Chapter 294

After Shu Ning chatted with Yu Siqi for nearly 10 minutes on the balcony, he saw him turn around and enter the room, then sat next to Gu Yan, and talked to her a few words, she didn't hear what he said, she just saw Gu Yan listening to these words When the time came, he stood up a little anxiously, his eyes full of forbearance.

She stretched out her hand to open the balcony door and went in, and saw Gu Yan standing beside the sofa, looking down at her with forbearance in her eyes, and then only heard Yu Siqi say, "I said, as long as you dare to act bravely, I will always stand by you." Here, "I came here today to prove that I didn't lie, I didn't lie to you, and you were not abandoned by this world.

This night, after Gu Yan changed his clothes, he went downstairs from Yu Siqi. Zuo Ao knew each other. Instead, he stood far away and waited for the two of them to finish talking. There was not the only sentence, Yu Siqi told her to go upstairs to rest earlier.

Yu Siqi restrained and forbeared, Gu Yan said nothing, and the two of them stood on one side, more or less it would make people feel a little regretful.

After Yu Siqi and Gu Yan went downstairs, Shu Ning stood on the balcony on the second floor and looked downstairs. He thought they would talk for a long time, but no, Gu Yan came up after going down for 10 minutes. She closed the door with a bang, and then leaned against the door He slid back to the floor and started crying loudly.

I couldn't cry.

That night, Shu Ning sat behind the door with her for a whole night, until the next day when the belly turned white, the two got up and went to the bedroom. They didn't speak a word, but they agreed.

After lying on the bed, Gu Yan covered himself in the quilt.

As for Shu Ning, he was sitting on the bed, replaying the scenes of last night in his mind, replaying the scenes in his mind over and over again.

This year, a vicious murder occurred in Berlin. A family of 27 people had their throats sealed overnight. The police and forensic doctors could not find any clues. The report started on the second day after the performance. At this time, Yu Siqi and Zuo Ao had already returned to Seoul and the capital. Gu Yan and Shu Ning were sitting on the sofa in the living room watching the news. Finally Shu Ning asked; "How did you do it?"

"Careful planning, reasonable time," she only said these ten words, because Yu Siqi arranged all this, and she was only responsible for following the plan.

Because these are the specialties and professions of the two of them.

"If someone below auctions off their property, we will do it if someone moves it, and we will wait and see if no one moves it." Family ruin and death are the boundaries that Gu Yan set for them at the beginning, and they must be implemented.

In the long years since then, Gu Yan has kept in mind Yu Siqi's code of conduct. She has changed, completely changed, and become a cruel but ruthless woman.

It's just because this incident taught her too painful a lesson.

So many people who knew her and Yu Siqi said that her methods were surprisingly similar to Yu Siqi's, how could it be different?

Gu Yan followed Yu Siqi's set of conduct rules completely.

On the night after Gu Yan left, Shu Ning returned to her old place. Hearing the group of people talking about some kind of tragedy, she felt a little trembling in her heart, but she wanted to pretend nothing had happened, her face was expressionless, and she couldn't show it. too obvious.

The tone of that group of people was as startled as he was, and they kept wondering who could do so neatly, without leaving any traces, so that the bailiffs and police couldn't find any traces, and even escaped the surveillance in the manor .

After Gu Yan left, she worked in the company during the day, and started to live a muddle-headed life at night, changing one partner after another.

Almost never repeated.

She never thought of such a life, but she lived it. She never thought that one day she would be on the tower of the fireworks venue, but the fact is that she lingered in this place all day long.

In the following week, she and Gu Yan cooperated tacitly, and they were still making progress in the mall.

After Gu Yan returned to Los Angeles, it seemed that her life had returned to calm, but in fact it hadn't. Only she knew that on a certain night, she would still dream of that lively night in Berlin.

At the age of 22, the situation improved slightly, but only in public.

Xu Youning once brought her psychiatrist friend back to their apartment, hoping to help her invisibly, but, useless, and Gu Yan's heart was too hard to pry open.After Berlin came back, she seemed to be a different person. She was no longer thinking about suicide, but she was calm about everything. The time when you could see her strange emotions was definitely when she was fighting with others on the training ground. Gu Yan broke down , It’s good again, but it’s not complete, it’s as if the injuries she suffered these days are well hidden by her, and no one can see them, but the scar deep in her heart is still there, and it can’t even be erased.

When Xu Youning got off work, he drove the car directly to the training ground, sat not far away and watched Gu Yan wrestling with others, fighting with others, that kind of ruthlessness was not what a woman should have, but helplessly, the sight in front of her This woman is Gu Yan.

"How's she doing?" asked Ben, sitting next to her.

"It's better than before," Xu Youning replied casually, as long as Gu Yan doesn't seek death, everything will be fine.

She felt so.

