Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 68 Tomorrow Is Another Brand New Day

The subway car was empty, and they found a place near the door to sit side by side. The intermittent conversation along the way just now could not be retrieved accidentally, and the arms that were put together were loosened because they just got on the train one after the other.The sickly pale light of energy-saving lamps shone on their faces. In the closed compartment, the light gave the illusion that time had stopped.

Luo Zhi never rejected silence, let alone conceived it as a form of embarrassment, indifference or confrontation.It's just that Xu Riqing is not good at getting along in silence, Luo Zhi can see from the opposite glass that she is a little cramped, and keeps playing with Qi Liu Hai'er, who is as black as ink in front of her eyes, like a broken beaded curtain, opening and closing it , then open, then close...

"There are so few people today." Xu Riqing finally spoke.

"Yes," Luo Zhi nodded.She also wanted to find something to talk about, at least to ease the tension of the girls around her, but she searched her brains and found nothing, "There are so few people."

After speaking, she felt a little guilty.

The train started again, and the sound of wind blowing on both sides of the corridor poured in between them, and they had no more words to each other.

Ditan Park disappointed Luo Zhi, above the bustling crowd of people, large pink and tender green banners were stretched among the street trees.The stall owners sat on small stools with indifferent faces. While selling grilled squid, grilled sesame cakes and herbal tea, the women turned around and cursed their own mud monkeys who were running happily in the wild, with colorful hair wrapped around their heads. The triangular scarf and the large banner form an interesting contrast... Luo Zhi stepped on the yellow plastic bag on the ground, and this scene made her cheeks twitch.

She also came here because of the fame, but she didn't catch up with the dejection described by Shi Tiesheng.There is no residual snow on the fence, no residual sun in the sky, and the harmony is great, which is really not suitable for nostalgia.

She didn't catch up with the good times.No matter what, she will always be slow, and will always miss the best time.

At least Shi Tiesheng caught up, she thought, that kind of time is enough for such a person.Anyway, she neither needs nor understands.

Luo Zhi became more and more convinced that in the future, when meeting people she didn't know well, she must choose a lively place, so that the heat around her could cover up her desertedness, which would be beneficial to both herself and others.The two of them squeezed back and forth in the crowd, in order to prevent them from getting separated, they kept calling each other to keep up with each other, and asked each other what kind of books they were interested in from time to time... Xu Riqing naturally grabbed Luo Zhi's hand hands, neither of them wore gloves, and her hands were no warmer than Luo Zhi's.

"I always forget to wear gloves. Are you the same?" She turned her head and smiled at Luo Zhi. Luo Zhi just wanted to answer, but saw Xu Riqing restrain her smile, lower her head and turn away.

Luo Zhi went in without a name, and followed her for a long time against the flow of people, only to remember the oolong conversation between Zhang Mingrui and the two of them about gloves in front of the newsstand that day.

Even though Zhang Mingrui resolved the momentary embarrassment naturally, which girl is not as careful as a hair?How could Xu Riqing not understand.

The two cold hands were tightly held together, until the mountains and the sky meet, I'm afraid they won't be able to warm up.

Xu Riqing bought a bunch of extracurricular reading materials for law majors, packed them into a schoolbag, and had a heavy plastic bag in his hand.Luo Zhi wandered around for a long time, but only bought a copy of "Quotations from Chairman Mao".

"What are you buying this for?" Xu Riqing put the plastic bag on the ground, rubbed his right hand with the red mark on it, and leaned over to take a look.

"I don't know why I bought it." Luo Zhi flipped through it lightly, for fear of tearing the yellowed old book with too much force, "Maybe it's because it's old enough. I rarely buy used books."

It is indeed an old enough book, the outermost cover has been worn away, leaving only the titles on the inner pages.Every page has the owner's handwriting, red pencil or blue pencil, as serious as a schoolboy, and many "Lin Biao" on a certain page are heavily crossed with black pen.

