obsessed with love

Chapter 257 The Cemetery
The next day Du Ruo got up at dawn and took it to the cemetery.

Lu Shuangfeng's funeral at that time was arranged by Qiao Anming, so he also bought the natural cemetery, and chose a better location on the mountainside facing south.

I have to climb a long section of the mountain road, and the injury on my arm is still not healed, and Qiao Anming has been spoiled by Qiao Anming during this time, and after walking for a while, she yells for her mother to hug her.

Du Ruo had no choice but to hold the chrysanthemum in one hand and hold it in the other, which was very laborious.

After walking for a while, halfway up the mountain, the morning light had diffused over the top of the mountain, and the fog in the mountain gradually dissipated, revealing the tombstones, pines and cypresses.

Du Ruo remembered that the last time she came here was the year before last. On the day of Lu Shuangfeng's death, she entrusted the entrustment to Zheng Xiaoran. She hurried back to scan the tomb, and retrace the words on the tombstone. Yi County.

She came back very rarely over the years.

Occasionally, when Du Ruo wanted to come back to see her father and younger brother, she tried to avoid the Spring Festival and holidays. As for the reason, she and Du Liangxing both knew it well.

A divorced woman hooked up with a rich man as a mistress and gave birth to an illegitimate child. Later, the rich man didn't want her, so she had to live alone with the child.

This kind of storyline is simply a farce in the eyes of outsiders, not to mention that in this small county, after-dinner conversation is inevitable, and what is even more sad is that others will talk about you with a sour and sympathetic tone.

A single mother, a mistress, a mistress, a vixen who destroys other people's families, ended up like this...

Hmm... Maybe there's an even worse way to say it.

In fact, Du Ruo doesn't care about these things, she is used to hearing them, and they are all facts, but she can't let her relatives bear the infamy behind her back, let alone being young, she can't let her neighbors in the village criticize her.

So the number of times she has come back these years can be counted on the fingers, and even less when she brought them back.

If I remember correctly, this should be the first time I have come to see Lu Shuangfeng.

"Come here, it's over..."

Du Ruo put the flowers in front of the tombstone, knelt down first, then beckoned to stand beside her, and smiled lightly, "Mom, it's over..."

Liao tilted his head, looked at the photo on the tombstone and asked, "Mom, who's on it?"

"It's grandma, you kneel down and call grandma..."

"Grandma...?" Liao seemed to hear this term for the first time in his narrow consciousness, "What is grandma?"

"Grandma is my mother's mother..."

"Then why is grandma here?"

"Because grandma passed away, she will live here after she dies." Du Ruo put his arms around his waist, and carried him to the tombstone, "Mom... I brought him to see you, you have never seen him before Well, he has grown so big, he will be three years old in a few days, and he is getting skinnier, and he can't control him anymore..."

Du Ruo supported his waist, talking to himself to the photo on the tombstone.

The little guy didn't understand anything anyway, so he just stood there foolishly.

Du Ruo looked at the photo on the tombstone. In the photo, Lu Shuangfeng still looked fresh and neat.

"Mom... Are you disappointed in me? You don't want me to be with Qiao Anming so much, but I still went my own way and gave birth to the child."

Her voice gradually choked up, and she quickly wiped the corners of her eyes with her hands.

"Now that I know a lot of things, I should go to kindergarten next year. I have suffered a lot with my children all these years, but I have never found someone else. I met Qiao Anming."

Du Ruo hugged her in her arms, and the back of the little guy's head was pressed against her side face. She continued: "His wife passed away some time ago, and he wanted me to follow him and move to Chongzhou, but I didn't." Promise, I have been used to being alone all these years, and I never expected to be able to be with him, but now he suddenly appeared, it seems that everything is messed up again..."

On the minibus home from the cemetery, Du Ruo hugged her, cheek to cheek.

The car wobbled on the mountain road, and the little guy was about to fall asleep.

"It's over..."

"Mother…"

"Do you miss Dad?"

"think."

"Mom wants to too."

"Then mother go to find father, is father gone again?"

Du Ruo kissed the little guy on the forehead: "No, Dad is waiting for us."

Du Ruo took it with him and stayed at home for a week. This should be the longest time he has lived at his grandfather's house since he grew up, and it was also the most peaceful week Du Ruo had spent in Xuancheng in recent years.

She didn't contact Qiao Anming, and Qiao Anming didn't contact her either.

Zheng Xiaoran really went to England and took photos along the way and sent them to Du Ruo.

