Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 239 Among the Three Thousand Motes, I Rather Love and Hate

Who is he?

Why does "he" marry a wife and have a son, and the mother agrees to stay?
Who is he from mother, who is father from?

I stood there in a daze, listening to the people inside, and suddenly it seemed that something that I didn't know at all, but was closely related to me suddenly appeared in front of me.

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After a long silence, I saw my mother slowly raised her head to look at Dad. Her face was still pale, and it looked a little transparent under the candlelight, so I couldn't see what kind of expression was on it. Hear her calm voice in the empty palace—

"Do you remember, the last time you asked me to stay with you, what happened afterwards?"

"..."

"Shangyang City was burned down by a fire."

"..."

"This time, do you want more?"

"..."

"When you rescued me two years ago, I told you that I was a frozen snake, and you warmed me up, only to let me take a bite in your arms, which was more deadly than last time."

I was stunned all of a sudden.

Shangyang City experienced a towering fire a few years ago, which almost wiped out all living beings, but when it came to how this catastrophe came, everyone kept a secret when they talked about it in front of me, but I I never thought that it was caused by my mother!
Was it she who set fire to Shangyang City?

I looked at her and Dad's back in astonishment, he was silent for a long time, and then said: "Xuanyuan Xingsi, is there anyone in this world who can warm you?"

Mother looked at him with ice-cold eyes.

"No, no."

"..."

"Your heart is cold, no matter how warm you are, it's useless."

Mother said: "Since you know, why do you keep me?"

"I want to give it a try and see if there is anything in this world that I, Helian City, can't do." Dad slowly got up and moved in front of her. Their faces were so close, and their eyes were looking directly into each other's eyes. Eyes, I know how sharp Father's eyes are, and the courtiers almost dare not look directly at the king, but my mother didn't flinch in the slightest when he was staring at him like this. After a long time, she smiled faintly.

"it is good."

Just this one word determines the future of the Central Plains in a hundred years.

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When I left the side hall and just walked out of the gate, a figure appeared in front of me.

Like Dad, he is also wearing a black robe, but Dad wearing a black robe gives people the feeling of incomparable domineering, but this person is wearing a black robe, but it seems that he just wants to hide himself in the darkness, although his The face is facing the light shining in the side hall.

I gently bowed to him and said, "Uncle Huang."

He is Father's younger brother, King Helianyan of Xuanwu Kingdom.

He was never close to me, and he seldom spoke, but I had a strange feeling of closeness to him, as if there were always some vague fragments in my mind, in the bloody battles I experienced as a child, It seems that there is this person who has been protecting me, and in the harsh environment of ice and snow, it is also him who has been holding me tightly and using his body temperature to continue my life.

And he is also the most incomprehensible person in this country. He often stands outside his mother's side hall for most of the day, but he has never gone in to see his mother.

I don't understand him for another reason.

Compared with Wang He Lianyan, he was also the sharpest person who confronted Father in court.

Dad seems to have made an appointment with others, not to go south to invade the Central Plains, but his various arrangements in the Ministry of War are all about the layout of the Central Plains, and the emperor's uncle is completely different. The two people have different political views and have reached the point of confrontation. Said that just two days ago, they were still arguing in the court hall, and Father was furious, and said to him: "He Lianyan, with me here, it's not Xuanwu's turn to speak, if you want to make the decision, it's up to you Do you have the ability to be the king of Xuanwu!"

It is said that as soon as these words were uttered, the entire court was silent, and the emperor did not say another word.

I don't know if he has accepted his fate or hibernated, but now I see his figure hiding in the dark night, and I feel an indescribable feeling in my heart.

The night wind was blowing, and his robe was flapping, making the night even more peaceful.

But it is a kind of tranquility where the mountain rain is about to come and the wind is full of the building.

He looked down at me and said, "Feng'er, come to see your mother."

"Yes."

"Be nice to your mother."

It was just a light exhortation, but for some reason, the anger in my heart suddenly ignited, and I suddenly looked up at him: "Be nice to her, be nice to her, why do you all want me to be nice to her?" ?! Father too, and you too, as if I treated her badly, as if I owed her!"

Uncle Huang seemed a little surprised by my sudden outburst, but he didn't say anything, just looked at me quietly.

"She is my mother, but has she fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother? Since I can remember, she has never been by my side. It was you, Dad, and Luo Muna who brought me up. Where was she when I was a mother? Where was she when I was sick and sad? She never showed up!"

"..."

"If she is a conscientious mother, will she let such a small child leave her side, and won't come to see her for so many years?"

"..."

"It's good now. When I grow up and become sensible, she shows up and asks me to call her mother, kowtow to her, and serve her medicine every day. Why?!"

