obsessed with love

Chapter 197
"Du Ruo, I must be crazy. I actually agreed to let you leave me like that in Sanya..." His voice had a strong nasal voice after catching a cold, deep and lonely, like self-blame and remorse, and the last breath fell little by little , began to kiss with Du Ruo's heavy and rapid breathing, changed the tyrannical domineering just now, and let the lips slide past the corners of her lips... Her breath of life, breathing and swallowing, all slipped by the tip of his tongue...

Did he come prepared? …Du Ruo bit her lip so as not to make a sound, she closed her eyes desperately, and grabbed the quilt by her side with both hands...

No matter whether she struggled, shouted, or even begged for mercy, she felt that he could no longer escape from his palm, and her body felt gradually floating, only desire began to sink.

A man's memory of a woman lies in many aspects, such as figure, appearance, personality, temper... But a woman's memory of a man is the most primitive and the most desperate - breath... The breath on his body is elegant and gentle, like the age The long-standing sandalwood fragrance, she smelled it the first time she threw herself on him in the bathroom of the Penglai mansion, and has been entangled with it all the way to the present, and it has penetrated into her spleen, so she can't forget it and resist it No, I can only let my body be controlled by him, groaning a little bit...

Qiao Anming couldn't bear it, lowered his head to kiss her eyebrows, and said softly: "I know you have suffered a lot during this time, but I was never by your side when you were in the most difficult time... In fact, I would rather you hate me, but It's not that I'm holding back, begging to take my child away from me... But Du Ruo, do you think I'm not sad? You say you want my money, you say the child belongs to other men, I don't care about it. I can bear it, but you know what, the only thing I can't bear is that I will lose you in my future life..."

The bone-piercing love words, sticking to her ears, said word by word, Du Ruo dared not open her eyes, but slowly her body began to tremble, and tears flowed down her eye sockets...

Qiao Anming, I really can't beat you!Love can't afford to love, hate can't afford to hate, heaven and earth are up to you, even at this point, she still can only lie obediently under him, listen to his intoxicating words of love, and then always worry about what? The sky will be left by him cruelly again.

She took a deep breath, turned her face to one side, bit her lower lip tightly, and said slowly, "Actually, I really should hate you, or take the child far away, but Xiao Zhang called me today, I said I would stop by, but actually it was because I wanted to see you... I know that even if I am pregnant with your child, the final outcome will not be so good. You will not divorce her, let alone give me and the child a name. So I have only two ways, one is to break away from you, and the other is to satisfy you, give birth to this child under your protection, and then become a shady lover, and I can't even say I am wronged..."

She spoke very slowly, her body trembled slightly from crying, and tears fell down the base of her nose...

Qiao Anming really couldn't bear her to cry, her heart was in a mess when she cried, knowing that it was useless to coax her, she could only suppress the rising desire and kiss patiently and softly, Du Ruo felt that her breathing was about to stagnate, and she didn't dare to make a sound , didn't dare to move, and didn't dare to refuse... Finally, he allowed him to insert his five fingers into his hair, and his cheek was held in his hands.

"Du Ruo, open your eyes and look at me..."

With a deep nasal voice and a charming voice, she was really obedient, and slowly raised her slightly wet eyelashes. His face was just a few feet away from her. It was still the most charming look in her heart, but it soon became more detailed. The kiss invaded again, grabbed her lips, and drove straight in, the tip of the tongue still carried the temperature of her tears, penetrating into the taste buds, it was cool and salty...

He kissed extremely seriously, wet lips and entangled tongue, with so many days of suppressed thoughts and desires, more and more unable to control the kiss, and gradually turned from tenderness to domineering.

He is right, he must be crazy to agree to let her leave him, such a bone-piercing and beautiful feeling, feeling that the whole world is in his arms, just a kiss, he is already addicted, the next thing He didn't even have the courage to do it.

"Qiao Anming!" Du Ruo suddenly called his name.

A pair of dark but obviously depressed black eyes looked at Du Ruo impatiently and expectantly.

Du Ruo took a deep breath, and the blurred eyes returned to a bit cold, and the words were compelling: "Just treat tonight as our last night, and don't bother me after dawn!"