Tower Bridge, the British Museum, the River Thames, and Big Ben, she seemed to be having a good time. Du Ruo heaved a sigh of relief and called her: "Say hello to Mo Youting for me."

Zheng Xiaoran froze for a moment, and readily agreed: "Okay, definitely."

A week later, Du Ruo's vacation was used up, and the pharmacy proprietress called her to ask when she could go back to work.

She bid farewell to her family, and took a plan to go back to Yi County.

Du Liangxing sent her to the station and called her to stop when he entered the station.

"You're still young, and you always need a father. If he has the sincerity to accept your mother and child, it might be a good thing."

Du Ruo thought for a while, then nodded: "Okay, I understand, I will think about it carefully."

When Du Ruo arrived in Yixian County, Zheng Xiaoran had already returned from England and drove to pick up their mother and son in person.

"Here!" As soon as Du Ruo got into the car, Zheng Xiaoran handed over a red paper bag.

"what?"

"Red Bomb, Xiaobai and I will send you the first wedding invitation!"

Du Ruo was surprised: "So soon? Didn't you say that the wedding will be held on Valentine's Day in February next year?"

"That was the plan at first, but Xiaobai's parents were in a hurry, and I thought it would have to be settled sooner or later, so I agreed." Zheng Xiaoran explained, and Du Ruo made sense after thinking about it.

"Xiaobai is afraid that you will run away, hahaha...he is really impatient." Du Ruo put the invitation into his backpack and asked, "How does it feel to go to England this time?"

"What about it? London is fun, big and lively, except for the bad weather. I stayed there for three days and never saw the sun. It rained every day, and it was cold and wet, so I didn't know Mo Why did You Ting choose such a place to study catering management? Is that place inhabited?"

Zheng Xiaoran looked very sorry for Mo Youting.

Du Ruo frowned: "You clearly know that I'm not asking about the weather in London, I'm asking about people in London."

"People in London are very nice, British gentlemen."

"...Are you pretending to be stupid again? I'm asking Mo Youting, you flew halfway around the world to meet him this time, what did he say? Did you tell him about your getting married?"

Zheng Xiaoran lowered his head when he heard the words: "Actually, I didn't tell him when I went to England this time."

"What do you mean by not telling him?"

"It's just that he doesn't know that I went to London to see him."

Du Ruo sorted things out in his head, but he couldn't digest these words.

"That is to say, you spent so much money to fly halfway around the world, but you never saw Mo Youting at all?"

"It doesn't count. I saw him, but he didn't see me. I asked him for the address of the school and dormitory in advance, and then sat in the cafe he must pass every morning and evening to wait for him. Twice a day, he He shows up on the road outside the cafe on time every day, which shows that he has not messed around in England, and his private life is very regular." When Zheng Xiaoran said this, he actually smiled, it was a calm and gratifying smile from the bottom of his heart.

Du Ruo didn't know how to answer the words for a while.

At this time, Zheng Xiaoran's expression should be slightly sad, but there was no trace of grief on her face at all.

"He seems to have changed a bit, thinner and darker. He used to look like a white and tender boy, a rich man, but now he looks like a mature man, hehe..." Zheng Xiaoran continued.

Du Ruo smiled: "Did you completely forgive him?"

"Actually, I've forgiven you a long time ago. What's more, I couldn't tell who was right and who was wrong with him. He doesn't like me, so it can't be his fault."

"Yes, many things are unclear."

"So I don't blame him all these years, and at this age, many things have become indifferent, not to mention that I have Xiaobai now, and Xiaobai is the person I should cherish. I went to England before I got married, not for Say goodbye to him, I want to say goodbye to the first person I like, to say goodbye to my first serious relationship..."

Dependence arises and extinction, let him pass away the lost feelings, say goodbye well, because you deserve a better future.

Du Ruo took it to the hospital to remove the stitches, and the wound healed well, but because the puncture was deep at that time, it was very likely to leave a scar, but it was a man, and a small scar on a man's hand was nothing.

Then Du Ruo started to go to work in the pharmacy, and still picked him up sooner or later.

When the colleagues in the store asked about her and Qiao Anming, she laughed it off. She felt that the recent mood was disturbed by Qiao Anming's sudden appearance. She had to let her heart settle down, and then she could see clearly what she wanted. .

As for Qiao Anming, he couldn't hold back his anger, and he really didn't contact Du Ruo again, except for sending her a few text messages.

"My mother wants to see you again, can you let me come to the city to stay with my mother for a few days?"

When Du Ruo saw this text message, he didn't reply quickly.

