Big business guy wants to chase me

Chapter 416 I Will Even Look Down on Myself

is this real?
He fell in love with her?

Since when?

Can one person like two people at the same time?
Can one heart hold two people at the same time?
When there is still that indelible figure in his memory, can he still accommodate another person to join?
Xiaoxin...

This name has been kept in the deepest part of his heart for more than ten years, and that Qiaoxiaoqianxi smile has always appeared in his mind, and her silver-bell-like laughter has never disappeared from his dreams...

is that so?Why is there a voice in my heart retorting?

How long did it take for these signs to disappear?

Xiaoxin never appeared in my heart, mind, or dream?

How often, when he was with Shu Ran, what his eyes saw was not Xiaoxin, but the real Shu Ran?
How long has it been...

The most cherished memory in his heart was replaced by a figure who was always calm and looked at everything indifferently?

Do not!
can not do this!
Xi Jincheng, how could you let another woman take Xiaoxin's place!
How could this be? !
……

In the dark room, there was an orange wall lamp. In the rainy night, a gust of wind came from nowhere, making people shiver uncontrollably.

The clock on the wall was ticking and ticking, reminding her that it was late at night and it was time to rest.

How many nights is this that she guards the door alone?
Shu Ran curled up in the corner of the sofa, staring blankly at the direction of the door, won't he come back tonight?

He hadn't come home at night for more than a month, and even if he came back, he still smelled of alcohol...

His attitude towards her also fell to the bottom, and he was so indifferent that he didn't bother to say a word to her, and even looked at her.

Even if she walks in front of him, he will turn a blind eye as if she is transparent.

Even if she lowered her self-esteem and took the initiative to talk to him, he still seemed unable to hear her. Sometimes when she talked too much, he would give her a cold look and make her shut up in shame.

Was he tired of her already?
Are you disappointed in her already?
Is she already being ordered to evict her?

He didn't return all night, and he came back with the traces left by the woman without any avoidance. Was he laying the groundwork for the termination of the contract with her?

If so, what would she do?
Shouldn't it be wise to leave by yourself?

Before he directly proposed to let her go, how about quietly retaining her last sliver of self-esteem and automatically disappearing in front of him?
But what about her heart?
Just thinking about her future life without him, her heart hurts so much that she can't breathe anymore!

If there is really no him, what is left in her life?
Her whole heart is full of him, whether it's walking, sleeping, eating...

As long as her thoughts are spinning, he will occupy every corner of her body!

"Xi Jincheng, I love you, even if you decide to terminate the contract with me, I can still tell you... Hehe, I knew it was impossible, but I still fell in love so stupidly! From the moment I fell in love with you, I have already It was doomed to end, but I threw myself into this relationship like a moth to a flame, and gave myself to you without complaint or regret."

She laughed bitterly at herself, he is the proud son of the sky, the king who is worshiped by others, but she became greedy beyond her means...

There was a sound at the door, the sound of a key entering the hole.

He is back!

Shu Ran stood up in surprise, only then did she realize that her feet had already been numb to the point of losing consciousness, and she fell to the ground in pain. Every nerve ending in her body was suffering unbearable pain.

She gritted her teeth and endured silently, afraid that he would think that she was deliberately trying to win his sympathy.

By the light, she saw him walking in drenched in rain, stumbling as usual, walking towards the stairs with a strong smell of alcohol.

He didn't see her sitting on the ground, and slowly went upstairs step by step.

He took off the soaked clothes one by one and threw them on the ground casually. The water droplets from the ends of his hair dripped down the stairs one by one.

Under the orange light, there seems to be a splash, reflecting the bright light.

He's drunk again!
Just, why is he drenched all over?
Didn't Liu Can send him back today?

After the numb feeling faded away, she slowly stood up, walked over, and picked up the clothes that were so wet that water could be squeezed out.

Every time she picks up one, her heart sinks a little bit. Even after being washed by rain, she still smells a faint smell of strange perfume...

"Shu Ran! Shu Ran! Shu Ran, where are you!" Just as she was picking up the last white shirt, she heard his growling voice coming from the bedroom, followed by messy footsteps, accompanied by There was the sound of something being smashed to the ground.

Is he angry?
Because you didn't see her sleeping obediently on the bed?
Holding the clothes tightly in his hands, there are only two buttons left in the whole dress...

She can imagine how exciting the two sides were at that time, and even thinking about it can make her heart ache.

"Shu Ran..." He rushed out of the room, his naked body trembling slightly.

When he saw her, his expression softened a lot and replaced with more anger.

"Go take a shower and change into clean clothes. You'll catch a cold." She suppressed the discomfort in her heart, watched him finish speaking, and walked past him with the wet clothes he took off.

"Does it count as caring?" How could she be so calm? After seeing him looking for her in such a panic all over the room, how could she be so indifferent? !
"Do you care?" She sneered, if she said that she really cared about him and worried about him, would he care?
"Shu Ran, you said you liked me, you said it, didn't you?" He grabbed her hand violently, pulled her back in front of him, squeezed her chin hard, and forced her to meet his gaze , not letting go of any trace of expression on her face.

"So what? I like you, care about you, and worry about you, so what? Can you change anything? If you can't love me, then don't remind me again, I like your unsatisfactory things! I will even despise myself!" Shu Ran looked at him without avoiding it, and squeezed his wet shirt out of water.

"Okay! Very good!" With a dull pain in his heart, he pushed her away, staggered, turned and walked into the room, and slammed the door with a "bang".

Without his support, she slumped to the ground fiercely, looking at the closed door, tears rushed down her eyes.

Sorry, please forgive my inconsistency!

I love you!
I love you so much!
Even I don't understand why I love you so much, I don't want to leave you!
I'm sorry, even if you really hate me, you really don't want me anymore...

But, as long as I can see you again, even if it's only occasionally, even if I can only see you after several months of dark nights, I'm willing...

I'm sorry, Xi Jincheng!
Let me see enough of you, that's the only way, even if one day I really have to leave you, at least I still have memories to support me to live.

Please forgive my selfishness, please forgive me!

(End of this chapter)