Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 182 The Dusty Secret, His Heartbreak
Li Jun met my eyes: "Do you want to ask, how did the prince die in the first place?"

I nodded.

"I know that the day we left Ghost Valley nine years ago was the fourth day of October, and when I woke up in Mengjing, it was the day after my birthday, which was October 29. That is to say, after the prince left Ghost Valley, there was no Can return to Mengjing alive, he had an accident on the way back."

Li Jun's face twitched.

I walked up to him step by step, looked into his eyes, and saw my shadow in those eyes, pale and thin, but with a stubbornness that refused to fall when there was no way out——

"Is it me?"

Was it me who killed my own brother on the way back, trying to take his place?
Silent for a long time.

I can see that Li Jun is struggling, his eyes are shining with countless lights, as if something is tearing his soul, a gust of wind blows from the tower, bringing a chill.

He took a long breath and looked at me: "I don't know."

what?
I looked at him with wide eyes: "You don't know?!"

"I really don't know." Li Jun said silently: "Nine years ago, we returned by boat along the canal. On the night of the prince's accident, only you were at the stern, and everyone was in their own cabins. Hearing someone shouting outside, when we rushed out, the prince had already fallen into the water."

overboard?Did Xuanyuan Court fall into the water?
My heart trembled: "Did I push it down?"

"We didn't see it, but at that time, everyone heard the prince calling your name when he fell into the water, and when we arrived, you had stab marks on your face."

Stab!I subconsciously reached out and touched my cheek. The slender scar was like a tear stain—it turned out that it was left at that time!

Yes, Xuanyuanting left it?
I asked again: "The prince fell into the water, why didn't you rescue him? Doesn't he know how to swim?"

"It's not that we don't save it, it's that we have no chance at all." Li Jun's face revealed a look of pain: "The prince was originally good at water, but falling off the ship will not cause much impact at all. However, the position where he fell off the ship , happened to be where the iron oars were at the bottom of the boat, and as soon as he fell into the water, he was wrenched in by the iron oars, and everyone heard his screams, and the river was also stained red..."

"..."

"By the time our people went into the water to look, they couldn't find it anymore."

"..."

My heart suddenly ached sharply at this moment, as if it was about to explode!
At this moment, the scene nine years ago has been sketched in my mind——

Back then, I, Xuanyuan Xingsi, wanted to take the place of my brother Xuanyuan Ting, so on the return boat, when no one was present, she tried to kill her brother; My younger sister would actually attack me. At the critical moment, he struggled desperately. Maybe at that moment, he stabbed me in the face, but he still couldn't escape the bad luck and was pushed overboard.

When he fell down, he must have been unwilling, and there must have been hatred in his heart. This is the reason why he hates the royal family. There is no relationship between relatives, and some only fight for power, fame and wealth!

So, that heart-piercing cry, calling my name, maybe his hatred pierced through the heavens and left me a curse!
Life after life, the curse of endless reincarnation!

A gust of wind blew by, and I only felt a piercing chill, as if the blood in my whole body was about to freeze.

I am such a person, I even want to kill my own relatives for the sake of power!
Haha, no wonder, no wonder I have spent half of my life so hard and failed so hard, no wonder I have to endure all these pains, being abandoned, being abused, and even losing the person I love the most. Nemesis!
I grabbed the stone pile on the city wall with one hand. The rough stone surface abraded my hand, and blood oozes out, bringing a tingling feeling.

Li Jun looked at me, his usually indifferent face suddenly showed a trace of unbearable.

"However, no one saw you pushing the prince off the boat with his own eyes," he said hesitantly, not knowing whether he was comforting me or forgiving me: "Maybe, some things are not as you thought."

I smiled sadly.

"Didn't you say that only the prince and I were present?"

"..."

He glanced at me silently, and suddenly said: "No, there are others."

"Huh?" I looked at him with wide eyes: "Who?"

"Ling Shaoyang."

"...!?"

The sudden mention of this name caught me off guard, and I couldn't react in my mind for a while. It took me a while to realize what Li Jun was talking about—Ling Shaoyang?Why is he there?

"Ling Shaoyang? Why is he on our boat?"

"Nine years ago, when Ling Shaoyang and his brothers arrived at Ghost Valley, they were said to be protected by Eighteen Qingqi. The journey went smoothly, but when he left Ghost Valley, he couldn't ride a horse anymore."

"why?"

"He was badly wounded, right in the chest, and I heard it almost killed him."

Chest wound? !I suddenly remembered the scar I saw on his chest back then. Under the new scar, there was an old scar. At first glance, I knew it was an old scar left many years ago. Could it be that it was nine years old? Before, left in Ghost Valley?

I hurriedly asked, "How did he get hurt?"

"Mr. Guigu's post is only for you princes and princesses. The shadow guards are not allowed to enter Guigu, so everyone is waiting outside. We are also waiting for you on the boat. We don't know what happened in Guigu. , it was only when you left Ghost Valley that you found out that Ling Shaoyang boarded the boat with you."

For some reason, I feel my heart beating very hard.

