A heartbeat, a lifetime

Chapter 13: Like Love (3)
It was snowing, and I pulled up the hood of my coat, buried my chin and lips in the collar, and absorbed the only warmth I had.

The time seems extremely long in such an empty world, bit by bit, bit by bit, it has worn away all my patience.To pass the time, I tremblingly took out my phone and clicked on Weibo.

Not surprisingly, I received "@" from Xu Zhuo and Lulu who wished me a happy birthday. My heart warmed up a little bit, and I replied one by one.Looking at state affairs, entertainment news and so on, he was enjoying himself for a while, as if he forgot his own situation.When he came back to his senses, he looked at the time again, more than an hour had passed.

The "half an hour" Shen Qinjun said turned out to be so long.

Is a monthly salary of [-] really that easy to earn? !I laughed at myself, should I continue to wait, or forget it?
I hesitated for a moment, and dialed a number. The monotonous beep sounded for a long time, until it turned into a mechanical female voice: "Hi, the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered..."

"Forget it," I said to myself, but still stood still.

What Shen Qinjun loves is Qin Mou, I know, I just acted for him to deceive myself, but...he never broke his promise to me.Since he didn't let me go first, should I...hold on to that faint hope?

During the battle between heaven and man, the lights of a large car in the distance made me a little dizzy. I subconsciously walked forward a few steps, and my heart was faintly happy: He is back?
As he got closer, he realized that the car was not the one Shen Qinjun was used to driving.

When I was depressed, I didn't even notice that there were not many people driving this huge off-road vehicle that looked like a tank in this city.When he stopped beside me, the man called my name in surprise: "Bai Xi?"

"Ah? Master?" I saw the chiseled face clearly, and also saw the curious beauty in the passenger seat, and said dully, "What a coincidence."

"What are you doing here? Get in the car." Mai Zhendong shook his head back and asked suspiciously, "Are you waiting for someone?"

"Hmm." I opened the car door and sat on it, only to find that my knuckles were already numb from the cold, and once I was in the well-heated compartment, I sneezed several times.

"Have you eaten yet? Come and eat something with me." He continued to drive forward, introducing me casually, "This is my girlfriend Wang Man."

In fact, I didn't take much effort to remember the beauty's name. Anyway, Mai Zhendong's girlfriend has a two-month shelf life and has never broken it, so I just smiled at her and greeted her briefly.

He went to the same club, and the waiter looked a little surprised when he saw me, and then he became more attentive.I walked with my head down, Mai Zhendong slowed down and walked to me, asking in a voice only I could hear: "Who are you waiting for?"

I don't answer.

His tone gradually turned harsh, "I don't care about others. If it's Shen Qinjun, Bai Xi, you'd better think carefully."

I subconsciously looked up at him, the corners of his lips were tightly pursed, and the seriousness in his eyes was beyond my imagination: "Shen Qinjuan is a stubborn person. There is no one else in his eyes except Qin Mou. Bai Xi, we No matter what your relationship is, you'd better be sober."

"We are not the kind of relationship you think. Mr. Shen is looking for me for business." I defended a little weakly, but guilty of avoiding his eyes, until I sat down on the seat.

Mai Zhendong glanced at me indifferently, probably seeing that I was absent-minded, and ordered directly.

The waiter brought up a cup of pumpkin and bird's nest. I ate it in two bites. Listening to Mai Zhendong talking and laughing with his girlfriend, I continued to check Weibo.

One of the most popular Weibo, I scanned a name and clicked in.

It was forwarded by a passerby, "Qin Mou, who seems to have returned to China, went shopping with her boyfriend."

I clicked on the picture, and my hands were shaking when buffering.

Will it be him?

The shirt and trousers are the same as the ones I was wearing just now... The girl who always surprises me in profile, is gently supporting the girl beside her, said something between her sides, with a vague and soft smile.

Heh, the man who left in a hurry and came back in half an hour... was shopping with his favorite woman, so he didn't even bother to call his substitute to cancel this ridiculous date.

I warmed my hands with that cup of tea, and the words Mai Zhendong said over and over again in my mind:

Shen Qinjun is a stubborn person.There is no one else in his eyes except Qin Mou.

……

Bystanders can see that I am really the only one who is trapped in that little trap.

The mood that has been suppressed to this moment, low self-esteem, sadness, loss, longing... finally got out of hand.With red eyes, I hurriedly stood up, ignoring the surprised eyes of Mai Zhendong and his girlfriend, and hurriedly said: "I'm going to the bathroom."

