Concubine Mad Concubine

Chapter 255

"It turns out that the person who understands me best in this world is Hongyu."

Hongyu's eyes lit up immediately, and the corners of her mouth couldn't help but raised, she nodded and said in agreement: "Of course, I not only know you best, but I will also be the only person in this world who will never hurt you."

"Then what do you think I should do?"

Hongyu patted her hand, stood up, and turned around: "In my heart, I naturally hope that you can give up on him completely, and it's best to break with him once and for all."

A clean severance, no contact between old age and death?Xiyan on the bed was stunned for a moment, looking at Hongyu's figure, her eyes widened, she felt like a heart was being pricked by cotton needles, a little bit like ripples on the water, slowly rippling away, vividly , sharp pain, upset, biting his lip, fine cold sweat broke out on his forehead.

Hongyu didn't look back, and chuckled lightly: "Look, it's impossible for you to do that. No matter who he is, you can't let go of his hand. If that's the case, what are you still struggling with?"

Xiyan sighed softly: "Go down and prepare hot water for you to clean your wound."

The lotus steps move lightly, and the fragrant wind blows. Every step is like stepping on a steel wire. Even though every step is careful, it is still extremely heavy. Finally, I walked to the door, turned around, and looked at Xi lying on the bed. At a glance, the red candles in the house were flickering, and the face against it became paler and more haggard, and the wound on his forehead was even more hideous. With red eyes, he closed the door little by little, red eyes, looking up at the starry sky, teary eyes Turbulent, like rain, I don't know when it will stop.

No matter what I do for you, your heart will still stay on him after all, and you will never be able to stop for me for a moment, this is life.

Xi Yan was facing the door, seeing the door closing little by little, the doors and windows closed tightly, the surroundings were quiet, she was the only one lying on the bed in the room, the red candles flickering around, except for the slightly dark yellow light , almost the same as that Ye Mingzhu, every thing and every thing, you can see clearly, all of this is for that person, but is there still a need for them to exist now?
Xiyan lifted the quilt, stood up suddenly from the bed, bent her legs, not caring about the whip wounds on her back, bent over, leaned her head on her legs, grabbed the quilt beside her, and hugged her tightly In his arms, he clenched his hands into fists and held them in his mouth, whimpering like a wounded animal, tears pouring down like rain.

Hongyu is right, she can't let go of Xia Yebai, really can't let go of Xia Yebai's acceptance, he is her goal and motivation to survive in this place, everything she does is for him, and now, But someone told her in another way that he didn't need her protection at all, so what did she do before?She felt like a joke, a complete fool, she couldn't accept it, really couldn't accept it.

The prince's mansion cleaned up the door, the prime minister's mansion fought, and at the old matriarch's birthday banquet, what were those two ginseng fruits?Because of him, she willingly became a thief. When eating ginseng fruit, how did he think of herself, and what did she care about?In the Huichunfang competition, she was really trying her best to give him dignity in Dongchen Mansion. When she was hurt because of him, sad because of him, and broke her heart because of him, did he feel pity and love for herself, or did he feel Everything she did was superfluous, is she too meddlesome?So there are so many jokes, is it her own fault for being hurt and sad?Does she deserve everything?
She thinks so much, is it because of cheating and fooling, or is she worried that she is useless to him, like those people, he is just playing a game of cat and mouse with herself, playing with herself in the palm of her hand?If it's just a joke, why are you saying those things?And when was she so soft-hearted, because she was tempted by such a few simple words?
Now it seems that he should be responsible for the drugs of Taohualin Xiachen and Mo Yunfei, and he should have attracted those people, as well as Xia Junchi and Li Jianhui. Why do you have to do so many things again?
Yilou, Lianyuan, the guards of Baicaotang, and the birthday party of the palace, since they are so heartless, why do they do these things?
"What if you find out I lied to you?"

It's not without doubts, I even had such an idea in my heart long ago, otherwise I wouldn't have tried it many times, but Xia Yebai, since you are so capable, why don't you carefully build a cage for me, and hold me firmly? Captivity, why let me out, why let me know these things?Didn't you say it, even if you lie to me, don't let me find out, it turns out that you can deceive yourself and others, that is also a kind of happiness.

Is it your fault for not confessing everything to me?But I didn't want to know this fact from the beginning to the end, how can you ask me to blame you?What right do I have to blame you? It wasn't your fault in the first place. Could it be her fault?You want so many guarantees, are you worried that one day I will leave you?

"Why are you lying to me?"

All the misfortunes in my life come from deception, but why do you want me to rush into hell after enjoying the normal taste of happiness?I am not an invincible and perfect person, and I cannot accept this sense of gap.

"You can be coquettish, you can be willful, you can make trouble for no reason, it doesn't matter if you cause trouble, but why do you want to lie to me?"

Xi Yan sat on the bed and muttered to herself, her heart was in a mess, the back of her hand in her mouth was bleeding continuously, the blood was stained, and the teeth marks were deep, she fell on the bed and buried her whole head in the quilt.

She really wanted to cry loudly, but since she was a child, for more than ten years, she seems to have forgotten what it means to cry loudly, and she just kept whimpering and sobbing, in the silent night , people can't help but feel sad.

Hongyu walked to the door, turned around, closed the door, and fell to the ground slumped, holding her knees with her hands, looking up at the sky, her tears fell more and more urgently like rain.

The door was closed little by little, and only Xiyan was left in the whole room. The red candles were flickering all around. Xiyan, who was sitting on the bed, suddenly bent her legs, bent over, grabbed the bed sheet, and hugged her. In his arms, his hands were clenched into fists, and he held it in his mouth, whimpering like an injured animal.

Hongyu was leaning against the door, and soon noticed the movement inside, startled, straightened up, wanted to turn around a few times, but resisted, leaned against the door, looked at the stars in the sky, kept falling With tears in his eyes, by her side, doesn't he just want to ward off all disasters for her?But why, why is she so sad now?

(End of this chapter)