I remembered that when Heliancheng was in Xuanwu Shangyang City, Heliancheng had an unfinished sentence. He said that one day, something happened to me, Ling Shaoyang, and Nangong Mizhen. Could it be that he was talking about this injury?

Unfortunately, because of my stubbornness and cowardice, I didn't ask Helian Cheng, nor Nangong.

I thought that these things, as time passed, they should be left in the dust, but I didn't expect that it would still make people feel sad, even heartbroken.

After a while, I calmed myself down, endured the faint pain in my chest, and continued to ask: "Because of his chest injury, he couldn't ride a horse, so he took the same boat with us to leave Ghost Valley, right?"

"Yes." Li Jun nodded: "And that night, the ones at the stern were you and the prince."

My mind became a mess for a while.

Ling Shaoyang was actually there, he was actually on that boat, and he was the only one who witnessed the whole thing, but he didn't say a word during my long time in Qinglong Country.

When I spoke again, my voice was so hollow that there was no warmth at all: "How is he?"

"When we arrived at the stern, you were already unconscious. He hugged you and covered the wound on your face with his hands, which were covered in blood. But he didn't speak, and he didn't have any strange expressions. Later we also I asked him about it, but he refused to say a word about what happened that night."

……

"After all, he is the prince of the Qinglong Kingdom, and there is nothing we can do about it; moreover, he was still seriously injured at the time, and it was impossible to do anything, so after crossing the ferry, we let him disembark."

Saying goodbye and seeing each other again is already the scene in front of the Azure Dragon Hall.

From the beginning to the end, he didn't let me know a little bit about what happened back then. Obviously this was the thing that hit me the most and made me miserable. Why didn't he tell me?

I said sadly: "Since then, we have cut off contact with him?"

Li Jun glanced at me, and was a little strangely silent. I felt something was wrong, so I turned my head and glanced at him. He hesitated for a while before saying: "After that, he once proposed marriage to you."

I suddenly widened my eyes.

Ling Shaoyang, also proposed marriage to me? !
However, in the few years since I woke up, I have spent all of them in the confinement Wangyun Palace. I don't know any news from the outside world, and I don't even know that He Liancheng proposed marriage to me several times, let alone him. .

"He proposed marriage to me—what happened next?"

"We received the news shortly after you woke up, but the emperor - he was angry because of the prince's matter, and Ling Shaoyang was the only person present, but he refused to tell the truth at that time, and in a fit of anger, he spoke viciously at each other... …Ling Shaoyang never mentioned this matter again.”

My voice trembled: "Father, what did you say?"

"...He said, you refuse to agree to this marriage, because Ling Shaoyang is not a prince, and he will only be a prince in the future, and he is not worthy of you. If he wants to marry, he must marry Prince Qinglong."

At this moment, I felt something pierced into my heart, and a piercing pain surged up, and my eyes almost went black.

It turned out—is that so? !
His hatred for me and his endless torment to me were all because of my father's anger and humiliation through my mouth?

He who has always been proud and arrogant, how could he endure such humiliation, so all these years, he has been hating me, even Chu Feng said that he has deep thoughts about me, and that kind of grievance is definitely beyond my imagination. Thinking of it, it turned out to be like this!

But I didn't know about all of this, and I even completely forgot about him.

When we meet again, it is me who married his elder brother, Crown Prince Qinglong, to marry his mother, which also fulfilled the words that my father said to humiliate him. No wonder he humiliated me in every possible way from the first day I married into Qinglong Kingdom. To - Nanyang City, after he knew that I lost my memory.

I remember at that time, I promised to marry him, his face was expressionless, but in those eyes that were always frosted, there was clearly a look that was brighter than the sun, he would smile at me, and he was considerate Considerations keep me away from right and wrong.

It's just that this kind of time is too short...

Later, I betrayed him again, I fell in love with his father, and threw all the embarrassment and humiliation in front of him again.

And he also gave me the deepest wound in my life!
My soul was trembling, as if I wanted to break away from this broken body, and no longer endure the pains that were more cruel than heart-piercing. I turned around and walked down bit by bit, holding on to the walls, every time. Every step is like stepping on the tip of a knife, I don't know when, I will fall down.

In his mouth, he seemed to be able to taste a salty fishy smell. What is that—is it a painful taste?

"Princess……"

Li Jun’s voice sounded behind me again. I stopped and looked back at him standing on the tower. His nearly gray hair was fluttering in the wind. It seemed that after he finished speaking, he aged instantly. What he insisted on was suddenly shattered, his voice was a little dry, and he said slowly: "I am the prince and the prince, and protecting the prince is the mission that I will never forget in my life, so from the very beginning, I have treated you very well." Wary, but it doesn't mean - I don't appreciate you."

……

"You are a person who does great things, and your methods and scheming are much better than those of the prince. The emperor imprisoned you for eight years because your actions are unacceptable to the world. Over the years, we have indeed hated you and hated you for committing crimes. Such a sin."

……

"But now, I think maybe we were wrong."

