I'm going to wear this doormat and I won't keep you company anymore.

Chapter 63 My opponent is the Cowherd Finale

Seven days and seven nights passed.

Looking at Bai Qingxue who passed out again, he staggered a few steps toward her and fell to his knees unable to hold on.

The hand covering his abdomen was covered in blood.

For seven days, he deprived her of food, didn't allow her to sleep, didn't let her go to the toilet, and kept lighting poisonous fog, torturing her in a way that meant they would both die together.

Even when he took out his last weapon, a pick made of ice and lined it up on the ground, threatening her to lie down, she remained unmoved.

He really lay down.

When Yan Qinghan woke up again, his brain calmed down a lot.

He took another handful of medicine. This time, instead of hurting himself, he stood up and slapped her.

"You are not her!" Yan Qinghan glared angrily, "She is not as strong as you, and she will not leave me alone. Who are you? Are you also sent by my mother!"

"...What do you think?" Bai Qingxue looked sick, but her aura was particularly strong. "Isn't she just a toy for your giant baby to play with your mother? If the toy is broken, just replace it with another one."

"No... tell me where she is. If this continues, we will really die." Yan Qinghan gasped.

"I'm going to die. Seeing how useless you are, I might as well just die." Bai Qingxue sneered.

"...I am a coward." Confusion appeared in Yan Qinghan's eyes, "In order to get rid of her, I killed someone, I destroyed myself and my friends... I have tried my best!"

"With all due respect, you are no different now than a man who is bullied outside and goes home to beat his wife to vent his anger."

"I just want a promise from you. Why are you so cruel...?"

"I can no longer trust you. There are only three things. The first time you wanted to kill me, the second time you wanted me to disappear with Lue Meng's help, and the third time is now."

"I will never do it again...Besides, have you forgotten how much I hurt you in order to awaken your memory? It's the same now. Can't you feel my heartache?"

"I didn't ask you to harm yourself to save me. Besides, it was you who caused my illness in the first place. As for your heartache...should I feel it?" Bai Qingxue snorted coldly.

"You were so desperate before, but you just wanted to die in the hands of me, whom your mother despised most, so as to make your mother heartbroken. You didn't care about how I would live in the future after being contaminated by you. Now, you Do you want to talk about feelings with me?"

"Forgive me, Qingxue, forgive me again. I don't want to kill you. I have changed my mind now. If I had you, I would no longer be afraid of her, because I am more afraid of you..." Yan Qinghan said with a bitter smile. .

"It's too late. Ever since you kidnapped me without talking nicely, we're not even friends anymore."

"Don't be like this, Qingxue, I really like your current temperament. You are the person who understands me best in the world. We should be together."

"No, I will never forgive you. I want to be a thorn in your heart. In the future, when you talk to others about partners, you can remember that some mistakes must not be made."

After Bai Qingxue finished speaking, she lowered her head and breathed out.

"Qingxue...?"

"no no--!!"
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  According to Bai Gengxue's speculations, the whole story should be like this:
  Yan Qinghan suffered from mental problems due to excessive use of poisonous mist since childhood and his mother's oppression, but he didn't know it.

That night at the construction site, he brandished a knife at himself in front of the people sent by Lue Meng to kidnap Bai Qingxue.

After scaring away those people, he took possession of Bai Qingxue while she was unconscious, because this might be the only time in his life that he could embrace a woman with peace of mind and not be afraid of the opportunity for the other party to dislike his shame.

But the "sober" Yan Qinghan could not accept his fragility. He insisted that all this was forced by his mother. In his imagination, he was invincible.

So his memory was distorted into: he killed Bai Gengxue, and Bai Gengxue, who was seriously injured, misunderstood something.

The original body and the memory of his love were all erased by his obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Yan Qinghan was not ruthless enough to kill someone, but he had such ambition.

Between the drugs and his autosuggestive delusions, he transformed his dream into a human pig. The real Lu Meng was just scared away by his self-inflicted act. Bai Qingxue just followed his delusions and treated him like a normal person.

If she reveals this rashly, it will do no good except make him crazy... If she can't win his heart, the side mission will fail.

As for what will happen to Yan Qinghan in the future... it depends on his own choice.

First of all, he had to accept that his mother had an affair and his father would leave them.
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  "System? What are you hiding from? I can still hit you."

[System: ...Host, I cannot analyze curse words. 】

"...I'm sorry for what you said even if I didn't scold you. Don't you know how to remind me? My memory can't be trusted. You're kidding me."

[System: In order not to affect the host's game experience, I have tried my best. 】

"Not enough hints! Who would have thought that 'Lin Feiyu' was a warm man dreamed up by two mentally ill people? He didn't exist from the beginning?"

[System: This is not the host. You have been talking about not wanting a mistress, not having a fight with mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, but wanting to play with a handsome guy. Just tell me whether he is handsome or not. 】

"No, aren't there any normal handsome guys? Like Rong Xiao?"

As soon as Bai Qingxue finished speaking, she rolled her eyes to herself.

It's over, this person is really incomparable. I didn't expect that she would miss a pure villain like Rong Xiao.

It’s not that I haven’t found a man I like along the way, it’s just that it’s destined to be fruitless, so it’s better not to meet him.

Thinking about it this way, Rongxiao is just right, fun and flirty, and there is no burden if she dumps her... Well, she is not a scumbag! Only for scumbags.

...As a result, Yan Qinghan went crazy before he could even sleep. What a shame! It’s rare to meet someone with the same frequency!

[System: Haven’t you heard of it? The more handsome the villain, the higher his emotional intelligence. Naturally, the original person was even more miserable after being PUAed, and severe cognitive and memory problems would occur. You need to dig out the truth on your own, which is also a kind of fun. 】

"Hmph, it's a system as expected. Even if it's square, it's round. Hurry up and release the next mission."

[System: But host, I have analyzed your emotional disorder. Do you really want this memory fragment? 】

...but shut up! She was planning to give up on helping others!
  Bai Qingxue swallowed her breath angrily: "No, leave a suicide note for him for me."

[System (pleasantly): Received. 】
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  After Bai Qingxue's funeral, Yan Qinghan stayed at Bai Qingxue's old residence.

Bai Jingyu pushed in the door without saying hello as usual this day, and sighed as he looked at the motionless food on the table.

Looking at his garbage brother-in-law who was still lying on his sister's bed, he said to him without hope:

"My sister told me in a dream that she left a letter for you under her pillow. Can you see if it's there?"

Yan Qinghan stood up and found the letter.

"Yan Qinghan:

You are not omnipotent, so don’t always try to shoulder the fate of others. It's not your fault that your mother cheated on her and caused her unhappy marriage and your unhappy childhood.

Where there is an injustice, there is a debtor, so aim the blade at the person who is really responsible for your pain. Injuring yourself may feel good for a while, but it will never solve the problem. "

The letter paper got wet instantly. Yan Qinghan's hands were shaking. Had she known that they would reach this point...

"thanks, thanks."

　Hey, this chapter actually has 2222 words. It was published in advance to make up for the number of words. The charge for supplementing the number of words remains unchanged.

　　
  　
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