Small Times 3.0 Golden Age

Chapter 16 CHAPTER 15
On our way back, the car had just driven onto the elevated road, and a round of red sun jumped onto the windshield, hanging softly like a red moon.The skyline composed of countless tall and short buildings is outlined in a circle of dark red light.The sky is full of misty mist and autumn frost and dust, and the world seems to be packed into a frosted glass box, which looks fluffy and sticky, and has a pitiful feeling.

Neil drove, turning the steering wheel silently from time to time.From the rearview mirror of the car, I saw his red eyes, his slender and thick eyelashes that girls would be jealous of, and at the moment they were wet around his charming eyes, looking like golden reeds wet with dew.The corners of his mouth were tightly closed, and from his prominent masseter muscles, it could be seen that he was clenching his teeth vigorously, as if an angry person was trying to control himself not to erupt.He bangs the gas pedal from time to time, as if using this to vent.

I knew he wasn't venting his anger, he was venting his fear.All the way out of the cemetery, he cried.

He looked as miserable as the furry red sun hanging outside the windshield at the moment.

I look at myself in the rearview mirror, I'm worse than Neil.My face is unkempt, my eyes are red like apricots, and the color of red wine remaining between the corners of my mouth makes me look like a monster who just finished eating and hasn't had time to wipe his mouth.

And Gu Li beside me has already taken out the powder box from her bag, and looked at the small mirror to refresh herself.Of course, she had already put on the wig on her head again, and at this moment her head turned into a smooth and moist chestnut again.

I looked at her wig and felt sad.My chest began to open and close again, and my whole body immediately turned into a bellows, whining.

"Okay, okay, you two are promising, okay? I'm not dead yet," Gu Li snapped the powder box closed, threw it into the bag, and said to Neil and me, "I want to have two legs One kick, are you going to set up a platform under the Oriental Pearl Tower and cry for three days and three nights. I have to warn you, be careful of the urban management. They can beat you back to your original shape with a stick. And I have already said, doctor Said that I found it early, I had radiotherapy and chemotherapy early, and then surgery, the cure rate is very high. And the hair lost during radiotherapy and chemotherapy can grow back, my hair follicles are still there, but the hair fell out. You think I am Mao Huajun, with his scalp, flies don’t dare to stop on it for fear of breaking a bone, and his head is like waxed, it will slip when stepped on.” Mao Huajun was Gu Li’s former dean of the department, and Gu Li said His definition is "judging from the part above the eyebrows, it looks like Chen Peisi".

Along the way, Neil and I were crying, like two weak women, while Gu Neil was like pig iron, with steel in his mouth, and his whole personality was extraordinarily tall, and he couldn't tell that he was a cancer patient at all.

Taking advantage of the tragic atmosphere at this moment, Gu Li finally let go and told me why she slept with Wei Hai that morning.She wrote, directed, and acted in a high-level drama with obvious conflicts, intense contradictions, distinct roles, and repeated climaxes.

"You have to break up with Gu Yuan just because you have cancer?" Even knowing the whole cause and effect, I still can't understand her logic. Unplugged." Same thing.

"Otherwise? Could it be that I have to be like in the TV series, holding my boyfriend and crying to death every day, begging the other party not to leave me with snot and tears, and finally acting like the idiot in Aunt Qiong Yao's TV series, because The other party has been a widow all his life, and the first thing he does when he wakes up every morning is to hold his portrait and cry twice? Lin Xiao, it's the 21st century, and it will be 2012 soon, can't you live a pioneering life?" Gu Li Holding hands, looking at the scenery outside the window, her face was not facing me, but from her voice, I could also figure out the sneering expression on her face at the moment.

"But you can't let Gu Yuan carry a green helmet so inexplicably, and maybe he will live in the shadow of a green hat that never existed for the rest of his life...I said Gu Li, that green hat is indeed It didn't exist, did it?" When I said the second half of the sentence, I felt a little guilty.Because no matter what happened, when Gu Li came here, there was no drama that couldn't be fixed.China Mobile should ask her to speak for her - she thinks, she can!

