Long time no see, Mr. Qin

Chapter 51 The back of love is never hate (5)

There was no foreplay that night, he was like a wild beast, wantonly plundering me, and when he finally fell asleep, he was buried in my body and refused to leave.What was the reason for the quarrel?
It seemed that it was because of a document, but in the end he was really angry because of a word from me.

"Qin Ziyang, I really regret meeting you."

It was just such a sentence that immediately annoyed him, a sleeping cheetah was awakened in this way, its eyes widened, and all the unfathomable elegance and aristocratic nobility disappeared.

That day is really fresh in my memory, especially the trembling feeling of climbing the clouds, which I can never forget...

"Qin Ziyang, I really regret meeting you." I looked at him outside the door and said word by word. I didn't dare to look at the arm that was clamped, but I still refused to relax my body.

"After-regret-met-meet-me." He paused word by word, repeating each word tightly.

"Yeah, the thing I regret most in this life is meeting you and falling in love with you. If I could start my life all over again, I would rather not have enough food and clothing than meet you."

I clenched my hands into fists, not letting my nails hurt me this time.There were too many wounds there, and I didn't want to hurt myself anymore, so I made up my mind, gritted my teeth, and used the coldest and most ruthless voice to say these words that could hurt him without any emotion, slowly and clearly speak up.When I finished speaking, the arm began to struggle violently, and the door was slammed hard, even my whole body against the door was knocked away.

That arm hung down, I don't know if it was too painful or numb, it just leaned against his body without any movement, but the other hand reached over, tightly grabbing my wrist and refused to let go.

"I've never regretted meeting you." He said, his voice didn't fluctuate, but his chest heaved violently.

Tears fell suddenly, at first I held back, not wanting to cry in front of him, but then it was like a rainstorm, big and big ones dripped down, like soybeans, I don’t know if there was any sound when they fell to the ground.

"So what if you have no regrets? What can you prove if you have no regrets? Language is such a scarce thing, so what if you tell me you love me at this very moment?!"

When the last sentence was uttered, it was actually roared, as if the air in the lungs, the air that had been suppressed all the time, was concentrated, and then released all at once.

"Su Nianjin, I love you." He said in a distressed voice.

What about expressions?Is it also the same desolate and sad?
I do not know.

He lowered his head, clenched his hands into fists by his side, and stared straight at a certain point on the ground, as if there was some rare treasure on the ground that he had to stare at.

Su Nianjin, I love you.

There was a bang in my heart.

It's not that he didn't say it, it's not that he didn't say it when he was laughing and loving.

but……

"Qin Ziyang, but I don't love you anymore, I don't love you anymore, what do you think I should do?"

"You're lying, Su Nianjin." His voice became lower and lower, until finally it was frighteningly deep.

"It's up to you whether you believe it or not." I didn't make any excuses, but dropped the sentence calmly.

He stopped talking, but the silence was more terrifying, far more terrifying than talking.He stepped forward, picked me up, and strode towards the bedroom.

After a whirlwind, I was thrown onto the bed, and a belt was tied on my hand in an instant.

"What are you doing, Qin Ziyang?" I looked at him in surprise and roared loudly.

"Nothing, let you know how you love me."

"You're crazy," I yelled.

"Yeah, I think so too, I'm fucking crazy."

"I know you've drunk too much, and you're still drunk. Let me go, and I'll pretend nothing happened, or we'll see you in court."

"Whatever you want." He said, but the movements of his hands didn't stop at all.

This is not like the usual Qin Ziyang, the Qin Ziyang who is so deep that even if he is angry, he just frowns, at most he just looks down at me.

I blamed it all on the alcohol, and even then, there was nothing in sight that would give him a quick hangover.

He tied my hands, pulled them up, put one hand on my bound wrist, and then unzipped the chains of my trousers.

"You came here just to sleep with me?" I stared at him, smiled suddenly, and said sarcastically, "There's no need to tie my hands, you are very skilled, I won't strongly resist, love between men and women, It's just..." I paused, looked at him and said slowly, "Please hurry up."

He paused, then looked at me with a complicated expression on his face, finally turned around, got off the ground, and took out a cigarette from his pocket, but found that there was no fire.

I saw him scratching his head angrily, and then walked to the kitchen, presumably to smoke from the fire of the stove.

After a while, the room was filled with the choking smell of smoke.

I was lying on the bed, not in a hurry to untie the belt on my hand, just lying on my stomach quietly like that.

After a long time, he seemed to have finished smoking, and walked in. There were several bloodshot eyes in his eyes, but he was obviously normal. His face was covered with water, and large drops of water hung on it, falling down his cheeks.The drops of water looked extremely sexy as they slid down the lines of his face.

"Sorry," he said.

"You don't need to say sorry to me. There is only one thing you need to do now, and that is to get out, immediately." I squinted my eyes and looked in the direction of the door.