How decisive, make a deal with him when he is out of control, and exchange "never contact" overnight.

Qiao Anming smiled wryly, and replied lonely: "Du Ruo, I never knew you would be so ruthless!" Then he took a deep breath, quickly rolled off her body, and lay down on the bed next to Du Ruo, still panting heavily, With an uncontrollable desire, but the temperature in her heart cooled down a little bit, because of her words, and also because of their future prospects of no way out.

Du Ruo left his embrace, wearing only a pair of underpants and felt a little cold all of a sudden, Qiao Anming pulled out the quilt to cover the two of them, lay side by side, looking at the crystal lamp above his head with a blank expression...

Qiao Anming's heavy breathing lasted for a full 10 minutes, and he stopped at the most swollen moment. This is undoubtedly the hardest and cruelest thing for a man, but he still stopped because he didn't want her to get hurt again, and he didn't want the two of them The relationship really went into a "never contact" situation.

The night wind in May was a bit strong, and the branches and leaves on the trees were "rustling" by the wind. Du Ruo lay beside him like that for nearly half an hour, and neither of them spoke, as if they had just experienced A battle, exhausted vitality.

In the end, it was Qiao Anming who spoke first. He turned around, put his arms around the person beside him, and covered Du Ruo's lower abdomen with his arms, slowly turning his slightly wet palms on her lower abdomen.

"Finally, I can still get over it. At this age, if you toss about it a few more times like this, it will probably be useless..." He laughed at himself, but he succeeded in slightly relieving the embarrassing and depressing atmosphere between the two of them.

Du Ruo knew that he was cruel, but still thanked him for not hurting himself at the last moment.

"Thank you, thank you for not continuing..."

Qiao Anming shook his head, buried his breath in her neck, and said slowly: "Don't thank me, I really want to ignore your feelings and continue, but there is no way, I don't want to hurt you anymore, I can only wrong myself, besides The baby is not yet 3 months old, so it is not suitable to do this kind of thing."

His explanation was reasonable, although it was a bit painful, but he understood Du Ruo's temper, admitted to death, and got into a dead end, so if he really continued regardless of her feelings today, then he would lose more things overnight.

In fact, like this moment, being able to lie on a bed, hug her body and talk peacefully is already a gift to Qiao Anming.

The wind outside seemed to have stopped a bit, and the "rustling" sound of the leaves being blown by the wind could no longer be heard, but Qiao Anming kept holding Du Ruo in that position for a long time, and his arms were a little sore, so he moved, but his arms were a little sore. The people in the room moved quickly, Qiao Anming thought she was going to get up, so he hugged her tighter.

"Don't go, just chat with me for a while...".

This was the third time in a day that he tried to keep Du Ruo. In fact, he knew that he wouldn't be able to stay for long, but the temperature in his arms was too hot, and he couldn't bear to let go. Even if she was willing to stay for a minute longer, it would be a gift.

After experiencing lingering and heart-wrenching loss, he has become less greedy. The eternity is too far away, not as real as the hug in front of him, not to mention the use of greed. He is already at a disadvantage in this relationship, so he can only do this A humble plea.

Du Ruo's heart was still soft, his nasal voice was strong, the temperature in his chest was hot, he was probably still sick, and coupled with the loss in his tone, she moved a little and turned her body to face Qiao Anming...

"I didn't say I was leaving..." Du Ruo replied with a smile, and then gently hugged him...

Qiao Anming was delighted, with his chest pressed against her back, and his hands around her waist, hugging her even tighter.

Time seemed to flow extremely slowly that night, as if even the wind had stopped, the bed curtains were hanging down, two embracing bodies covered by light veils... He said he wanted to chat, but the language seemed so barren, even he couldn't understand it. He couldn't bear to disturb the soft person in his arms, but gradually he felt that the person in his arms was breathing calmly. He was afraid that she would fall asleep, so he called out: "Du Ruo...are you asleep?"

She replied in a hoarse voice: "I'm a little sleepy..."