"Lin Xiao, believe it or not, I'll stuff you under the tire!" Gu Li turned her face and stretched out her sharp crystal nails against my throat.I have always felt that China's knife control regulations should be amended. Like Gu Li, who uses ten blades as crystal nails and puts them on his fingers, and polishes them to the point of blowing hair and breaking hair. What is the difference between carrying ten daggers on the street at any time? ?
"Oh, it seems that the green hat never existed." From her reaction, I breathed a sigh of relief, and at the same time the big stone in my heart fell to the ground, I still felt a bit of pity for Gu Li—after all, having Wei Hai There are not many people who have a standard muscular sculpted figure and like women at the same time, the whole Shanghai is turned upside down.

"But how do you conclude that if Gu Yuan knew that you had cancer, he would definitely break up with you? Although I don't like him very much, I don't think he is as...so..." I couldn't find it To express it accurately, I just suddenly felt a little unfair for Gu Yuan.

"I know him well. He is the same person as me, I don't have to guess what he thinks, I just need to know what I will think - if I met a man with cancer today, would I Continue to spend so much time with him, standing in front of his hospital bed every day, serving tea and water, pouring excrement and urine, knowing that he is going to die, and telling him every day, you look so good, you will recover soon Can I? The answer is, I can't. Without a camera facing me, I can't play this kind of chaste woman. Moreover, if this man has a conscience, humanity and basic professional ethics, he certainly wouldn't waste me like this My youth, my life, and my feelings. What is the probability of a cancer patient surviving? To gamble with the same probability as winning the lottery, the time cost and opportunity cost are too damn high. It's better to serve a billionaire who is about to die, maybe even my name will be written in the will. Lin Xiao, I am a dying person, why should I drag a good young man to accompany me to wait for death? "

"What the hell did you just say to me that the cure rate is extremely high, and you will definitely not die!" I jumped up and hit my head on the roof of the car.

"Let me use an analogy! What are you yelling at me? I'm a cancer patient. Can you please pay attention to your words and deeds? The doctor said that I should not be overly frightened. If the surrounding noise exceeds 60 decibels, I may go into shock at any time." Gu Li Pressing me down, the expression seemed to be true.

I know that she has this ability since she was a child, and she is good at making up words of various occupations to achieve her own goals. I have seen her use various beginnings to satisfy her selfishness, such as "My dentist said, I can't eat bitter melon, it is bad for the gums. No" "My lawyer said it's best not to come to school next week, he's going to take me to court at any moment" "My gardener said please don't sing in the garden, those French roses heard someone singing My voice will wither.” “Our advertisers told me that they hope that the company can lend me the best samples next time, and hope that I can dress more expensively and have afternoon tea with them”…

Gu Li's black Mercedes drove silently on the slightly empty elevated road in the early morning. The car's shock absorption system was so good that it was silent. The whole car felt like a black coffin flowing down the river.Except for the occasional sob of Neil, there was silence in the black coffin.

Perhaps in order to break this annoying dullness, Gu Li said to me softly: "Actually, I am afraid of giving Gu Yuan this moral shackle. If Gu Yuan knows that I have cancer, even if he wants to break up with me, he will Because of the pressure of people around me, the pressure of public opinion, and the pressure of morality, I have to insist on being with me, but this is obviously a consumption that is destined to have no future. He is a good person, and I love him very much. I don’t want him I was so unhappy. Neil, do you remember what you said to me when you left, you said, 'I am not happy anymore.' I am very afraid that one day, Gu Yuan will also say this to me in my heart. I am affected Not this. Instead of making me hate him in the end, it is better to let him hate me, so that at least I will not feel uncomfortable. "

My eyes were reddened by her words again.I looked at Gu Li, her expression was calm, as if after a storm had passed, the deserted pastures were left behind. There were no cattle and sheep, no flowers, no tents and haystacks. The strong wind had blown away everything, leaving only The smooth and rolling grass seems to be washed by an invisible river.She will always be like a computer, strangling all the things that may hurt herself at the other end of the firewall, starting to clear from the source code state, leaving no gap or opportunity for grief to penetrate her body, her heart.

