Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 37 Actually I Really Don't Want to Believe You
Luo Zhi finished two books, a total of eight sets of Cambridge real papers in one day, and was dizzy. In the evening, she got dressed and planned to go to the library to return the books.After not going out for a long time, I felt a little apprehensive the moment I stepped out of the dormitory.

Belle called her from behind: "Put on more, the sun has set and you still have a fever, it's cold outside."

Luo Zhi smiled: "Is the sun setting? You really sound like a village woman."

Belle rolled her eyes: "Hurry up and look in the mirror, yo, this smile is... pale and weak, and a little forced, so pitiful."

Luo Zhi followed her advice and looked in the mirror.In fact, she saw it when she woke up and washed her face. She had lost a lot of weight in a week, her chin was pointed, and her face was unbelievably pale.

Not promising.She tugged at the corner of her mouth.

"By the way, if you can go downstairs, you can go downstairs to pick up Zhang Mingrui tonight. I think he must be very happy to see you!"

"I texted him and told him I was sick and going to eat by myself and he wouldn't be here today."

"What, cut," Belle curled her lips, and suddenly asked cautiously, "Luo Zhi, you and that Sheng Huainan... are you sick because of him?"

After hearing this, Luo Zhi froze for a moment, then raised her head to look at the ceiling, and said seriously and slowly: "I think...the main reason is the temperature and the virus..."

Jiang Baili's pillow flew directly to the back of her head.

The moment she went out, she heard Belle say quietly that the feng shui in our dormitory is too bad.

She took a few steps out of the building with the book in her arms when she unexpectedly saw Sheng Huainan on the path.Luo Zhi raised her head in surprise for a moment to look at the branches of the persimmon tree—there were no persimmons, not even a single leaf.

Sheng Huainan also raised his head following her movements, only seeing a fragmented gray sky divided by dead branches.

"Is there... a plane?" He asked hesitantly.

Luo Zhi burst out laughing, this kind of encounter and the opening remarks made her suddenly suspect that the continuous autumn rain and the cold night wind before were just a dream during her illness.

"I actually seldom saw you after I went to college, but I remember very clearly. One afternoon when I just started school, I ran into you here. At that time, I was hit by a persimmon."

She was slightly absent-minded, her tone was calm, her eyes passed through Sheng Huainan, but she couldn't return to the sunny afternoon a few months ago.

With that expression of "so you don't like to eat fat", he smiled gently and said, "That girl is you."

Luo Zhi nodded: "Sorry, I'm leaving first."

"Luo Zhi, are you... have you recovered from your illness?"

She was stunned when she heard the words: "Oh."

Sheng Huainan looked at her with forbearable guilt and tenderness, Luo Zhi was puzzled and shook his head without thinking about it.

"It's cold outside, it's better to go out less, and heal your illness completely."

"I'm going to the library to return the book." She waved the real Cambridge paper in her hand, "Got it, thank you."

"Are you about to take the IELTS exam?"

"Yes, at Beiyu on Saturday."

"My voice is so hoarse, what should I do for the speaking test?"

"It's not an announcer test, it doesn't matter if the pronunciation is clear."

"Then... work hard." Sheng Huainan smiled, a little embarrassed.

Luo Zhi suddenly remembered that some matters had not been dealt with yet.

"Oh, by the way, are you in a hurry now? Can you wait for me for a minute? I just ran into you, and I will return the things."

"what?"

"Raincoat." Luo Zhi's tone didn't have any special meaning.Sheng Huainan raised his eyebrows, looked at her deeply, and she also looked up calmly: "Wait, I'll come down right away."

"Put the book here, let me hold it for you, so that you won't have to hold it for another trip, run slowly, and be careful not to catch the wind and cough."

Luo Zhi frowned unabashedly and glanced at him, nodded and said "thank you", put the book in Sheng Huainan's hand, ran a few steps and swiped his card to enter the door.