"Don't sleep yet, let me show you something..." After Qiao Anming finished speaking, he quickly pressed the button on the bedside, the bright crystal lamp went out, and the whole room fell into darkness. Du Ruo was startled, and dense fear emerged little by little , but soon found that something was wrong. On the walls covered with lavender wallpaper, spots of light were gradually reflected. Finally, the spots became more and more dense, and the outlines gradually became clear, forming the appearance of stars. , and she seems to be floating in the sky, surrounded by a wide sky, full of stars...

God...how did he do it?Du Ruo covered his lips with his hand again, and was about to ask, but he pressed a button at the head of the bed, and the ceiling above his head gradually moved to the two sides, and directly above the antique bed, there was a circular opening, which was dark and dark. The sky is just overhead, dotted with a few stars.

Du Ruo could no longer use amazement to describe his mood at that time, turned his body sideways to face the sky, and asked, "How can it be like this? It's incredible!"

Qiao Anming smiled, then took her to his shoulder and explained patiently: "The wallpaper is luminous, with a star pattern specially customized for you, and the structure of the ceiling above your head is a bit complicated, using theories of machinery and architecture. I don’t necessarily understand. In fact, I wanted the designer to make the entire ceiling double-layered. One layer is a movable cement board, and the other layer is glass that can see the sky. But the designer said that such a transformation would affect the The basic structure of the whole villa, so the opening can only be opened so big, facing the bed, if you feel scared when you sleep at night, you can open this circular area, the sky is above your head, you should not feel suffocated ..."

He has spoiled her so much that he has almost "throw a thousand dollars at a cost", spending so much money and thought, just to make her less afraid when she sleeps.

Du Ruo wanted to call him a lunatic again, but she turned her head to look into his gentle eyes, and couldn't say a word, but tears rolled down her face.

Crying again... oh my god...why crying again!Without waiting for his reaction, Du Ruo raised her hand to wipe it, but Qiao Anming held her wrist, put it under the quilt, and then helped her wipe it with her fingertips, and said softly while wiping: "I feel more and more that I am I don’t have the skills, after doing so many things, I will only make you cry in the end... But it seems that pregnant women crying all the time is not good for the fetus, so please stop crying, or I will feel that my father is really useless..."

His consolation is always so weird and aggrieved. Du Ruo cried even more when she heard it, and the tears kept falling down. arms.

Qiao Anming buried her head and kissed her forehead lightly, and she continued to say: "You must hate me very much, otherwise you wouldn't torture me like this...Why don't you get up and put on some clothes, I can't guarantee that if you hug me like this again All is well..."

Du Ruo got up in embarrassment and shyness, lifted up her shirt and put it on in a hurry. Qiao Anming helped her button the buttons. During the whole process, her expression was concentrated and her brows were furrowed. It felt like she was dealing with a big event. Finally, all the buttons were buttoned. He almost strangled Du Ruo's neck, then grabbed Du Ruo with all his strength, and fell back on the bed with his arms around Du Ruo again.

She was clever, and immediately turned her back to Qiao Anming again, but the people behind her quickly asked dissatisfiedly, "Can you turn around and face me?"

"Then your cold is healed? The temperature has gone down? It's easy for two people to pass your cold to me face to face?" Du Ruo finally reacted faster. It was a perfect excuse. Qiao Anming couldn't refute it, so he could only pass it from behind. She hugged her tighter.

But our idiot Du, the two of them have done such intimate actions just now, if he really wants to catch a cold, he probably has caught a few hundred times already.

In fact, Qiao Anming's fever has not subsided yet, and with the beautiful woman in his arms, he will soon be dripping with sweat, but Du Ruo is so quiet that he is afraid that she will fall asleep, so he starts to try to attract her attention again.

Moved one hand to her lower abdomen, slowly circling, and asked: "How long is it three months? I want to take you to a comprehensive prenatal checkup?"

"No need, I will go by myself." Her voice became cold again, Qiao Anming was not reconciled, and continued to persuade: "I will take you there, go to a better hospital, I have friends who are the authority in this regard."

"I really don't need it. Besides, how did you and your friend introduce me and this child? Lover? Bastard?" Du Ruo hit the nail on the head without leaving any room for it. Qiao Anming was already used to it, so he just sighed in his heart. How aggrieved, with a stubborn temper, he will not give in easily, so he should be smarter and not collide with her head-on.

