I am not mentally ill, I am the actor with a thousand faces!

Chapter 149, the moment of youth

Gao Yuanyuan said goodbye to Li Yun, and she had to go to the filming location.

The relationship between the two is still at a tacit level.

after all.

I am Li Yun.

I am not 'Song Qingshu'. Even though I am no different from 'Song Qingshu' physically, mentally, Song Qingshu has left long ago. Li Yun can clearly tell this.

I can't give her the dream of that infatuated senior brother on Wudang Mountain.

What can't be distinguished is Zhou Zhiruo and Gao Yuanyuan.

However, the relationship has not returned to the beginning, where it stopped at being colleagues.

she says.

If you have time, you can occasionally go out for a drink.

After drinking, I can also see you.

Li Yun said.

Ok.

when.

When I want to see Senior Brother Qingshu.

Just come to me.

At this time, Gao Yuanyuan smiled.

"thank you"

"Need not."

When Gao Yuanyuan turned around and left, she was a little confused.

Is it Song Qingshu that I want to see?

at this time.

Li Yun was walking on the street, looking for a cigarette.

Li Yun had the habit of smoking in his previous life, but he stopped smoking in this life.

After all, smoking hurts the body and the skin.

"Boss, here's a pack of Double Happiness"

"five yuan."

"okay."

"The prices are really different from those in later generations."

Li Yun looked at the Double Happiness cigarette in his hand. In later generations, this cigarette would cost 20 yuan, but now it still costs yuan.

Smoking a cigarette and having some wine, I am living a happy life. Play games, play on the computer, and read comics.

Go catch up with Wen Riliang's "God of War".

It seems like it’s almost finished, this comic.

Then I went to review and review, and auditioned for Erlang Xiansheng Zhenjun.

The feeling of Erlang Shen is based on the middle-aged scribe.

Find feelings from this personality who occasionally chats with you

Li Yun understood Erlang to be the true king of Xian Sheng, a noble god of heaven.

Gentle and elegant, but ruthless at the same time

There is also a kind of aloof divinity that can also connect with people.

The roles formed.

Among them, Li Yun felt that the most important thing was actually his divinity and the humanity wrapped in his divinity.

That kind of aloof attitude and temperament.

To perform a 'god' feeling.

But Erlang Shen in "Lotus Lantern" is contradictory. He has divinity, but he also has a human-driven side. This is also the most interesting part.

In fact, Erlang Shen was not perfect from the beginning. He was also fighting. Fighting from beginning to end.

The battle between oneself and oneself.

at this time.

Li Yun wanted to start from the perspective of a 'god-man'. It just so happened that the biggest characteristic of this middle-aged scribe was his divinity, which felt like something beyond the world of mortals.

After deciding on the direction of the audition, Li Yun returned home and planned to wash up.

While washing up in front of the mirror.

Li Yun looked at himself in the mirror.

He is the 'King of Nie'.

Blink and close your eyes.

It became 'Song Qingshu' again.

Then he became Cao Zhengchun, and then became the Fire Cloud Evil God.

"Didn't you say that my mental resistance was +5, and these 5 points were added to the dog's belly?"

Li Yun looked at the different changes in his face and temperament in the mirror.

Hallucinated.

Changes have occurred.

If it were anyone else, they would definitely collapse, go crazy, take medicine, and become depressed.

But Li Yun only felt that the system was not powerful enough.

Is it possible to incorporate this feeling into acting?

However, Li Yun still feels that he has never encountered such a truly crazy person’s acting skills.

"Well, remember this feeling and you can use it next time."

Li Yun looked at the various changes in the mirror, his eyebrows were cold and there was no fluctuation at all.

Until the person in the mirror becomes 'self'.

wrong.

not me'.

But Li Yun.

Li Yun, who was abandoned by his family and thrown into a welfare home, eventually lost his mother and didn't even know the identity of his living father.

"The person who loves me is gone, I have nothing, I have lost everything. I don't want to live anymore. I wear a mask and no one expects me. I don't even know that I can live the way who expects me."

"In fact, we are all the same, we are all alone. No one cares about you. What they like and care about is the mask you wear, not you."

In the mirror, Li Yun in his childhood was expressing his feelings with his immature face.

Li Yun watched the release of memories like a bystander.

The world is gray.

It's dark.

is empty. For him, this is what the world is like.

There is also unwillingness.

The people who should love him didn't love him.

People who shouldn't leave leave him.

All alone.

There is so much misfortune in the world. When that grain of dust falls on your shoulders, you realize how heavy it is. Although Li Yun can stand by and watch the memory of this body in the past, his past and everything about him can feel the same and be close to the bones. Soul, but I am still the drifter who traveled through time due to an unfortunate illness.

I can relate.

But 'I' is definitely just 'me'.

of course.

