Live broadcast: My courtyard is a treasure chest

The end of September in Beijing actually doesn’t feel like autumn. It's not yet the time when ginkgo leaves turn into golden leaves and are sprinkled all over the streets, including the "Ginkgo Avenue" where Internet celebrities check in, and even make the surrounding area smell strange.

It also goes without saying that the red leaves of Xiangshan Mountain are only slightly mottled at present, and it is impossible to dye the whole mountain red...

I really want to say when did BJ cool down. Before going to college, Zhang Ruixuan might have said it was the day of the autumn sports meeting. Later, Zhang Ruixuan, who went to college, would only say one thing: the day when he suddenly caught a cold!
But the current BJ days are cold and hot and have little to do with Zhang Ruixuan. After all, in the past few months, Zhang Ruixuan has either been studying at home or traveling around the country, wanting to see the mountains and rivers that he once thought he didn't care about so much.

Maybe it's like what Zhang Ruixuan and Fa Xiao'er summed up: People only know how to cherish after losing something.

Although he has not lost anything in real life, just like Zhang Ruixuan will subconsciously stay away from the water now, everything he experienced in the simulator world left a deep mark on Zhang Ruixuan's heart.

So for Zhang Ruixuan during this period, he was either at home or wandering around the world.

It's finally time to catch up with the National Day. Zhang Ruixuan doesn't want to go out and be cheated out of money by a hotel that has doubled the price. He doesn't want to go to a place where all the people are looking at. This kind of thing has been inevitable in BJ since he was a child. too many times.

Just idle at home, Zhang Ruixuan, who should have been studying hard, has been very upset these two days: I have registered for the postgraduate examination, and I guess it will be good if I can get three hundred in the exam.

"You said you didn't plan to go anywhere, but now you're taking other exams?" Yesterday, Zhang's mother scolded Zhang Ruixuan again for his virtue, "You can't think about picking up all this for more than half a year, otherwise Do you think that what you have learned for so long has been in vain?"

"If you say that you just review this one time and plan to pass the exam directly, are you being fair to others?"

"If you are a genius that day, and you know how much you weigh, there is no need to force yourself to pass the exam in the first year!"

Mother Zhang's words are not adulterated at all. In fact, except for Zhang Ruixuan's own little "self-esteem" that is not worth mentioning, it can be called an enlightenment!
But Zhang Ruixuan still felt uncomfortable.

If the postgraduate entrance examination was more about saving face before, this time I really cared about it - I have no excuse to say that I missed success because I 'just gave it a try' or 'didn't try my best'.

What Zhang Ruixuan is even more worried about is whether he can still have the patience to continue if he has to take the postgraduate entrance examination three times again?

In addition, Zhang Ruixuan is also afraid that if he loses his enthusiasm for this matter one day after passing the exam, will he be really interested in this and become worse than himself because of his "hot head"? Young children taking a different life path as a result?

[My son has been thinking well recently: Brother, did you have these struggles when you were taking the postgraduate entrance examination? 】

[My son has been thinking well recently: The key is that I am worried about not being able to pass the exam, and I am also worried that if I pass the exam, I am also a parallel importer, which is of no use at all, and it will also affect someone else’s quota...]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: To be honest, I really don’t have one]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: Although I have worried about both of these, I have never worried about these two problems at the same time as you. To be honest, I don’t know how you did it]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: For me, before my first-exam results came out, I was always worried about whether my results were good enough and whether I would have to take the exam for another year after graduation]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: As for worrying about whether I have any value, it was because I saw people talking freely during the re-examination interview. As a result, I felt that I, the best one, actually got in with the first score in the re-examination. ...]

Zhang Ruixuan felt that he had every reason to doubt whether his child was simply in Versailles, but the only thing that comforted Zhang Ruixuan was: these confusions are common to every ordinary person.

In other words, Zhang Ruixuan does not need to deny his efforts during this period just because of the "confusion" at this moment.

