marrying a concubine

Zhou Fan was sitting in the gazebo in the backyard of the prime minister's mansion. The sky in late autumn was clear and the wind was cool and refreshing, but the young prime minister sat as if he was facing an enemy, as if he was thinking about incomprehensible life-long events.

It has been almost ten days since I got into a fight with Xiao Bai on the street that day.

Xiao Yu said that now he is like a young boy who just fell in love.

Xiao Yu asked, have you ever thought that you like her?

He never thought that on the way to Chishan City, he couldn't help kissing Xiaobai, and until now he can still clearly smell the fragrance in her nose, feel the softness and warmth on her lips, and hear clearly, From the sound of his heart pounding, he knew very well that he fell in love with Xiao Bai.

He didn't know when this relationship started, and by the time he realized it, he had already been deeply involved.

Maybe it was the moment when the little girl hugged his Xiaobai and looked at him innocently, or maybe it was the stubborn look on her face that she couldn't bear to let her parents leave, but maybe it was the hot tear, he couldn't count it all. up.

For so many years, he has been willing to be the prime minister, to advise her, to stabilize the world for her, what is he planning? If the queen of the daughter country is not Xiaobai, there will be no prime minister Zhou Fan in the court.

Before he realized that he liked Xiaobai, he had already done so much for her, but when this intention became clearer, he became more and more resistant, resisting himself to approach, but he couldn't control it, The two emotions were complicatedly intertwined in his heart, causing the always calm man to lose his composure. Xiao Bai was really his nemesis.

He likes to see Xiaobai laugh, and also likes to see Xiaobai angry. The lively Xiaobai is brighter than the flowers in the garden. He always makes her angry, because if this method is not used, there will be more things between them besides the government. what can i say

Everyone knows that the queen and the prime minister are at odds, but who knows why the prime minister always has trouble with the queen.

If he is just a loyal prime minister, if he is not so greedy, then he is willing to be a loyal minister who devotes himself to death, but he is greedy, and has unreasonable thoughts about her .

But there is such a gap between them that cannot be bridged.

Xiaobai is the queen, this status makes him yearn and at the same time deter him, Xiaobai's attitude is always so rebellious, always freezing his blood cold, countless times, he She wanted to yell out what was in her heart, but her hands and feet were frozen by her attitude, her eyes, and her indifference.

approach, repel...

longing, alienation...

Always looping like this, endlessly looping...

The first time he saw Xiaobai and Xu Mubai laughing at Yanyan, he felt it was very dazzling. It turned out that the little queen could laugh so heartily and relaxedly.

It's a pity that the man who made her laugh was not him!

He was very angry at the time, but even he had to admit afterwards that this kind of emotion is called jealousy!

A man of his age has already been the father of several children in Daughter Country. He has lived for 23 years. He has grown up so big. It is his first time to fall in love. For love, he is not practiced at all. He knows nothing, no If you know how to love, you can only be ignorant and love in his own way.

He was too proud, he couldn't say anything about being in love, let alone ask people, so he didn't know how to love, and the object of his love was a girl who was more proud and awkward than him.

The two always bumped into each other, and he always bumped into walls. In the end, the unspeakable love was hidden in the bottom of my heart, clumsily not wanting to be discovered, and always using fierce words to hide those who were not cherished by her, those who were not loved by her. She cares about feelings of shame.

Year after year like this... it seems to be getting farther and farther away...

Zhou Fan knew that maybe he was going in the wrong direction, the way he loved was wrong, but he was so proud that he couldn't let go of his self-esteem to ask people, and the object of his love would not tell him, you are wrong, you are wrong.

So I made mistakes again and again, getting farther and farther...

They were both too proud, so they ruined the relationship.

If in the process... she told him even once that he was wrong, then he would correct it.

Unfortunately, none!

So it's getting to the point where it's getting cooler.

Zhou Fan thought, maybe he should give up, but he couldn't do it. He was not so chic, and he gave up when he said it. After all, this thought has been too long, and it has become a habit for so long. Because it is as natural as air itself.

Can people live without air?

Zhou Fan remembered that he accompanied Xiaobai to watch the fireworks show last year on the Lantern Festival. That time she caught a cold, and the imperial doctor said to take a good rest, but she wanted to watch the fireworks show just for a while.After the palace banquet, he sneaked out with her, but he remembered that when he looked up at the splendor in the sky, when he called her, the burst of fireworks had already passed, and there was not even any residual warmth in the air...

The splendor is so fleeting.

A piece of ice cold.

Sadly, they were never brilliant.

Maybe their ending is like this, they are doomed long ago, and they can't always be synchronized.

But Zhou Fan was so paranoid that he couldn't say the word "give up". He agreed to reason, but not to his own heart, and has been bumping and bumping until today.

Xiao Yu said that day that love is not like this.

But she didn't tell him what it should look like, he really didn't understand it very well!

He wanted to know very much, but he was too proud to ask.

Holding his favorite scented tea, Xiao Yu looked at the lonely figure in the gazebo with a sigh. She fell in love with someone until the end of losing both. She had never seen it before, but she had never seen someone who was so completely hurt like Zhou Fan. Others have at least said it out, and they all know each other, but the two of them, she, an outsider, can see that Lang Youqingmei is interested, but the person involved doesn't know anything about it.

