Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 203 Comparing people's hearts, the mountains are not dangerous

I stood by the river, and a gust of wind blew by, bringing with it cold water vapor from the melted ice and snow, setting off my wind cloak, which fluttered in the wind, like an unfailing banner, standing on this land .

Thinking about it carefully, in the past two years, I have experienced many painful experiences that I can't recall. I wanted to give up myself and my life several times, but today, I am still alive. In my ears, I heard the voices of ministers and workers, so I knew that I should persevere, no matter how long I could go, or how hard it would be, since I survived, I should live well.

What's more, there is my child in my arms.

My child, Mu Feng.

This name was when he was one month old. I asked Yu He and the others to think of my child's name for me, but everyone stood in front of me, looking at each other, unable to utter a word. The sound of the blade scraping against the rock said softly, "Call it Mu Feng."

I raised my head and glanced at those silent eyes. I didn't speak, and no one else spoke. My son is called Mu Feng.

Mu, it's Murong's Mu; where's the wind?

Does he know who this wind is?

Now, standing in the wind by the river, this little red face sleeps peacefully, sometimes wrinkling his little nose, which is also very naive. I smiled and tightened the swaddle a little more to prevent the cold wind from blowing him.

At this time, Ling Si came to my side: "Queen Mother, the boat is coming.

There were waves on the river, I raised my head, and saw a large and exquisite ship approaching, slowly docking at the pier.

This boat is of course much smaller than the dragon boats I took in the past, firstly because I don’t want to be extravagant and attract attention; secondly, I don’t bring many people with me, so this kind of boat is enough.

However, as soon as the boat docked and the huge sampan landed on the pier, my body became slightly stiff.

In fact, today, knowing many things that happened nine years ago, some inexplicable fears have gradually faded away, but the fear in my heart is still there. When there was a loud noise, I subconsciously took a step back.

A solid chest pressed against my body.

When I turned around, I met a pair of deep eyes. When I looked at me, there was a little light in them.

At this moment, a strange feeling suddenly surged in my heart.

Everything around me seems to be distorted, time and space are reversed, it seems that all this happened to me, in this windy river pier, smelling the cold water of the river, with green hills and green trees on both sides, I used to stand there , turned around, and met the deep and firm gaze of a young man.

He has injuries on his body, but when standing behind me, he has the illusion of being dependable like a mountain...

He looked down at me with deep eyes, and his voice was a little hoarse...

He opened his mouth and said...

"Are you okay?"

A hoarse voice rang in my ears, which made me wake up from the illusion.

Yes, I have indeed traveled through this waterway. The boat carrying me, Xuanyuanting, and Ling Shaoyang once sailed in this water area. I have seen those rolling green hills and smelled the coldness of the river. , my life was completely changed from that voyage.

This time, it was time to board the boat and set sail again, but I had no idea what unknown future was waiting for me on this waterway.

Maybe, it can solve many doubts in my heart, or maybe, I will only sink deeper in such a wrong life...

The days on the boat were very ordinary, as simple as sunrise and sunset, half a month passed before I knew it.

On this day, I stood at the bow of the boat with Mu Feng in my arms, facing the cool river wind, and watched the green hills on both sides of the bank slowly move back, reflected in the water like a splash-ink painting.

"This is the mother's hometown, Xuanyuan Kingdom."

I said softly to the child in my arms: "This is the most affluent place in the Central Plains. It has the mildest weather, the most colorful flowers, and the most beautiful singing. The queen mother used to be the most beautiful princess here, but the queen mother did not Treasure, lost everything..."

"Remember, supreme power can get you a lot, but it can make you lose a lot."

"Mu Feng, if one day you can really become the master of all this, you must remember that you must not be like the empress—"

Before I finished speaking, I suddenly felt a familiar breath coming from behind me.

Although I didn't hear footsteps and didn't look back, I already knew that he was behind me. Sometimes, the person closest to my heart is also the person who can hurt you the most. For him, I seem to be more than ever Alerted.

In the past, I lived in Fengxiang City for more than a month, and I hardly saw their husband and wife. I also know that it was because of someone's deliberate arrangement. As for Nangong, he didn't let me meet because he didn't want to see me.

Well, I don't want to see him either.

But it’s different when you’re on a boat. There are only a few dozen people on such a small boat. It’s like living in an attic.

When I turned around, Nangong was already standing behind me, his eyes were still clear, reflecting the green mountains and green waters in front of him, he was still handsome, but the idle breath like ink and wash landscapes at the beginning had already been blown away by the bloody wind and rain. Not anymore.

At this moment, that handsome face looked at me with a complicated expression: "You call this child Mu Feng?"

I looked at him indifferently.

He suddenly laughed, and shook his head while laughing: "As expected, you only have him in your heart from the beginning to the end. You love him, think of him, and you can't forget him. Until now, even this child—"

For some reason, these words sound familiar to me...