"I think this kind of book has magical powers. Maybe one night, the soul of the previous owner will come to me in a dream and make a routine with me."

"Haha," Xu Riqing laughed very touchingly, "What kind of messed up thoughts are in your head. I thought you would buy a lot of books. I heard that you like reading books very much."

"Well," Luo Zhi nodded, "However, I still like to buy new books."

She remembered that Sheng Huainan used his half-baked psychology knowledge to analyze her virginity complex.

Luo Zhi tried her best to drive away these lingering thoughts, looked down at Xu Riqing's huge schoolbag and plastic bag, and contributed her own schoolbag: "Come on, get half of your books here, and I'll hold them for you."

Xu Riqing smiled embarrassedly and said, "Okay."

Finally came out of the park, it was already 03:30 in the afternoon.They didn't eat anything at noon, turned around every corner, and finally stood blankly on the street with heavy bags.

"Hungry." Luo Zhi rubbed her belly.

"Go back to school to eat, or look around?" Xu Riqing was talking, and suddenly clapped his hands in surprise, "By the way, I suddenly remembered that there should be a Sanyuanmeiyuan store nearby? I want to eat Almond tofu."

Luo Zhi nodded blankly, and said, "Okay, show me the way."

It was getting late, and the sky above was blue and purple.The bleak winter in Beijing always reminds Luo Zhi of the years when she was a child running around with her mother to earn a living. Whenever the sun completely set, she would feel a chill in her heart, a feeling of wanting to cry but not Feelings of sadness filled the whole body and would not disappear until the night fell completely.Even though she was young at that time, even today she still can't understand this longing and fear of dusk, this feeling still hits her every dusk, and she never misses the appointment.

"What's wrong?" Xu Riqing stopped, looking at Luo Zhi who was a little out of control.

"It's nothing." Luo Zhi grinned, followed her and continued to walk forward.

Xu Riqing's sense of direction was shockingly poor.Panting and circling in vain like migrant workers dragging cement bags, they finally saw the red and yellow plaque at the bustling intersection.

"You see, the red and yellow one, right?" Xu Riqing pointed forward excitedly.

"McDonald's?"

Xu Riqing strangled Luo Zhi's neck with his free right arm: "Let me tell you, China's national industry was driven to a dead end by you people!"

Luo Zhi was serious, nodding like a pigeon looking for food in the square.

Xu Riqing ate half a bowl and put it down.

"Are you full?" Luo Zhi raised her head and asked.

"It's not as delicious as I expected. I won't eat it." She pouted slightly, like a proud and beautiful young lady in an idol drama.Luo Zhi squinted her eyes to look at her, and felt that she couldn't get enough of it. Every angle was beautiful—it wasn't earth-shatteringly beautiful, but it was beautiful.

So she also nodded: "Actually, the altar is not as big as I imagined..." She thought for a long time, but couldn't find a suitable word to describe it. "It's not that good." In the end, I had to use the simple and versatile word "good".

Xu Riqing was surprised: "Then what do you think the altar should look like?"

Luo Zhi didn't know what to say, she lowered her head and smiled silently.

"Why are you like this?"

Hearing this, Luo Zhi slightly opened her mouth and looked at the girl in front of her in confusion, who looked at her with her chin resting on her face, with the same inquiring and puzzled expression on her face.

"What kind of person am I?"

Xu Riqing shook his head: "You are so different from when we first met."

"When we first met..." At Zhang Mingrui's entrustment, she acted as a combination of an evil woman and a close sister. However, no matter how hard she tried to recall, her memory was a little fuzzy. What did the two of them say?
The purposeful meeting distorted her behavior, and she was not sure what kind of impression she left on Xu Riqing.

"Actually, when I was studying with Zhang Mingrui that day, I felt that you were different from my impression. When I saw it again today, I found that it was even more different."

