obsessed with love

Made a big mistake
Seeing the old monk sitting in the side hall from afar, the old lady was impatient, and was about to walk over in three steps at a time. Chen Ma hurried to catch up with her and helped her step over the high steps to enter.

The side hall may be located in a cold place, so it is much cooler than the main hall outside.

The old monk was sitting on one side of the chair, dozing off, holding a Buddhist bead in his hand.There was a floor fan on the ground behind him, turning its head and blowing, shaking the prayer flags.

A few plates of incense were burning above the altar, and a few annoying flies stared at the offerings and circled around.

This is actually a very ordinary local temple, there are not many monks, and the incense is average.

Chen Ma didn't know why Ren Peiyin liked to come here, but since she came, she must have asked to sign again, so Chen Ma shouted at the dozing old monk: "Master..."

The old monk shook his head "boom", and when he opened his eyes and saw Ren Peiyin, he smiled a little too kindly.

"Benefactor, are you asking for a lottery or undoing it?"

Ren Peiyin thought for a while and said, "Master, I don't ask for a lottery or release it today. I just want to ask a question. If a person makes a mistake, is too obsessed and causes harm to others and himself, and now regrets it, is there a way to remedy it?"

The old monk glanced at Ren Peiyin: "I recognize you, did you come to the temple two years ago to ask for a lottery?"

"Yes, I asked. At that time, I was asking for family luck, and the visa interview was not good."

"Then what the benefactor is asking now has something to do with family luck?"

"No, it's not for family luck, I'm only asking for myself! Two years ago, I was separated from my grandson because of a momentary obsession. I searched hard for two years, but I couldn't find it. Some time ago, I was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer. Time is running out, I want to see my grandson before I die."

The old monk glanced at Ren Peiyin again, then closed his eyes, turned the prayer beads in his hand and began to recite: "Almsgiver, if you sow such a cause, you will reap such an effect. This is an eternal principle. The child is lost, this is the cause you planted as the benefactor. The Lord Buddha can save you, as for the answer, it is in your own heart..."

Ren Peiyin remained expressionless on the way out of the temple.

Chen Ma supported her: "Don't listen to that old monk's nonsense, he is just playing tricks."

"No, what he said makes sense." Ren Peiyin stopped by herself, and suddenly looked at Chen Ma with horror in her eyes: "Chen Ma, tell me, did I do something wrong when I opposed the divorce between An Ming and Gu Lan? They're divorced, won't the child leave Qiao's house? I won't sleep restlessly every night all these years? "

Chen Ma held onto Ren Peiyin, feeling depressed.

"Madam, there is no right or wrong in many things, don't think about it yourself."

"I'm not thinking about it, I just want to see that child again before I die..."

The weather is getting hotter and hotter, and it is already August in a blink of an eye.

Now if Qiao Anming didn't have a special itinerary, he would take at least one day a week to go to the west courtyard to have dinner with the old lady.

The old lady's appetite was not as good as before, and she would be full every time she drank half a bowl of porridge, but she still asked Chen Ma to cook a big table of Qiao Anming's favorite dishes every time.

On the long antique mahogany table, there was only two people seated for a banquet.

Occasionally, Peng Yuchu would visit the old lady, and the old lady would stay with him for dinner.

Qiao Anming happened to be there that day, and there was finally a pair of chopsticks on the table.

The old lady seemed very excited that day, and kept picking up vegetables for Peng Yuchu.

"Yu Chu, if you have nothing to do, come and talk with me more often. My room is deserted all day long, and there is no one else except Mama Chen."

Qiao Anming felt quite uncomfortable when he heard that.

"Mom, why don't you move to live with me."

"Your side? Your side is not as good as my side. Who is left on your side now? Aunt Qin has moved away!" Ren Peiyin really hit the nail on the head, Qiao Anming gave a wry smile, and didn't speak any more.

After the meal, Chen Ma peeled some fruit and made tea.

Peng Yuchu chatted with the old lady, but made the old lady very happy.

Qiao Anming wanted to send him away temporarily: "I'm going to Yi County now, you can send me there."

