Yijuan cloud

Chapter 283 It turns out that I like him

Li Wa looked at the oncoming person and whispered: "My boss, who are those ladies? Do you know her?"

I shook my head and said, "I don't know."

But I was secretly suspicious.

The woman was wearing a lake blue silk shirt, her hair was pulled low, and she looked like a Central Plains person.

She has obviously been waiting for me here for a long time. Does she recognize me?So who could she be?
At this time, a thought suddenly popped out of my mind: She is Brother Fan's wife!
I only know Brother Fan in Nanzhao, and the only high-status Central Plains woman in Nanzhao who may know me is Mrs. Fan.

What does she know about me?Does she know about the entanglements between me and the palace?
The already depressed mood now added a layer of worry.

Livati ​​immediately took a few steps forward and shouted: "Which friend is blocking the road ahead? Please tell me your name!"

The lady stopped, whispered a few words to the maid beside her, and then continued walking towards us alone.

Her maid looked extremely worried, but she still turned back in three steps and walked back to the carriage.

Li Wa looked back at me in confusion.

I whispered: "You stay here and don't move. I'll go over and talk to her." After saying that, I got off my horse and walked straight towards the lady.

In a short while, I was standing face to face with her.

Separated by a gauze curtain, I raised my fists and saluted, "I dare to ask, madam, but are you looking for Xiao Ke?"

She had a round face, a bright forehead, and round eyes. She blessed me and said softly: "I'm sorry to bother you, but please don't blame me, girl. My name is Qing Hui, and General Fan is my husband-in-law." "

I was startled for a moment, not expecting her to be so direct, so I immediately opened the gauze curtain, greeted her, and said with a smile, "Hello, Mrs. Sister-in-law."

After saying that, he looked at her quietly, waiting for her to explain her purpose.

She looked at me deeply, then lowered her eyes and said, "The girl is indeed a rare and wonderful person. I wonder what your name is?"

Doesn’t she still know who I am?
I ran through a few thoughts in my mind, then smiled and said, "My surname is Zhao."

After hearing what I said, she didn't have any reaction, she just nodded gently.

"It turns out that the girl's surname is Zhao. Please forgive Qing Hui's abruptness, Miss Zhao. Seeing that the girl is so cheerful today, Qing Hui will speak out if she has anything to say."

"Sister-in-law, please tell me."

"May I ask Miss Zhao if she has a marriage contract?"

I was stunned and forced a smile: "Not yet."

She pursed her lips and smiled, looking up at me: "Qing Hui doesn't know what the girl feels about the general, but Qing Hui knows that the general always thinks of a girl."

The sun shone into her round eyes, and there was a faint light flickering.

I suppressed a smile and listened attentively.

"At first, I thought that the general was disabled and was sent to this barbaric land. His official career was unsuccessful, so he was depressed and had no interest in anything in the world. But then I accidentally discovered that, No. When the general read the girl’s letter, his face was full of tenderness. That’s when I realized that the general could still smile.”

She smiled shyly and added: "Don't worry, Miss Zhao, I have never seen a letter between you and the general. But once, the general fell ill and was bedridden with a fever. During this time, someone came to visit him. General. That man comes often. I know he is the one who delivers tea to the general. He brought a can of tea that day and said he wanted to see the general, but the general was ill and could not see guests, so I took the tea."

"It rained continuously for the past few days, and I was afraid that the tea leaves would get damp, so I thought of putting oiled paper inside, as I didn't want there to be a letter inside."

She lowered her eyes and said with a smile: "There are only a few words on the envelope. Brother Fan signed it personally. The handwriting is beautiful and it is a very sophisticated and elegant regular script. At that time, I thought that she must be a young lady from a scholarly family. Today I When I saw her, I felt that the girl was otherworldly and heroic. No wonder the general treated the girl differently. After that, I knew that there was a person in the world that the general liked. "

It turned out to be the case.

She didn't know my identity.

Also, when I left the palace, I was still a common woman and was not known to outsiders.

When I arrived in northern Xinjiang, I became anonymous. Except for a few people close to me, who would know my true identity?

In this way, I breathed a sigh of relief, calmed down my mixed thoughts, and said loudly: "I'm afraid Madam-in-law has misunderstood. Brother Fan and I are just sworn brothers and sisters. As for Madam-in-law saying that Brother Fan is strict and in a bad mood, as far as I know, Brother Fan has always been serious, and he has encountered changes in his life, so he will inevitably feel depressed."

Qing Hui thought for a while, shook her head, and suddenly leaned down towards me.

I quickly helped her up, and she held my wrist, looked at me expectantly, and said, "Does Miss Zhao only regard the general as a foster brother? The general likes girls. Since Qing Hui has offended the girl, she also Let’s be honest. If a girl also has a general in her heart, would she be willing to marry him? If the girl is willing, Qinghui is willing to be equal to the girl, regardless of size. From now on, the girl will also be the general’s wife..."