"But just in case, I mean just in case, Gu Yuan is willing to bet against God just once, don't you give him a chance? At least you have to let him know the truth?" I still didn't give up, although I never gave up. I repel Gu Yuan in my heart, but he is absolutely innocent in this matter.

"Bet against God? Go play dice with him and forget it. I guarantee that he gets five ones every time. Lin Xiao, do you know what kind of cancer I have? Uterine cancer. I'm just still undergoing radiotherapy. During chemotherapy and radiotherapy, the cancer cell area is shrunk through radiotherapy and chemotherapy. When the tissue in the cancerous area shrinks to the extent that it can be removed, I will undergo surgery. If the effect of radiotherapy and chemotherapy is obvious and the cancer cells are well controlled, I only need to undergo surgery. Lost part of the uterus, but even so, my uterus can no longer function, but the ovaries are still there, and I can still find someone to be a surrogate through IVF. But if the effect of radiotherapy and chemotherapy is not good, and surgery does not cure it, if cancer cells If it spreads to stage II, I have to cut off the entire reproductive system including the uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes and other organs... Tell me, if this is the case, even if I survive, what future will Gu Yuan and I have? Although my mother didn't have cancer back then, it was also because she couldn't give birth to a child, so my dad found someone outside and gave birth to me. You see, there is retribution from heaven, but God is blind and retribution is on me Body. Lin Xiao, you don’t know much about Gu Yuan’s family. Their family is not much more normal than Gong Ming’s family. Do you think, if I marry Gu Yuan, as a childless daughter-in-law, will my life be easier?"

I am speechless.I heard Neil driving in the seat in front of me, and started crying softly again.Gu Li reached out her hand, placed it gently on the back of his head, and stroked it gently.I couldn't help but shed tears beside me, Gu Li stretched out his other hand and gently covered the back of my hand.I looked at the calm Gu Li, her expression was so calm that there was even a hint of a smile, as if Neil and I had cancer, but she seemed to be comforting our nurse.

I leaned on Gu Li's shoulders and hugged her tightly.She is so skinny, and the bones in her shoulders hurt me so much.

Neil and I promised to keep Gu Li's secret and not tell anyone about her condition.However, in exchange, I asked Gu Li to promise me one thing, that is, not to live in that empty Nanjing West Road villa anymore, I hope she will move back to her original home, at least her mother can be in the house. Take care of her by your side.

Gu Li agreed to me.She told me that even if I didn't tell her, she was already planning to return the villa.The monthly rent of this villa is not cheap, and before the big hole is solved, she has to save money.She even made mental preparations to wear Vancl with migrant workers in the future.

"But I want to let everyone get together again before returning this house. Lin Xiao, do you think they will come?" She looked up at me.From her eyes, I read an emotion for the first time, which is called "not confident".

"Who are they referring to?" I suddenly felt sad, because I understood Gu Li's mind, and she was more reluctant than anyone else.

"Everyone who has lived in this house." Gu Li sighed, "No matter what happens to us in the future, life and death or old age and death, at least in the past, we still lived happily, didn't we?"

"Both Jian Xi and Wei Hai are no longer in Shanghai. Gu Yuan will definitely not come." I sat down on the familiar sofa and looked towards the direction of the kitchen. On that long dining table, countless secrets They all once bloomed charmingly like the night's epiphyllum, like dynamite, with an incomparable beauty bursting out in an instant. Because of these dynamite-like secrets, we quarreled with each other countless times, wishing to tear each other into a tattered piece of paper. Burlap pockets.Of course, there are also a lot of warm moments, and I can even vaguely see Jianxi serving me rice inside, and Nanxiang wiping the dishes by the sink.

"Then there are Nanxiang, Gu Zhun, and Tang Wanru." Gu Li said.

"And Sogo, would you like to invite him?" Neil asked Gu Li, but his eyes were on me.

"Why not? Lin Xiao loves him so much." Gu Li said calmly.I know, she still remembers that I was in the cemetery, and I refused to do Sogo's hair for him.

