I loved you so deeply

Chapter 43 Life and Death (3)
"That's right, things are unpredictable." Leixi smiled, and she was very serious, "At that time, I was busy with competitions, collections, and photos. I went home very few times a year. My daughter My daughter-in-law is taking care of her. She left suddenly, and I realized that I can’t do anything without her at home. So you children, you should cherish your life and treat the people around you well. Er Zuo, because he might leave you one day, and it’s too late to regret it.”

This is inexplicably sad to say.

The hotel owner did not know when he moved out of the loudspeaker and started playing records on the open lawn. Sana said that it was a traditional African folk song.

The husky and melodious male voice is singing in a low voice, like the elegant tango music of the twentieth century.

Sana took out a snare drum that she carried with her from her backpack, and started beating along with the rhythm.

The girl from Shenyang stood up and said, "I want to dance."

The Jiangxi boy next to him also stood up, followed by Hu Peng, then Professor Zhang and his wife, and then, many people chatting around the bonfire on the lawn.

They come from various countries, and they are in pairs, regardless of each other's identities, like the best friends.

Lei Xi also stood up, and stretched out a hand towards Gu Jin: "Dancing?"

Gu Jin was at a loss: "I won't."

"It's okay, there are not many people who can dance here." He borrowed his strength to pull Gu Jin up and walked towards the center of the crowd, "If you integrate into this atmosphere, you will be able to do everything."

After the folk song was sung, the boss changed to a more cheerful tune, similar to the unrestrained Brazilian samba.

Gu Jin put her hand on Lei Xi's hand, and Lei Xi put her hand on her waist in a gentlemanly manner. Gu Jin followed him aimlessly, and occasionally bumped into someone and grabbed their territory provocatively. Gradually, Gu Jin Jin let go, and the smile on his face grew bigger and bigger.

Her hair was loose, and there was a fragrance of grass and trees in her hair. Against the background of the campfire, her cheeks were like two glowing red apples, and her eyes were bright.

The night is getting darker.

Lacey whispered in her ear: "You are beautiful."

The music was too loud, Gu Jin was so immersed in it that he couldn't hear him clearly: "What?"

Lacey took her out of the crowd and came to a thick tree. The sound of music was still playing. Although it was a little farther away, it felt more hazy and ambiguous.

Gu Jin felt something was wrong.

Lacey looked at her fixedly, and repeated: "I said you are beautiful."

She has the temperament between a woman and a girl, lively, mature, silent, but delicate.Sometimes the look in his eyes when he looks at things reminds him of his wife's appearance many years ago, she was jerky, ignorant, and fearless.

He was very close to her, and intentionally or unintentionally brushed Gu Jin's hair with his hands. From a distance of one hand, Gu Jin could feel the heat from Lacey's body, the strong smell of male hormones.

"Do you dare to try with me?"

There was a bang in Gu Jin's head.She remembered a sentence from a long time ago, and remembered a person she hadn't thought of for a long, long time.

He hugged her in the same way that night when he was caught off guard, he said, think about it, try it with me.

Gu Jin stood where she was, her heart beating wildly, and she even forgot to dodge.

Lacey's hand was still on her waist, and there was a tendency to gradually increase the strength.That waist is unbearable, flexible, sexy, with the warmth of her body.

His lips gradually moved closer, as if he wanted to kiss her.

The distance is getting closer and closer, and it seems that they are about to kiss.

Gu Jin turned his head away abruptly.

Lacey's face froze for a moment in embarrassment.

Gu Jin broke away from his hand, took a few steps back, and spoke incoherently: "Lei Xi, I'm sorry, no, this can't work."

Lei Xi copied her hands, calmly: "Why not?"

"I'm married, you have your wife, you have a daughter, and...and..." Gu Jin licked her dry lips, feeling dizzy in her head, "I'm sorry, Lacey, really, really, like this No, I..."

"That's not a reason." Lacey's tone was firm and clear, "What does this have to do with you being married? Are you separated? If you haven't separated, why haven't you even had a phone call since you came here for three months? Look at your own hands."