If you like someone, you shouldn't be so lonely!

Xiao Yu sat next to him with scented tea, the smell of vanilla wafted around, even the air was warm.

"Zhou Fan, why haven't I seen you staying in the study recently, why are you so absorbed in your thoughts?" Xiao Yu chuckled, and saw him sitting in the garden after a few days, if it was normal, he would have already buried his head in his work.

"Sit down as you want!" Zhou Fan replied lightly while drinking tea. This cold war between him and Xiaobai took longer than expected, because she almost took care of the official business, and that girl was just so angry, she didn't say a word , Working desperately, all civil and military officials were moved, their master is really diligent.

"I've known you for eight years." Xiao Yu smiled gently, "If I'm right, that person is the current emperor, right?"

Zhou Fan nodded.

It is indeed her!

Then he will have to suffer. In the final analysis, this matter is their problem, and it is inconvenient for her to intervene. The taste of love is like drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or not.

Whoever is not bumping into each other, sad and desperate, they all come all the way like this.

Especially for someone like him who falls in love for the first time, if he listens to others, how can he understand the pain and sweetness of love, and he has to explore it by himself.

Zhou Fan calmed down his emotions, glanced at Xiao Yu, "Xiao Han is looking for you!"

"Let him go!" Xiao Yu said calmly, drinking her scented tea with her head bowed, her voice didn't fluctuate much, and she couldn't hear any emotion.

The girl tilted her head to look at the sweet-scented osmanthus rain falling in the courtyard of Xiangfu, her smile was very light, as if she was talking about something unimportant, "Don't tell him where I am, or I will go where you can't find me." place."

Zhou Fan frowned in disapproval. They have been friends for many years. He knows Xiao Yu's temperament. Don't look at her gentle, hard-hearted, and more ruthless than men, but she and Xiao Han are not the answer, "You I have been hiding from him for two years, and he has also been looking for you for two years. Xiao Yu, do you know how many scammers come to your door to lie about the news after the missing person notices are posted? Go and make sure, you are hiding in that kind of place even if you are under his nose, even if he made a mistake, these two years are enough, don't torment him, but also torment yourself."

Xiao Yu smiled, "What does that have to do with me? I made it clear two years ago that I have never been strangers, so it's meaningless to keep pestering him. He can do whatever he wants? Xiao Han, don't you understand? ? After a while, it will fade away, who can restrain him? Why should I ask for it, besides, I am still his sister."

At the end of Xiao Yu's speech, even himself smiled wryly. Zhou Fan had nothing to say this time. What's strange is that when they fell in love, they didn't even know that they were related by blood, so a lot of right and wrong happened.

"Your mother has not confirmed that you are Xiao Han's daughter, maybe..."

"What does that matter?" Xiao Yu said casually, "My mother is dead, and I have nothing to do with the Xiao family. Zhou Fan, don't forget, if it wasn't for Xiao Han, my mother would not have died so early. If I had known earlier It would kill my mother. I shouldn't have agreed to accompany you to Qiushan in the first place. If it wasn't like this, I wouldn't have met Xiao Han, and I wouldn't have been known. My mother escaped from Xiao's house, and I wouldn't have hurt you Die my mother."

"It's Xiao Han's fault." Zhou Fan couldn't help but defend his friend.

Xiao Yu shook her head, "You know, this is an excuse I made for myself. In fact, the biggest reason is not like this. If I really want to be with him, it doesn't matter if he is my brother or not, and why did my mother die? I don't even care, but Zhou Fan, I can't forgive Xiao Han, not because of our blood relationship, not because of my mother's death, but because he made me despair of love, that's how I am, I loved him back then, Whether he wants to smash this heart or hold this heart, I have no regrets, but if he smashes it, then my love will expire, and it will be kept until I am 16. I will not take this for the second time Give a heart to a man who has been badly smashed, if he doesn't want it, then I will keep it for myself."

Xiao Yu spoke lightly, as if everything had passed away.

Zhou Fan couldn't help but sigh for them, Xiao Han was his good friend, and Xiao Yu was also his good friend, if it wasn't for him back then, Xiao Han and Xiao Yu wouldn't have known each other, wouldn't have loved each other, and Xiao Yu wouldn't have been discovered by Xiao Yang It turned out to be the daughter of the third wife who escaped, and all the grievances and grievances were due to his unintentional fault.

For Xiao Yu, he has always felt apologetic. In fact, Xiao Han really loves her so much that he can even ignore her being his own sister, but for Xiao Yu, this love came too late!

"Xiao Yu, I won't stop you whatever you want, but Xiao Han really loves you, and you know that his temperament is like that, and he is not a good man in his bones. If you want him to become a good man, at least you have to wait a while Wait...give him some time, and everyone can see that he has changed a lot in the past two years."

Xiao Yu didn't say anything, just watched the osmanthus rain falling one after another in a daze, Zhou Fan sighed, "Perhaps seeing the two of you go from loving each other to resenting, I'm so uncomfortable with love, I'm afraid I will end up like you in the end .”

Xiao Yu chuckled, "Don't make excuses for your awkwardness, love has thousands of forms, she is not me, and you are not Xiao Han!"