Luo Zhi wiped her forehead with her index finger, and found that it really was the oily shine of her hands.She didn't know what to say in response to Xu Riqing, so the scene became deserted again.In fact, she felt a little sad. Knowing that the other party was trying to say some honest words, it wasn't that she didn't want to cater to her, it was just that she didn't know how to accept it.Along the way, they laughed and joked from time to time, and when they talked about a certain book, they would discuss it excitedly, but the topic was like a string of broken beads, jumping around in the silent wilderness, and occasionally picked up one. , shining brightly, but alone.

They lack the feelings of getting along, and their interests overlap, but there are two boys who are trying to pretend to be invisible to each other. The cold silence and silence at that time are not without reason.But Xu Riqing still worked hard, trying to find a thread to connect each other.

Luo Zhi really likes this bright girl, with such a clear heart, she cries when she wants to, laughs when she wants to laugh, loves when she loves, doesn't love when she doesn't love, even if she looks back, she is never shy.

how nice.It's a pity that no one knows how to cherish her, and I have no right to feel sorry for her.

"I have something, please pass it to Zhang Mingrui for me." Xu Riqing took out all the books from his schoolbag and stacked them on the table, and finally pulled out a NIKE (Nike) bag from the bottom of the schoolbag.

"Back when I was in the middle of a dead end, he scolded me severely. He was so angry with me that he shook his hands and left. But before he left, he was afraid that I would catch a cold, so he still put his clothes on me. Later, my relationship with him eased. I became good friends again, and I always wanted to return the clothes to him, but I was afraid that the clothes would remind him of the embarrassing days when we fell out, so I just dragged on like this, and until now, I still haven’t returned it.”

Luo Zhi took the bag and said with a clattering sound, "I see."

Xu Riqing laughed: "It's so easy to be with you, you hate talking nonsense, right? I remember the first time I met you in the coffee shop, you were quite able to speak, clear and organized, but when I saw you later, the words That's a lot less."

Luo Zhi smiled: "Actually, I really don't like talking very much. The first time I saw you, it might have happened that I was not emotionally stable and talked a lot."

Xu Riqing looked at the blue-black ink-like night with his chin in his hands, and said softly, "I've never been emotionally stable."

"It's good to feel happy."

"But I'm not happy either."

"Few people live happily, and you haven't suffered much."

Xu Riqing laughed brightly when he heard the sound, Luo Zhi admired it sincerely, who wouldn't enjoy seeing such a smile?
"Look, here we go again. In fact, you are quite sharp-tongued."

"I'll just pretend that you actually want to speak eloquently." Luo Zhi smiled helplessly.

The corners of Xu Riqing's mouth turned up, and he raised his eyebrows slyly. With his left hand, he was using a small spoon to ravage the crumbled almond tofu in the bowl. He was silent for a while, and then said, "Zhang Mingrui is a very good boy."

Luo Zhi nodded.

"I think I have lived up to his teachings. When Sheng Huainan rejected me, I was very hard to extricate myself. But Zhang Mingrui also rejected me during the final exam. I learned my lesson and pulled out quite simply this time."

Luo Zhi admired the refreshing statement.

When the lights came on, Xu Riqing seemed to be the lonely monologue in a literary film, not needing Luo Zhi's feedback at all, and only cared about talking to himself.

"I'm not sure if you already know about the quarrel between me and Zhang Mingrui. You don't ask anything, as if you know everything, and I feel guilty when I see it. But, in fact, it's me who flaunts everything, So I always feel that everyone knows about my ugly things.”

Luo Zhi lowered her head and smiled.What a shame.

Can dry the sad things that are not afraid of being known in the sun, no matter how hard it is, it will be clean and transparent.You know, how many people in this world have unspeakable sorrows?

"Hehe, anyway, I hit the south wall twice in a row this year, and it's only three things. If I hit the south wall again, I'll write the word 'Xu' backwards!"