After saying these words in one breath, I was so excited that I couldn't breathe, but Helianyan looked at me with eyes colder than the night.

After a long silence, he slowly said, "Do you think she owes you?"

I gritted my teeth: "As a mother, shouldn't you be with your child?"

"Indeed, a mother should be by her child's side," He Lianyan said, "But do you know why she can't be by your side?"

"Do you know why she sent you away and hasn't been able to see you all these years?"

"Do you know what she left behind to come to you?"

A few words were spoken plainly, but the question made me speechless. I have never really understood the woman in the room, because she didn’t give me much except for her overly doting eyes. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to approach at all. She also let her have no chance to give.

Seeing my appearance, He Lianyan didn't say anything else, just raised his head and took a last look at the side hall with faint light, turned around and left, while I was standing alone in the empty yard, suddenly a lot of things arose in my heart .

Indeed, I want to know!

I want to know why she abandoned her child!

I want to know why she hasn't been with me all these years!
I want to know why she appeared in Xuanwu, what did she give up, and what did she have to face?
Thinking of this, I couldn't stand anymore, and immediately turned around and was about to run in, but just as soon as I turned around, I saw Ling Si standing in front of me, blocking my way, with a coat on her arm. Pi Qiu said softly: "My lord, it's cold and windy late at night, you'd better wear an extra dress."

"Get out of the way, I'm going to see my mother!"

I waved my hand, and was about to walk in, but she took another step to block me: "Little prince, Madam and the emperor have important matters to discuss, what do you want-" When she said this, she suddenly After a while, she didn't know why there was a strange choking in her throat, and then she said: "Let's talk about it in the future."

future……?
I don't understand, but looking at the silence in the side hall, maybe Dad and her really have a lot to say, I really want to ask her, there are still opportunities tomorrow.

Thinking of this, I didn't insist anymore, turned around and left, but Ling Si presented the fur to my eyes again: "My lord, please add another dress."

I froze for a moment, this woman is a bit strange tonight, why does she always ask me to wear an extra dress?I'm going back to my house in a while, and there are walls of fire around me, no matter how cold it is, I need more than this.

So I ignored her, turned around and left.

Later I realized that I should actually accept her kindness.

Because that night, a snowstorm really blew up on the grassland, the violent north wind mixed with cold snow foam filled the whole world, the sky was covered with ice and snow, the whining sound was like the roar of the sky, and there was no light in the vast world , only the endless cold and the ravages of the storm.

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The coup d'état in Xuanwu Kingdom happened suddenly on such a night.

He Lianyan has been dormant for a long time than his king, but in fact he is not completely inactive, but has secretly received the support of the eight departments. On such a night, he rose up with one blow, and the imperial guards and the imperial guards launched a desperate contest , blood stained Shangyang.

When such a major event happened, the king of Xuanwu, my father, He Liancheng, was not present immediately.

No one knew where he was, and no one knew why he was so negligent, but when he arrived, the Xuanwu Kingdom was already in chaos.

And I have already left Shangyang City and headed south in the storm.

It was Ling Si and A Lang who took me away.

When A Lang appeared in front of me, I didn't guard against him, so he knocked me unconscious with one hit. When I woke up, the city of Shangyang, which was full of war and smoke, had been thrown far away. Behind me, and we are facing the wind howling prairie, I did suffer a lot from not accepting Ling Si's fur, but in order to make me feel better, the two of them almost clamped me between their bodies Central, slowly heading south.

Cold, as if even the blood in the whole body is going to be frozen, only the eyes they meet occasionally can convey a little warmth.

I never knew that a woman like Ling Si would have such gentle eyes, just like I didn't know that since Luo Muna became Father's concubine, A Lang would look at another woman with such loving eyes.

At this time, I couldn't cry anymore, and I didn't have the heart to figure out anything. Another violent wind came, and I lost consciousness in the arms of the two of them.

When I woke up again, the top of my head had changed.

I saw a man with a disfigured face, hideous like a ghost. He had been guarding in front of my bed. I heard that he had been guarding for several days and nights. When I woke up, I heard people outside shouting long live three times, and I suddenly knew who he was.

He is the "he" that father and mother said.

My biological father, the supreme king of the Central Plains.

At that time, I seemed to understand a little bit the meaning of what Helianyan said to me at the end.

After I woke up, he didn't ask me anything about Xuanwu, about my mother, maybe because I don't need to ask anymore. It evolved into a division in the north. They went up the Chisha River and ruled with Atai. From then on, Xuanwu was divided into two countries, the north and the south.