What he said was correct, that sentence made fun of himself.

If you love this thing, TMD will only appear when you are wearing a mask.

They only like roles or they like themselves who can play other roles.

Even Jiang Chenggang, didn't they become friends because of his acting talent? Otherwise, the relationship is still between fellow villagers, and the relationship between group leader and group actors.

Such sorrow.

There are still some

Still there

So much so that I can't tell the difference.

The person in the mirror, his changes, the characters he has become.

Characters who are loved by people

Thinking of this, Li Yun wanted to smoke.

At this time.

Suddenly the voice of QQ rang, and the sound of beeping.

Li Yun looked at the time clock hanging on the wall. It was already 23:11 in the evening.

In this era, QQ still has some integrity. At least it doesn’t bother people by popping up random ads. If it rings at such a time, someone is really looking for it.

It's very late now.

Who else will send messages?

Li Yun was a little confused, got up and returned to his computer.

But when I saw it, I was stunned. That cartoon cat avatar.

It's Liu Qianqian's information.

"Brother Li, Brother Li! Why don't we go together on New Year's Eve this year? I have fireworks here to watch. I have been studying and practicing martial arts for the past two months, and I have no time to work on the computer. (*^-^)"

Li Ge

at this time.

Li Yun replied with a message.

"Great!!!~ (Mao Maotou) Then why don't we buy fireworks ourselves? The feeling of setting them off ourselves is definitely better than watching others play."

"Ah, is that okay?"

For Liu Qianqian, secretly dating people to watch fireworks is already forbidden by her mother, let alone setting off fireworks.

At this time, the girl wrapped in bear pajamas was even a little hesitant.

Until Li Yun continued.

"Okay, I'm a reliable adult and can buy fireworks."

"(Uh-huh)!!"

In this era, fireworks have not yet been banned, they can be seen everywhere, and can be set off anywhere - of course, they cannot cause trouble, and they will still be held responsible.

Although with the development of the times, this thing will still be swept into the corner.

But at least, you can experience the beauty of this moment now. You can bloom it with your own hands.

It can be.

See you again

I agreed to Liu Qianqian’s invitation to set off fireworks together.

Li Yun turned around again, and the world in front of him was different. Everything in the perspective had changed back to colorful tones, and the originally gray-toned bathroom became a little colorful.

Fire Cloud Evil God, Cao Zhengchun, and Song Qingshu no longer appeared in the mirror.

just me.

Only Li Yun.

Li Yun was stunned

Laughed

The cigarette that was originally used to soothe my sorrows was thrown into the trash can... Well, it can't be wasted. It can be returned unopened anyway.

But five dollars!

"Cigarettes are harmful to people, so you should continue to quit. Go to sleep and prepare for the audition for Erlang Shen. But you have to continue to treat your illness and continue to develop."

The next day, Li Yun took a long nap. His sleep had not been very comfortable and good for the past few days. Today, he had not exercised for a long time and had a good nap.

Li Yun was ready to audition for Erlang Xiansheng Zhenjun, Erlang Shen in "Lotus Lantern". The audition took place in the capital.

The benefits of being in the capital are really visible and tangible.

Many film crews have their auditions in the capital. For example, "Lotus Lantern" is a production of the Central Circle, so the location of the auditions must be in the capital.

At this time, Li Yun continued to look at the mirror. There was only his handsome face in the mirror, but he still murmured.

"I know that I am being influenced by you. I have become fond of eating beef and steamed buns. But I am not afraid of you. I will only continue to use you in my acting career and send you away. In the end, I will also Remember, I am Li Yun."

"besides."

"If you are confused about who your biological father is, then I think if I have time, I will help you pay attention. After all, we are in this entertainment circle, and if he is making movies, he will be Encountered, the circle is only so big, and the entire entertainment circle only has so many people. Of course, if your father is a gangster in the film industry, then I have nothing to say."

"You become an actor or a drifter, maybe because you want to find your father, get closer to your family, and get your father's approval. This is not a wrong thing. It is definitely not a wrong thing to desire the approval of your family. But there is one sentence that I I need to explain something to you again."

"My obsession with being an actor is that I want to become a dazzling actor with a thousand faces. I want to cure my illness and get better from my mental illness. I want to reach the peak of my life. I want to know more people and know better people." I have no other obsession with your non-existent family affection."

Li Yun still solemnly distinguished the difference between 'I' and 'me': how do I live, how do I die, how do I travel through time, and how do I implement my dreams.

These are all in the deep memory, in the memory of the living 'I'.

"I can help you, but that's just helping you."

Then Li Yun turned around and left

Not long after he left the bathroom door, he went back and looked in the mirror.

"If he is really the rotten person I think he is, if I have a chance, I will punch him in the face for you."

"I don't have any psychological burden. After all, it's your father, not mine."

(End of this chapter)