The ring finger of Gu Jin's left hand was bald, and there was a very shallow ring-shaped mark.

"You followed me along the way, took pictures, watched the great migration, climbed mountains, and waited for the sunrise, didn't you just want to find a new life for yourself?" He spoke very irrefutablely, trying to make her accept himself, "Gu Jin, new life, And that includes a new relationship."

No matter what Lei Xi said, Gu Jin kept shaking his head.

"No, it's not like that." She took another two steps back and calmed down, "Raci, I'm very grateful for your care for me along the way, but it doesn't mean you're repaying it in this way."

Lacey argued with her: "It's not repayment, it has nothing to do with these, I said, I'm serious. Gu Jin, there are many things in you that I appreciate—"

"Impossible, Lei Xi." Gu Jin looked at him quietly, and said calmly, "You are fine, really, but I can't accept you, at least not now."

Lacey's eyes became very sharp: "Is it unacceptable to me, or any man except someone."

Gu Jin stopped talking.

Lacey understood, and he said, "OK."

He took two steps, then turned around, and said in a normal tone: "Tomorrow morning, I'm going to rent a boat at the pier. I heard that there are fishing boats from Angola coming. If you can get up early, let's go and see the excitement together."

Gu Jin nodded: "Okay."

Lacey's figure gradually blended into the happy crowd, and he soon danced with Sana.

The wind picked up, the bonfire was shaken, and sparks were flying in the air, bringing the unique fresh and original flavor of this city.

Gu Jin sat down quietly against a corner of the lawn, with her back to the crowd, then slowly curled herself into a ball and closed her eyes.

Finally, on this night, she faced up to the people and things that she had deliberately avoided for half a year.

That person didn't want to keep asking or mentioning it, and it would never appear in her mind, but once that opportunity appeared, he was like a ferocious beast, quickly devouring all the defenses she had built up in her heart.

Only now did Gu Jin sadly realize that apart from him, she still could not accept any man who tried to enter her life.

The cruel words she said to him before she left, at this moment, in the puzzled and angry eyes that Lacey looked at her just now, all turned into a sharp knife piercing his heart.

She can't.

She resisted any man's touch, resisted any man's advances, that would make her sick from the bottom of her heart.

She still loves Pang Zheng.

That kind of love goes deep into the bone marrow and into the blood.She doesn't know it, but every inch of her body and soul is filled with this name, and she hates herself for being like this.

At seven o'clock the next morning, Hu Peng knocked on her door to wake her up.

Lei Xi came out of the room and met Gu Jin face to face, her face was calm, as if nothing had happened.

Gu Jin changed into a white half-sleeved T-shirt today, a pair of clean jeans, and tied a ponytail.She smiled unnaturally at him, and he walked past her blankly, took a few steps, and suddenly turned his head and smiled at her too.

It was the vicissitudes of life of an old man's smile. There was helplessness, tolerance, and a hint of pampering in the smile, just like a child.

After breakfast, they set off to the port to watch the fishing boats dock.

Before the fishing boat arrived, Lei Xi and Hu Peng first went to the boat owner to inquire about the news, while Gu Jin leaned against the low stone wall on the shore of the pier and waited.

Tan Yu got out of the car, walked to her side silently, took out a cigarette and held it in his mouth.

He looked at the pier following Gu Jin's gaze, and asked leisurely: "The one with the mustache is your new best friend?"

Gu Jin was taken aback, and turned her head in disbelief. Tan Yu looked down at her with a smirk, as if he was waiting for her answer.

She was stunned for a moment, but only for a moment, then turned her head and said expressionlessly: "Does it have something to do with you?"

"It has nothing to do with me." Tan Yu slanted his arms and slouched, imitating her and sitting on the stone steps. Those who didn’t know thought you were someone outside, leaving Pang Zheng waiting at home like an idiot for half a year. Why, why don’t you invite someone to ask?”

