Cinderella and the Demon Knight

Chapter 986 Su Xiangxiang's Extra Story: The Cinnabar Mole on His Heart (The Finale)

Perhaps every man has had two such women, at least two.

Marry a red rose, and over time, the red one becomes a smear of mosquito blood on the wall, while the white one is still "moonlight in front of the bed";
Marry a white rose, the white one is a grain of sticky rice on your clothes, but the red one is a cinnabar mole on your heart.

——Zhang Ailing-
I used to think that after you chose Ji Susu, over time, I would at least become a cinnabar mole on your heart.

But I was wrong, whether it was when I was young, or we who have already experienced a lot now, I can't be the cinnabar mole in your heart.

Because, I have never even visited your heart.

——Su Xiangxiang
In this life, the person I hate the most is Ji Susu.

However, the person I envy and envy the most in this life is none other than Ji Susu.

As long as I can remember, I was adopted by the Su family. At that time, I knew that I did not really belong to that family. There were my father, mother, and two brothers who loved me in that family, but I was a little bit like them. Neither is blood ties.

Although I have the same surname as them, Su.

Living in that family, being pampered and pampered, I was used to reaching out for clothes and opening my mouth for food. I used to think that I would never meet what I wanted but couldn't get in this life.

However, I was wrong.

When the family next door moved in, the little girl named Ji Susu came to play at home for the first time, and I knew I was wrong.

The first time I saw her, I suddenly felt inferior.

She is cute, lively, and talks a lot. She likes to catch people and chatter non-stop. No matter what others say to her, she always has a natural and harmless expression on her face.

Even if her parents died later, and her temperament suddenly changed after returning from foster care in the north, it did not affect her eyes without any impurities.

A pair of eyes that even girls are moved by.

In fact, when she was young, she was inconspicuous. Even so, she has a pair of parents who love her. Although she is dressed in ordinary clothes and is not as fond of dressing up as I am, I think she is the one who is really cherished in my heart. The apple of the eye.

So, I finally realized that the gorgeous costumes that were placed on me earlier were all because I wanted to use these superficial things to cover up my inherently unnoble identity.I rely on these dresses to disguise the long-standing feelings of inferiority and inferiority in my heart.

For a while, I thought that my two elder brothers only loved me. With them, I would be the happiest little girl in the world. Even if I got married in the future, they would be the ones in my mate selection funnel The two best candidates.

However, I was wrong again.

At the age of 15, it was Su Jinyan's 16th birthday.

When I saw him carefully find out the card written by Ji Susu from a pile of birthday presents, I knew I was wrong.

Such an unremarkable birthday card was treasured by him like a treasure.

It turned out that in my self-righteous persistence, there is a kind of liking of boys to girls that is quietly happening.

Su Jinyan knows how to like someone, but that person is not me.

Never was.

That year, he originally had the opportunity to choose to go abroad to study his favorite major. I heard the conversation between my grandfather and him in the study.

That night, grandpa asked him to make a choice, choose to go abroad, live the life he wanted in the future, choose to stay, and grandpa will bring Ji Susu back from the north a year later.

I will never forget what Su Jinyan said to his grandfather that day.

He wanted to go abroad so much, but that day, without even thinking about it, he said to his grandfather, "I choose to stay."

Perhaps, in the eyes of outsiders, everyone thinks that Su Jinyan likes me, because Su Chengxi loves me, but he loves me more than him.

But only I know that his so-called love for me is just because he knows that I have been worried about gains and losses in front of him, and I have a panicked side. He knows the fragility of my heart and knows that I will care that I don’t really belong there And feel sad and lost.

His kindness to me is not so much like and protection, but sympathy and pity.

Yes, it's sympathy, it's pity.

But it was never called love.

When I was young, I did a lot of stupid things in order to get something.

Those stupid things are also called scheming in the eyes of others.

Yes, I admit, I am a very scheming girl.

However, I just want to get something I want, and I want the person I like to like me too, that's all, am I wrong?
But this cruel world quickly told me that everything I did was wrong. The moment I hurt others, I was doomed to have no good results.

I don't know why, even though Ji Susu's family was ruined, why did everyone still choose to stand by her side?
Su Chengxi is like this, Su Jinyan is also like this, even Chi Zimo, who later transferred from the north, also pleases and hopes for her in every possible way.