"But I think it's worse than before. She doesn't seem to have any weaknesses, and she's doing her best no matter what she does," like desperately, not afraid of pain or injury.

Xu Youning smiled wryly, yes, she also felt that Gu Yan was becoming less and less afraid of death, she didn't have any respect for the preciousness of life, and even felt it didn't matter.

Until she finished taking a shower, Xu Youning leaned against the door of the dressing room and waited for her to go back together. The two walked along the road to discuss what to eat. No matter what you asked, Gu Yan would always be casual and would not say anything else.

The two were walking well, but Xu Youning suddenly stopped when she heard her plain language. Gu Yan realized after walking two steps. Xu realized something, and then said, "How about Japanese food?"

"Okay," Xu Youning happily agreed upon hearing this.

What she was afraid of was that Gu Yan had no desires and desires, if she had no desires and desires, sooner or later she would make the same mistakes again.

One day two weeks later, Gu Yanxiu was dragged out by Xu Youning to go shopping on the weekend. While Xu Youning was driving, she received a call from Shu Ning. Said; "Who is it?"

"A colleague over there in Berlin," she responded lightly, without saying who that person was.

Xu Youning nodded. He always knew that Gu Yan had his own business in Berlin, so he didn't ask any more questions.

"How is your career in Berlin?" On the way, she was chatting with her looking for topics.

She only knows that Gu Yan has her own business in Berlin, but she has never heard her talk about the situation of her business in Berlin, and she has never even seen her bring her work home. Most of the time, she answered the phone like just now, Say a few words, say that the thing has been sent to the mailbox, and then accept the call.

She came here because she wanted to find a chance to chat, but Gu Yan never chatted much.

"Very good," Gu Yan replied.

Every time.

This is her standard answer every time.

"Hasn't been in touch with Lao Yu for a long time?" Xu Youning changed another topic to chat with her.

Gu Yan's heart disease is very serious, so serious that if she is alone at home, she can sit there and let go of her thoughts for a whole day, or if she is in a working state all day long, Xu Youning will sometimes feel very tired. The two of them went to work and were busy with their own affairs, but at night after work, she absolutely did not dare to let Gu Yan be alone, even if she went down to buy a pack of sanitary napkins, she would drag Gu Yan to go with her, if Gu Yan didn't want to , she will try her best to beg her father to sue her grandma.

Subconsciously, she felt that it was too dangerous for Gu Yan to be alone at home.

"No!" Gu Yan was also helpless.

"Why did Lao Yu appear like a ghost?" Xu Youning didn't know Lao Yu's identity and occupation, so he didn't know why.

On the contrary, Gu Yan was used to it and felt nothing.

"The mall has an event today, what do you want to buy?" Xu Youning asked while parking the car.

"There's nothing I want to buy. What do you want to buy? Swipe my card," Gu Yan's obvious performance over the years is that she has become richer in money and poorer in spirit. She doesn't know what she wants and has no desires. There is no need, and it is this state that makes Xu Youning feel terrible.

"Forget it, I just love that my eldest, second child, and my parents will send me money every month, and they are still very rich," Xu Youning is the youngest in the family, and the whole family loves her more.

But Gu Yan has hardly seen her family members, so he probably never went abroad to see her!
As Xu Youning said, today's shopping mall is indeed an event. Whenever there is a discount in the mall, some women can't hold back like wild horses. Xu Youning wants to buy everything he likes, but Gu Yan is here to give Here she comes with her bag.

Originally, she was wandering aimlessly, but she never expected to meet an acquaintance here. When the familiar figure suddenly broke into her sight, she was stunned, and then it took only a second to quickly flash to aside, hide.

That's right, to hide. She is like a coward. When she met Bai Shenxing, who was handsome and tall in a black suit, in a large shopping mall in Los Angeles, her subconscious first reaction was to hide.

I don't want to confront him head-on. This year, Gu Yan is 22, and Bai Shenxing is 23. Gu Yan has made some achievements. Bai Shenxing has continued to expand his territory in his own field, and his business has expanded to foreign countries. He is the first-class vvip of major airlines. client,

Flying in the sky all year round, this time in Los Angeles to negotiate business, when it was over, seeing that it was still early, I personally went to the mall to choose gifts for my family.

Gu Yan had been abroad for five years, and it was the first time he saw Bai Shenxing abroad, and it was still in such a humorous way.

It wasn't until she watched his back disappear into the gate of the shopping mall that she slowly appeared and went to look for Xu Youning who was shopping vigorously.

This day, Xu Youning almost maxed out his card, bought a lot of things, and had his own Gu Yan, but Gu Yan, this day, just stopped on the way to the parking lot to buy a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.

Xu Youning looked at her curiously along the way.

"Why did you disappear when you were walking around just now?" she asked.

"Used a toilet," she lied.

