God is finally with me

Chapter 480 Strike while the iron is hot [2 more]

Hearing Miyagi's words, Meng Xiyan laughed again, and after laughing, she cried again.

Miyagi looked at Meng Xiyan who was emotionally unstable, grabbed her wrist, pulled her hand away abruptly, and persuaded: "Xiyan, you are tired, it's time to rest."

Meng Xiyan, who was pulled away by Miyagi, held onto his clothes tightly, still clinging to his shoulder, and said to herself: "Miyagi, do you know how I got here in the past three years? ?”

In today's Miyagi, Meng Xiyan's flattery and pestering made him unable to be cruel anymore.

He remembered that back then, he was pestering her like this.

She can understand this feeling, the feeling of being rejected and rejected by others.

He was afraid that his rejection of Meng Xiyan again would make her even more decadent and make her even more unable to cheer up.

So he didn't turn around and push her away, but listened to her quietly.

She said: "For more than three years, every day has been a nightmare for me. As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw myself staying in such a house, seeing everyone and everything I cared about leaving me one by one. I really can't hold on, I really want to finish it all."

"But I can't leave Xi Huan behind, I can't leave her alone, my father is in jail, my mother is crazy, I must save my life, and don't let Xi Huan feel hopeless, but I will bring Xi Huan There was endless trouble, and I drank all day, and I spent what little money we had left on booze."

"Later, I couldn't find the money, so I went to credit."

"Actually, I don't want to do this, but I can't walk out of this street like Xi Huan, find a job, and live. Sometimes, I even think selfishly, or else I will take Xi Huan with me! In this way we It's all free, she doesn't have to pay for her mother's hospitalization expenses, and she doesn't have to support my useless sister."

"But I saw her full of confidence and vigor, and I couldn't bear to take her away. She still has hope for life. I can't destroy her hope, and I can't deprive her of the right to live. I'm so tired, really I'm so tired! I'm so tired every day, I need to think too much, but I can't do anything, so I can only numb myself with alcohol, so that I don't think too much, just like this day after day, year after year, and finally , When you come back, seeing you live such a wonderful life, I am envious, I am jealous, I am not reconciled, I am angry, angry that you use me, angry that you left after taking revenge on me, but the hatred in my heart is also I can't do anything, I know that I was wrong first, but I can't make myself forgive you, forgive you for being so cruel to me."

"Miyagi, what should I do to live a good life, to forget the past, to forget you, and to start again?"

At this moment, what Meng Xiyan said was not forgetting the early morning, but Miyagi.

Because she couldn't let go of her hatred for him.

Hearing Meng Xiyan's complaint, Miyagi smiled wryly. Meng Xiyan envied him, so why should he be envious.

People living in this world are nothing more than doing two things, one is to envy other people's lives, and the other is to force X to make others envy.

Now, he is the second type that others envy.

In the depths of his heart, there are also things that he can't envy, for example, Qin Momo's affection for the early morning.

Meng Xiyan asked her, what should she do to start again, and this is what Miyagi wanted to ask, how could he start again.

He was also confused, so he didn't answer Meng Xiyan's words, but pulled his little hand that was behind him, and patted the back of her hand to show comfort.

After Meng Xiyan knew that her complaints had made Miyagi feel sympathetic, she struck while the iron was hot, and reluctantly begged: "Miyagi, don't leave, I'm in a mess today, I hope you can stay by my side, for the last time."

Miyagi did not refuse Meng Xiyan's request. If he stayed, it would prove that he really loved her and could cheer her up again. He was willing to guard her all night in exchange for the harm he caused her when he was childish.

So he said, "Okay!"

With Miyagi's consent, Meng Xiyan took a deep breath, and said with peace of mind: "That's great."

yes!very nice!Miyagi finally didn't hate her.

Outside the balcony, due to the poor sound insulation of the house, Meng Xihuan heard everything Meng Xiyan said.

When she heard Meng Xiyan say that she was her trouble, Meng Xi burst into tears.

In the past few years, she has been very tired, really tired.

But the family is in disarray, if she doesn't persist, if she is not brave, and if she doesn't pull herself together, then it will really be over.

So, she has been holding on, telling herself that it will get better, and everything will get better.

However, she knew that after tonight, they would all get better, because her sister would let go of her worries and live a good life, and they would all have a new start.

……

After a while, the door of the rental room was opened.

When Miyagi opened the door, she saw Meng Xihuan tightly wrapped in her clothes, stomping on the balcony.

It's a little windy tonight, and it's a little cold on the balcony.

When Meng Xihuan saw Miyagi, she smiled awkwardly and said, "Go in and accompany sister! I'm fine!"

Looking at the girl's forced smile, Miyagi seemed to see Meng Xiyan's innocent face on her face.

He said: "Xi Yan fell asleep, you should also come in to rest! It's cold outside."

"I'm fine. You can stay with my sister. I'll take a look at the night scene. I haven't seen the night scene for a long time."

Miyagi knew that Meng Xihuan was being polite to him, and wanted him to accompany Meng Xiyan.

He thought of what Meng Xiyan said just now, and of the girl in front of him, who single-handedly provoked this down-and-out family, and couldn't help feeling a little respect in his heart.

Although she looks exactly the same as Meng Xihuan, Miyagi has never paid attention to Meng Xihuan.

To him, the Meng family seemed to have only one daughter, Meng Xiyan.

He took a deep breath, walked slowly to the balcony, stood beside Meng Xihuan, raised his head, and looked at the sky above his head.

The night view of City S is too beautiful, the lights are shining brightly, covering all the sparkling stars in the night sky.

However, he tried his best to look at the sky, tried his best to find the time, and occasionally he could still see faint lights from the night sky.

He still remembered that when they were still living in W City, the sky was so blue and many stars could be seen when they looked up.

At that time, he would make an appointment with Meng Xiyan to secretly go to the rooftop to watch the stars together.

Miyagi could feel that at that time, Meng Xiyan liked him in her heart.

It's just because she is too strong, too competitive, and wants to have the best of everything, that makes her life so tiring, and pushes herself to this point.

He sighed helplessly: "There are no stars in the night sky of City S."

"If you look carefully, there will still be." Meng Xihuan answered.

She didn't understand what Miyagi meant. The stars in Miyagi's mouth were actually their beauty and simplicity.

When we come to this intricate and deceitful world, it is easy for us to lose ourselves.

(End of this chapter)