I don't like the world, I only like you

Chapter 22 In this world where everything is fickle, I want to see forever

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We broke up once when we were dating.

He often has to go on business trips for a month or two. He doesn't have much time to accompany me, and I'm always alone.

I got sick and had a fever of 42 degrees. I was worried that I would die, so I got up and took a taxi to the hospital alone.

When I came home from get off work, I found that the water pipe in the kitchen had burst, the whole house was flooded, and half of the ceiling had collapsed. I went to the decoration market alone to find workers to repair it.

One night I was too tired to work overtime and fell asleep on the bus. I fell asleep at the terminal. I walked alone on the road for more than an hour before I got a taxi. When I got home, I opened the door. It was pitch black. Hearing the echo, my heart is empty, joy and sorrow can’t be shared, laughter and tears can’t be hugged, sometimes I think about this boyfriend, I’m here for him, why every time I need him not there?
Once I broke down, it seemed to be the anniversary of our relationship, we had an appointment to spend together, but he received a temporary notice to leave, and when he packed his luggage, I suddenly cried.

I know that he is career-minded, and I know that he can't help himself. I understand the reasons, but I feel wronged and want to cry.

He hugged me and let me cry, and when I finally stopped crying, he suddenly said, if you are really in such pain, then let's break up.

His tone was very calm.

It was strange, but at that moment I was also very calm, wiped away my tears and said yes.

He quickly helped me repay one year's rent and moved away his belongings.

That's how we broke up.

Two months later, when Hao Wuyi heard that he had broken up with me, he was so angry that he rushed to find him. He wanted to beat him up, but he almost didn't recognize him when he saw him. He was as haggard as a walking dead.

Hao Wuyi came back and told me, make up, he is reluctant to let you be wronged, he really loves you so much.

My brother gave him an idea, saying that my sister is soft-hearted, you can just find an excuse to send her a text message, and you will make up after a while.

He finally sent me a text message: "I wanted to remind you to add more clothes when it's cold, but...damn, it's been sunny for a week."

I looked at the text message and cried and laughed.

Later he told me that on the night we broke up, he moved his things and smoked on the side of the road, choking his face with tears and snot, feeling useless for the first time in his life.In the past when we got along, he has always been the strong side. At that moment, I suddenly realized that everyone is equal in love. It turned out that he would also be unconfident, afraid, weak, cautious, and didn’t know how to love someone. people.

I think that love may not be led by whoever, but that both parties grow together to achieve peace of mind and freedom. If we say that love is the desire to share the good together, then love is willing to bear the bad together.

I know this road is very long, but fortunately, a lifetime is very long, I want to walk slowly with him.

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Once they had a company dinner and he got drunk.I received a call from his colleague in the middle of the night, asking me to pick him up, saying that this guy was drunk and would not leave without saying anything, and wanted a wife with the bottle.

I couldn't laugh or cry, I changed my clothes and hurried away.

On the way back I was driving, and he sat in the co-pilot, looking at me with bright eyes.He is very cute when he is drunk, like a child, he can answer whatever he asks.

I teased him: "Who are you?"

"XX!" He answered his name very loudly.

"Then who am I?"

"Sophie Marceau!"

Huh? Student F, is your mind still on the earth?

"How could Sophie Marceau come to pick you up and give you another chance, who am I?"

"Audrey Hepburn!" he replied with a smirk.

I had to follow him, "Who is more beautiful, Sophie Marceau or Audrey Hepburn?"

He shook his head vigorously, "Not even pretty!"

"Then who is beautiful?"

"My wife!"

"Who is your wife?"

"Joe one!"

It turned out that I was not drunk after walking around for a long time.

When I got home, I asked him to take a bath, but he refused to go, hugged me and called, "wife."

After hugging for a long time, he suddenly said emotionally: "I have to treat you better."

I asked why, and he said, "You little girl, you left your hometown and came here to suffer, all because of me."

I am very happy, saying that I am a little girl, and now when I go out and meet children, everyone calls me auntie.

He was speechless: "Shouldn't ordinary people be moved by the second half of the sentence?" After thinking for a while, he said, "Yes, my wife is just extraordinary."

I laugh out loud.

In fact, I never felt like I was uprooted.It was hard work to say the least. When I first came to Beijing, I shared a room with someone and shared bathroom and kitchen.At that time, my biggest wish was to have an independent bathroom. If I could have a bath in a bathtub, it would be a luxurious enjoyment, and my whole life would be complete.

At that time Mr. F and I lived at the two ends of the Beijing city. Every day after work, I squeezed the subway to find him. He usually worked overtime until very late, and we ate downstairs.There is an aunt downstairs in their company who sells very delicious mala tang. He forbids me to eat it, saying it is unhygienic. He always insists a little bit stubbornly. I had no choice but to compromise.

