Pampering the sea

She glanced at him expressionlessly, turned around and was about to leave when a man's voice sounded low behind her: "How long are you going to be angry with me?"

Xin Yue didn't answer, and went straight to the tatami, pulled up the quilt, and said softly: "When you go out, remember to turn off the lights and close the door."

A warm body suddenly slipped into the cold quilt, the man hugged Xin Yue's waist, and whispered: "I won't find other women."

Xin Yue frowned, and moved his body impatiently: "Whether you find someone else is up to you, you don't have to tell me, get out now."

"If time could start over again, I would never treat Xia Chuan Yizhi like that, and I would never treat you like that. You have ignored me for half a month. I have been thinking about it for a long time alone, and I know that I let you You are disappointed."

He stared at her: "I apologize to you. I suspected you on the grounds of suspicion. I was too narrow-minded. I didn't take your feelings into account. I should know that you are not an ordinary woman. I shouldn't use my own ideas. It should not be imposed on you, nor should it interfere with your normal interactions with others, nor should it be groundless and hurt you with vicious words."

The faint fragrance of osmanthus wafted in the air, lightly sprinkled on the nose, cold and soft.

His voice sounded softly and lowly:

"I solemnly apologize to you, can you give me another chance?"

It seemed that the wind had blown down a few tree branches outside, rustling like shallow water.

Xin Yue suddenly opened his eyes. Her eyes were clear and clear, but they were like a frozen ancient pool. He couldn't see any emotional ups and downs in them. After a long time, she opened her lips and said slowly: "It hurts a little." Once it is caused, it may be difficult to recover for a lifetime, if Xia Chuan dies, Chu Zhiling, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life."

Chu Zhiling opened his lips, but couldn't say a word.

"Do you think you can call the wind and call the rain, you are omnipotent, so everyone must listen to you? When you do something, you have to consider the possible consequences. Back then, I told you all the hard words, I I just hope to dissuade you, but you don't give me any life or sympathy, you must watch Xia Chuan commit suicide, you have to die to be reconciled, you know that I am very sad, but you still have to stick to yourself without hesitation Yes. You always come back to comfort me after making me sad, but never think about my feelings in advance, do you know that this really makes me feel bad?"

After saying this, Xin Yue turned around, turned his back to him, and closed his eyes.

Time passed slowly, the lights gradually went out, and the man stretched out his hand stiffly and put it on the girl's back.

The moonlight hit his hand, which was a little tragically white.

"If you want to leave, you can leave after giving birth. I won't stop you." His voice was a little hoarse, and his throat was choked when he spoke, "I will give you whatever you want."

The girl's back froze for a moment, and her brows unconsciously tightened. Soon, she returned to her usual calmness, as if she had never heard anything.

No one would know whether her heart was surging and full of emotions at the moment, or whether the clouds flew by without waves or traces like she showed.

"I betrayed you. You don't even want your life for me. You can let me escape at a critical moment. You are worried that I will feel guilty about the child, and you insist on giving me a child. Even if you know, Pregnancy again shortly after miscarriage will cause damage to my body, because considering my feelings, even if Meizi provokes you again and again, you never fight back against her. Many times, I have something to do outside, and I have to come back In the evening, you never asked questions, but silently prepared supper for me, I know it's not that you don't worry about me, but you just believe in me as you said."

"You are right. Once some injuries occur, they may not be able to recover for the rest of my life. I only think about my own happiness and anger. I take it for granted that as long as I spoil you, I will treat you well. Moreover, I am very selfish and domineering. Maybe I subconsciously thought that I have paid a lot to you, so you must be what I expect, you must listen to me, you must be docile and obedient, love me with all your heart, and you must not give emotion to others , even if it is friendship. It’s really strange how I have such an idea. Obviously you are a person with your own thinking, experience and way of doing things. How can I occupy you like this and try to interfere with you every move?"

"Before I met you, I never loved anyone, I didn't know how to love, I just thought, as long as I treat you well, as long as I pamper you, I love you. My family was gone when I was very young, They left my world like a gust of wind. No matter how I call them, they will never come back. Later, several friends who were born and died with me died in shipwreck. I was in great pain. At that time, I secretly told myself that my , I must firmly grasp it, and I must not let it go away. I also treat you with the same mentality, I firmly bind you, but I have not considered your feelings. You said that day, my love makes you Can't breathe."

"In the end, I'm sorry for you. I know you hate me. Staying by my side will only make you feel more uncomfortable. I also know that you love this child very much. For the rest of these days, you can stay at ease. Go ahead, eat well, sleep well, rest well, don't think about how to escape, you can leave after giving birth, and if you don't want to part with the child, you can also take it away." At this point, Chu Zhiling paused, speaking even more difficultly "You are a good girl, you should have your own world, you can go if you want, if one day, I mean if, you think of me, you decide to forgive me, come back to me and have a look ,I always."

His words, every word and every word, were sincere, his voice was hoarse like weeping, and Xin Yue's eyelashes trembled unconsciously when he heard it.

But she didn't speak, she kept silent, letting the cold autumn wind pass by the juniper trees outside, leaving only the rustling sound, like the distant water waves in the empty valley.

She just closed her eyes like that, kept them closed, and never opened them. She listened to the man's shallow breathing and the rustling of leaves outside the window, and was silent until dawn.

The next day, she was still flipping through the books, still had a poor appetite, ate very little, still walked around the court occasionally, and still dealt with the man who tried to care for her with a deadpan expression.

There were some faint bruises under her eyes, and she suffered from insomnia all night long. Because of the long-term injury, she coughed very badly, and her thin back was bent, like a hunched shrimp.