As soon as the old lady heard this, she became anxious: "You are busy, I don't blame you, you come to have a meal with me now, I am already Amitabha, and it is rare for Yuchu to talk to me, what are you going to call him away again?" ?”

It's getting sicker and more squeamish.

Qiao Anming was helpless and did not refute.

Peng Yuchu hurriedly smoothed things over: "Old lady, I'll have dinner with you tomorrow after work, Mr. Qiao has something to talk to me about."

It was hard to coax it over.

Peng Yuchu drove Qiao Anming to Yixian County. As soon as the car started, he asked Qiao Anming who was sitting in the co-pilot: "What's the matter, Mr. Qiao, is there something wrong with Medicine Valley?"

"No, I just want to take some time to ask you about looking for Du Ruo. I was too busy a while ago, so this matter has been put on hold."

Peng Yuchu sighed: "Mr. Qiao, blame me for being incapable of doing things. I have found all the places I need to look for. In the past two years of demolition in Xuancheng, her father and younger brother have all moved away, and the neighbors I know have also moved seventy years ago." It was all scattered, and I couldn't find any good news. It seems that none of the colleagues in Tongcheng and the base had contacted her. I also sent someone to investigate the only son of the Mo family that you asked me to find. I registered my marriage with Ms. Du in Tongcheng more than two years ago, but they divorced again a few days before Ms. Du disappeared, and then this Mr. Mo went to study in France. It took me a lot of effort to get his phone number , As a result, he called, and he hung up after asking a question, but I will continue to call in a few days..."

Peng Yuchu explained in detail, but Qiao Anming smiled wryly: "No need, if Du Ruo doesn't want me to find her and the child, then Mo Youting definitely doesn't want to, so you don't have to bother with him, he won't take Du Ruo I will tell you the address!"

"But if we don't start with him, our search for Ms. Du will be like looking for a needle in a haystack..." Peng Yuchu was a little discouraged. He also searched for Du Ruo intermittently for two years, but finally found nothing.

"Oh, by the way, there is also Miss Du's best friend named Zheng Xiaoran. I also arranged for someone to check her information. She was still working in Yi County a year ago, but she changed jobs last year..."

In other words, all the clues were broken, and Qiao Anming really didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Yu Chu, do you think it's my bad luck, or the fate between me and her is over?"

Perhaps Qiao Anming's tone of voice was too low when he said this, so low that he was almost lonely.

Peng Yuchu was frightened, and turned to look at Qiao Anming: "Mr. Qiao, you never believed this before."

"What don't you believe? Is there such a thing as fate?" Qiao Anming leaned his head back and let out a long breath as he leaned on the chair, "Do you really think I haven't looked for their mother and son these years? At first I didn't want to look for them. , because I knew that finding it would only increase my troubles, but the result was still the same, but then I couldn’t control myself and secretly sent someone to look for it, but I couldn’t find it at that time..."

"Then what now? Why do you need to look again? It's really just because the old lady wants to see you?" Peng Yuchu couldn't help asking.

Qiao Anming opened his eyes, stared fixedly at Peng Yuchu for a long time, and suddenly asked: "Old Peng, do you think I'm getting old all these years?"

"No, you haven't changed all the time. The people below say that you take good care of yourself, so they think you have some secret recipe."

Peng Yuchu was telling the truth, without any flattering Chen Fen in it.

In front of employees and customers, Qiao Anming is always the Mr. Qiao who is as sharp as an eagle and a tiger.

But what about in private?
"I'm old, Lao Peng, and my ears are failing. I came back from a business trip last year. The flight was late. It was past midnight when I landed. There was no one at Chongzhou Airport. I came out alone with my suitcase and heard someone Calling Old Qiao behind his back... I thought he was calling me, I couldn't breathe, but when I looked back, it turned out that he wasn't calling me..."

Peng Yuchu laughed outright.

"Mr. Qiao, don't blame me for not being ignorant of the rules. You have bad ears. You are too tired from work. Who in this world would dare to call you Old Qiao?"

"Yes, Du Ruo used to call me Old Qiao..."

