said, have we met somewhere?"

Haven't waited for Qingwan to come back.She said, "By the way, you are Su Yi's friend?"

Qingwan nods.

Then she also said a sentence that she sighed in her heart at the time, "This world is so small."

Yes, it is really small.

(End of this chapter)