Jin Tingjiao

Chapter 516 Have you ever been responsible?

And when Shen Ruopu came here, she probably couldn't stand it anymore. Huang's relationship with Shen Xi was always close, so she simply went to Fuxiangyuan.

In the study room, Shen Yan had already been slapped by Shen Chongguang.

Shen Qu wanted to hold him back, but he didn't. At this moment, he hated that he didn't worship Huo Jiu as his teacher earlier!

"The marriage cannot be withdrawn! The Shen family cannot become unkind and unrighteous because of you!"

Shen Chongguang's face was pale and cold. Even though he was not as furious as before the beating, the clenched fists and the bulging veins on his head showed how angry he was at the moment.

Shen Yan's cheeks were red and swollen, she looked at the ground, she was still very calm: "I know that my father will not abandon the Shen family for me, and I don't dare to compromise the family's reputation for myself, and I know that I will embarrass my father by doing so. .

"But father, do you really care about it? I only want this once, even if you ask me to go to Mei's house to apologize in person, I will agree!"

After being slapped, she didn't cry.

She really has no position to cry. It was her fault to break the engagement without reason. If she cries again, how wronged is she?

Besides, if she had made up her mind and made plans early after Shen Chongguang came back, things wouldn't be as they are now.

After all, she was willing to take this slap because of her indecision.

Shen Chongguang clenched his teeth, but he was unable to reply to her questioning.

Did he ever care about her wishes?Maybe not.

But since ancient times, the marriage of children has been ordered by the parents and the words of the matchmaker. Why did it become his fault when it came to her? !
"Tell me, why did you suddenly divorce?!"

Shen Yan pursed her lips, with a wry smile on the corner of her mouth.

"It wasn't suddenly, but I didn't want it from the very beginning. I don't think Mrs. Mei is my good match. I want to make up my own mind about the marriage. But my father never asked my opinion from the beginning to the end. From the signing of this marriage contract, from the proposal to the engagement, have you ever asked me if I am happy?"

"I'm your father! I can only make decisions about your marriage. Where does the reason come from? Let you make up your own mind!"

Shen Chongguang was angry again.He lifted his foot and kicked over the stool next to him.

Shen Yan smiled and raised her head: "I know that my father has some truths, such as the orders of my parents and the words of the matchmaker, so if I dare to ask my father and my mother, are you happy if you live up to the words of the matchmaker?

"When you were at odds with my mother, did you ever obey your parents' orders without complaint or regret, and didn't you feel a little disgusted?"

Shen Chongguang was speechless.

It was a mistake between him and the Ji family. When did he have no regrets?
If he could persist, how could there be Qiao Shi and Shen Heng?
"Father never felt happy himself, so why did he force his daughter to marry a stranger?"

Shen Yan continued: "You just think that you are responsible for me if you find me a marriage that you think is suitable early, so why did you ever think of setting it up for me so early and then ignoring me?" , I am very likely to repeat your mistakes in the future?

"I appreciate my father's kindness. I just hope that my father will not let me become another Ji family or you again.

"To be offensive, why do you think that you can't live a bad life yourself, and you can't even ask for happiness, but you can definitely get it in my hands?
"I just saw my own future in you and my mother.

"If I end up in the same fate as my mother in the future, besides saying a few words of emotion to me, after three or five months, will you still remember me, the daughter you married far away?"

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Shen Chongguang patted the table, his face was not only shocked but also guilty, "Compared with your mother, you and Mr. Mei are not the same at all!"

"What's the difference?" Shen Yan said, "If father had the freedom to choose his wife back then, would you have chosen my mother? You wouldn't.

"Because you never liked her temperament.

"Unfortunately, I was brought up by my mother, and I may have a bad side of her character.

"If the same thing happens, if my husband also takes concubines in the future and treats his concubine children a hundred times stronger than his legitimate children, I'm not sure what I will do.

"Because my mother and I are the same in this point, I hope that after I give all my heart, my husband can also treat me wholeheartedly.

"This was originally a very fair thing, but in the eyes of many people it has become our luxury.

"My father set me up for the rest of my life on my own initiative. After all, you have never reflected on where you went wrong in the past 30 years? What were you wrong?

"If you've thought about it, you wouldn't have preconceived that I wanted to divorce because I belonged to someone else.

"Not to mention getting angry when I propose to divorce and explain the reasons.

"What you think is a good match and worthy of my daughter's marriage contract is all your explanation for the person who gave birth to me!
"In your opinion, the good family who found me a door is responsible for me.

"You will have a good life in the future because you have foresight and picked a good son-in-law. If you live a bad life, it must be because I am in the blessing and I don't know the blessing, and it is all my fault.

"Since my father doesn't want to be responsible for me, why doesn't he give me the power to choose and let me control my own life?"

Some words have been held in for too long, and I really wanted to say them a long time ago.

Although the Ji family has indeed committed many mistakes, Shen Chongguang is not without faults.

These past events can also be left alone, just say that he is dealing with the issue of his children.

It is true that after the death of Mrs. Ji, he also began to care about their legitimate children, but at most it was limited to responsibility.

But his attitude towards Shen Heng before was completely different, he would accompany her to make a kite, take her by the hand to buy food in the street, and take her to the countryside for outings.

Shen Heng can act like a baby in front of him at will, even if he is crying, he will only coax her instead of scolding her.

Compared with her, her eldest daughter is like an outsider who is not close in blood.

It's a lie to say that you're not jealous or don't care.

If it was someone else's father, she wouldn't care at all.But it happened to be her own father.

Putting aside his status as a concubine, is it difficult for him to give her a little more care?

By now, she didn't really mind the differences.

Especially after Huo Jiu appeared, his patience with her and the sense of reliability he gave her made her even more rare.

She knew that if she had him, then he would belong to her as a whole, instead of sharing his goodness with others, and not having to restrain herself, always reminding herself that one day she would lose it.

What she is asking for from Shen Chongguang now is nothing more than a little freedom for herself!

"I also ask my father to give me some sincere love and care to make me believe that you really treat me as your own daughter."

She looked up, persistent and determined.

(End of this chapter)