"Then Lin Xiao and I will go to ask them out separately?" Neil sighed and didn't say much.

"No, I'll send them a text message myself." Gu Li stood up and looked at me, obviously about to see off the guests, "I'm going to bed first. You should go home early too."

"Chongguang has gone to other places. I will stay here tonight." I dare not look into Gu Li's eyes.

"Oh, it's up to you. Your room is still there, it hasn't been touched. The quilt and pillow are in the closet, you take it yourself." Gu Li went upstairs after finishing speaking.

After a whole night of tossing, I was also exhausted. I closed my eyes in the morning sun and fell asleep all at once.I don't know how long it took, but I woke up in a daze.The curtains were closed tightly, the room was dark, and I didn't know what time it was.

I walked to Gu Li's bedroom in my pajamas and slippers.I pushed open the door and climbed gently onto her bed.

Just like when we lived together in a college dormitory, countless times, I quietly ran from my room to her room, tiptoeing into her quilt, just to covet the comfort of the high-end mattress she bought and the warmth of the eiderdown quilt .

I lay down and gently pulled one of Gu Li's arms to hug her. I buried my head on her arm and whispered to her, "I'm sorry."

She didn't move or answer me, but I knew she wasn't asleep.

A few seconds later, she gently pushed my hand away, turned over and sighed silently.

There is snow on the pine in winter, ice on the stream in spring, and the noisy cicadas among the trees in summer are always accompanied by rain.

And autumn always tirelessly dresses up the world with fallen leaves over and over again, with a little rouge here and a little powder there, the whole world looks like it is booming.

Years and years, the situation always goes very fast.

The fog in Shanghai is getting thicker, the days are getting shorter and the mornings are getting later.

The last sound of cicadas in autumn finally hid in the dense woods.

The resentment towards Nan Xiang and Gu Yuan in my heart seems to have gradually cooled down as the autumn deepened.What followed was the memory of them.I understand that my resentment towards Nan Xiang has no reason. No one has ever stipulated that she should not be better than me, should not live happily, and should not have a successful career.When she finally had the opportunity to stand on the huge stage for the curtain call, I should have been the first to applaud her, but I sneered and booed for the first time.As for Gu Yuan, he deserved people's sympathy rather than resentment.

But Gu Li doesn't have time to be as sad as I am. She and Neil bury themselves in piles of documents every day, repeatedly checking and searching for all kinds of useful and useless information. All personal accounts are very clear, and there is no transaction record as huge as 7000 million, but it is not ruled out that Gu Yansheng split the money into many small transactions, but if so, it will be more troublesome to track .Originally, if a needle fell into the sea, it would be difficult to find, but if the needle is cut into pieces, it will be even more difficult to find.

But Gu Li believes that this money will not disappear, it must exist in a form that has been ignored by everyone.No one will actually throw 7000 million into the ocean.

Gu Li and Neil repeatedly studied the will left by Gu Yansheng, as if they were reading a mystery novel. They racked their brains for every sentence, sentence, and even every word, as if they were deciphering a "Da Vinci Code".

They ruled out 7000 million hidden possibilities for each inheritance one by one, such as the blue and white porcelain bowl left to Gu Li's mother, which could not hold 7000 million in cash, such as the Patek Philippe watch left to Gu Li, which was only worth Only 42 yuan, the company's shares are clear and transparent, there is no doubt...

After they eliminated them one by one, the most suspicious inheritance left was a forest farm that Gu Yansheng bought before his death. This forest was in the municipal forestry area of ​​Dongtan, Chongming.Many enterprises, including paper mills, furniture factories, and wood processing factories, have their own properties in this national forestry area.Gu Yansheng bought a small piece of forest farm near the sea in his own name. This forest farm was left to Gu Li in his will.

Before this incident happened, Gu Li never thought of taking over the forest farm.Gu Li just continued to hire the forest guard that Gu Yansheng hired before his death to guard the forest.

At Neil's suggestion, Gu Li and Neil and I went there again.