"I can introduce you however you want, not to mention that she has so many patients, she won't be particularly interested in your identity, and I'm doing it for you and the child, so I don't worry about letting an unfamiliar doctor do the checkup for you..." The logic of his speech was impeccable. After listening to Du Ruo, he couldn't find any excuses to refute.

Seeing that she was silent, he struck while the iron was hot: "Du Ruo... I know what you care about, but sometimes, can we each take a step back? You don't have to take the child and leave me, and I don't dare to expect you to be able to do it again. Stay by my side without any complaints like before, just to be able to stand where I can take care of you, for the sake of me being the father of the child, let me do my bit?"

"Minimum strength?" Du Ruo's laughter was a little sarcasm: "What do you mean by meager strength? House? Money? Obstetric examination? I don't need these!"

"I know you don't need it, but I want to give you the best, the best living conditions, and the best care!"

"And then? Then I will continue to be your shady lover like this? And then wait for Gu Lan to appear, play a scene and kick me out again? Qiao Anming, do you think you are selfish?" Du Ruo said Here, I simply turned around and faced him: "I know it is impossible for you to divorce Gu Lan, but you are reluctant to part with this child, so you want to keep me by your side, whether it is a lover or a subordinate, anyway you As long as you can reach me, let me always be in your hands, right?"

Her question was extremely sharp, Qiao Anming was a little stunned by her question, and he was stunned for a few seconds before asking back: "I have done so much for you, do you think I am just reluctant to part with this child?"

"Isn't it?" Du Ruo also quickly retorted, with a cold face.

Qiao Anming suddenly laughed: "If I really don't want to part with the child, I have a hundred ways to bring the child over. Why do I choose the most difficult one? I bought this house before Gu Lan was hospitalized last time." I bought it, because Gu Lan was robbed at the entrance of your alley, so I felt that the surrounding environment where you live is too bad, so I bought a house, thinking that you can live better, but something happened later, I I haven’t told you about the house, including the renovation and decoration of this house, which was completed some time ago, and I did these things, but in the end, you think I’m just for the children?” He spoke a lot in one breath, with a slight tone of voice. No, it's rare to get angry with her recently.

Du Ruo didn't know what he wanted to express, but he could tell from his eyes and tone that he seemed to have been wronged greatly.But why is he wronged?It should be her, Du Ruo, who was wronged.

"I don't understand what your purpose is for saying these words. Anyway, I have already explained to you what I said before. Don't have too much to do with me. I just want to be alone and start over with my child!"

"You mean, you still want to distance yourself from me?"

"It's not about disregarding the relationship, it's about bringing everything back to the original point. You are still the high-ranking Qiao Anming of the Shengan Group, and I am just a small employee. I still owe the company a few months' salary. After working for these months, I should just leave I will resign!" Du Ruo's tone turned cold to the end, and Qiao Anming's single-minded temper made Qiao Anming love and anger at the same time.

But he knew that he couldn't confront her now, he could only stroke her hair and go down.

"Okay, no matter whether you stay in Sheng'an or leave, I will agree with you, but what about your stomach? In a few months, your stomach will show up, and colleagues and friends around you will ask you, how do you explain it? With your parents, are you going to tell the truth or lie to your parents?"

"These are not things you should consider. Since I have the courage to choose to have a child, I have the courage to face all the rumors. As for my parents, I will find an opportunity to explain to them. Already born..."

Anyway, she was ready to stick to the end, cut first and play later, and the boat would naturally straighten when it reached the bridge.

But Qiao Anming was about to die of anger from her, so he could only suppress his anger and continue: "Okay... okay, even if you are not afraid of gossip, let's talk about practical issues, what about the child's birth certificate? Where is the child's household registration? Also, you have to go to work and take care of your children by yourself, do you have the energy?"

Qiao Anming's words are full of Du Ruo's culprit.

It's not that she hasn't thought about these issues. After all, she is 25 years old, past the age of being impulsive and not thinking about the consequences. Besides, this is a life. Once she is born, she will have to deal with it for the rest of her life. Gritting his teeth to leave his protection, why?Just to fight for breath?

Du Ruo sneered, broke away from his embrace, and replied: "I am not the only single mother in this world, nor am I the only mistress who is pregnant with a child. I will suffer no matter what other people suffer. Besides, there are still people around me. Have a few reliable friends."