When she was in Berlin, she knew that Bai Shenxing was an accomplished young entrepreneur in China, but when she saw him in Los Angeles today, she thought that perhaps Bai Shenxing was no longer such a simple young entrepreneur.

This night, when she returned to the residence, she restrained the negative emotions that were growing in her heart, and she didn't dare to release it until she said goodnight to Xu Youning and entered the room, but she didn't dare to make it too loud, because she knew that Xu Youning knew it too So now, even if she has emotions, she can only bear it. If Xu Youning is hardworking, why is she not the same?

She took out her notebook, stayed on the search page, and typed three words on the keyboard. When she saw the result, she was shocked. Looking at the content on the computer screen, she sat for two hours and finished smoking. A pack of cigarettes filled the whole room with smoke, and then for a moment, I pulled the corner of my mouth lightly, as if laughing at myself or others, shut down the computer severely, got up and opened the window, and the cold wind sat down all night, She sat in the chair and stayed up all night, staring at the computer.

I always thought that the antonym of love is not to forget, but now I find that the antonym of love should be forgetting.

It is indifferent.

She thought that she would be able to say "Long time no see" in a normal way if she saw her after so many years, but she couldn't, she still overestimated herself, she thought that after five years, the relationship between her and Bai Shenxing I was able to forget each other in the rivers and lakes, but I didn't. Seeing you again after five years, the feeling was like a boulder suddenly fell from a calm lake, causing ripples, which could not be calmed down for a long time.

She sat until late at night, thinking about the meaning of her life, but she didn't come to a conclusion for a long time. She once thought that she was crazy, otherwise why would she think about this question suddenly, reached out and stroked her left wrist, there was no trace of scar, That night when she was sent to the emergency room, Xu Youning told her colleagues that she must not leave scars, and the colleagues laughed when they heard the words; "I'm not afraid of death, but I'm afraid of being ugly?"

Then Xu Youning answered lightly; "Death is a moment, and ugliness is a lifetime."

So for a long period of time afterwards, Xu Youning personally gave her physical therapy every day, and she must not leave scars.

She doesn't care about this kind of external image, and even thinks she doesn't care. Does she still have few scars?At three o'clock in the morning, she got up and went to the bathroom to solve her physical needs, but when she stood at the door, she suddenly remembered the feeling she had lying in the bathtub that night, that feeling was very comfortable, as if all the suffering in life had been relieved , She stood at the door for a long time, so long that she forgot that she came in to go to the toilet, looked sideways at herself in the mirror, she could smell the smoke all over her body, her messy hair stuck to her face, her face Haggard, this is not me, the self in the daytime is not like this.

She stood in the bathroom for a long time, until Xu Youning got up to go to the bathroom and exclaimed.

"Gu Yan, what are you doing?"

Xu Youning was so frightened that she was terrified. She was afraid that Gu Yan would stay awake at night and stand in the middle of the bathroom and couldn't think about it. At this moment, she couldn't help but let out an exclamation.

Hearing the words, Gu Yan suddenly came back to his senses, looked back at Xu Youning and said, "Go to the toilet, what's wrong?"

"Go on," Xu Youning felt a little fussed, and then Gu Yan closed the door and came out after going to the bathroom. She followed her and prepared to enter her room.

She was afraid and wanted to guard Gu Yan, so she even held back the desire to urinate.

When Gu Yan stood at the door of the bedroom and looked at Xu Youning, he was a little puzzled.

"I just had a nightmare, can I sleep with you tonight?" Xu Youning looked at her with a pitiful expression.

She wasn't having nightmares, but she was afraid that Gu Yan would become her nightmare, so she wanted to guard her all the time.

"Sleep in your room! Your bed is bigger," Gu Yan sighed impatiently when he heard the words, and turned back to Xu Youning's bedroom. This night, Xu Youning slept next to Gu Yan.

Only in this way can she know Gu Yan's every move, but in fact, she didn't sleep the whole night and dared not sleep.

She was afraid that Gu Yan would do something stupid when she fell asleep. God knows, seeing her in the bathroom felt more horrifying than watching a horror movie. Suddenly, she remembered the scene where she cut her wrist and committed suicide that night. She was so frightened that she rolled Scenes with climbing.

This kind of fear, she doesn't want to try it a second time.

Xu Youning is the youngest one in the family, she is loved by thousands of people, and she is the least able to take care of others, but after she is with Gu Yan, she has changed, she will always want to take care of Gu Yan, subconsciously want to take care of others She, she was even afraid.If she didn't take care of Gu Yan, she would die soon.

She lay behind Gu Yan, asked about the smell of tobacco on her body, and knew that she had just smoked a cigarette, but she didn't light it up, as if none of this had happened. She didn't want Gu Yan to have suicide scars on her hands, because That way, people will look at her with strange eyes. Gu Yan is not a different kind, but just a hurt girl who needs to be cared for.

She will take good care of her.

(End of this chapter)

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