There are too many routines for paranoid male gods

Chapter 320 What's wrong with this?
"Many times, I really want to lose my memory, but I can't forget it. Those beautiful things have been forgotten, kept being forgotten, and some even can't remember at all, but the saddest things can't be forgotten, can't forget It's still spinning in my mind..."

"Tan Qing, tell me how to forget the person who gave you the most pain in the world? If there is such a method, I will definitely learn it."

"Some people say that in fact, human beings have a very short memory for happy things, but they always have a deep memory for unfortunate things. All painful feelings are the most difficult to forget. Therefore, the most unforgettable things are never happy things, but It's a painful thing."

"You're right." Tan Qing sighed softly.

Painful things are always hard to forget, and no amount of happiness can dilute the pain.If there has never been a painful thing in a relationship, it can only mean that there has never been love at all.

Because I don't love, it doesn't hurt, so it's too easy to forget, and it's too easy to walk into the next embrace.

And love, after all, will be hurt, and the pain will be unforgettable after all, so after loving someone fiercely, it is like dying once, losing the ability to love, no matter what, you can't go all out like the first time.

Because I have experienced the most painful feeling, I always have a grudge against the next person, and I am instinctively afraid that I will get hurt again.

Therefore, after loving someone, I always want to find a person who loves me, because I don’t have to pay, I don’t need to be distressed, and I don’t need to be hurt anymore. too painful.

"But Sheng Xia, have you tried to face him?" Tan Qing continued.

"face?"

"Well, don't run away anymore, don't use amnesia as an excuse, be your Li Shengxia, and face that Mo Nianchen. If you can..."

"I can't do it." Li Shengxia interrupted Tan Qing, "To be Li Shengxia, I have to endure a lot of sadness and pain, and I have to face the self-esteem and heart that have been torn to pieces. It is too difficult to pick up pieces from the past and put them together..."

"If you can't even face him, how can you be happy? How can you live with another person?"

"I don't need happiness, I don't need happiness, and I can't deserve such a thing. I just need stability, I need to get rid of him, and I need to find myself."

"You did this not to find yourself, but to choose to lose yourself. At any time, don't do such a thing for a person. Why don't you need happiness, why can't you be happy, why shouldn't you be happy, you Why can't you match?"

Li Shengxia turned pale when asked by Tan Qing, "I...I'm not good at all, I'm useless, and I'm a single mother, no one would want a woman like me, and no one would need someone like me. I won't Taking care of people and making a mess of my own life, I..."

"What's wrong with this?" Tan Qing interrupted Li Shengxia.

Li Shengxia looked at him in surprise.

His voice became gentle, "What's wrong with this? I don't know how to take care of others, and I need others to take care of me. With two lovely children, I'm strong, optimistic, and self-reliant. I can't see what's wrong?"

"At least, there is one person who has always felt that this is very good, and wants to protect this beauty."

"I never think you are unworthy of happiness, I never think you should be unfortunate. A girl like you is kind and cute, has her own dreams, and doesn't easily cling to others. I don't know how good it is."

"..." Li Shengxia stared blankly at Tan Qing, she never thought that she was like this in his mind.

She always thought that in his heart, she must be a woman who always caused trouble and needed him to clean up the mess.

Li Shengxia was inexplicably flustered.

"Tan Qing, I'm not as good as you said. The reason why I am like that is because I have nowhere to go. "

"So, if there is a person who has everything you want and need, and you can have what you want by attaching to him, you don't have to stand on your own, and you don't have to run around for life anymore, would you be willing to attach to him? "

"..."

"You don't want to." Tan Qing said: "So I said, it's not that there is no one around you who you can attach yourself to, you just choose not to attach yourself, because you have your principles and your persistence, because you are kind and pure , don't want to hurt others."

Li Shengxia was silent.

Tan Qing paused, and continued: "Because you know, there are still things in your heart that you can't let go of, and there is still a person in your heart, occupying your heart, and you can't make room for others."

"I..." Li Shengxia was speechless.

Tan Qing looked into her eyes and said seriously:

"Midsummer, I like you very much, not just the kind of liking you think, I am willing to protect you for the rest of my life, I can go through fire and water for you, I can give you everything you want, you know, but you never want it. Because , You haven't kicked him out yet, you don't want to hurt me, I know it all."

Li Shengxia's eyes dilated slightly.

He continued, "So, I never force you, never force you to make any decisions, I think, as long as you are still willing to be by my side, no matter what our relationship is, it doesn't matter. As long as you are sad, you want to talk When you can think of me, I am very happy. Because I know that you are also giving me a chance, and you are giving yourself a chance. Even if I can’t be your lover or your partner, at least I can be like your relatives .”

At the end, Tan Qing's eyes were slightly teary.

Obviously, it was an opportunity he had come to with great difficulty, and she personally said that she was willing to be engaged to him, but he crushed this opportunity.

If she makes such a choice and just goes from one unhappy to another, then he would rather not.

He must regret it, from the moment he finished speaking, he regretted it from the second, but he knew that he did nothing wrong, he did nothing wrong...

"Tan Qing..." Tears welled up in Li Shengxia's eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! You are so kind to me, but I said such exaggerated words to you. I used you as a tool to escape, and I failed you. it is good."

She blamed herself deeply for what she said just now that she wanted to get engaged to him to escape Mo Nianchen.

Tan Qing didn't speak, but turned around, stretched out her hand, and gently wiped her tears.

She didn't dodge, but her tears grew more and more, and she couldn't wipe them away.

(End of this chapter)