When we stood in the woods planted with a lot of fast-growing eucalyptus, we looked around, but we didn't know where to start.This is Shanghai in 2010, not medieval Europe, we can't find a treasure chest full of gold coins and gems worth 7000 million in the forest, and then a fairy comes out with a magic wand to dance for us.

"Can the wood in this forest be worth 7000 million yuan?" Gu Li took off his sunglasses and looked at the swaying tree crown above his head with a sad face.

"These are fast-growing eucalyptus trees used to make paper, 7000 million yuan? It would be good if they could be worth 70 yuan. You think all the chrysanthemum pears are grown here!" Neil kept sighing as he flipped through the forest farm information in his hand.

"Then this piece of land is at least worth a lot of money, right? Although it's not in Jing'an District, it's still in Shanghai. Can it be traded in the real estate market? Maybe there's a heartless person willing to buy it. Build an office building or a movie theater on the land of Jiaoyeling."

"Gu Li, no one is willing to build an office building in this kind of place. Don't forget that we drove here from Jing'an District for four hours. I think we can see Jiayuguan if we drive a little longer. And don't forget We had to borrow a forest ranger’s tractor for the last part of the road to drive in. Who can be short-sighted and want to build an office building here? Moreover, I have to remind you that what your dad bought was just The right to use this forest, and the scope of use clearly stipulates that the use of this land can only be used to plant wood for papermaking, not to mention building office buildings, even if you just want to build a greenhouse here to grow carrots, that’s okay. No way!" Neil was articulate and well-organized, with a lawyer-standard expression on his face, and he almost wore a woolen hat on his head.

"Could it be that my father has great powers, and he found out that there are coal mines or oil buried under this land... Then we will make a fortune! It must be like this! Otherwise, my father's iron cock I usually ask him to help me buy a Hermes bag, and I cry like my second aunt died. How could I spend 7000 million to buy these broken wood! Hurry up and find someone from an excavation team tomorrow, and my mother will change in a second. Boss Coal!" Gu Li's eyes suddenly lit up, seeing her like that, she should be revived in place with full blood!
"You are legally illiterate. Chinese law stipulates that land and mineral resources or the heritage of ancient civilizations are state-owned. Privately developing mineral resources is no different from robbing banks. They are all stealing state money. Even if you mine ten tons of diamonds in this land Or if Qin Shihuang's body is dug up, it doesn't matter to you." Neil rolled his eyes at Gu Li.

Gu Li put his hips on his hips and became angry: "Then why did you ask us to come all the way to this poor country! Autumn outing! My doctor said that if I go out of the outer ring or go to a suburb with poor mobile phone signal, my uterus will be damaged at any time. It is possible to turn against me!"

We spent most of the day in this forest, but in fact, we didn't do much. This forest is too open, surrounded by the sea on three sides, and connected to Chongming Island on one side.If there is no village in the front and no store in the back, unless Gu Yansheng artificially breeds giant pandas or fire phoenixes in this forest, or the ground is full of thousand-year-old Ganoderma lucidum and ten-thousand-year coral reefs, it is impossible to find 7000 million.

The three of us were completely devastated.

When we were leaving, the forest guard said that he would show us a small wooden house that Gu Yansheng built in the forest.

"You said it earlier!!" Gu Li jumped up like a firecracker soaring into the sky with a bang, I hurriedly held her back, lest she fly to the sky and explode into a beautiful firework.

The three of us ran towards the wooden house across countless thorns and weeds, as if Liu Xiang was running a championship, with the whistling wind in our ears.Gu Li was giggling next to me, agile and agile, not like a cancer patient at all, but like a green forest gangster. I felt that her saliva was almost blown to her cheeks by the wind.

But when we searched around the wooden house like drug dogs, almost turning the house over for a long time, we were completely angry.There is no such thing as a safe, and there is no such thing as a check contract or a real estate certificate or a land deed. There is no bank book, and there is no so-called basement or secret passage behind the bookcase.A bare room with a wooden bed, a large bookcase, two or three old chairs, and a wooden table, all gone.