【13:52】

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: In fact, I think you shouldn’t put too much pressure on yourself in many cases. You are interested in this now anyway... Besides, everything is the best arrangement]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: If you had passed the postgraduate entrance examination before, it wouldn’t be your turn to think about this major now]

Of course, what Fa Xiao'er said is reasonable, but in Zhang Ruixuan's view, these "fatalistic" comforts are still a bit illusory.

Putting down his phone, Zhang Ruixuan realized that he couldn't read any books in his current state.

I forced myself to read a short section and take notes, but then I went crazy because my handwriting was so unreadable.

I pulled my hair, trying to avoid the 'annoyance' of the clock hands by adjusting the music louder, but found that the music I usually used to focus on had also become a kind of noise.

I changed countless postures, playing songs, being absolutely quiet, changing a pen that I was more familiar with, changing to a brand new notebook, or simply changing the note-taking notebook to a tablet - everything worked, but for the longest time None lasted more than five minutes.

"Ah..." Zhang Ruixuan knew that if he continued like this, he would be unable to do anything except compete with himself today.

Zhang Ruixuan, who was helpless, finally decided to grab the mobile phone that he thought had the most impact on his study, chat with friends, and relieve his inner feelings.

【14:30】

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: Actually, I was thinking about it later, how can you be sure that you will have no value in the future? Since you can pass the exam, it means that you have this ability, whether it is due to luck or relying solely on your own strength]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: Don’t many scientific research projects rely on ‘luck’ to achieve the most critical breakthrough? Don't many things in life rely on a little bit of 'little luck' to turn the whole thing around? 】

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: As long as you want to do something, you don’t care whether it succeeds or not, whether you are useful or not, just do it first and then talk about it. Don’t hesitate and not put in all your energy when the time comes. Explain it to yourself. , you make excuses when others want to go]

[The eldest grandson that grandpa misses the most: To be honest, if I could figure this out earlier, I’m afraid I could go to a school that I’m more satisfied with when I’m in college. So as a friend, I don’t want you to regret it in the future. 】

Fa'er is indeed Fa'er, and I'm afraid he knows Zhang Ruixuan's thoughts better than Zhang Ruixuan himself. Under the premise that Zhang Ruixuan did not continue to say anything, the other party did not choose to end the topic, but sent several messages in succession.

【14:35】

[The eldest grandson who Grandpa misses the most: I guess you are struggling with yourself again now. I can understand it, but I think it is unnecessary. I hope you can calm down when you see me sending you these.】

After reading the last few messages that Fa Xiao'er sent to him, Zhang Ruixuan finally calmed down. He was not as distracted as before, but still a little confused. The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. Zhang Ruixuan knew that all his thoughts ultimately came from the 'fear of failure'. Although everyone always says: everyone fails.

But Zhang Ruixuan knows that his character has always been "three days fishing and two days drying nets". It is very good to be popular for such a long time...

Zhang Ruixuan must have signed up, but in the past few days after signing up, Zhang Ruixuan didn't pay much attention to his studies. He teased Mimi by himself, and rarely stayed online for three days in the game. .

As for Zhang's mother and Zhang's father, they have long been dissatisfied with Zhang Ruixuan's virtues. They also know that many people will come here to visit the museum during the National Day, so they have already gone to travel elsewhere - obviously without invitation The world of two people traveling together with Zhang Ruixuan.

And all this was just as Zhang's mother expected. The backstage was full of reservations in the past few days. Zhang Ruixuan watched groups of tourists coming and going. Finally, he couldn't stand the depressing atmosphere and left everything to the inside of the courtyard. With this smart tour guide, I can go out with my breasts in my arms...

After he actually left the house, Zhang Ruixuan began to be confused about where he should go - there were always people around him in the park at this time, and he was not in the mood to squeeze in with them in class!
As for other places, Zhang Ruixuan didn't know where to go.

When I was in school, I felt tired every day, and my exploration of this city where I was born and raised was obviously limited.

When he was not at school, Zhang Ruixuan stayed at home every day without going out...