Qiao Anming followed up with another text message: "Is it embarrassing you? If it's embarrassing, then forget it."

His tone was very respectful and polite. Du Ruo really didn't feel used to it. After thinking for a while, he replied: "You can pick him up tomorrow morning. I will ask his teacher for a few days off."

The next day, Qiao Anming's car arrived at the downstairs of Du Ruo, but Xiao Zhang was the only one.

"Miss Du, I'm here to pick up the child."

Du Ruo thanked him politely, carried him to the car, told him to be obedient there, and put the little guy's clothes in the trunk.

"I brought clothes for a week, but the stitches have just been removed from the wound, so it is not easy to take a bath, because you can't touch the water, and you can't eat seafood, fish and shrimp for the time being, otherwise the wound is prone to inflammation... Also, he likes to hug a pillow when he sleeps at night, Go back and talk to Qiao Anming."

Du Ruo explained some details to Xiao Zhang, closed the car door and planned to leave.

Xiao Zhang stood by and called to stop her.

"Anything else?" Du Ruo asked.

Xiao Zhang faltered and scratched his head: "Mr. Qiao has been very busy recently. He seems to be going to meet some big clients in the morning. He really can't get away, so he can only let me pick it up by himself."

He thought Du Ruo would mind, but she shook her head: "I know, it doesn't matter."

In the few days after Liao left, Du Ruo seemed to have lost his soul, wandering around the house alone at night, always feeling like there was a hole in his heart.

I thought that Qiao Anming would send the child back in a week, but after only three days, Xiao Zhang appeared at the door of the pharmacy again, this time not driving Qiao Anming's car, but a strange Audi.

"Xiao Zhang, why are you here? Did you come to deliver it?"

"No, I'm here to take Miss Du to Chongzhou."

"Go to Chongzhou? What does Qiao Anming mean?"

"No, Mr. Qiao didn't ask me to come this time. This time, it's the old lady who wants to see you..."

Du Ruo immediately refused: "I won't go."

Xiao Zhang was a little embarrassed: "Go, Miss Du, the old lady was hospitalized again last night, and her condition is getting worse and worse. If you don't go to see her this time, I'm afraid you won't have a chance in the future."

After all, Du Ruo was still soft-hearted. Hearing what Xiao Zhang said, she still asked for leave to get in the car.

At the entrance of the hospital, Du Ruo asked Xiao Zhang to wait for her, and she got out of the car and went to the fruit shop opposite to buy a box of grapes and apples.

The old lady still lives in the VIP ward on the top floor of the Chinese Medicine Hospital.

Xiao Zhang directly took Du Ruo to the door of the ward.

"It's inside, go in by yourself."

"She's alone?"

"It should be. She asked me to pick you up without telling Mr. Qiao." Xiao Zhang turned and left after speaking.

Du Ruo stood at the door for a while, then pushed open the heavy wooden door and walked in. The strong smell of disinfectant water spread over the surface.

She was too familiar with this smell. In the ten years before Xiaofan's operation, the whole family was in despair and aphasia countless times under the permeation of this smell.

For Du Ruo, this smell means death and uncertain fear.

However, the decoration of the VIP ward is luxurious and the environment is pleasant, so the breath of death is somewhat diluted.

Du Ruo walked in on the soft carpet, turned around a small fully enclosed living room, and then opened his eyes.

White gauze curtains, floor-to-ceiling windows and matching mahogany furniture, snacks and toys are piled up on the table and fabric sofa, and it looks like it has been prepared.

Ren Peiyin was sitting in a wheelchair, wearing a light gray sweater and a black wool cap, with her arms folded and her back facing the door, her back was depressed, which was extremely out of harmony with the atmosphere in the ward.

Du Ruo didn't know what kind of old man she was going to see in a while. She remembered Ren Peiyin as very powerful, with a lonely expression on her face, so she took a breath, suppressed her nervousness, and put the fruit gift box in her hand on the ground.

The person in the wheelchair heard movement behind him and turned the wheelchair around with difficulty.

Du Ruo kept his breath in the lung cavity, but he dared not exhale it.

This is still the Ren Peiyin in her memory, the Ren Peiyin in her memory is shrewd and ruthless, but the old man in front of her is extremely thin, with a gray face, and her whole body is terminally ill and weak.

"Here you come?... Sit down." The old lady spoke weakly, and she swiped her finger in the air, signaling Du Ruo to sit on the sofa.

Du Ruo was stunned for a few seconds, but she really obediently obeyed her wishes.