Later, after several years, because of the Qinglong, Baihu, Xuanyuan in the Central Plains, and until the disappearance of Suzaku, the Xuanwu Kingdom also changed its original country name, and the word Xuanwu gradually evolved into "Xiongnu", while the country's surname Helian was It was retranslated as "Huyan" by the civil servants of the Chinese Dynasty. Since then, the northern and southern Xiongnu have stood tall in the north of the Chinese Dynasty, especially the southern Xiongnu.

And I, He Lianfeng, also resumed my original identity after returning to the Central Plains. My surname is Chu and my name is Mufeng.

But until the end, I didn't know what my name really meant, and everyone who was qualified to call me by my name shouted so heavily, as if each word weighed a thousand catties.

Although I have never been by my father's side since I was a child, and I was extremely repulsive to him when I returned to the Central Plains, and I am not the only son under his knees, but he made me the crown prince. The concubine frequently tried to trick me, and the ministers of the court also wrote several times to ask for another prince, but my position as the prince has always been very stable, until I finally ascended the throne as the emperor and swept away all obstacles, my father did not waver in the slightest.

Of course, I know that the many words about mother that Ling Si brought back played a big role.

After Ling Si returned to the Central Plains, she kept festivals for her late husband for another three years. When I was ten years old, she finally married A Lang. This man who wandered from the Central Plains to Xuanwu finally had a home. He looked north and saw some nostalgia for the past, and the child Ling Si gave birth to later was named Liu Xuanwu, which seemed to be able to explain the guilt scar that could never be erased in his heart.

In the second year of No.40 after I ascended the throne, that is, the fifth year of Pingnan, 59 years after I made the Hu Huakou alliance with Empress Suzaku that year, I broke the Hu Huakou alliance and took the lead in attacking Suzaku suddenly. The war was launched. At that time, A Lang and Ling Si had already passed away, and Liu Xuanwu became my vanguard general. He made great achievements for me in the battle of Hu Huakou, and became one of the twelve founding heroes of Linyuan Pavilion. No.1.

So far, the four countries of the Central Plains have all been included in the territory of the Celestial Dynasty.

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That day happened to be the second year of No.40 when the father passed away.

In the winter of the tenth year I returned to the Central Plains, he died without any illness, without any warning, and walked very peacefully, but before leaving, when everyone knelt in front of his dragon bed and wept, he looked at Ling Si. , asked: "Now, is it okay?"

Ling Si didn't say anything, just leaned over and kowtowed, and then his father's ferocious ghostly face showed a faint smile. He took a pill that had been treasured by his side all the time, and then quietly spit out the last pill. tone.

I didn't know until later what his last sentence meant.

Back then, when Ling Si took me back to the Central Plains, the Xuanwu Kingdom was in chaos.

But this chaos was not only because of He Lianyan's rebellion, but also because the Xuanwu people tied their mother to the highest point of Xuanwu Palace on the second day after we left, and they were going to be sentenced to death.

I don't know what kind of mood Dad was in at that time, or what kind of situation he was in, so that he could no longer protect the snake warmed by him, but I heard some people who came back from wandering on the grassland say that in the cold In the cold wind, my mother suddenly started singing, and what she sang was "Song of Yue People".

The singing sound was clear, piercing the clouds and cracking stones, as if it came from the sky, and gradually, echoes came from the sky.

When everyone discovered that it was not the echo of her singing, but the precursor of the avalanche in Xuanwu Snow Mountain, it was too late.

The sudden avalanche almost covered half of Shangyang City, and the city that had experienced a towering fire once again encountered a catastrophe, the difference was that this time it was ice and snow, and my mother fulfilled what she had said to her father. The singing never stopped until the end...

I don't know what kind of mood my father felt when I got the news. I only vaguely remember that he locked himself in Yanfu Hall for three whole days without seeing anyone, eating or drinking. Looking at the Yanfu Hall with its doors and windows closed, it also felt lifeless.

Finally, Ling Si broke in.

What Ling Si brought back was only a sentence from his mother——

It's not easy for me and him to get together, I don't want to see you in the underworld so early.

Because of this sentence, my father forcibly endured for ten years, implemented the New Deal, and cleared all obstacles for me to ascend the throne. After ten years, his limit, maybe my mother can accept seeing him in the underworld. After taking Yuyan Pill, he calmly went to die.

Many years later, when I stand alone in front of the Golden Luan Hall and look at the vastness of the world against the falling snow, I will vaguely think of those people who I remember or can't remember clearly.

Father, He Lianyan, Luo Muna, Ling Si, A Lang...

My son Chu Yanling, Princess Musha of Southern Xinjiang...

Also, my royal father, and my mother...

I think each of them should have no regrets. They walked through their lives calmly and resolutely, just because they loved and hated, they have no regrets.

Among the three thousand dust particles, I would rather love or hate.

(End of this chapter)