Qin Ziyang turned around as if he didn't hear it, looked at the starry sky outside the window, stood for a long time before slowly saying: "I still remember that the two of us used to lie on the bed and watch the moonlight, and the moon at that time was the same as tonight's. But then you were in my arms."

He was speaking with a lonely expression, which I had never seen before, and such a face could have such a lonely taste.

I don't want to look over my head.He is too cunning, how could he leave such a sad back to me, saying "you were in my arms at that time" with affectionate words.

Looking at his expression at the moment, that face seemed to be filled with infinite loneliness, and at some point he lit another cigarette in his hand.The sweet and familiar smell of tobacco swayed faintly, squeezed into the lungs, and the breathing began to become anxious, depressing, and uncomfortable... He seemed to feel my gaze, turned around and walked over, and his voice became calmer, a little It is hoarse, but it sounds good, like wine that has been brewed for a long time, and every word has a long-lasting sense of weight.

Qin Ziyang is like this, every moment he has an aura that is incomparable and unstoppable by others.

"Do you remember this knife?" He raised his hand while speaking.I looked up along the palm of my hand, and there was a deep scar on that smooth and slender arm, which was huge, like a wild beast, staring at me viciously with its fangs, and there seemed to be large patches of blood on it.I rubbed my eyes, it was still there, looking at me fiercely.

"This scar is ugly," I said.

"Yeah, it's pretty ugly."

He actually agreed.

"But you deserve it, Qin Ziyang, you deserve it. This scar should be engraved on your face, so that those women who are greedy for your external charm can see how hideous and terrifying it is inside."

His eyes narrowed instantly.

"You hate me that much?" he asked.

"Yeah, I hate it. I can't wait to dig out your heart to see if it's black. It's just that it was once, and now I don't want to hate. Hate and love are both too laborious. Love, how much I hated later, and now..." I looked up at him, "Now I don't want to love for anyone, and I don't want to hate, because it's not worth it."

The window that was opened just now suddenly had a gust of wind pouring in, making a loud noise, and it started raining outside at some point. City T is always rainy, and the endless rain makes people feel upset.

Because the child didn't take good care of himself in the hospital after being kicked off, and his left leg got cold. In this kind of weather, he always felt sore and itchy. It was not obvious, nor difficult, or even serious, but I will always be reminded of everything that has happened at a specific time. I will not think of it when it is good, but once I encounter bad weather and bad mood, it will multiply at a double speed.

"What happened to the leg?"

Seeing me put my hand on it, he frowned suddenly, walked over and said in a low voice.

"It's nothing, it's just not very comfortable. Well, you've had enough trouble, and the drunken madness is over, now please leave here, my temple is too small to accommodate your Buddha."

When I said this, I didn't look at the expression on his face, but looked at the night sky outside the window.Because of the rain, I couldn't even see a single star, and the whole sky was shrouded in a huge mist, which was not as dazzling as the bright neon lights beside the road.

I haven't heard the other party's reply for a long time. If it weren't for the clearly audible breathing sound in this room and the huge sense of oppression that I can clearly feel even if I can't see it, I would have thought he had gone away quietly. After all, who is he, he is the Qin Ziyang who has always been proud.

"Su Nianjin, what are you insisting on? Are those persistence meaningful? As long as you promise, I will marry you tomorrow."

He said this with certainty, and there was a hint of impatience in his voice, or more precisely, a trace of annoyance at being forced into embarrassment.

"What do you take me for? Don't talk to me like this, it makes me feel sick. Don't think that marrying me is the greatest reward for me. I used to look forward to it, but now I don't care about it. Get out—— Get the hell out of me now—" I pushed him as hard as I could in my life.

He looked at me, putting away the loneliness of the moment just now, even the panic in his eyes disappeared, his expression was calm, like a deep well, the mouth of the well was covered by something, and he couldn't look past it, let alone look at the well The scenery at the bottom was pitch black, and there was a gloomy chill, and the silent face looked extraordinarily serious.

That's right, this should be the aloof Qin Ziyang.He has money, power, identity, status, style, and full pride and dignity. How can he allow women to yell at him like this and trample on him at will?

He took a deep look at me, turned around, and didn't say anything more. After waiting for a while, he didn't hear the sound of the opposite door opening, but the footsteps went towards the elevator lightly or heavily.

With a bang, the door opened, and there was no more sound.

The whole room was also extremely quiet, only the old wall clock that I carried everywhere creaked and creaked from time to time.

I sighed and walked towards the window, intending to close the window, but was stunned for some reason.

The rain outside formed a line, pattering against the road surface, making a pattering sound.

A tall and straight figure suddenly appeared in the rain.Because of the rain and the distance, I couldn't see the specific outline and expression clearly. I could only vaguely see him standing there with his hands in his pockets, standing there quietly, without an umbrella, letting the rain beat him mercilessly. hit on the body.