"Mr. Gu will come here for vacation occasionally on weekends, to read books and go fishing. He is very nice. He said that when he is not around, I can also live in this wooden house. After all, my small pavilion for forest guarding is too cold in winter. This wooden house has a fireplace, so you can make a fire." The forest guard put another bullet in Gu Li's head—yes, if you put 7000 million yuan at home, you will call the people downstairs when you are not at home Is it okay for the security guard to come to your house to drink tea, light a fire or something?
When the sun went down, the three of us had to leave in dismay.

After that, Gu Li and Neil were still busy with a project called "Finding 7000 million from the file pile".And I face Gong Ming with a guilty conscience when I go to work every day, and face Chong Guang with a guilty conscience when I go home.

——As long as I think of that carefully laid out, step-by-step chess game, my heart beats wildly, making me panic.In my heart, Gong Xun has always been Hades, the king of the underworld, which is true, but I have only now realized that Gong Ming and Sogo have always been the gods of death and sleep standing beside him.

Gong Ming was no different from the past, he was still walking around on the white carpet with bare feet under the sufficient heating.His coffee still needs two extra cubes of sugar, and he asked me to go to the dry cleaner downstairs of his house to charge 1 yuan for laundry. He is still very afraid of fish. After using the key, he will definitely repeat it handwashing.He still dresses every day like those expressionless male models on the advertising page, with a pale face, a stern expression, and no information can be read from the glass bead-like eyes.I'm as afraid of him as I was before, oh no, I should be, I'm more afraid of him than before.I used to think that he was a lonely lion. If he got too close, his paw would smash his head to pieces at any time. However, now, I feel more and more that he is like a gloomy wolf under the moonlight.

Sogo is no different from the past. He still hides at home and plays games when he is not working. He also cooks noodles for me when I stay up late to process documents.He still likes to wear gray sweaters, and he still likes to read magazines and drink coffee by the bedside on rainy evenings.Still likes to straddle my legs when I sleep.His breathing is still extremely clear, with the strong ocean smell of male hormones, his arms are still strong, his hugs are still lingering, and his body temperature is still hot.But I often dream that I am sleeping with a giant boa constrictor. Its scale-covered giant snake wraps around me. It doesn’t eat me or strangle me. It just looks at me quietly. .

I feel like I'm going crazy.

When I saw that Gu Li was still serious about having meetings with Gong Ming, and occasionally joking with him, I didn't know how she did it.

Soon it was the weekend, the day Gu Li had agreed upon.Chongguang agreed to come over, and Tang Wanru also replied with an "OK".I wasn’t really surprised by all of this. What surprised me was that Gu Li told me that Gu Zhun and Nan Xiang also agreed to come over. I suddenly felt a little scared, and I couldn’t help asking her: “Are you sure you didn’t seek a killer to threaten you?” Didn't they find someone to hypnotize them?" I think Gu Li should join the CIA, and then with Tom?Cruise in Mission Impossible 5.

But while I was surprised, I was also full of anticipation, and I wanted to meet them.I want to lie down with Nanxiang like in the past, watching Gu Li humiliate Tang Wanru, while admiring Neil's sexy appearance in a tight vest.

But Gu Li didn't mention Gu Yuan.

I think he really loves Gu Li, otherwise he wouldn't have such a hard time walking away.

I got off work 15 minutes early, and then ran to the supermarket on the first floor of Times Square, where I was going to buy some wine and snacks to take with me.Although Gu Li said that she would prepare the dishes and red wine, I didn't want to enjoy a meal prepared by the host after working hard for a long time like a swaggering guest, and then pat my ass and leave.At least I have lived in the villa for more than two years. Even if this is the last meal, I want Gu Li to know that I have always regarded it as my home.

And I know Tang Wanru's favorite cotton candy imported from Japan filled with blueberries and hazelnuts is only available at this store.Both Nanxiang and I love citrus Japanese shochu, and the blue frosted bottle sold here is the best.There is also salmon sashimi that Gu Li likes to eat here, and their fish is always the freshest.There is also the organic asparagus that Sogo likes to eat, and the fruity sparkling wine that Neil likes to drink.Memories of the past filled my head as I pushed the shopping cart.

