Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 32
At the end of November, when winter comes, Beijing is gloomy all day long, making people almost forget what color blue is.

Since the heating was turned on in the dormitory a few days ago, Luo Zhi has been nestled in the room, unwilling to go out.

She didn't eat at night, so she grabbed a box of instant noodles from the snack stock.When I ate half of it, I found that there was no taste. It turned out that the powder seasoning packet was left in the box.She has been dull and confused these two days.When Luo Zhi used a fork to take out the oil-stained transparent small bag from the noodle soup, she felt goosebumps all over her body with nausea.

In high school, she was the fastest at instant noodles.Standing by the window sill of the boiling water room, listening to the gurgling sound of the water heater, I quickly tore apart the oil-packed vegetables and seasoning packages one by one.Sometimes the opening of the oil bag is torn too small, and the solidified oil inside can only be squeezed into the bowl.At that time, a boy I didn't know stood aside and frowned watching her squeeze the oil bag. That scene is vivid in my memory.

Luo Zhi knew that the boy never said anything.

Indeed, the things squeezed out like that are very similar to stool.The colors, the shapes, and...the dynamics, it's all alike.

However, today went very well, probably because it was too cold, the oil was clumped, and after tearing it apart, a large square piece fell into the bowl, which was meaningless at all.

The noodle bowl was thrown on the table with half of the noodles left in it.Luo Zhi lost her appetite, so she wiped the seasoning packet clean with a tissue, and played with it upside down in her hand, staring at the seasoning powder and minced vegetables inside, in a daze.

My deskmate in junior high school has a weird habit.Every day, he would bring a packet of instant noodle seasoning, pour it into the mineral water bottle he brought, and shake it vigorously. The vegetable powder would sink and float in it, and the color of the water would instantly turn brownish yellow.

Then, he started to drink it with great enjoyment, with that cherished look, he took a small sip and half-closed his eyes, naturally he couldn't see Luo Zhi's distorted face.

In the end, she couldn't bear it anymore, and one day she asked, where did you get so many seasoning packets?

He stared wide-eyed, a natural look.My family cooks noodles every morning. Several packets of instant noodles are cooked together, and the seasoning packets are put in so as not to be salty. Of course, one or two packets of seasoning powder can be saved every time the noodles are cooked.

So... is it good to drink?

He graciously handed over the bottle and said, here, try it.

The corners of the mineral water bottle have been worn white, and the liquid inside is even more horrible.Luo Zhi's gaze rested on the water stains on the bottle mouth for a long time, she swallowed and said: No, thank you.

The boy's eyes were a little hurt at the time, but he didn't say anything. He stuffed the mineral water bottle back into his schoolbag, and then lay down on the table with an embarrassed expression to do physics problems.

After that, Luo Zhi never saw him drink that kind of drink again.Thinking about it now, she feels very sad, why did she ask so cheaply about these harmless details of life back then.

But Luo Zhi never apologized.An apology is secondary damage, and it's better to act like nothing happened than to bring it up again.

However, when she graduated, her deskmate gave her a complete set of Arale.

"You like watching cartoons, don't you?"

She put it away carefully and nodded happily.

"Come on for the exam!" The deskmate was a bit embarrassed to find something to say. Everyone in the class had almost left, but he was still stuck in the aisle.

"You too." Luo Zhi said.

"I have nothing to cheer for. Anyway, it's good to be able to go to a vocational high school."

Luo Zhi knew that it was very meaningless to comfort others at this time, so all roads lead to Rome, so she could only smile.

After being silent for a while, the deskmate suddenly said, "Luo Zhi, do you hate me?"

She raised her face in surprise: "how come?"

"Really?" The deskmate flushed with excitement, "That's great, I like you too!"

Luo Zhi was dumbfounded, as if her concept had been changed secretly, but seeing her tablemate happy, her words were stuck in her throat and she couldn't make a sound.