I brushed her hand away, took two steps away, put my hands behind my back and said, "What Madam-in-law said is nonsense. Madam-in-law, please go back. I just pretend I haven't seen you today."

She walked up to me again, with an anxious look on her face, and said, "Girl, is it because of me? Qing Hui is helpless. The general and I were married by the emperor, and it is difficult to change it. If not for this, I would rather respect the girl and live in the girl's place." Below. Girl?”

I didn't expect that Brother Fan's wife would say such a thing. I just thought it was unbelievable and completely ridiculous. I didn't know what to do with her.

I looked up at the large clouds on the horizon.

Thinking back to when she had just woken up and suddenly heard Linghua mentioning the news that Fan Li was married, she felt inexplicably sad and felt like she was being eroded by numb sadness in her heart when she thought of Fan Li.

What about now?Thinking about it, it still feels inexplicably sour, like a healed scar.

But when did the scar occur?
How come I don’t know when I had such a scar in my heart?
All I know is that my mother is dead, Xing'er is dead, brother Junlei is dead, and Liang Xianyi and I have severed all ties... too many.Along the way, I don’t know how many things have happened, how many times I have been hurt, and the vicissitudes of life have been great.

Only for Fan Li, I don't know where this sadness comes from.

"Miss Zhao, do you know how the general lives his life every day? When you see him this time, don't you think he is decadent? That's because when he knew you were coming, he hurriedly changed his clothes and shaved his beard. It looks like Just like a human being."

She choked on her words, with a string of tears hanging on her face, and looked at me with tearful eyes: "To be honest, the general and I... have been married for many years, but we are strangers and have never even spoken to each other..." General, I haven't had sex yet...I don't care. Miss Zhao, I'm worried about the general."

"He would often remain silent all day and night, locking himself in his study, not eating, and only drinking heavily. Even when he went out, he would ride around on horseback, drink in the wilderness, and sleep on the ground when he was drunk... …”

"Miss Zhao, are you really going to leave like this?"

I was extremely shocked and flustered for a moment.

Thinking of meeting Fan Li this time, although he was still tall and strong, he was much thinner than before.

I also remembered what the shopkeeper at the farmhouse restaurant on the edge of Erhai Lake said, saying that it was rare to see Fan Li smile...

Could it be that Brother Fan has experienced countless changes and is so discouraged?

I felt sad in my heart, knowing that Fan Li had a strong and stubborn temperament. He had personally experienced the change of imperial power, and also knew the cause of his best friend's death.

The original belief of "loyalty to the emperor and servant of the master" has collapsed. He was originally dissatisfied with the current emperor. He was passively ignoring the royal marriage given to him, and his life was like a zombie.

And the dignified and beautiful woman in front of me is also a completely pitiful person.

She thinks about Brother Fan like this, and she must like him in her heart. I can't get along with Brother Fan anymore.

After thinking about this, I said warmly: "Sister-in-law, I know you are worried about Brother Fan, but what you said is really impossible. Although Brother Fan and I are in love and can talk to each other, it is only because we have known each other for a long time. , because they have been brothers and sisters since long ago."

"Although Brother Fan is serious, he is not hard-hearted. Sister-in-law might as well be more patient. As time goes by, she will naturally become more friendly."

After saying goodbye to Brother Fan's wife, Li Wa and I rode horses one behind the other and continued on our way quickly.

In official circles, there is no one else but the two of us.

In the woods on both sides of the road, the sound of birdsong is endless.

The weather is very hot, and the wind blowing is hot.

I was sweating all over, and I could feel my underwear getting wet on my back.

I was so hot that I stopped my horse suddenly and walked towards the woods on the side.

After Li Wa tied up the horse, he spread a blanket on the ground for me to sit on.

I raised my head and drank two sips of tea, stared blankly at the weeds on the ground, and blurted out: "Bring my horse here."

I rode back to Nanzhao alone.

After leading the horse for a long walk in the streets, he gradually calmed down, then got on the horse and planned to leave.

After leaving the town, two miles further is the seaside.

I thought about it and decided to go over and take a look.

I can’t explain why, but it seems that if I no longer look at the sea, there is always something I can’t let go of.The mid-afternoon sunshine is as gentle as a woman's veil, the sea surface is sparkling, clouds float low on the sea surface, the tree trunks are as black as ink, and the branches and leaves are reflected in the blue sky like meticulous paintings.

I tied the horse to the shore and walked slowly towards the sea.

Two days ago, Fan Li and I fed seagulls here.

At this moment, those seagulls flew away to no one knows where, not even one could be seen.

I stared at the beautiful scenery in front of me for a while, sighed, turned around and left.

When he turned around, he saw Fan Li sitting motionless under the largest tree with his head lowered.

My heart was beating so fast that I froze for a moment and then hurried over.

As soon as he got close to Fan Li, the smell of alcohol hit his nostrils.

He was drunk again.

I knelt down and called out in a low voice: "Brother Fan?"

Fan Li, who had always been vigilant and guarded, showed no reaction at all.

