After losing their memory, they all said she was my girlfriend

Chapter 145 True Sadness

Soon after, Liu Ai walked out of the wooden house.

The inside and outside of the wooden house were covered with Chen Li's spiritual power, and dirty things could not stick to it. When Chen Li left, he also arranged the furnishings in the house neatly, leaving no room for her to do anything.

But it's different outside.

After Chen Li left, due to Chen Li's order, no Jianzong disciples came to prune and clean the mountain, so a lot of weeds and wild trees grew on it.

Liu Ai took the knife and used it as a sickle, manually clearing the mountain top one step at a time.

For her, whose realm now far exceeds that of Jian Xin, but is still below the level of gods and humans, restoring the cleanliness of this mountain is just a matter of one blow.

But she didn't do that.

Because, after Chen Li passed away, simple things like cleaning up the weeds and restoring the cleanliness of the mountain became the meaning of her life, and she was unwilling to finish it too quickly.

She did not forget what Chen Li said to her before he died.

He told her to live well.

Although she said she wouldn't listen to him, it was just her habitual stubbornness after recovering her memory.

No one wants to die.

Even her.

Liu Ai knew that if she had not recovered her past life memories when Chen Li died, she would probably die with Chen Li on the spot.

That's because in this life, she has lived in hatred since she was a child, and uses hatred as the driving force of life.

Later, when she was ten years old, Chen Li broke into her life. From then on, in addition to revenge, her life also lived for Chen Li.

The revenge was successful, Chen Li died, and she no longer had the motivation to live.

But she is different now.

After her memory was restored, she knew that she was reborn in a second life and knew more about the preciousness of life. She also knew that Chen Li wanted to continue living from the bottom of his heart.

Whether it was out of human survival instinct or following Chen Li's last words, it seemed that she should live well.

As soon as this thought came out, Liu Ai suddenly felt guilty.

Because, since Chen Li's death, she has been unable to feel the sadness and cannot even cry for Chen Li.

"Have I... got used to it?"

……

Even though he cut one crop after another, Liu Ai still only took one morning to clear the hilltop.

"Then try living here."

she thinks.

At least, there are Chen Li and Jiang Xuantong here.

Although they couldn't speak and just stayed quietly, Liu Ai felt as if he was not alone.

……

The next day, Liu Ai started living alone according to his previous life trajectory in the Sword Sect.

Practice, rest, and cook.

Except for Chen Li and Jiang Xuantong, everything seemed to be back to before.

……

night.

Liu Ai stood in the sky.

Within the Sword Sect, some elders have returned.

In the city under the Jianzong Mountain Gate, people are also returning one after another.

The funeral for Chen Li is still going on, but people still have to live, and the place gradually begins to return to its former liveliness.

For some reason, Liu Ai suddenly wanted to go for a walk.

She hid her breath and walked down the mountain gate step by step.

She saw that although the faces of the people in the city were sad, as if they were mourning Chen Li's death, their eyes were filled with light that she had never seen before.

Because, on the day Chen Li died, the ghosts also came to an end. All the ghosts disappeared, and humans would no longer be infested by ghosts.

A new beginning in life begins, that is the light called hope.

However, looking at this scene, Liu Ai couldn't sympathize with them.

For some reason, her chest felt more and more heavy, and she felt unspeakably uncomfortable.

No one noticed that a petite and cute girl was walking on this street.

When she came to a certain store, she saw this familiar scene, and memories of the past suddenly appeared in her mind. "Besides practicing swordsmanship, is there anything else you like to do?"

"Has anyone told you that you are good-looking?"

"...You are the cutest girl I have ever seen."

The boy in the past would praise the girl he had just met without hesitation.

Because, in his previous life and this life, he was her brother.

Then, Liu Ai continued to walk, and more and more memories emerged.

Suddenly, she seemed to see Chen Li holding her hand, walking in front of her, taking her around the city.

She seemed to see Chen Li buying clothes for her, and even designing them himself because there was nothing he wanted in the store.

The concentration when painting her portrait is like practicing.

When I take her to eat street food, I always taste it for her and only give her the delicious ones.

Picking out girl's accessories for her, I couldn't help but laugh when she pretended not to like it even though she liked it, but she didn't reveal it.

He took her to a restaurant to create a new dish that no one in the world had ever made, just to treat her to a meal...

At the end, what Liu Ai recalled in her mind was that on the trail back to the sect, Chen Li said that he hoped she could be happy.

These are all ordinary little things.

But now, Liu Ai realized that she would never encounter these little things again.

The inner dam was finally broken down, and overwhelming sadness filled my heart.

On this street.

There were people around in twos and threes, their eyes full of expectations for the future.

Liu Ai stood there, tears streaming down her face, and she cried bitterly.

She trembled and knelt down, covering her face with her hands.

The concealment of the aura disappeared, and people around him immediately discovered Liu Ai squatting in the middle of the road crying.

Someone came up to comfort and ask questions.

Liu Ai could no longer hear it.

Her mind was filled with Chen Li's voice.

And that voice will never appear in reality again.

No one calls her cute anymore.

No one will paint her portrait, go shopping with her, take her shopping, make her laugh...

No one would take the trouble to nag her, just to prevent her from being blinded by hatred.

The encounter with Chen Li in Jimin Village, the training in the Jianzong Mountain Gate, the two people's life after the teacher turned into a ghost, after she became the ghost queen, she lived in plain seclusion in the deep valley forest...

Everything from the past came flooding in, suffocating her.

In the future life, one person will cultivate and eat alone.

I can only rest alone and look at the desolation around me.

Liu Ai didn't care about her image and cried uncontrollably.

When a friend, loved one or relative dies.

The real sadness is not attending their funeral.

But in the future daily life, I suddenly found that such a person was missing from my life.

That sense of discomfort and absurdity will stay with them for a long time, and only time can eliminate it.

However, Chen Li is too important to Liu Ai.

Chen Li's disappearance was like a never-ending heavy rain in her life.

The cold and biting rain will soak her life in the future.

That kind of coldness penetrates into the bone marrow, and nothing can warm it.