"You don't like to talk, and I always do strange things, and I can't control myself. I often make troubles in self-study classes that affect your study, and you drink strange things that make you feel sick... Later, I stopped drinking, and you also treated me Much better, talk to me too, I'm very happy."

Luo Zhi opened her mouth, completely unable to follow his weird train of thought.

"I always wonder if I made you angry today, and will you be happy tomorrow... Haha, actually, you didn't pay attention to me at all, did you? I only found out later that I mentioned a lot of things to you, You don't remember at all."

The tablemate smiled foolishly, and continued: "In short, you are the best girl I have ever seen, you must work hard. I really believe in you, you will become the most amazing person."

Most amazing person?How can you have such excessive demands on me?However, Luo Zhi didn't say anything, just smiled brightly at him, and casually grabbed a mechanical pencil in her pencil case that had been used for several years.

"I have used it for a long time. My favorite is the lucky pencil. I give it to you. I wish you success in the exam and all the best in the future."

she lied.She always lies.But in exchange for a memory that is always cherished and the most heart-warming smile at the same table, Luo Zhi doesn't feel that there is anything wrong with her.

What's more, she inadvertently let the boy guess her own thoughts for so long.

Everything now is retribution.

Luo Zhi walked out of the memory, hesitated a little, then firmly poured the seasoning packet into the hot water cup, quickly stirred it with a spoon, and took a big gulp.

It's a bit weird, but it's really not hard to drink.

It rained suddenly outside.There is very little rain in early winter in Beijing, so this rain is particularly deserted, and the coolness seems to penetrate into the bones.

Luo Zhi opened the window, and the pedestrians running downstairs screamed strangely. Amidst the sound of rain, the smell of soil rushed into the nostrils.She gave a forced grin.

Can't laugh.

This is the second time Sheng Huainan disappeared.

Later, she mustered up the courage to send him a few text messages, asking him how his cold was, but the other party didn't reply.During Saturday's Fa tutorial class, Luo Zhi was tangled in her seat, and saw him walk in the door from a distance, but he didn't even glance in her direction.

Luo Zhi didn't know whether it was sad or angry, she had no ability to react at all.

What was even more frightening was her uncontrollable text message hallucinations.Power off, power on, no new SMS, power off again, power on again...

Nokia finally died at this moment.

Luo Zhi, are you alright?
Facing the restarting screen, she planned to smile.

After resisting for a few seconds, she suddenly closed the window and fell down on the bed in the dormitory. Although her posture was not as exaggerated as Belle's, the essence was the same.

No wailing.It was just tears slowly oozing out, and she gave up resisting.It turns out that when you care about someone, it's useless to pretend to be anything on the surface. All kinds of emotions that she once despised came to my heart wantonly.

If, if Ding Shuijing really cared about her opinion and attitude, then she must not have made her feel good during this period of time.Comparing her heart with her heart, Luo Zhi felt very guilty.

The so-called retribution.

After all, life is not acting in a movie. When the plot begins to turn in the middle of the movie, the right time and place are followed by the protagonist’s awakening and a big reversal—of course, she also awakened.She was full of lies and scheming, but bravely pursued the boy she loved in a roundabout way.

But there is no reversal.

God treated her so hot and cold, and her determination and pride of "finally being brave once" immediately collapsed.

She can make decisions, but she really doesn't count.

I finally got tired of crying, just like I used to run laps on the playground until I collapsed.

After wiping away her tears, she stayed for a while before opening the vocabulary book on the table.

Is the first new word in all word books in the world "abandon"?Many people aggressively sign up for TOEFL IELTS GRE, vowing to persist in memorizing words, but the first new word they see is "give up".

But Luo Zhi, Luo Zhi, you have to work hard.

Suddenly the phone on the desk vibrated, and it happened twice in a row.Luo Zhi was startled.

Sheng Huainan, and Zhang Mingrui.Same sentence.

