Pampering the sea

"I just don't believe in myself enough." Yan Zhan said in a deep voice, the rain slid down his tall and fair nose, and he lowered his head, letting the raindrops hit his head and face, "I know you are A very beautiful and loyal woman, but I don't know the weight of myself in your heart, you have never told me how you define me in your heart...so I will inevitably be surprised and disbelief. "

"I said if you won't die, will you go with Chu Zhiling? I'm not angry, because I got the antidote, you don't have to die, so I just want to ask your opinion, you can choose again, If you want to leave, I will send you away, no matter how the world changes, we are still friends, and this situation will not change."

Yan Zhan raised his head, his eyes shone faintly in the dark night, like twinkling stars.

Xin Yue took two steps back, his face was as pale as jade, and he said with trembling lips, "Yan Zhan, you are too kind to me."

"No need to say thank you."

"No," Xin Yue shook her head, her eyes were as clear as puddles of water, she trembled and took another two steps back, "I mean it's too good, it's beyond the scope of friends, there are already differences It's a normal feeling, do you understand what I'm saying?"

"So, so what?" Yan Zhan raised his head lightly, the misty rain and fog made him so handsome that he was unreal, he half closed his eyes, but looked at her seriously, without blinking, " Any questions?"

Yan Zhan's words were tantamount to admitting Xin Yue's question, Xin Yue shrank his pupils and replied loudly: "No!"

Now that she had noticed it, and now that she had started, Yan Zhan was ready to fight. He raised his burning eyes, looked at her in the heavy rain at night, and said word by word: "Why not? I like you , I want you to be my real wife, I don't want to just be friends with you, I want to fight for something..."

"No, I refuse." Xin Yue's eyes flashed with shock and darkness, before Yan Zhan finished speaking, she cut him off firmly, "Don't like me, Yan Zhan."

"But, I just like it, what can I do? When I see you laugh, I will unconsciously want to laugh. When I see you sad, I feel that it doesn't matter if I try everything to make you happy. I thought that you would not think about food and drink when you died. I, who is known for loyalty, would I want to do something rebellious to the emperor, knowing that you are leaving, I don’t feel it even if I stand here in the rain, because I’m already numb, I can’t lie to myself anymore, tell me, what can I do?”

Yan Zhan looked at her, traces of helplessness spread across his jade-like white face, and then settled into a wry smile on the corner of his lips.

"Don't... Yan Zhan..." Xin Yue sat on the ground with a bang, like a wounded little animal, and muttered in a low voice, "Don't like me, I... I'm too dirty, I'm still There are so many disgusting faces you haven't seen," the woman shook her head desperately, raindrops slid across her pretty face, her sharp chin was sharply curved, and she looked distressed, "I don't deserve you, I'm too Dirty, disgusting..."

"No, Xin Yue," Yan Zhan knelt down and took the thin woman into his arms, and said softly and in a low voice, "You are not dirty or disgusting, you are beautiful, and in my heart, you are flawless."

"Hehe." Time seemed to stand still, Xin Yue raised his head from Yan Zhan's arms, and laughed mockingly and bitterly, "Bai Bi flawless?"

"Don't laugh like that." Yan Zhan frowned distressedly.

"Haha, flawless white jade." Xin Yue repeated this sentence playfully, many images flashed in her mind, she smiled, and the raindrops hit her pale face, as if shed countless tears, " Do you know that I, who you thought was flawless, used to be entertained like a prostitute?"

Looking at Yan Zhan's shocked face, the smile on Xin Yue's face became more unrestrained: "It was also on such a heavy rainy night, do you know how that man insulted me? I once heard you ask the doctor who my child is Why not, did you know the reason in the end? Haha, he was killed, he played with my body countless times, in various poses, and then, was killed..."

With a bang, Yan Zhan sat on the ground, looking at Xin Yue with a cruel smile on his face in shock, too many emotions were rushing through his mind, as if he was about to explode.

"You despise me too, don't you? I'm really that dirty, right?" Xin Yue put away his mocking smile, raised his eyes, like small animals, shining brightly and looking timidly at the person in front of him. man.

Yan Zhan's heart tightened, his brows were wrinkled, and his lips were drawn into a straight line.

"That's right, I hate myself so much, why don't you hate me?" She seemed to understand something, muttering softly, like a child who suddenly realized, the raindrops hit her, her thin clothes She was all drenched, making her look so thin and fragile.

Yan Zhan frowned, grabbed Xin Yue, picked her up horizontally, walked to the corridor from the dark rainy night, and put her down carefully.

"what are you doing?"

Yan Zhan stretched out his hand to wrap around the girl's slender and soft waist, letting her cling to him. He didn't hesitate at all, his handsome face magnified infinitely in front of the girl's eyes, and he kissed her cold lips.

"Well..." Xin Yue didn't react for a while, his lips were pressed against hers, and the warm breath that was caught off guard invaded, and with a bang, Xin Yue's mind seemed to explode, and he only realized something in his mind. One thing, Yan Zhan was kissing her, he was kissing her...

She felt a burst of heartache for no reason, but stretched out her hand and pushed him away forcefully.

She looked at him angrily, wiped her mouth fiercely, shook her head and said, "I don't need sympathy, I don't need it." Now Xin Yue has turned into a hedgehog with thorns all over his body, trying to isolate everyone outer.

"You stupid woman." Yan Zhan was also a little angry, "Listen, I love you, I love you, can't you tell the difference between charity and love?"

After finishing speaking, he hugged Xin Yue's waist with one hand, and her cold left hand with the other, inserted five fingers into her, and kissed her again.

Xin Yue couldn't tell what it was like at all, she only felt a warmth and tranquility that never seemed to envelop her, Yan Zhan held her hand tightly from the beginning to the end, as if to give her strength, On a cold night with heavy rain, he kissed her under the rain-shielded corridor, and the world seemed to become so gentle and quiet, so quiet that one wanted to close one's eyes and fall asleep.

And in fact, she did.

"Xin Yue!"

The woman's hand slowly slipped from between the man's fingers, and she fell into the man's arms with her eyes tightly closed. There was a sick blush on Ruyu's skin, and a trace of blood spilled from the corner of her mouth.