Just when I frowned slightly, he suddenly looked up at me again, and said something that I couldn't believe: "Do you know, this should be my child!"

My eyes widened all of a sudden.

his child?

his child? !
A burst of sudden humiliation came to my heart, my face flushed instantly, I was about to reprimand, but I couldn't speak out, I gritted my teeth, took a deep breath, and looked at him with red eyes: "You still want to lie to me?" What?"

"..."

"This time, I'm already on board, where do you want to take me?"

"..."

"Huhuakou? Southern Xinjiang? Or that manor that never existed?"

At this moment, his calm face suddenly froze, as if a mask had been shattered, and he stared at me with wide eyes.

Yes, this sentence once touched me too much. At the bottom of Yixian Peak, he locked me with such tenderness and tempted me with my child. If that lie is true, maybe this child does not have to face it. For so many injuries, he doesn't have to be held in his right hand to feel at ease, and he doesn't have to be stained with blood at an age when he is waiting to be fed.

But everything is a lie after all.

This child, whose surname is Ling and whose name is Mu Feng, will never become Nangong Mizhen's child. That lie will eventually be shattered at Dadukou, making it impossible to go back to the past.

"Nangong, that's enough."

I stood in front of him, although my eyes were already red, but I gritted my teeth to prevent the tears from flowing out. I just looked at him like this, and calmly said in a trembling voice: "Chu Feng told me that he is going to abdicate, you tell me you If you want to take me to hide, you, like him, have lied to me, and I have believed it."

He seemed to feel something, and subconsciously reached out to me, and I took a step back, avoiding his hand.

"Enough! If you still want to get something from me, please don't start with the child again, don't use him like this!"

After speaking, I turned around and left.

The moment I turned around, tears were already falling.

But before I took a step, I felt a powerful force pull me back, and my back was pressed against the bulkhead of the ship, and he had already pushed me up, trapping me between his arms.

At this moment, I looked up at him in shock and anger: "You—"

What I saw when I looked up was a completely unfamiliar Nangong, with an uncontrollable anger on his face, he suppressed my body fiercely, and lowered his head towards me.

I couldn't bear it anymore and stretched out my hand, and slapped him hard on the face.

"Snapped!"

A crisp slap sounded, his face turned heavily to one side, and it immediately became red and swollen, and I said angrily: "What do you want to do?!"

It's not that I don't know his thoughts, it's not that I don't know his hard work all the time, but I can't imagine that he can still do this kind of thing to me at this point. trembling.

Mu Feng in my arms opened his black eyes wide at this time, looking at his furious mother, and then at the man with a wooden face. After a while, he turned his head and looked at me. The once clear eyes were cloudy, whether it was pain or tears, he suddenly laughed, that kind of laughter seemed to tear something in the wind.

"What do I want to do? Hahahaha... what do I want to do?"

"..."

Pressing my trembling body, he didn't take a step back. When he looked down at me, his face was full of madness: "I don't know what I want to do, I just feel like I'm going crazy!"

"..."

Hearing this sentence, I also choked up a little, slowly turned my head, and stopped looking into his eyes.

I don't know how long it took, he lowered his head and approached my ear, his deep and trembling voice was amidst the hot breathing: "If I still want to take you away, do you believe it?"

I looked up at him.

If it was normal, when I heard this sentence and faced him, I might have sneered and released the pain in my heart with the most sarcastic words, but when I met his eyes, I had no choice but to use the sharpest The knife pierced his heart, but there was still no way to do it.

With a long sigh, I said shyly, "Nangong, I won't trust you anymore; and you may not be sincere to me anymore."

"..." He looked at me, his eyes flickering.

"In the beginning of spring, there should indeed be a lot of pigeons, but they shouldn't all be flying to the east. Who do they bring letters to?"

As I said plainly, my eyes had moved to the sky. The clear sky was as clear as blue. Birds would pass by from time to time, but since we boarded the boat, it has been a long time since we got on the boat. Whether it was an accident or man-made, even if I didn't send someone to investigate, I don't necessarily have no idea."

He clinging to my body stiffened, and his breathing gradually became heavy.

I slowly turned my head to look at him: "Nangong, no matter what you say is true or not, I will never trust you, and I can't trust you anymore. If there is a duel between my blood and you, I will fight with you and your family to the end. I will not let the grievances of a hundred years ago continue to my children, I will let everything be decided in my hands!"

When I said "the grievances of a hundred years ago", I felt that he trembled and his breathing was heavy: "You, what do you know?"

It seemed that the atmosphere between me and him was getting heavier and heavier, and the little Mufeng in his arms moved uncomfortably, murmuring softly, as if he was a little scared, I gently pulled the corner of the swaddle up, covering his sight, then slowly raised his head to look at the man in front of him.