"Where are you? You weren't trapped outside by the heavy rain."

She replied to Zhang Mingrui: "Thank you for your concern, I'm staying in the dormitory."

Half an hour later, Luo Zhi rushed into the dormitory from outside the door, and the moment he opened the door, hot air rushed over his face.She dropped her schoolbag on the chair and found herself shaking a little.It may be that the weather is too cold.She crouched on the ground, clutching her arms, confused.

He didn't seem to realize that he was holding it too tightly, and when he let go, there were a few white marks on his arm, which gradually turned red.

The moment she received the text message, she didn't reply to Sheng Huainan, but immediately and calmly put the flat shoes on a cloth bag and put them in her schoolbag. With a clean plastic bag in her pocket, she put on an umbrella and rushed out of the dormitory recklessly.She rolled up her trousers and wore slippers, and walked to the small coffee shop near the dormitory.Seeing a lot of people sheltering from the rain at the gate from a distance, she quietly entered through the side door, ran to the bathroom to wipe off the water on her legs and feet, put the umbrella and slippers into the plastic bag prepared in advance, stuffed them into her schoolbag, and put them on. Flat shoes, trousers down.

Well, it doesn't look like she ran through the rain, as if she's been stuck here since the beginning.

The detective novels she read instantly turned into decisiveness, which made her make such a quick move.

She must seize this opportunity.

Then, looking at the phone - another message came from Sheng Huainan: "Where are you?"

She replied: "One Way Street Cafe, it's dead. I've put a plastic bag on my head and I'm going to rush out."

send.

Luo Zhi knew that although she was not as calm and composed as everyone saw, she had never been so outrageous.

Her heart is anxious, always feeling that this is the last chance.Quick message, quick message.She humbly circled in place.

She was very afraid that he would just reply: "Then you run slowly, little drowned chicken."

Inadvertently tilting her head and looking through the mirror on the wall, she saw the unconcealable anxiety and affectation on her pale face. She slowly froze in place, and then smiled miserably at the mirror.

She is nothing more than that.

When his text message arrived, Luo Zhi's expression was already normal.

"Wait for me, I'll be right there."

Luo Zhi's sneer gradually became a little sad.Because I was too fearful and expecting too much before, it dilutes the joy I should have.This may be her greatest tragedy.

She sat on a chair and waited. Everyone was watching the rain, and she was watching the palms.

The moment he looked up, he saw Sheng Huainan standing beside him, looking at him in a daze.

Luo Zhi stood up and smiled, he was carrying a big umbrella, the tip of which was dripping water.Sheng Huainan nodded at her expressionlessly, slowly opened his schoolbag, and took out a raincoat.A pink raincoat with a pure white mouthless cat Hello Kitty painted on it, and a pair of blue overalls, innocent as hell.

She froze for a moment, then raised her head, there was a faint smile on Sheng Huainan's face, which she couldn't understand.

Luo Zhi has always hated that cat, she doesn't like cats without aura, stupid and soulless.

Of course, there are more important reasons.She has seen this raincoat.

"It's too rainy to use an umbrella. Put on a raincoat for double protection. Boss, do you have plastic bags? Give me two. Luo Zhi, put them on your feet to prevent water from getting in your shoes. I don't need them, It's all wet anyway."

She didn't ask him where he came from, and she didn't thank him. She just followed his orders and was dragged away by him.Wearing a raincoat hat, the sound of the rain outside will be different, as if you are isolated in your own world.Her heart was beyond words.From receiving his text message to now, she is not unhappy, but the raincoat makes her skin burn.

They waded through the water all the way, Luo Zhi was hiding in the raincoat, it was very difficult to turn her head, and her view was always blocked by the hat.

"Sorry, are your shoes soaked through?"

Sheng Huainan glanced at his feet, but said nothing.

"Is your flu over?"

His expression softened a little, and he nodded, or rather, Luo Zhi vaguely saw him nodding through the translucent pink.