"Are you scared by me like this? It's like this when I'm sick, I'm half dead..." Ren Peiyin said as she stretched her arms and turned the wheels of the electric wheelchair. She wanted to move the wheelchair to Du Ruo so that she could talk to her face to face. , but the wheels were stuck too tightly on the carpet, and she really had no strength in her hands, so after spinning for a long time, the wheelchair was still in place.

Du Ruo couldn't stand it anymore, walked to the back of her wheelchair, pushed it lightly, and the wheel rolled forward.

"Where do you want to go?"

"Let's just face you, it's convenient for us to talk." Ren Peiyin replied, and Du Ruo pushed the wheelchair to the front of the sofa as she said.

"It's useless to be old, and I can't do these things now..." Ren Peiyin laughed at herself, and then said, "You sit down too, since you're here, don't rush to leave, I asked Mama Chen to take it out to play, We can talk for a while."

say what?
Du Ruo didn't ask any questions, just sat quietly on the sofa and watched Ren Peiyin.

Ren Peiyin has always spoken directly, straight to the point: "Let me apologize to you first."

"apologize?"

"Well, I apologize for what I did to you three years ago and what I said."

"I forgot." Du Ruo smiled, "If you brought me all the way to apologize, then you don't need it. I don't need it, and I never blamed you."

"This is against your will, girl, you must hate me in your heart."

"No, if I hate it, I won't let Li come to see you."

"You are coaxing me, a dying person, but you must hate it in your heart, I know, you must hate it." Ren Peiyin repeated the word "hate" twice, "I treated you so well back then, opposed An Ming and Gu Lan divorced, and later tried to take custody of her, so how could you not hate me?"

Du Ruo felt that the scene at that time was a bit funny.

Is an old lady so sickly and frail, sitting in a wheelchair, counting her crimes?
"So what if you hate it, so what if you don't hate it! It's been so long since then, I don't want to mention it again."

"If you don't mention it, it doesn't mean it didn't happen. Now that Gu Lan is gone, there are some things you couldn't say before, but now it's better to say it clearly." Ren Peiyin leaned sickly on the wheelchair, her voice was very low and weak, but her momentum was definitely not lose.

Du Ruo instantly felt that he was wrong. Even though the old lady was sick like this, her aura remained undiminished.

"Speak clearly, between me and you, is there anything I haven't explained clearly?"

"Of course there is nothing between us, I mean you and An Ming."

"Don't worry, since I didn't cling to him back then, it's the same now." Du Ruo didn't know why, and began to feel wronged.

The old lady pulled her dry lips and smiled: "Look, are you in a hurry again? I haven't said anything yet. You don't need to be in such a hurry to separate yourself from my son, let alone you are so old. Are you still clearing things up?"

"Then what do you mean?"

"I mean..." Ren Peiyin moved her gaze out of the window, "I took two injections of pethidine before you came to see me, otherwise I don't think I might even have the strength to sit here, so you have seen my situation, I In this way, it may not be possible to see the grass turn green next year. I want to tell you what I think while I still have the strength to speak. I have always disapproved of you and An Ming being together before, and I may not agree now, because you are too young , 20 years younger than An Ming, I'm afraid you are not sincere to him. What's more, An Ming has so much property, you have it again..."

Du Ruo snorted coldly, and interrupted Ren Peiyin: "Are you afraid that I will take advantage of your Qiao family's property? Then you think too highly of me, I don't have the brains! If you think I'm not safe, I will You can take it away and let their father and son never meet again!"

As she spoke, her eyes began to sore, and her vision was blurred. She didn't know why she had to travel all the way here to suffer another blow.

"Do you know why I gave birth back then? I never expected that Qiao Anming would marry me, let alone use the child to seize the family property. Back then, I was willing to give birth to the child despite rumors. The only thing I thought of was Qiao Anming has no heirs. He is so old and has such a cold temper. I am afraid that if he gets rid of him, he will be alone for the rest of his life! So I want to save a seed for him, but when it comes to you, why did it become a deliberate plan? ?”

Du Ruo couldn't stand it any longer.

Even though she was lying in Qiao Anming's arms, she didn't cry much after suffering all these years, but now facing this terminally ill old man, she cried tears all over her face.

Ren Peiyin was still expressionless, tilted her head and smiled: "You see, you are still in a hurry, and you have to listen to me. I know that An Ming is excellent in all aspects. Now that Gu Lan has passed away, if he really returns If you want to marry again, there must be a lot of young girls vying to marry him, but he is stubborn, and he can only accommodate you in his heart these years. I don't know what is good about you, but I know his temper. It's not easy to change, so I have no choice but to admit it, and you have another son, who is my grandson, so even if I don't want to, but from the perspective of Li, I still hope You and An Ming settle down as soon as possible, and give the child a complete home as soon as possible."