Because of the weekend, there were a lot of people queuing up to check out, so I took out my phone and sent Gu Li a message: "I'll come over as soon as I do some shopping, I'll be a little late."

I walked out of Times Square with two big pockets full of things. There were taxis all over the street, but none of them had their lights on.I waited on the side of the road with all the anxious white-collar workers, searching for the "empty car" glowing on the side of the steering wheel in the busy traffic.

After a while, it started to rain.

There are fewer taxis.

I had to follow the flow of people and walk towards the subway station on Shaanxi South Road.During this period of time, and it’s raining, even if you stand on the side of the street as a monument to heroes, you still can’t get a taxi.

In the crowded subway is still the same familiar smell - the smell of people's skin, the smell of perfume, the smell of different shoes, the smell of food, the metal smell of subway cars.How long has it been since I took the subway?Since I joined "ME", the system of getting a taxi reimbursement no matter where I go has once turned me into a person who doesn't want to walk more than 500 meters.

The train was moving dully in the dark underground, with countless people coming up at every station, but few getting off.Indeed, the subway is now running from Luwan to Jing'an, and people who can afford to live in these two districts don't need to squeeze the subway at all.I believe that more than half of the people on the subway are going to the outer ring.My chest is attached to my back, and I am human. For a while, I felt that even if I was in shock, I would still stand upright, and even if the subway braked suddenly, I would not fall down.

By the time I got out of the subway entrance on West Nanjing Road, it was raining harder.I didn't bring an umbrella, even if I put those two huge paper bags on my head, it didn't help. My coat was already covered with dense rain, and my coat seemed to have a thick circle of white fluff.I took out my phone while walking, but Gu Li hasn't replied to my message yet.I think she must be too busy to take care of me now.I took out my mobile phone again and sent Sogo a text message, asking if he had arrived.Then I threw the phone into the bag and rushed to the villa at full speed.

I took out the key, pushed open the door, and put the two huge dark green paper bags on the cabinet while shaking the rainwater on the coat coat: "Do you believe it, I came here by subway! I was on the subway just now... "

I looked up and realized something was wrong.

The room was too quiet, so quiet that it didn't look like any party was being held, even a candlelight dinner between men and women in love was much more lively than it is now.The lights in the room were turned on, and the bright crystal light illuminated every corner, but this still couldn't change the desolation in the whole room at the moment.

I raised my head to look at Gu Li who was sitting at the dining table. She folded her arms and looked at me gently.

"Nan Xiang and Gu Zhun didn't come?" I stood at the door, not knowing whether I should walk over, "Where's Tang Wanru?"

Gu Li didn't speak.

"Then Sogo didn't come?" My hands were holding two paper bags just now, and they were cold from the rain.

Gu Li shook his head.

"Then Neil should be here?" I didn't want to believe the scene in front of me, I raised my head and shouted upstairs, "Neil!"

"Stop calling, he's not at home." Gu Li burst the last soap bubble in my mind, she stood up, slightly tilted her body, it looked like she had been sitting for too long, her legs were a little numb, she raised her head Looking at me, there was some joy and satisfaction on her face, she even wiped her hands on the napkin a little unnaturally, she looked like a woman who had been busy for a long time during the Chinese New Year, and there was a kind of expectation in her eyes, " Just the two of us eat, these dishes are still hot, just pour this soup into the pot and cook for a while."

She maintained this kind of happiness from the beginning to the end, even if there were only two people's dinner, she still had a lively dinner.

They didn't come until the two of us messed up the dishes on the table, drank three bottles of red wine, and broke two plates and a wine glass in a drunken way.