After pushing open the door, tears had already flowed down, completely muddling the eye makeup that was originally put on simply.While crying, I felt stupid. Did I sell myself for the few 10 yuan, or was it because of the disgusting little thoughts in my heart? !

She shed tears for a while, looked at herself in a mess in the mirror, and suddenly grinned again—something hit the bottom of the valley and rebounded again.

After all, a person's similar love can never be love.

I'm Bai Xi!The assistant photographer who was scolded by Mai Zhendong, squatting outside silently for a while and recovering automatically; the white-collar worker who left photography and went to work from [-] to [-] because of a fascination with one glance——Because of the temporary temptation, it is very unprincipled The idiot who promised to help with acting.By now, the game should be over.

Because of this absurd relationship, I no longer look like Bai Xi who has lived for more than 20 years!
I washed my face three times and two times, and it was not bad to cut the mess quickly.

When getting out of the car, Mai Zhendong looked me up and down several times, "Are you sure you're okay?"

I pulled the biggest smile I could put on, "It's okay."

He drove his little girlfriend away, and I didn't want to go home for a while, so I went into a coffee shop at the gate of the community.After ordering a cup of milk tea, I stared at all kinds of cute desserts in the freezer for a long time, and said to the clerk, "I want a mango cheese."

This night, the store was quiet, only a few couples were whispering in the booth in the corner.Under the warm orange light, the mood that has been entangled all night has finally settled. I stared at the little cake in front of me, imagining the appearance of candles on it, closed my eyes, and made a wish.

When I opened my eyes, I picked up my phone and texted Shen Qinjun word by word.

"Mr. Shen, I think the most important thing to love someone is honesty, not tricks and tricks. Our agreement is hereby terminated, and I think you will be able to reconcile soon."

I picked up the mug and drank the sweet liquid in it with great earnestness.The phone was quietly put aside and never rang again.Maybe I'm doing too much, they're already reconciled.Thinking about it this way, I felt a happy feeling after Ling Chi had passed.

The hour hand of the watch slipped to eleven o'clock quietly, and the couples had already left one after another, and the waiter was hiding behind the counter to play games.I was too lazy to move, and the phone suddenly vibrated.

I was so excited that I usually looked at the screen reflexively.

It was from Xu Zhuo: Girl, are you having fun?I'm not coming back tonight, happy birthday.

I lowered my head to reply to the text message, and suddenly felt that something was wrong. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a black corner of my clothes, and then I looked up, and saw a face that seemed to be smiling but not a smiling face—a man with his hands in his trouser pockets, as if he was in the dust. The one who rushed over stood still and looked at me, "Bai Xi, you're not so stubborn."

I stiffened my neck and looked away, "Did you get my text message?"

As if he didn't hear it, he sat down on the seat opposite me, his thin lips curled into an arc, as if the crescent moon outside the floor-to-ceiling window at this moment is cool and clear.

"I thought you'd be waiting there for me." He took my glass of lemonade without any surprise, and took a sip. "You left first?"

The moment I heard this sentence, I was not angry.

It's like a living person whose skin and flesh and blood have been stripped away, and when there is only one heart beating, it will only feel sad, right?I asked calmly, "Why should I wait for you?"

He was startled, with a smile on his brow, as if he thought I was a kid asking for sweets, "Because I prepared a cake for you there."

"You should know that clubhouse is very private and high-end, right?" I smiled slightly, "You can go in, Qin Mou can go in, what am I? I don't even have the qualifications to go in. Mr. Shen, do you know what you call Wait, do you want me to stand alone at the door, in the heavy snow, and wait from 07:30 to eleven o'clock?"

The smile on his face gradually disappeared, the eyes that fascinated me narrowed beautifully, and he said lightly: "You have been standing outside?"

"I'm not that stupid." I still smiled slightly, "A while ago, I overestimated my strength and agreed to your ridiculous request. But Mr. Shen, the difference between me and Qin Mou is probably the private club and the roadside The milk tea shop is so big - I also have my own life, please agree, I don't want to continue."

He remained silent, stretched out his hand to unbutton a button around his neck, and slowly moved his gaze to my face.

"It's late, I want to go home." I said what I wanted to say, and felt that it would be boring to sit like this, so I reached out and asked the waiter to pay the bill.

"Did I tell you that I decide the start and end of this game?" His voice was not loud, but his eyes were so menacing, as if he had changed in an instant.

(End of this chapter)