He didn't know why he said such words in front of his subordinates, it seemed too hypocritical, but after he finished speaking, he seemed to have exhausted all the remaining strength in his body, so he could only fall back on the chair again, close his eyes, and breathe heavily The sound came out little by little.

Peng Yuchu was dumbfounded.

Not daring to make any more noise, he could only sit firmly on the driver's seat and hold the steering wheel, pretending to drive seriously.

The headlights from the opposite car shone on Qiao Anming's face with his eyes closed. The silver light made his face look lonely and tough.

He kept his eyes closed like that, sinking into the memory.

"Old Qiao, you cut my nose again, it collapsed!"

"Okay, okay, old Joe, I won't make trouble..."

"Old Comrade Qiao, do you have any work to report?"

"Hey, old Joe, my hair hurts from your pressure..."

Every time she called him Old Qiao, he felt sweet and greasy in his heart. It felt like he had grown wings and would fly out if he didn't press them down a bit.

But Qiao Anming suddenly remembered that the last time she came, Zheng Xiaoran was going to work in Yi County, and Du Ruo would accompany her to have the last dinner in Tongcheng.

After returning, she hugged him and said something: "...Old Qiao, if one day we have to come to a dead end, don't say goodbye, just pretend that we have never met before, delete the mobile phone number, delete the contact information , wake up and live their own lives, okay?"

It turned out that she had already set up this game.

If one day the relationship between them really couldn't go on, she would just walk away and disappear from his life.

So after Qiao Anming returned from the airport that day, he sent someone to look for Du Ruo. He didn't allow her to disappear. He even wanted her to marry Mo Youting and live happily together, and he didn't allow her to disappear alone with her child.

But it was too late, when he looked for Du Ruo again, he couldn't find him.

The carriage was so quiet that only the sound of Qiao Anming's breathing remained, and Peng Yuchu couldn't recover for a long time.

Those who have not experienced it will probably not understand the hopelessness and entanglement of feelings, as if, as if you have spent a lot of hard work trying to get someone, but in the end you can't get it, but it all becomes hurt, then go Forget it, forget it and never forget it.

Dilemma, no way to escape.

Missing is always like a shadow, and he doesn't know when these things will suddenly appear.

Sudden craving for crab legs.

Suddenly want to drink porridge.

Suddenly I heard someone calling myself Old Joe...

He has never admitted how much he missed Du Ruo during the past two years, but so many "sudden"s have obviously exhausted his two years.

"Mr. Qiao..." Peng Yuchu always felt that he should do something in this situation, but he struggled for a while, and finally only had the courage to call out his name.

From the passenger seat in the darkness, there was the rustling sound of cloth rubbing against each other.

Qiao Anming sat up from the chair and laughed at himself: "Sorry, let you listen to me, but that night I took a taxi directly from Chongzhou Airport to Tongcheng, and lived alone in that villa for two days. Just those two days, You blew up my cell phone... you thought I was missing..."

Qiao Anming's tone returned to his usual calmness, with some jokes in it.

Peng Yuchu also echoed with a hehe.

He still had memories of those two days. Xiao Zhang was waiting for Qiao Anming to pick him up at the airport, but he waited in the garage until midnight, but no one was picked up. The flight landed and the passengers had already left the gate.

Xiao Zhang called Qiao Anming, but the phone showed that it was turned off.

Xiao Zhang was so anxious that he called Peng Yuchu overnight, and Peng Yuchu went to check the passenger information of that night's flight...

At that time, Gu Lan's spirit was not bad, but Peng Yuchu was afraid that she would be stimulated, so he kept hiding it from her.

It wasn't until two days later that Qiao Anming took the initiative to contact Peng Yuchu, saying lightly: "I'm a little tired, so I went out to relax."

This is only a small part of the story.

The whole real scene is that Qiao Anming was at Chongzhou Airport that day, and vaguely heard someone shouting the word "Old Qiao" behind him.

He looked back, there was no one there.

He thought it was impossible, it would not be a hallucination, so he searched for three times in the arrival hall of the airport with his suitcase. ? Is there anything we can do for you?"

He was out of breath: "I'm looking for a lady, about 1.6 meters five, long hair, a little thin."