I don't understand why Ji Susu can get the love of everyone, but it is so difficult for me to get the love of the person I want?
I even gave up the chance to be with Su Chengxi, and tried my best to go to Su Jinyan's side to create all kinds of evidence that he also loves me, and create all kinds of illusions that he also likes me.

But what I have done is far inferior to Ji Susu's inadvertent eyes and actions in front of him. As soon as she appears, all the appearances I have worked so hard to disintegrate on the spot, shatter on the spot, and disappear in ashes.

My beloved, why can't you see everything I've done for you?
Ji Susu just likes you, just based on what she said, what has she done for you?
Perhaps, I never knew what true love is.

If you want to talk about love, maybe there was such a period, there was such a person who once loved me as hard as I love you.

He is my plastic surgeon, he was there for me when I was going through the lowest point in my life.

He doesn't have gorgeous language to me, and he doesn't have a dazzling existence like you. However, I can feel that he treats me well.

He silently accompanied me through the pain of having to change my face due to disfigurement, and greeted me every day by my bedside. Even if it was just like this, I could feel his love for me.

I even felt that his love was poisonous and penetrated into my bone marrow unconsciously.

However, I will never forget who brought me that painful experience.After staying abroad for five years and undergoing more than a dozen facelifts, I finally left without saying goodbye and chose to return to China.

At that time, I was already a well-known second-tier actor in the entertainment circle, although those fame were supported by some negative news.

When others boss me around, who really knows that I don't want that kind of fame, just because he is so good. In order to return to him, I need a glamorous identity and someone who can stand with him. At the same level as the so-called "glory".

However, everything is so ridiculous.

When I finally had the chance to stand beside him again, they actually told me that they got married, and Ji Susu even gave birth to a son for him.

So what was all that I had suffered in those five years?
Hatred blinded my heart, and I began to plan to destroy, what I couldn't get, and I didn't want him to stay beautifully with others.

A well-planned kidnapping finally sent me to another place where I could never be restored.

When the police took me away from that small room, I suddenly lost my mind.

I have lived for more than 20 years in this life. Except for a few years of pleasant memories when I was a child, I have not lived a day without calculation and fear.

I'm tired, just loving someone, I've lost myself.

I suddenly found out, why should I live for others, and why should I be a person who doesn't love me and be a person that everyone hates?
The retribution finally unfolded on me one after another.

When I opened my eyes from the hospital, I saw the hospital's snow-white floor-to-ceiling screens rising gently against the breeze, and I suddenly thought about it.

For the first time, I felt like I could laugh out loud.

My body suddenly became light and floating, as if the haze that had been suppressed in my heart for more than ten years had all floated out with the window screen at that moment.

Even my body and mind floated out.

I seem to feel that I have returned to my childhood, with my father, mother, and two older brothers who love me.

I don't even have to think anymore, just a smile first thing in the day when I open my eyes is fine.

Normal people, say I'm crazy.

What is madness, I do not quite understand.

All I know is that I've never felt so relaxed and happy in my life.

Although I sometimes want to bite and hit people who try to catch me, I prefer to laugh out loud and laugh out loud at people who look at me with weird eyes.

In fact, I think these so-called normal people are lunatics.

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ps:
On a whim, I suddenly wanted to write an extravaganza about Su Xiangxiang, which is only [-] words long, without too many gorgeous words.

From the earliest design of this character, her current image has always been in her head.In the eyes of outsiders, she is dignified, generous, and beautiful. She has family conditions and living environment that many people envy, as well as parents who love her and a pair of brothers.But under such a seemingly perfect life, in fact, her heart is very tragic.

She imprisoned herself in her own thoughts, not satisfied with the status quo, and always insisting on things that should not belong to her.This is the result of her inner inferiority complex, and the obsession she cannot let go of in her heart. In the end, she also ended up in the tragic end she deserved.

However, there is nothing wrong with liking and loving itself, it's just that her love is too stubborn, which makes her push herself step by step into the abyss where she can never recover.

Su Xiangxiang's writing makes people feel pitiful, but she can't help but feel regretful. If she hadn't fallen in love with the wrong person, her life would not be the same as it is today.

It's just that there are no ifs in life. Some roads have been passed, and the willows are dark and the flowers are bright. If you can't go through, you will regret your life.

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