"Friend? Who? Zheng Xiaoran or Mo Youting? Would you rather let a friend take care of you than let me do my duty?"

"Yes, I don't need your conscientiousness, and what's more, your so-called conscientiousness can only give material things!" Du Ruo paused, and looked him straight in the eyes: "Qiao Anming, the problem between us is no longer about love or not. Love is so simple, you can't let go of Du Ruo, I can't let go of my backbone, so I can only stand at the two ends of the confrontation, maybe I really don't have the potential to be a mistress, obviously I have a lot of self-esteem, and I have to mess with you, now There is no way to go back, and I have been stumped, and the courage to continue with you is almost exhausted. What should I do, I can only choose to leave, let everything return to the original point, and what you have to do is to cooperate with me and make our relationship Get together and get away, okay?"

She said a long list, and finally threw three words to him—is that all right?

Qiao Anming pulled a wry smile from the corner of his mouth, all the exhaustion and pressure accumulated in his chest, he couldn't speak, so he could only close his eyes and take a deep breath.

"You have always been self-righteous, you like to make your own decisions, and you have already made up your mind to leave me, but in the end you lay in my arms like this, and told me in a tone of asking for my opinion, let me cooperate with you to get together and leave, Du Ruo, you Do you think this request is too cruel?"

Qiao Anming sometimes speaks indifferently, but this is the first time he is so aggressive like now. In this matter, he is already at a disadvantage. I'm sorry for Gu Lan, I'm sorry for Du Ruo, I'm sorry for the child, the target of public criticism, but he also has grievances in his heart If the other party is not Du Ruo, if the other party is not Du Ruo, who he wants to cherish and abandon everything, with his temper, he will definitely not spend so much time to restore it, but he has already done what should be done, and the rest has been powerless.

Qiao Anming faced Du Ruo, wrapped her palms around one shoulder of her, and finally asked: "Du Ruo, I don't understand, I don't need you to come back to me anymore, I just need you to stay where you are so I can take care of you , take care of you in any capacity, boss or friend, so that you don't feel embarrassed, isn't that okay?"

"No!" Du Ruo answered very simply, pushing Qiao Anming's hand wrapped around his shoulder away, and replied word by word: "So many things have happened between us, how can we return to the relationship of friends? You are naive." Come on, Qiao Anming! Besides, even if we can pretend to be friends, how can I explain to him when the child is born, saying that you are a father who is like a friend, or a friend who is like a father... Besides, I still have a damn backbone, so I can’t accept it at the same time. Your blessing, while deceiving yourself!"

Du Ruo's words were sharp and sarcastic. Qiao Anming was speechless to answer, and could only ask lonely: "Well, I just want to ask you, is your self-esteem so important? It's so important that you don't consider my feelings at all, just lead us like this child leave me?"

She smiled, and suddenly turned around and lay flat, facing the sky above her head: "It's very important, because you once told me that dignity is the soul, and if there is no soul, then the body is a walking dead! So, Qiao Anming , I remember every word you said...!"

What a cruel answer, use the spear he gave to stab his shield!

Qiao Anming was at his wit's end and had nothing to say. He had tried humble pleadings and compromises to persuade her to stay, but she still insisted on leaving, so what else could he do?

So without saying a word, he also turned his body around, lay flat, and looked at the same starry sky above his head as Du Ruo.

Maybe there is really no fate, life must be hurt once to be complete, Qiao Anming closed his eyes, breathed slowly, and let the turbulent emotions go back little by little.

When Qiao Anming woke up, it was already a little bright, and he stretched out his arms uncomfortably, and his side was icy cold, followed by a moment of loss, and then great despair.

He walked to the bed in his shirt, the windows were left open all night, the thick humidity was blowing in with the morning wind, the sky hadn't completely turned white, it was a deep black blue, the wide lawn, the merry-go-round and the swing were under his eyes Tables and chairs, the playground he built for her, the song ends, death, parting...

Looking back at the bed, the veil was fluttering, he hugged her and slept all night, there was her imprint beside him, the temperature dissipated, and it couldn't stay overnight.