Sheng Huainan flipped through the book in his hand, but there was no Luo Zhi's handwriting on it.There are some crooked ink pen handwriting on a few scattered pages, and it looks like the handwriting of a boy who borrowed from the past.Only the last page was uneven to the touch, as if it was written on a pad by the owner, and the strokes were too hard to be printed on the book.He had nothing to do, so he tried his best to identify the words on it in the thin light, but he couldn't make it out.

Looking at the door of the female dormitory building, he took off the schoolbag on his back, took out a mechanical pencil, and lightly painted on the page a few times, the concave white part emerged from the lead gray background.

"Asshole".

He was speechless for a long time, then laughed dumbfoundedly, and obediently closed the book.

Luo Zhi walked down and handed him a translucent bag, in which the pink raincoat could be vaguely seen.

"Wash and dry."

"Thank you."

"It's me thanking you. I'm going then."

"That night, I asked you about whether you liked me..."

She had already walked some distance away, but when she heard it, she turned around and looked at him clearly.

"Well, I like you, what's the matter?" She couldn't hide the excitement and impatience in her tone.

Sheng Huainan said slowly for a long time: "Maybe I was wrong, I'm sorry."

"I really can't take it anymore," Luo Zhi smiled, "You apologized for the first time that Zhang Mingrui liked me, the second time for not knowing me in high school, and the third time for the fact that I liked you—your sense of right and wrong is really special. .”

Sheng Huainan did not fight back.

Luo Zhi originally wanted to leave, but she still tried her best to suppress her shoulders that were trembling because of her emotions, and said to him in a calm and slow tone: "I don't know if what you did to me before was because of a reason, or it was purely because of you. Psychopath. If it happened for a reason, I wanted to ask you why, but you didn't even ask me a word, just..."

She paused and forced a smile again: "Hehe, speaking of it, you didn't do anything to me, did you? You didn't say anything too much, you didn't beat me or scold me, you just made me feel bad , it hurts—it’s just a feeling.”

After Luo Zhi finished speaking, she put away her smile and looked at him seriously: "Love is just a feeling."

Sheng Huainan moved his lips, trying to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.

"You don't seem to be going to tell me why, and I won't ask. I just want to say that I may have lied, but these lies are just to help me maintain an illusion and balance. I have never, never, done anything morally wrong. There is nothing to be ashamed of." She said one sentence at a time, like the defendant's concluding statement.

Sheng Huainan could be vaguely heard behind him saying softly: "Actually, I really don't want to believe you."

After returning the book, she found that she was hungry and had a stomachache. She rushed into the third canteen near six o'clock, but she had already missed the bread and cakes—only one pot was baked at night, and now there is no one left.She only bought a bowl of porridge. After thinking about it, she bought boiled beef, spicy chicken, and Malatang in a fit of anger. Although her throat was not good and her nose was blocked again, she still had no taste in her mouth.

She needs stimulation.

Not long after she sat down, Zhang Mingrui happily ran to her with a plate and sat down beside her.

"How do you..."

"Didn't you say you're going to eat by yourself at night? I guess you'll come to buy bread and cakes. I didn't see you when I was queuing up, but I sat near the window and waited for a long time. I don't think they will be sold out. I'm afraid you won't be able to eat them." , I went back and bought two more, but now they are cold. I will ask the master to help you warm it up."

Luo Zhi opened her mouth, her nose became sore before she could say anything.

"Thank you." She buried herself in the steaming white porridge, not wanting him to see such a distressed expression. Unexpectedly, the next second, Zhang Mingrui stretched out his index finger and yelled tremblingly:
"No way, Luo Zhi, how did you become so virtuous? You are thinner than Huang Hua, tsk tsk, haven't you bathed in a week?"

She raised her head and gouged him viciously, took a mouthful of boiled beef and stuffed it into her mouth. Unexpectedly, she bit the peppercorns, and her tongue was so numb that she couldn't taste anything.

"Your uncle." She said vaguely.

(End of this chapter)