After the domineering declaration, Xu Riqing's voice still softened: "I've always thought I was pretty good, everyone thought I was good, why did I like two people, each of whom couldn't be more wrong? You know Well, I liked Sheng Huainan back then, and I was angry with Zhang Mingrui. I told him that I love hitting the south wall, and it has nothing to do with him, so I told him to stay away from me. At that time, he was not convinced, and said, of course It has nothing to do with him, so I went around on my own after being stunned! In the end, I didn't expect it to be true, it was indeed me doing it by myself. Zhang Mingrui actually fell in love with someone so quickly."

"At that time, I thought that those supporting actors in the story who have been waiting for the heroine to remain infatuated are all deceitful. They are deceiving idiots like me who eat the bowl and look at the pot. Bravely run Go ahead, even if you fail, at least you still have a bowl of porridge in your hand to satisfy your hunger.

"Actually, it's all because I'm too good at it."

Xu Riqing's eyes were shining brightly, facing the orange street lights outside the window and the neon lights on the plaque, shining brightly.

Luo Zhi stretched out her hand silently, covering the back of her cold hand.

"Zhang Mingrui likes you, Luo Zhi." She said.

Luo Zhi looked at her calmly, without nodding or shaking her head, without surprise or understanding, there was no wave in the ancient well.They looked at each other for a long time, Xu Riqing turned his head first.There was no more words after that, and after sitting dryly for a while, Luo Zhi said, "I'm done eating, let's go."

When the pale lights of the subway car were shaking overhead, Xu Riqing beside him was so tired that he fell asleep, leaning heavily on Luo Zhi's shoulder, his peaceful pink cheeks were so beautiful, too beautiful to sigh.

At the door of Xu Riqing's dormitory, Luo Zhi took out his "Quotations from Chairman Mao" from the plastic bag, handed the whole bag to Xu Riqing, and said, "Then goodbye."

"Ah."

When Luo Zhi left, she heard Xu Riqing clearly asking behind her back: "Luo Zhi, tell me, will you and I become good friends?"

She thought for a while and asked, "Do you have many friends?"

Xu Riqing nodded affirmatively, and gave an affirmative answer that matched her cheerful smile: "Of course."

So it's not bad for me.Luo Zhi nodded reassuringly and said, "I think it's hard for us to be friends. Even though I like you very, very much, I'm serious."

She thought, she finally said something very honest to Xu Riqing.

Xu Riqing was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect that the other party didn't respond with the same enthusiasm as most people and said: "Of course, aren't we already friends now?" - She was a little unwilling, but at the same time because of this sentence Relieved to be honest.

"It's good that you like me. At least there are people who like me." She still laughed the most. "To be honest, Luo Zhi, I only recently realized that if I can be nicer to those who love me, I will be farther away from those who hate me." Stay away from people, never try to please and explain, will I get more?"

She walked in and left with a wave of her hand. The pockets were too heavy, making her back look a little clumsy.

Luo Zhi was walking alone on the path, about to go back to the dormitory, when the phone vibrated, it was a text message from Xu Riqing.

"Don't be like me, it's too late to look back. It's either sooner or never."

Luo Zhi didn't know what to reply.She might be telling herself not to make the same mistake about Zhang Mingrui.Luo Zhi felt a little moved: "Take a good rest, silly girl, let's talk about tomorrow's matter tomorrow."

Xu Riqing replied after a long time: "You are right, tomorrow is a brand new day. Please don't worry about me."

The last little clause is a little self-indulgent, but undeniably confident and endearing.It's hard for Luo Zhi not to like Xu Riqing like this.

But it must also be admitted that she never worried about the other party at all.

A girl with such a dazzling smile fell down, cried and made troubles, and many people coaxed her to love her.

She still has a lot of tomorrow.

Luo Zhi raised her head, the sky at night was a bit gloomy, dark red, drooping, like the approaching doom, suppressing an inexplicable pain.

tomorrow.Every day in Luo Zhi's life is the same as the day before and the day after, without any difference.

(End of this chapter)