Later, whenever I recalled Gu Li's eyes and the smile on his face at that time, it was difficult for me to hide the pain in my heart like soreness when the acupuncture point was pierced.I left the villa that night, and when I returned to my home and turned on my phone, I found that there was a red exclamation mark behind the text message I sent to Gu Li, "I'll come over as soon as I buy something, I'll be a little late." Is the identification of sending failure.At that moment, I finally understood why when Gu Li looked at me, there was such a relieved joy on his face, and the joyful satisfaction in his eyes.Before I arrived, she must have sat alone in the silent living room for several hours, facing a table full of big fish and meat, hot soup and wine, but empty, she must have felt I've been abandoned by everyone - but I showed up at the end.That's why she was so happy, inviting me to sit down and eat together like a Chinese New Year.She was grateful to me for this natural appearance.

No, it shouldn't be Gu Li.She shouldn't be so humble, she shouldn't be so easy to please, she should be the center around which everyone revolves, she should be the mean lady who always picks on us and makes us accommodate her all the time, she should be 1 minute late when we are late, Just yelling at us on the phone and breaking our doglegs when we got there.

This is her.

This is the proud she.

I hid in my quilt, crying heartbreakingly.That was the saddest time I cried in my life. It was even more sad than when Jianxi left me and when I attended Sogo's funeral.After crying, my whole body started to cough and I couldn't stop.My chest was like a city wall full of holes, and the strong wind howled, blowing everything away.

Yes, I did not stay in that villa.I left Gu Li there alone.Because I couldn't face the huge dead silence.I was terrified of sleeping in a villa that looked like a mausoleum.A month ago, there was still a greenhouse filled with the aroma of coffee, and there were always voices of various people chatting, arguing, talking about love, and bargaining.But today, it is like an empty village, bathed in the cold autumn rain alone.

It's like I'm lying on the bed dripping wet at the moment.

On the way back, I didn't take a taxi or take an umbrella. I wrapped my coat and walked instinctively to the apartment by the Suzhou River.I don't know how long I walked. Along the way, the cold rain didn't make my mind clear. I drank wine, and my whole cheek was as hot as burning, and the rain seemed to make a hissing sound when it drenched on it.

Countless memories of the past are like ants one by one, lined up, shouting slogans, and crawling neatly to the highest point of my heart. They are one by one inserted into the softest place in their hands. A small flag, here, there, and there, after they planted dense marks, they left without a sound, leaving hundreds of flags fluttering in the wind, rattling, and those are ours Our past, our past, our past, our days.

Horn sound.rain.The driver's cursing voice roared into my ears.

Neon rays.Rays of traffic lights.The headlights of the car hurt my pupils.

I was so embarrassed.

I went back to the apartment and fell asleep on the bed before I could even take off my wet clothes.

Alcohol burned my head and my heart.I didn't even have the energy to get up and get a glass of water.In a trance, there were countless sounds of raindrops beating on the windows, densely packed, like a rush of drums urging something and looking forward to something.It sounds like the drumbeat when some important person is about to appear on the stage, or the soundtrack when the curtain of some big drama is about to be lifted.

I have a fever.

I slept at home for two whole days.

When I woke up, there were three missed calls from Gu Li on my phone, and a text message from Gu Li in the morning.There were even missed calls from Nan Xiang and Tang Wanru.

But no Sogo news.

I looked at my phone, and it had been two days, and Sogo hadn't come home.Did not contact me either.He seemed to have disappeared from this world.I looked around, the light outside the curtains should be at dusk, I was still wearing the clothes I had eaten at Gu Li’s house that night, the rain had already been dried by my body temperature, and now there was a sour smell.

I clicked on the unread text message in Gu Li, stared at the screen, and read that short sentence four or five times, then I turned over and got up, found a suit of clothes and changed them, and then tore them off the hanger. That thick cotton coat, stumbled out the door.My head was still hot and painful, and when I got out of the elevator, I bumped my head against the door frame of the elevator.

I didn't care about Gu Ying rubbing his forehead in self-pity, I rushed to the middle of the road and stopped a taxi.That posture would really fool the driver into thinking I was trying to kill myself.

I was sitting in the backseat, shaking my fist with my phone.

At that time, I didn't know that the exaggerated and contrived sentences in the novel were all true, such as the sentence in "A Dream of Red Mansions", "Once I wake up from the dream, the world has changed."

(End of this chapter)