……

"There are indeed many things that happened back then that we can't explain or guess. But there is one thing, even if a person loses his memory, his temperament will not change. You were expelled from the royal family by the emperor, and you were expelled from the royal family by our people. You hate insults, but until now, you are still protecting Xuanyuan Kingdom, this kind of temperament - not a person who is cruel and ruthless, who kills his brother and seizes power."

……

"If you still want to go on, you have to find out what happened back then, and give yourself a clean account; or, you forget all of this and go on!"

……

"Princess, take care!"

When the carriage left Fengxiang, it was a windy day.

The howling north wind blew violently by my ears, as if it was the howling and roaring of the monster of fate. He was laughing at everyone in the world, poor people like dogs.

Once, I thought I was superior and in control of everything, but today I realized that I was just one of those poor people.

Perhaps, more pitiful.

Ling Si sat beside me, closer to me than usual, and her face was also stained with a touch of anxiety. Seeing me completely numb and soulless, after a long time, she said softly: "Niang Niang."

I looked up at her.

"Let's eat something. It's still some distance away from Qishan. Even if the empress doesn't eat it herself, the child will eat it too."

I was silent for a long time, and finally nodded, she immediately asked Ling Shiduan to bring food, I waved my hand and said no, then I got out of the carriage, everyone looked at me nervously, I took Ling Shiduan and brought it up The hot soup is still fragrant.

After Eleven gave me the soup, I immediately served another bowl to Ling Si. I saw Ling Si's pale face flushed slightly, and my heart moved, so I told them to sit down and eat by themselves. The person walked forward slowly.

Here, it is already close to Qishan Mountain, and the scene of desolate smoke and withered grass has an indescribable desolation.

I walked slowly to the river and looked west. Behind the endless mountains and rivers, there was Ghost Valley, the place that changed my life. The closer I got, the more timid I felt. I knew it a long time ago. My past was difficult to face, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult.

After standing blankly for a long time, I heard a slap, and a tear fell into the soup.

In the ripples, my reflection has blurred.

I sighed and was about to drink the soup when I heard Ling Si's voice behind me: "Ma'am, the soup is already cold."

Turning around, I realized that she and Eleven had been standing ten steps behind me, protecting me. At this moment, she said with concern: "The villain will go and change a bowl for you. Cold things are not good for children. "

It was rare for her to be so careful, I nodded, and Ling Si took the soup bowl and turned to leave.

Eleven stood behind me, silently accompanying me.

After a while, I suddenly said, "Eleven."

"The villain is here." He immediately stepped forward, thinking I had some orders, and listened intently.

I glanced at him: "You, do you like Ling Si?"

"Uh?"

He stared at me with rounded eyes, his bewildered eyes were rather cute, as if he couldn't believe that I would suddenly ask such a sentence, I hooked the corners of my lips, and said with a faint smile: "Is it?"

He was usually grinning and joking, but at this time he felt a little cramped. He looked back at Ling Si who was serving soup in the distance, then at me, and stammered: "Mother... Queen Mother..."

"I like it, right." I smiled: "But you are so procrastinating, when are you going to procrastinate?"

"what?"

"If you like her, you should tell her and let her know. At least, you should give her a chance to choose. Even if she rejects you, at least it will be clear. One will not be unconscious, and the other will be heartbroken."

After all, Ling Shiyi is one of the Eighteen Shadow Guards. Slowly, he seemed to sense something from my words and looked at me.

Looking at my slowly blurred eyes, he tentatively said softly: "Queen Mother, who are you—are you talking about?"

……

I took a long breath, swallowed the sourness, and smiled faintly at him.

At this time, Ling Si was already walking towards us with a soup bowl.

Ling Shiyi looked back at her, and for the first time, those peach blossom eyes showed a serious expression, watching her slowly walk over.

The wind was getting stronger and stronger, and the withered and yellow grass under my feet was blown up and down, like a yellow wave, brushing the hem of my skirt lightly. The sound of the wind was like someone crying in my ear, getting louder and louder. It was getting heavier and heavier, and there was an indescribable sadness.

But at this moment, Ling Si's footsteps stopped suddenly.

Ling Shiyi's figure also froze for a moment, and both of them raised their heads, looked at me with wide eyes, and saw their expressions, as if they were listening intently, with nervousness showing in their eyes.

"how--"

Before I finished speaking, I heard Ling Si shouting: "It's Ling Yi's signal!"

"There are enemies!"

Ling Shiyi yelled loudly, rushed to me, and spread his arms to protect me.

At this moment, I saw that the river water not far from my feet suddenly started to bubble, and it was getting bigger and bigger, and the color of the water was getting more and more cloudy, as if someone lit a fire below and boiled the river up!

"careful!"

Ling Si also rushed up and stood side by side with Eleven!

At this moment, there was a loud bang, the river exploded violently, and a column of water several feet high sprang up. Several black figures leaped out of the water curtain, and the swords in their hands shone coldly. , Straight to me!
assassin? !
I was shocked, I didn't expect my whereabouts to be exposed.

Who sent these assassins? !
(End of this chapter)