"Mimi, maybe you know where Maomao will be?" Zhang Ruixuan felt that it would be best for him to see Ding Xuan now, so that the latter could always let him know what he should do in a few words like in the simulator. What.

"Meow meow……"

Zhang Ruixuan didn't know if it was his imagination, but he actually heard doubts and speechlessness in Mimi's tone!
"Okay, daddy is pointing at you!"

"Meow……"

Mimi is really speechless. As long as Mimi can speak human language now, I'm afraid there won't be any need for Ding Xuan. Mimi can just scold Zhang Ruixuan non-stop all afternoon.

"Mimi...but where should I find them?"

"You've seen Maomao, right?"

"Maomao also bullied you, don't you remember?"

"Yes, everyone has no memory. How can you, a cat, have..."

If Zhang Ruixuan is not holding a cat in his hand, someone must think that Zhang Ruixuan is mentally ill: Who is talking to himself here when he is fine?

"Mimi, you said I'm confused because I'm afraid that I won't be able to see her if I pass the exam, or I'm afraid that if I fail the exam, I'll never know whether she exists or not. Is there such a girl who does what she loves? Are you confused because you keep working hard, regardless of the results?"

"Mimi, if only you could talk... Whoever I tell these things to will think I'm sick!"

In fact, Zhang Ruixuan should be lucky that Mimi can't speak, otherwise Mimi would have been the first to say that Zhang Ruixuan was sick.

Even Zhang Rui quiet!
"Mimi, but I don't think I'm really doing it for her, but I really want to know what she would think of me wanting to take a graduate degree in this field."

"Do you think I became a monk halfway and am dishonest?"

"I still think I'm dreaming. She has worked hard for so many years to get into this place. How dare I get involved based on what I think is my love?"

"Or maybe she will be happy that she has changed a person under her influence?" Although only part of it came from the time he spent with Ding Xuan, Zhang Ruixuan himself added silently in his heart.

When he looked at Mimi again, Zhang Ruixuan found that Mimi had fallen asleep at some point, and obviously had no intention of responding to him at all.

"Tsk!"

Sitting quietly on a bench by the roadside, Zhang Ruixuan looked at the sky. From the corner of his eye, he could still see tourists coming and going across the street, hoping that no one would sit down next to him at this moment.

After a while, a tour group with a hundred people passed by, and the few tourists behind them took their seats on the benches by the roadside - Zhang Ruixuan's expectations just now were shattered. .

Stop chatting now, sit for a while and then leave quickly! Go see the exhibition you want to see! Zhang Ruixuan was thinking silently in his heart again...

"Everyone can take a rest, and then we can take a group photo here. It will just be able to take a photo of the Palace Museum behind. It is quite artistic." The tour guide's words completely broke Zhang Ruixuan's tranquility.

Now, Zhang Ruixuan has gone from sitting here to rest in the first place to becoming the one who gets in the way in the eyes of others!
"I..." With so many people around, I was extremely broken. Zhang Ruixuan, for the sake of his city's image, it was not even appropriate for him to spit out curse words.

Just the moment he stood up, Zhang Ruixuan seemed to have a new understanding of the saying 'the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment'.

Is this kind of hope that has not been given really hope? Rather than saying it is hope, it is better to call it a kind of extravagant hope.

After you pay for it, you have the final say on how much you weigh. When the time comes whether it will succeed or not, you will be disappointed, but you will also have new hope - whatever the difference is, you will make up for it.

Just like there are bound to be tourists near the famous scenic spots in the capital during the National Day, if you don’t hope, you just immerse yourself in the present, and there will be no disappointment...

Therefore, Zhang Ruixuan no longer 'hopes' whether he can be admitted to the graduate school this year, but just chooses to calm down and learn more knowledge for his own 'willingness'.

When he really gave up hope, looking at the postgraduate entrance examination questions that he became more and more comfortable with, Zhang Ruixuan knew: This is the real hope!
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Off-topic: The last chapter will be finished tomorrow. This chapter may be more realistic. The next chapter will have some intangible cultural heritage. Then we will see you in the next book~