Night Emperor Crazy Concubine

Chapter 553 Mrs. Yun’s Heart Knot 6
Why do you want to save me?

Why... don't you just let me die peacefully like this?

What's the point of being alive?
Do you want her to live in loneliness and painful confession all her life?But even if it's a confession... who is willing to listen?
Anyone willing to listen?
No one is willing, she committed her own crimes, and she should enjoy the bitter fruit of being alone for a lifetime, but if she can't bear it anymore... so what?
So what?

In the second half of her life, she didn't have the courage to try, the pain that was almost suffocating, decades...not to mention decades, in just half a year, she was already afraid, and she couldn't stand it anymore, this kind of loneliness It's too scary, like a bottomless dark abyss...

"Mother...mother." Yun Tingyu bit her lip and knelt down beside the bed, her gentle and respectful voice trembled slightly, "Mother, I never blamed you. These days, I... have a clear mind, Mother probably knows something, but I don’t know what to say about a lot of things. Those things that happened before were originally not Mother’s fault... Mother is a victim..."

victim?
No, she is not a victim, she is a stupid woman whose mind is blinded by her own darkness, and she is treated as a pawn without knowing it.

Silent tears wet her cheeks, Mrs. Yun's heart was filled with overwhelming emotions, she clenched her teeth so that she could not let herself burst into tears, just a little bit, just a little bit, she could no longer control herself suddenly out of control——

Daughter.

She had been looking forward to it in her heart for a long time, and finally she was looking forward to this less alienated title...

"Wan Xin." Yun Xiang's gaze was fixed on her face full of sadness and tears, and his voice was full of remorse and self-blame, "I'm sorry, these days... I neglected you, I'm sorry."

Mrs. Yun did not speak, she looked at the curtain inside through her tearful eyes, her vision was blurred but the water marks on the curtain could no longer be seen clearly.

Yun Xiang pursed his lips, his face pale, and he looked at Mrs. Yun quietly.

Sorrowful, desolate, sad... The room slowly fell into silence.

Yun Tingfeng stood aside stiffly, looking out of the window with unfocused eyes, his eyes were barren.

In everyone's heart, there seems to be a small boat floating on the sea, which is beaten by wind and waves, making people hesitate.

After an unknown amount of time, Mrs. Yun turned her head slightly, looking at the ceiling directly above her eyes, her hoarse voice slowly sounded, with a kind of settled desolation, "I feel that I have already lived without face in the world."

"Mother." Yun Tingyu's face changed, and his voice was panicked, "What did mother say? What happened before is not your fault at all..."

"Whose fault is that?" Madam Yun asked back, her tone indifferent, as if she was asking a question that had nothing to do with her, "Whether it's the demon who spun a lie to deceive me, or Concubine Shu who participated in this plan, They are all dead, it’s all over, but what about me? My love is lost, my family relationship is weak, I have become so ugly, I have become no longer like myself... I don’t dare to think about it, it’s been 30 years What have I done in those years?"

"30 years... My own son has been tortured by my mother for 30 years..."

The voice gradually became trembling, and the pretended calm completely collapsed. The trembling and crying voice was almost out of tune, "How many 30 years are there in my life? I dare not think... I dare not think about what I have done, Every time I think about it, it's a long torture... But how can I not think about it? This eerily quiet room is empty and devoid of people. Apart from thinking about it, I think about it over and over again. What else can I do? What else can I do? What……"

"I want to find someone to tell, I want to find someone to repent, even if I lose my life, even if I die like this, it's better than me being alone all day and all night..."

Thinking about it all day and all night, and then day after day, I was driven crazy by endless regret and torture.

Every time everyone sits in front of the window, those 30 years of the past, like maggots on the tarsus, keep reappearing in their minds and reverberating. Those pictures that make her heartache and make her feel regretful are tortured day and night... …

"Mother." Yun Tingyu stretched out his hand to hold her trembling hand, his face turned pale, his eyes sparkled with crystal water, his voice choked up, "Mother, don't say any more, I really don't blame you, really... I'm sorry, I should have told you these words a long time ago, I'm sorry...it's my fault, it's my fault..."

Madam Yun shook her head, closed her eyes, and let the tears wet the pillows on both sides.

Ting Yu, how could it be your fault?
You are so gentle and sensible, you have been submissive for a long time, you have hidden secrets in your heart, you have unspeakable sufferings, you are restless day and night, but you still have to bear the constant harshness of your mother, and you can't resist at all... How is it your fault?You are the real victim, how could it be your fault?
It's your mother's stupidity and ignorance that harmed you, causing you to suffer so many years of grievance...

Yun Tingyu took a deep breath, and comforted in a warm voice: "Mother, everything is over, mother, don't think about it anymore, okay? Tingyu finally resolved the rift in his heart with his mother, and he hasn't had time to enjoy his mother's love. Do you love me, do you want to leave your son and grandson behind and go to Huangquan alone? On the way to Huangquan, there is no grandson for you to hug..."

grandson?

Mrs. Yun was startled.

Yes, her daughter-in-law is pregnant, and she is about to have a grandson.

The joy of the family, she thought about the child's appearance after birth countless times in her heart, but even the fantasies about the family still couldn't erase the sadness and pain in her heart...

What about now?
God didn't take her life, did he want to give her a chance to make up for it?
With some hope faintly growing in her heart, she spoke softly. "Help me up."

Yun Tingyu heard the words, hurriedly got up, carefully helped her up, took a pillow and put it on the back of the waist, let her lean on the head of the bed comfortably.

"Mother." Yun Tingyu took out the handkerchief and carefully wiped away the tears on her mother's face, "Everything is over, after tomorrow, mother should stop thinking about those things, okay?"

Madam Yun said indifferently: "I've already died once, and since I didn't succeed, naturally I won't die a second time."

The cloud listens to the rain and calms down.

That's not what he said.

However, since the mother can dispel the idea of ​​suicide, it is also a matter of gratitude for them.

"Ting Yu, I'm sorry." The belated apology was finally uttered. Mrs. Yun's face was translucently pale, she looked at her second son with distress, and she blamed herself, "I'm sorry."

(End of this chapter)