We were just starting out, and we didn't have much money. When Mr. F first entered the workplace, he was cheated miserably. He believed in the wrong person. He was almost pulled into the blacklist in the industry and owed some debts. He was really desperate. He could only find his father. Called to his account. Mr. F said that at that time, he felt very ashamed when he saw his father's text message that the money transfer was successful.

His life has always been smooth and smooth, and he has not suffered any blows. At that time, he was a little bit depressed. He was often in a daze alone for several hours. He suffered from insomnia every night. Work and hardly sleep.

Later he told me that if I hadn't come to Beijing suddenly, he didn't know how long this state would last.

I am very fortunate to have been with him through the most difficult period.I didn't know he was in this condition before I came, if I knew, I would definitely come to him earlier.

What impressed me deeply was that once when we were visiting IKEA, he saw a desk lamp, 799, which was a bit extravagant for us at the time, so he reluctantly left.The first thing I did after I was paid that month was to buy a desk lamp and give it to him.I told him, "I believe that all the crises you and I have to go through in life now - no money, great pressure, frustration... Everyone will have this period. You don't need to worry, take your time, the worst is I will support you .”

Later, we moved several times, and we kept this desk lamp with us.

I asked him a while back, "Did I say anything that really stuck with you?"

He said, "It should be you who said you raised me."

"Are you touched?"

He said, "No, I was so angry that I didn't fall asleep all night."

"why?"

"If you want to raise you, I must raise you. You are not allowed to say such things in the future."

Sometimes I really can't grasp his temper.

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I got up early this weekend and went to the supermarket near my home to buy things. When I left, there were dark clouds and it seemed that it was going to rain. I was lucky and thought that I would not get drenched if I went and returned soon. I don’t like the habit of carrying an umbrella. It hasn't changed until now.

I quickly bought something and prepared to go home, but when I came out, it was hit by pouring rain. After waiting for a long time, it still didn't stop, so I had to call him.He was still asleep when I left.

"Are you awake?"

"What?" He didn't wake up when he heard the voice.

"I didn't bring an umbrella. Carrefour picked me up. It's raining outside."

He muttered a word and hung up before remembering.

I stood waiting for him at the entrance of the supermarket, watching the rain gradually diminish, and regretting waking him up, I should let him sleep more.

I suddenly remembered that it was also a rainy day in the third year of high school. I didn't bring an umbrella and stood at the school gate to hide from the rain.During that time, my relationship with him seemed to be very awkward. People always teased him as my "gossip boyfriend". I was introverted, and every time I was teased, I was terribly embarrassed. I didn't know what to do, so I had to try to avoid him.He should also feel that I was avoiding him, and didn't take the initiative to talk to me again.

That day when I was standing under the eaves, I saw him and a group of boys from the science class coming out of the school, I quickly lowered my head and pretended not to see him.

A group of them walked past me in a mighty way, and he walked on the edge closest to me without saying hello to me.

When they were far away, I stood where I was, looking at his back, feeling a little melancholy in my heart, I couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was, as if I hoped that something would happen, and it seemed that I hoped that nothing would happen.

I just watched his back go farther and farther, then stopped suddenly, turned around, and quickly ran back in front of me. Amidst the booing of a group of boys, he stuffed the umbrella into my hand involuntarily, turned around and rushed into the rain.

Still nothing.

In my memory, he was always silent when he was a boy, and the scenes of our getting along were like scenes of quiet mime.He didn't say anything, but I could feel his presence, just like a floor lamp that doesn't need to worry about sudden power failure, it steadily illuminates everything.

Not long after I waited at the entrance of the supermarket, he came, honked the horn at me, and talked on the phone while reversing the car.

When I was happy, I ran towards him in the rain.He made a "go back" gesture to me in the car, and I obediently retreated to the eaves.

He got out of the car and walked towards me holding an umbrella.

He walked up to me and hung up the phone in a hurry. I thought he was going to teach me a lesson and didn't bring an umbrella, but he said, "Why didn't you wake me up to be with you?"

"It's a rare weekend, I want you to sleep more."

I kept staring at him on the way back, and he wondered, "Why? I didn't even wash my face."

"It's strange. I used to think you looked good in suits and leather shoes, but now you look handsome in pajamas without combing your face or washing your face."

He was so happy, "Your husband looks handsome no matter how he dresses up."

Suddenly I said, "I love you."

He froze for a moment, "What?"

"It's nothing, I just wanted to tell you suddenly."

The traffic has been stuck on the road for a long time, and Beijing is always stuck in traffic. The air here is not good, the city is too big, and the crowds are crowded. I have 1 reasons not to like this place, but the person I love is here, so I will settle here Home.Love allows us to get rid of the youthful edges and corners of our bodies, go through the turbulent crowd, and embrace each other with the tenderest and hottest love. I know that everything in this world is fickle, but to be honest, this person in front of me makes me believe forever.

(End of this chapter)