I immediately closed the window and drew the curtains, but after a few minutes it seemed like something was screaming in my heart.

"Look at it if you want, it's nothing to cover up. Su Nianjin, when did you do such hypocritical things." While muttering to myself, I strode towards the window and pulled the curtains aside.

He was still standing there, the roadside lights were shining orange, cast on him, and the rain seemed to become a support, and under the light, it turned out to be like a monochromatic rainbow, projecting slowly and long on him in his hair, on his face, on his body.

He was silent for a while, and took out his hand from his pocket. He didn't know when he had a cigarette in his hand, but he couldn't light it after several attempts. Finally, he threw the cigarette on the road in frustration, and the smoke continued to wash the ground along the way. The rainwater slowly flowed to an unknown place.

At this moment, he raised his head and met my eyes, as if he was stunned, but it was only as if, then, he reached for his underwear pocket, and took out something from it, I couldn't see what it was, but somehow I Just knowing what that is.My heart was beating violently, and I pressed my hand hard to my heart to barely suppress the throbbing.

He held it in his hand and made a motion on his heart.The movement is not very big, but very slow, like a slow motion or a winding machine that is a little slow due to rust.

I immediately closed the window and stopped looking at it, but couldn't help but walked to the study, opened the second drawer, and slowly opened a beautiful box inside.It would have required very little force, but it took me what seemed like more force than just pushing him to open it.

Under the bright light of the study, the contents of the box lay there quietly.

There is nothing valuable inside, at least compared to the dazzling jewelry I own, it is nothing, but I have always carried it with me.It is like a voucher with a lot of memories imprinted on it, which makes people have mixed feelings every time they look at it.

I buckled the box again, wanted to put it back but hesitated, finally picked it up and walked to the kitchen, stayed for a long time, finally gritted my teeth, and threw it into the big trash can.The trash can looks like a doraemon. When I was very young, I didn’t know what love between a man and a woman was. My biggest wish was to have a doraemon, and use its omnipotent pocket to conjure everything I wanted.But then what?Later, when I grew up, I began to feel pregnant, and what I wanted in my heart changed from a doraemon to a prince charming, a tuxedo mask, and other people who only existed in fantasy.

The next morning when I got up to take out the trash, I looked at the big trash can in front of me, and my hands trembled a bit, but I still restrained the trembling, and dumped the contents together with the box.However, my legs seemed to be rooted and I couldn't move. I stood by and watched the aunt who cleaned up the garbage excitedly take out the box from it and carefully put it in my pocket.It wasn't until she left for a long time that I went to the company with heavy steps.However, he was still late, but he was unlucky to see Secretary Shen standing there like a door god as soon as he entered the room.

Several sisters in the room were all giving me glances, Zhang Yuran was even more exaggerated, his eyes were squeezed together, his mouth was pushed upwards vigorously, and his whole face suddenly became abstract.

But to their surprise, Secretary Shen's gloomy face suddenly blossomed the moment he turned around, as if changing his face.

"Hehe, Xiao Su, how is your body, is it better?"

As he said that, he came over and held my hand kindly, coupled with his expression that thought he was kind but actually made people feel weird to the extreme, it really made me break out in a cold sweat.

"It's much better." As I said that, I pulled my hand out without a trace.

"That's good, that's good. You must know that you are the elite of our company, and you can't be careless about your body. Everything else is not important, and your body comes first."

I nodded, with a smile on my face, but I knew in my heart why he made these changes, so I didn't bother to deal with him.

Seeing my indifferent expression, he stopped talking, turned around, glanced at the curious eyes around me, and coughed hard.

Zhang Yuran and the others hurriedly lowered their heads, pretending to be busy.

Seeing this, Secretary Shen came forward with satisfaction, lowered his voice to the lowest, and asked, "Xiao Su, don't forget to tell Mr. Xu if you have nothing to do, and ask him to take care of us. You also know that there is a lot of competition in the industry now. Ah, don't look at me on the surface, the pressure is also great."

"Secretary Shen, I'm afraid I can't help you with this matter. Mo Ran has always kept a clear line between public and private. I hope you can understand this."

I looked at him, my face tensed.I have already caused too much trouble for Xu Moran. Frankly speaking, I feel so guilty towards him. Now I feel disgusted when I see Secretary Shen's expression of wanting to get benefits from him through me. Simply make it clear.

"That's it, that's it." He said hastily, and finally laughed a few times and walked out. Before going out, he yelled at the others, "What are you watching, don't cheer me up."

After Secretary Shen left, the entire office was silent at first, and even a needle dropped on the ground could be heard clearly.Zhang Yuran and the others looked at me and I looked at you, and finally all eyes fell on me alone.

"Xiao Su, this is so unkind. What is going on between you and Secretary Shen that you are hiding from everyone? Why does his attitude towards you make a 180-degree turn?"

(End of this chapter)