I saw that he was still holding the wine bottle in his hand and wanted to take it away. As soon as he moved the wine bottle, Fan Li slowly raised his head.

He was drunk and hazy, and his eyes were misty, like a layer of water vapor that always lingered above the Erhai Lake.

He just looked straight at me, but didn't seem to see me at all.

"Brother Fan?" I called him again, stretched out my hand and waved it in front of his eyes.

Before I could take my hand back, my wrist was suddenly grabbed by him. I struggled, but it was like being restrained by an iron pincer.

I became anxious and stretched out my other hand to push him away, but he pulled me into his arms.

The strong smell of alcohol and manly smell hit me. He was only wearing a thin shirt, and his hot body temperature enveloped me, burning one side of my cheek.

I was tightly held in front of his chest, and the thunderous sound of his rapid heartbeat came to my ears, one after another, so that I could no longer hear any other sounds for a while, and I forgot to struggle.

He rubbed his face on the back of my neck and murmured: "Don't move... Lin Juanyun... don't move... just let me hold you like this..."

His hot breath blew into my ears, and I immediately retracted my attention and pushed his hard chest away with all my strength.

As soon as she pushed away a little, he hugged me tighter.

I heard him say in a hoarse voice: "Lin Juanyun... don't go... don't go... Lin Juanyun, I miss you... I will miss you as soon as you leave..."

His voice was very different from usual, almost gibbering.

No, it's drunk talk.

He was drunk, very drunk.

Otherwise, he wouldn't have hugged me so hard, almost wanting me to rub myself into him.

And he scratched my neck hard with his stubble-covered chin.

I was so strangled by him that I couldn't breathe. I exerted a strong force and pushed him hard, finally breaking out of his arms.

I stood up from the ground and patted the dirt on my body.

When he looked up, he saw Fan Li standing up unsteadily.

When he saw me, he shook his head in disbelief and stretched out his only right hand towards me: "Lin Juanyun?"

I subconsciously took a step back.He also took a step forward.

Unexpectedly, he staggered and was about to fall over. I quickly stepped forward to support him.

After he stood firm, he looked at me, and a smile gradually appeared on his face: "Why... why are you back?"

Seeing his smile, I felt a sadness in my heart, my vision began to blur, and I whispered: "Brother Fan, why do you drink so much again? Drinking is good, but drinking too much will hurt your body. Don't drink so much in the future. too much."

He smiled with his eyes closed, and nodded slowly and heavily: "Okay."

I sighed again: "I knew it would be uncomfortable for you to be trapped here, but I didn't expect you to be so depressed...Brother Fan, I have met Mrs. Sister-in-law. She is a very nice person. Don't be cold to her. Since you are married to someone else, you must be nice to her..."

I talked for a long time, but there was no response from Fan Li. When I looked up, he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

I had to help him sit down and get a water bottle to feed him.

He slowly opened his eyes.

The eyes were hazy at first, then gradually came over with bitterness and pain.

He just looked at me, and I looked at him, feeling sour in my heart.

He raised his head and leaned against the tree, still looking at me and said: "Sister Cirrus, I really like you in my heart. I know that you... don't like me, so you have to leave. I can hold you Give you a hug?..."

He closed his eyes again, smiled bitterly and whispered: "...I can hug you again and you will be..."

His eyebrows were frowned tightly, with deep "Sichuan" lines between his eyebrows.

I stretched out my fingers and gently touched his eyebrows, trying to smooth it out.

His deep eyes moved slightly, opened them, and the next moment he was hugging me.

His hot lips blocked my lips almost at the same time, and the fragrance of spring wine on the tip of my tongue penetrated into my mouth, as if I was drinking wine, entwining between my lips and tongue, overflowing and spreading, making me seem drunk, but deep in my heart There was a voice that became clearer and clearer.

Fan Li!

Fan Li!

Fan Li!

It turns out that Fan Li's name is always in my mind.

From the moment I separated from him in northern Xinjiang.I think about it in the morning, I think about it at night, I think about it when I'm awake, and I think about it in my dreams.Suddenly, I will think.

It turns out that I like him.

When did I like him?

The twilight is like warm gold, and the sky is still blue.

His clothes were open, revealing his iron-strong chest. My face felt hot, and I turned away in panic, only to catch a glimpse of his empty left arm.

Because I lost my clothes to cover it, the scar was exposed... My heart hurt, and I stretched out my hand to touch the deep scar.

He frowned subconsciously and leaned down.

His face was getting closer and closer, blocking all my sight.

He kissed me and caressed me inch by inch, delicate and gentle as water.

For a moment, the breath was like a net, drawing us in...until he rushed in, like the warmest shackles, a golden horse, a heavy rain, and countless noises surged in, swallowing me completely...

I don't know what day or night it is, I lie on his chest dripping with sweat.

In front of him was his sleeping face, which was incredibly real.True and clear, imprinted in my heart.

I sighed softly and stroked his flat brow.

In this life, I will remember your appearance.

Remember it, in the future, you won’t see it and you won’t forget it.

dont you agree?
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