"Why didn't you talk?" Luo Zhi frowned, suppressing the unhappiness in her heart.

"There's nothing to say." He smiled, just for a moment, and it was such a calm smile again.

At the door of the dormitory building, Sheng Huainan said, go in quickly.

Luo Zhi was speechless and just said "Thank you very much".

"Why are you being polite?" The standard Sheng Huainan smile, I don't know if Luo Zhi is careless, she saw malicious teasing and irony in that smile.

Her body froze, she didn't know if she was angry, but the anger she held back all the way prevented her from leaving in such a mess.They stood silently like this for a long time, and finally Luo Zhi surrendered, thanked her for the last time, and then turned around.

In such weather, he remembered her, sent text messages to greet her, and waded through the flood to pick her up.

But why...

"Goodbye." She lowered her head dejectedly, her face still calm.

"Luo Zhi." He finally called her, squinting his eyes and smiling, touching the back of his head with his left hand, just like his countless sincere smiles, but today everything looks different.

"what's up?"

"Can you...remember to give me back my raincoat?"

Luo Zhi suddenly felt buzzing in her head, like Conan with a flash of inspiration.Also discovering the truth, Conan was very excited, but she was very embarrassed.

"Don't worry, I'll definitely return it to you, after it's been cleaned. I don't like Hello Kitty." Luo Zhi lowered her eyes and said coldly.

Sheng Huainan didn't speak, as if he wasn't surprised by her attitude, he narrowed his eyes slightly, with a hint of disappointment flashing between his brows.

"Why?" He didn't use interrogative sentences.

"It's just a pattern, there are so many whys." She shook her head.

"Then what do you like?" Sheng Huainan's tone was a little displeased.

"What do I like?" Luo Zhi heard his tone, and suddenly felt very puzzled and wronged.

Luo Zhi, it's raining, what are you doing out here?She held back her tears, smiled, and tilted her head to look at the puddle on the ground: "When I was young, my father bought me a green raincoat with little frogs on it. Although it was childish, I liked it very much."

Sheng Huainan finally frowned suspiciously.Luo Zhi smiled brighter.

"What's more, my dad can't buy me a raincoat anymore." She looked directly at him, and slowly stopped smiling.

They just looked at each other in the heavy rain for a long time.Luo Zhi felt that all her strength had been gambled in this inexplicable battle, and she kept seeing Sheng Huainan turn his head with a dark look.

Turn around, swipe your card, and enter the building.

The feeling of being slapped in the face, but that's all.

She remembered those two backs, the pink Hello Kitty, and the green frog with big eyes.

In April of the third year of high school, I went to school in the afternoon to collect the results of the second model.She accidentally slipped and fell in the mud at the school gate, and looked up to see Pink and Green holding hands.When entering the door, the girl took off the raincoat and stuffed it into the boy's hand, saying sweetly——

"You keep it for me, and you will keep it with you for the rest of your life."

"why?"

"In this way," she smiled beautifully, with a hint of cunning, "you can come to pick me up every rainy day from now on."

Why?He picked her up with his ex-girlfriend's raincoat and laughed at her coldly, why?
However, what hurt her the most was the raincoat with big eyes and small frogs that Sheng Huainan was wearing.

In the deep winter when I was five years old, there was heavy snowfall.She received a call at her grandmother's house, and her father said, "Lolo, my father will pick you up after get off work. It's snowing too much outside, and the road is difficult to walk. It may be later."But you have to be good, if you stay at home obediently, Dad will buy you a new raincoat, the little frog raincoat we saw last time on the second floor of Sanbai Store!
But my mother won't let me.

Let's not listen to mother, what's wrong with wearing a raincoat in winter?Let's wear it in the snow!
She held the phone and called happily, looking forward to it all afternoon, standing in grandma's kitchen and turning around, even knocking over the basin.

She didn't wait for Dad.

Dad is dead.

(End of this chapter)