So that night at Chongzhou Airport, the Missing Person Announcement rang for half an hour.

"Miss Du Ruo, please pay attention, Miss Du Ruo, please pay attention, if you hear the broadcast, please go to the exit of Gate 2 of Terminal 4 as soon as possible, there are friends waiting for you..."

At the end of August, Qiao Anming took Ren Peiyin to Beijing for a few days.

At that time in Beijing, the weather was hot and the air was not good. Qiao Anming originally wanted to take her to a cooler place to escape the heat, but the old lady insisted on going to Beijing.

"I never had the chance to visit the university you studied in Beijing. It's the capital of our country. While I can still walk, I want to go for a walk on the Great Wall and the Forbidden City..."

Just because of these words, Qiao Anming put aside his work for a week once in a century, and took Ren Peiyin to Beijing for a tour.

Since September, Qiao Anming has been running to Yixian every three days.

The opening ceremony of Medicine Valley is scheduled for the National Day, and the invitations have already been sent out. There are still many details to be finalized on the day of the celebration, so Qiao Anming was very busy during that time.

Limin Pharmacy is located in Yixian Town, next to a decent-sized Xinte supermarket.

There is a nursery about 500 meters away from Xinte Supermarket.

Du Ruo's daily itinerary is that she wakes up at 6:[-] a.m., makes breakfast, sends her to the nursery after breakfast, and then goes to work at Limin Pharmacy.

Limin Pharmacy is a 24-hour pharmacy. There are 6 clerks who work in shifts. Du Ruo usually only works the day shift.

Lie's nursery school ends at 4:05 p.m. Du Ruo went to pick up Lie to the pharmacy, and at 30:[-] they went home from get off work together.

On the streets of small towns where the sun is setting, you can always see a thin woman holding a little boy in one hand and the vegetables she just bought from the market in the other.

The little boy jumped up and down, and sometimes he ran to the front by himself, and the woman chased after him, shouting, "Go ahead, run slowly, be careful of the car..."

The opening day of Medicine Valley, October [-]st.

The ceremony was grand and grand, and several TV stations went to conduct live interviews.

The local news made a follow-up report.

There is a 32-inch LCD TV behind the cash register of Limin Pharmacy. Qiao Anming's figure appears on the screen, standing with several leaders of Chongzhou City.

Sister Hui excitedly pushed Du Ruo beside her: "Hey, Xiao Luo, look, today is the opening ceremony of Medicine Valley, and Qiao Anming from Shengan Group is in our Yi County today."

Du Ruo looked back at the TV screen, and there were many people on the screen.

"I have been selling medicine for seven or eight years, and I sell Sheng'an's medicine almost every day, but I still don't know what the boss of Sheng'an looks like. Hey, Xiaoluo, who is the person in this row of people?" Qiao Anming?"

Sister Hui asked unconsciously, Du Ruo turned her head and glanced at the screen again, there was a row of dark suits on the screen.

She pointed out one: "The one in the middle, navy blue suit, blue tie..."

Sister Hui still didn't believe it: "Qiao Anming is so young? I don't think so. Besides, how do you know that is Qiao Anming? Have you met him?"

Du Ruo shook his head, mocking himself: "I haven't seen it, I don't have that fate."

"That's right, then you are still pointing, I don't look like that person is nearly 50 years old!" Sister Hui said to herself to the TV.

Du Ruo bowed his head and stopped talking, but his heart felt as if a cup of hot water had been poured into it, and it was scalding and painful.

It turned out that after two years of separation, she could still recognize him in the crowd.

This is the saddest thing.

Sister Hui watched the news with great enthusiasm, and suddenly thought of something, she elbowed Du Ruo: "Xiao Luo, I heard that you were a medical representative before?"

Du Ruo was startled, and nodded defensively: "Yes, I did it for a while when I just graduated, why did you suddenly ask me this?"

"I heard that Sheng'an Pharmaceutical Valley is recruiting salesmen. I happen to have a relative who is doing finance there. It is said that sales are not full yet. Why don't you give it a try? The salary is much better than our store... "

Sister Hui looked warm-hearted.