The conversation suddenly changed again, Du Ruo's tears were still on her face, she didn't know whether to be angry or sad.

The old lady was still leaning on the wheelchair, and hugged her hands: "Don't look at me like this, I know what I said is not nice, but please understand the mood of a mother, An Ming had a hard life when Gu Lan was here, Gu Lan is weak and has a delicate temper, but now that Gu Lan is gone, I hope that An Ming can live a more relaxed life in the future, whether it is a good career or a family, everything should be smooth, so that I can go away with peace of mind."

After she finished speaking weakly and hoarsely, she smiled forcefully again, the skin at the corners of her mouth was all wrinkled together due to slack and thinness.

Du Ruo was a little angry at first, but after hearing what she said, she suddenly felt relieved.

She has also asked herself many times over the years, whether she hates Ren Peiyin or not, she can't give an answer, but at this moment, she can easily tell herself in her heart that she does not hate.

Ren Peiyin's method may not be correct, but the starting point is for Qiao Anming's good.

Mothers in the world are generally like this. Du Ruo didn't understand it before, but since she was born, she gradually understood.

When she was leaving, Ren Peiyin called her to stop and thanked her sincerely: "I am actually very grateful that you allowed me to be recognized as a grandma. In addition, I am also grateful that you did not destroy her three years ago. ..."

Du Ruo smiled wryly, but did not continue what she said, but said: "I will stay here with you for a few more days, and ask Qiao Anming to arrange for someone to send him back next Monday."

Then she turned around and left, and when she walked past the two boxes of fruit, Du Ruo stopped again: "This is the first time I've seen you, and I don't know what to buy, I remember Qiao Anming mentioned to me that you like grapes, so I bought some."

Ren Peiyin's nose pantothenic acid: "Okay, I will eat."

In fact, where can she still eat grapes, she has been unable to eat recently, and can only rely on infusions to maintain.

When Du Ruo came out of Ren Peiyin's ward, she heard crying from the other end of the corridor.

"Mom, what should I do if you're gone? I'm the only one left, and I'm deserted when I go home..."

The sharp shout stopped Du Ruo in place, and she looked up at the sign hanging on the wall not far away: "Tumor Inpatient Ward".

This should be the last stop in life, where many people will slowly stop breathing.

She suddenly realized that if Ren Peiyin was gone, then Qiao Anming would really be alone.

Du Ruo returned to Yi County that day, and the next two days were quite peaceful.

She didn't contact Qiao Anming, and she didn't send it back when she got it. According to the previous agreement between Qiao Anming and her, she should be back in two days, that is, next Monday, but before Monday, Du Ruo waited for an unfamiliar call.

"Hello, Ms. Du, I'm Peng Yuchu, is it convenient for you to speak now?"

Du Ruo was sorting out the newly arrived medicines in the warehouse at the time, and panicked when he heard the word "Peng Yuchu": "It's convenient, just tell me."

"It's like this. Mr. Qiao's mother passed away, and he entrusted me to arrange the funeral. After thinking about it, I think you should come and see, so I asked Xiao Zhang for your number."

The medicine box in Du Ruo's hand fell to the ground with a "snap", and he couldn't recover for a long time.

Peng Yuchu thought she didn't want to go, so he said in a cold tone, "If Ms. Du finds it inconvenient, then pretend that I never made this call."

"No, I was just too surprised." She bent down to pick up the medicine box and asked, "When did you die?"

"At home in the early hours of last night."

"What about Qiao Anming? Does he matter?"

"Mr. Qiao... Mr. Qiao is very sad, but he can hold on. After all, the old lady's affairs have to be arranged by him." Peng Yuchu thought for a while, and then asked: "Miss Du, can you come over? I'm still in Chongzhou , Qiao always arranges for the servants at home to take it with you, but Qiao always doesn’t know about my calling you, so if you want to come, I will arrange another car to pick you up.”

Du Ruo thought for a moment: "Give me the address of the funeral, and I'll go there by myself."

But in the end Du Ruo didn't go.

In what capacity is she going?

Got mom?The woman Qiao Anming raised outside?

Gu Lan just passed away in the first half of the year, if Du Ruo appeared at Ren Peiyin's funeral in the second half of the year, how would outsiders think of Qiao Anming?So she chose to remain silent, not calling or contacting Qiao Anming.

(End of this chapter)