"Didn't you Nangong family always want Xuanyuan Kingdom? I guess, you have important things left there, right? Mengjing used to be the capital under the rule of the Murong family. Although the capital of the three dynasties has gone through wars, the ancient monuments are still intact. Some things can never be erased.”

His face became paler and paler, staring at me firmly.

"I have decided to go back to Mengjing, and I must go back. If someone really wants to stop me halfway, don't forget, we are sitting on the same boat. Even if I die, the Empress Dowager Yongjia dies, I still have a way to let Xuanyuan Kingdom Alliance with Qinglong Kingdom, I believe your uncle is not strong enough to resist them, right?"

Nangong's eyes flickered for a moment, and he suddenly remembered something, and looked at me with wide eyes: "You asked Yu He to go to Mengjing by dry road?!"

I smiled faintly.

That's right, Yu He didn't follow us on the boat, but went around the mountain road to Mengjing. If something happened to the boat on the waterway, he would convey my thoughts to Mengjing's mother, whichever is less important? Which is more important, I believe they can still weigh it clearly.

At this time, Nangong also showed a little smile on his face, but for some reason, this smile seemed more sad than crying on his face. He slowly left my body and stepped back: "Look, I I really can't lie to you..."

He said the word "cheat" very emphatically.

"Then, let's go."

This sentence is actually very simple, but when he spoke, an inexplicable worry arose in my heart.

If I go on, what will I face?

He turned and walked away. It was the first time I saw his back, he looked so lonely, even his steps were a little staggering, and slowly disappeared from my sight; and I seemed to have all the strength taken away from me. It was the same, leaning there weakly, completely unaware that, not far behind the cabin, a black figure was standing there, looking at me blankly.

The atmosphere on board changed a lot over the next few days.

First of all, no matter where I go, there are people by my side, Ling Si has become inseparable, even if she is not around, I can often see Ling Yi and the others flashing in front of my eyes.

And at night, when I close the cabin door, I can always hear light footsteps coming from outside.

It was so light that it almost melted into the sound of the quiet waves.

When the footsteps reached my door, they stopped, as if they disappeared out of thin air. No matter how carefully I listened, I couldn’t hear a single sound. It’s just that in the quiet night, I can always feel the breathing of a person. Far away, quietly accompany me.

And every morning when I wake up, I can hear the sound of those footsteps leaving again, every night.

Three days later, the boat entered a wide area of ​​water. The river in this section was extremely turbulent, giving people the illusion of a turbulent sea. Move back.

Ling Si told me that this section is the mouth of the gorge, and after walking for half a day, you can see the famous Huyue Gorge in front of you at night. To the east of Huyue Gorge is a Yuzui River Weir. The great river was divided into upper and lower waters, one leading to Xuanyuan Kingdom, and the other - leading to Suzaku.

For some reason, when I heard the words "Tiger Leaping Gorge", I felt a strange feeling in my heart.

There was a shuddering fear, as if—

It's like when I saw the boat, I was afraid.

Of course I know, I walked through this waterway nine years ago, so I must have been to Huyue Gorge, but no one can tell me where the accident happened in Xuanyuan Court, and the other person present, I think , he will definitely not open his mouth.

Will it be - Tiger Leaping Gorge?
Such doubts lasted until night, and Mu Feng, who was always sound asleep on weekdays, was also very excited tonight, with a pair of bright eyes open until late at night.

Outside the door, the familiar footsteps sounded again.

But this time, I didn't hesitate any longer. As soon as the footsteps stopped, I stretched out my hand and opened the hatch.

The man standing at the door was a little caught off guard. Although the mask was still cold, his eyes showed a moment of bewilderment. The two stared blankly at each other before he said, "The Queen Mother..."

"laugh--"

The child in his arms seemed to see something interesting, his face raised.

I glanced at him, didn't say anything, passed him and walked out.

The surface of the river is very calm tonight, and there is a bit of weirdness in the calm, as if there is some monster hidden in the muddy river, it will suddenly stick out its head and devour me.

Standing on the deck, I looked at the precipitous and steep mountain in front of me under the night sky. It stood upright in the night sky like a tiger jumping off the mountain. The arrogance and arrogance made people startled at first sight. No wonder this place was so popular. It is called Huyue Gorge, which is really worthy of the name.

There are snow swords on the top of the peak, and ice curtains on the cliffs.

Yishu mourns the ape and moves the tip of the cloud, the blood crows Du Yu, and the cave roars the flying sickle.

Compared with people's hearts, the mountains are not dangerous.

Comparing people's hearts, the mountains are not dangerous...?
Just when I was chanting this sentence silently in my heart, the ghost face had slowly walked behind me, a warm body temperature soaked up, and he said in a hoarse voice: "Queen Mother, it's windy in the middle of the night, let's go back and rest. "

I slowly turned around and looked at him. The moment he met my gaze, he seemed to subconsciously avoid it.

"Ghost Face," I said calmly, "Have you thought about the answer to that question?"

(End of this chapter)