Qiao Anming didn't make the bed, but closed the bedroom window, put on his coat and walked downstairs. There was a piece of paper pressed by the remote control on the log table in the living room. He knew Du Ruo's handwriting, because she had written it in "Hook-up Raiders" before. There are notes in her handwriting.

It's a long paragraph that fills a whole sheet of paper.

"Leave less contact in the future, and treat it as my debt to you. I know it is cruel to you to take the child away, but if you want me to keep in touch with you, you might as well let me die. I dare not say some things to you in person, for fear I was persuaded by you, so now I write it all down on paper... I am so determined to go my own way because I don't want to embarrass you, let alone embarrass myself. Gu Lan can stop taking medicine for two days to act, and can find someone to block me in the alley. I felt that she couldn't let me go easily, but I was actually very timid, afraid of the dark and thunder, how could I have the courage to fight her?
In addition, there is also you, you are actually not willing to hurt Gu Lan, after all, you have been a husband and wife for more than 20 years, and if we continue to entangle like this, sooner or later, you and your husband will have to face each other. This is the last thing I want to see Because I don't want to force you into such a situation, put me and Gu Lan at the two ends of the same balance, forcing you to choose a situation, the scene is too ugly, so it's better for us to get rid of it now Relationship, for you, for me, for Gu Lan, should all have the best ending.

Finally, let’s talk about the things between us. I believe that you can be a good father and give me and my children the best protection and arrangements, but I still have to leave. Does this make you very puzzled?

How should I put it, let me give you an example. Some people have barbs on their fingers, they can’t die, and it’s not a very painful injury. If you ignore it, treat it as if it doesn’t exist. It grows well, but if you insist on taking it seriously, you keep tearing it, and in the end the barb gets deeper and deeper, and the wound is dripping with blood, and we are in this barb relationship now, so it's better to be smart, Don't talk too much about it, leave it to time to forget, maybe it won't be long before you will return to your original life, and your marriage with Gu Lan will return to its original state, and as for this child, you never planned to have a child anyway, So just pretend he doesn't exist.

Finally, thank you for doing these things for me, I am very touched, really, it’s just that I have experienced so many things, I don’t want to toss anymore, so I choose to leave, clean up, instead of staying by your side joyous.

Well, I have written too much, and I am a little hypocritical, so be it, don't contact me again! "

The last signature is Du Ruo.

Qiao Anming read the message a few times, because Du Ruo's handwriting was a little awkward, the characters were small and densely packed together, he couldn't read several words clearly, and he was afraid that he might misunderstand her meaning because he didn't understand a single word. , but after several times, he had to admit that this was Du Ruo's farewell message to him, and the meaning of the message was clearly stated, and it was written in this way, so there was no room for him to argue.

Qiao Anming folded the piece of paper, put it in his pocket, walked out of the living room, and looked back at the whole villa. At the beginning, every detail was decided by him in face-to-face communication with the designer, and a large part of the decoration was made between him and the designer. It was completed between the two months when Du Ruo was separated.

Logically, he and Du Ruo had already separated at that time, and there was no need for him to continue the decoration of this villa, but he still let the engineering team continue, and would spare some time every week to come over to see the progress in person, why?

Because he couldn't bear it, although he didn't admit it, but he couldn't bear it in his heart, he couldn't bear to end this relationship, the only relationship he was crazy about in his 45 years of life!

But now?
"To be happy?" Qiao Anming kept repeating the last four words and the metaphor of the barb in his heart, and couldn't help laughing at himself.

In fact, he understands all the truths Du Ruo said, but the only thing he wants to do now is to keep her first. As for the future, he has not thought about it. wake up.

Yes, even if she stays, what can they do?It's nothing more than hiding Gu Lan's knowledge while being together in a dark way, and then what?No then, as long as Gu Lan exists for a day, Du Ruo will have to bear the status of being despised by others for a day, and when the child grows up, she will be even more inseparable from herself, so she has to cut it short at the very beginning. Short, maybe she will suffer a little bit at the beginning, but slowly getting out of the shadow of their relationship may not lead to a better life than under his protection.

It's just that Qiao Anming is very sad, because of such a reluctant separation, she has grown into a barb in his heart.

(End of this chapter)