When Tan Yu spoke, he swayed his legs, casually, and his tone was cold. Gu Jin could tell that he was mocking himself for being irresponsible in a disguised form, and trying to avenge his good brother.

Gu Jin didn't want to talk to him, and stared straight at the boats docking at the port.

Tan Yu touched the sunglasses with his fingers, revealing a pair of eyes: "Angry? Don't keep talking."

"To tell you the truth, the one with the little black beard." He gestured to draw his chin with his hand, "Look at the two of you talking and laughing, is it okay?"

Gu Jin asked him: "Are you so familiar with everyone?"

Tan Yu really thought about it for a while: "Not necessarily, it also divides people."

Really shameless.

Gu Jin was speechless.

Really unable to hold him back, Gu Jin said, "That's the leader of our trip together, named Leixi, a photographer from the Photography Association of H Province."

Tan Yu sighed slowly: "No wonder. I wear a camera around my neck every day, and take pictures of everything I catch. It's as if I haven't seen the world at all."

Previously, Gu Jin's impression of Tan Yu was limited to being silent, gloomy, and rebellious. She rarely heard him being so sarcastic.

Wearing Ray-Ban aviator sunglasses, a half-sleeve shirt with hippie graffiti, and flip-flops, he looks like a big boy.

He chattered like a chatterbox: "Let me tell you, don't look at these photographers in the name of discovering the soul and discovering the beauty. In fact, everyone's heart is dirty. Maybe they are planning something every day. You are a girl, no, Even though you are a married woman, you are a half-mature lady, but you still have charm anyway, if you are a little emotionally hurt, and you are a little bit shadowy, you are the easiest to be deceived..."

Gu Jin said with a cold face, "I didn't realize you talked so much before."

"Before? In the past, you knew me too late. You should marry Pang Zheng a few years earlier, so you can have a deep understanding of me. In fact, Pang Zheng is the one who can talk the most among us. Sometimes my brothers get together to chat big, and I won't accept anyone, so I will obey him, that mouth..."

Gu Jin stared at him indifferently, her eyes were as quiet as a puddle of water.

Tan Yu shut his mouth embarrassingly.

The two sat side by side on the low stone wall above the port, and an Angola fishing boat came in the distance. A fat middle-aged black man was carrying a tuna, which was very big. People around him cheered on the shore, celebrating this rare trophy, swarming Embrace it.

Tan Yu lit the cigarette he had been holding in his mouth, and asked her, "What are you doing in Africa?"

Gu Jin: "Look at the great migration of animals."

"how long it has been?"

"Three months."

Gu Jin asked him back, "What are you doing in Africa?"

"Do research, do pharmacological research."

"What are you studying?" Gu Jin was surprised, and felt that what he said solemnly seemed like a fantasy.

Tan Yu frowned, took a deep puff of the cigarette, and knocked off the ash: "Research on AIDS, malaria, and infectious viruses that are highly prevalent here, these are the topics I have been working on since graduation."

He is a talented medical student studying abroad, and he has always had an unshakable dream.

"There are tens of millions of people infected with HIV (AIDS) all over the world. This is the place with the largest number of cases. AIDS is like a common cold. It is not taken seriously, and no one is willing to study it. When you get sick, you just watch him You are getting thinner and drier, and your big eyes just look at you like that, as if you are blaming everyone, and it seems that no one is blaming you, and when you are dying, you curl up in a corner, silently." He said His face was moved, and he was more serious than ever, "No matter what the reason is, those children are always innocent. They lived to be seven or eight years old, and they were tortured to death by this disease once they lived in the world. They don't know how to resist. Once you Go, stand at the entrance of the village waiting for you, as if you are a life-saving straw, and say uncle, can you save us? Can I, I don’t know if I can, I want to say that I just went to take a water sample, But you couldn't bear to refuse seeing them, so you promised them to me, and I have to do this too."

"Then did you make it?" Gu Jin asked him softly.