Du Ruo waved his hands again and again: "I can't do it, not to mention I'm still young. If I go to work in Medicine Valley, how can I have a pick-up?"

She thought that this excuse was used thoroughly, but Sister Hui was an honest person and wanted to help Du Ruo wholeheartedly.

"Oh, little Luo, I've already gone to nursery school. If you don't have time to pick up and drop off, you can hire a part-time auntie. Besides, you will go to school immediately. After school, the expenses will be very high. How can you raise your children with the dead salary of the pharmacy?" ?”

After Sister Hui finished speaking, seeing that Du Ruo didn't respond, she patted her on the shoulder again to persuade her, "I shouldn't be bothering with such trivial matters, but I see that you are living a tight life alone with a child, so I'm here for you." Worry. Our pharmacy has no future. Sister Hui is about to retire anyway, so it’s fine to support her elderly here, but you are different. You are still young, and you are still young. You have to think about it. If you can go Sheng An, maybe you did a good job?"

Sister Hui still didn't give up and kept trying to persuade her.

Du Ruo could only thank: "Sister Hui, thanks to you for taking care of me all these years, I've done a good job here, so I don't want to change jobs for the time being. If you really want to change jobs, let's talk about it when I'm older."

She stopped in the middle of her speech, and added something, which seemed to be in a vicious tone: "Besides, I will never go to Sheng'an!"

Sister Hui thought she was dead-tempered: "Okay, let me take it for nothing, don't go if you don't go, what a great opportunity, don't think about it later and regret it!"

"I won't regret it." Du Ruo giggled, returning to her usual gentle appearance.

Sister Hui shook her head, and gave Du Ruo the key in her hand: "I'm going to trouble you to lock the door of the shop today, damn the boss, we don't let people take a day off today during the legal holiday."

Du Ruo didn't care: "It's okay, you will take over for me when you have something to do, it doesn't matter if I am alone on duty today, you can go home early."

"Then what should I do?"

"Well, today he was picked up by his auntie Xiao Ran, who took him to eat pizza. The little guy was very happy."

After Sister Hui left, the sky outside quickly turned dark.

It's October, the sky is getting shorter and shorter, and the store is getting deserted. Who would go out to buy medicine on a good holiday?

Du Ruo was also at leisure, heated up the meal by himself, and called Zheng Xiaoran again. After learning that everything was fine there, he called his father and exchanged greetings. Du Ruo had to wait on the phone He pretended to be very happy.

But as soon as the phone was put away, there was no one in the store.

The opening music of the party came from the TV, and she felt very lonely in her heart.

During that week, Qiao Anming was like a donkey on a mill, spinning continuously.

Finally, on the day of the celebration, he had to speak on stage, accept interviews, cut the ribbon, and face various media and provincial and municipal leaders. With hundreds of masks on his face, his smile became stiff.

After a whole day, there will be a celebration banquet in the evening.

The celebration banquet is even more of a severe punishment. You must drink, toast, be humble and polite, and you must be as imposing as a rainbow.

Qiao Anming is used to dealing with this kind of situation, so there is nothing wrong with it. It's just that he has grown older in the past few years, and he has gradually become bored.

Finally made it to 9 o'clock in the evening.

Most of the guests in the banquet hall dispersed, and the main leaders and customers were sent away, so Qiao Anming relaxed a bit.

Too much wine was poured at the table.

On a day like this, he couldn't stop drinking, so he was groggy, so he greeted Peng Yuchu and went out to get some air.

The hotel where the celebration banquet was held was the main street in Yixian Town Market.

In October, there is the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus, and there are a few traces of lightness in the night wind. Qiao Anming searched for the fragrance, and walked to the door of the pharmacy without knowing it.

It may be because of the National Day holiday, many small shops are closed, but the lights in that pharmacy are still very bright.

Qiao Anming suddenly remembered that he drank too much last time, it seems that Xiao Zhang mentioned this pharmacy.

What did he mention?

Du Ruo...?
Xiao Zhang seems to have mentioned that he seemed to see someone who looked like Du Ruo in the store.

Suddenly, Qiao Anming crossed the road and walked towards the pharmacy...

(End of this chapter)