"I don't know." Tan Yu pinched off the cigarette, "The local hospital specially vacated a research laboratory for us. My two senior brothers and sisters in the United States are here, and with the latest research results there, we want to use pharmacological Synthesize an active inhibin and do it every day."

Gu Jin said, "Aren't you afraid?"

He snorted: "What's so scary, don't think of it as a virus, don't think of those people as patients, and imagine yourself as a great sage who hangs the pot to help the world. When you have a sense of mission, you will naturally not be afraid of anything. The research is in the latter part , and will soon be sent to the United States for final clinical confirmation. Yesterday, I asked someone to transport a few boxes of medicines that are not available here from China. I came to pick you up at the pier, and that’s where I saw you.”

The sun was shining directly above the pier, Tan Yu pointed to the front, and Gu Jin's eyes were squinted by the sun.

"Do you miss home too?"

"I don't want to. My father is squatting in his cell. My mother ran away with money as early as the year he collapsed. I am single, have no wife or children, and can settle down anywhere."

This is telling the truth.

He turned his head and glanced at her, and asked meaningfully: "You don't want to go home?"

"My mother is in New Zealand, which is fine."

Tan Yu stared at her: "You know that's not what I meant. Pang Zheng has been waiting for you."

Gu Jin didn't seem to want to continue this topic, patted his butt, stood up from the stone steps: "I want to go see the fish."

She waved to Sana, indicating that she would go over immediately.After walking two steps, Gu Jin looked back at him and said the truth: "Tan Yu, you are not as bad as I thought."

Hearing this, Tan Yu stood up with a playful smile, and stomped his feet: "It's really not easy to hear compliments from you."

Gu Jin was wearing a ponytail and half sleeves, revealing her two arms and her abrupt and sexy collarbone, with a thin silver chain hanging in the middle of her collarbone.

She smiled at him, the kind that came from the heart, with crooked eyes.

Tan Yu knew why Pang Zheng liked Gu Jin so much.

She said just now: "You will definitely have a family."

Gu Jin walked away, and the whistle of a cargo ship docked in the distance. Tan Yu came to his senses and began to run along the stone steps, running faster and faster. He wanted to catch up with Gu Jin: "Gu Jin——"

Gu Jin stood at the bottom of the stone steps, looking up at him from a distance of more than ten meters: "What?"

Tan Yu excitedly pointed at the three freighters at the port, jumping up and down like monkeys: "Look!"

Three freighters were approaching the port, in the middle of their line of sight, Gu Jin was on this side, Tan Yu was on the other side, with majestic Chinese characters printed on the hull, and a boatman was standing on the fence preparing to drop the anchor rope.

Gu Jin looked in the direction he was pointing at, but didn't understand what he meant, thinking that he was showing her the fishing boats returning with full load.She jumped up, waved to him, and walked away backwards.

The excitement gradually passed, Tan Yu put down his hands, stood there and looked at the four big characters "Shengheng Group" on the boat, and said to Gu Jin silently: "You will also have a home, this boat, its coming The place, its owner, is here to take you home."

The weather is not beautiful, as if deliberately not letting them go.

There was a heavy rain in Cape Town that day, with lightning and thunder all day and night.

The water level in the port has risen, making it impossible for offshore and docked ships to go. Dozens of freighters and speedboats are parked at the berths. The boatmen disembarked and hid in the shops of the merchants across the street. Their longing eyes were reflected in the glass. , praying for the storm to pass quickly.

Anyone who has drifted at sea knows that after a storm, there will be a week or more of clear weather.

Gu Jin and his party are nestled in a residential hotel, bored.

Professor Zhang and his wife have been resting in the room, Lei Xi is using the Wi-Fi (wireless network) in the lounge outside to repair the film, Hu Peng took a deck of poker and taught the owner of the residential house how to play cards, and the Beijing film made him stunned. I was taken aback.

"Look, do you know what these four identical cards are called? According to our Chinese language, they are called bombs!"

"Zha?"

The fat black boss re-read in blunt Chinese and made an explosive motion with his hands: "like this?"

(End of this chapter)