Sanctuary Paradise

Chapter 39 Quarrel and Confession

Xin Lailai's mind instantly went blank.

But he reacted immediately and rushed over like crazy to drag Ling Yuzi back.

"You're crazy!" Xin Lailai roared angrily at Ling Yuzi, whose face was stained with blood.

"Kill me... Lailai." He was not quite conscious anymore, and the remaining words in his eyes were almost swallowed up by hunger and desire, and he struggled to squeeze out these words.

"I...can't control...myself..."

Ling Yuzi's fingers clung to Xin Lailai's arm and he screamed in pain.

"I... don't want to... eat people anymore."

When Xin Lailai heard this, he was silent for a while and looked around.

From the bed to the floor, bright red blood trailed all the way, and the neatly cut and smooth thighs and arms fell aside.

Those were undoubtedly made by Ling Yuzi himself.

In order to stop herself from attacking him, she suppressed her body's urge to eat and cut off her hands and feet, and even planned to rush out of the cave at noon to destroy herself.

If Ling Yuzi hadn't been unable to use the vampire technique due to his confusion, and if he woke up immediately, I'm afraid he would have...

"You... idiot!"

Xin Lailai yelled angrily, dragging the struggling Ling Yuzi tightly, and controlled the magic chip to slice open his arm.

The smell of blood in the air suddenly became a little stronger.

Xin Lailai ignored Ling Yuzi's struggle and forcefully pointed the wound at Ling Yuzi's lips, grabbed Ling Yuzi's head with a magic chip and pressed it down.

"Don't want to eat people? But I'm not a human being. Don't you always shout about how good I smell? Why, you won't bite me when the critical moment comes. Has your brain been hoofed by a donkey!"

Xin Lailai cursed angrily and pressed the magic chip suddenly. Ling Yuzi's teeth were smashed into his flesh and blood, and a stream of blood instantly poured out along the wound on his arm.

Ling Yuzi's eyes suddenly widened and he struggled desperately, but because he lost his limbs, he couldn't break free from the shackles of the spell chip, so he could only keep shaking his head to resist.

"Woo... woo woo!"

"Be honest with me! I'm not afraid of losing a few pieces of meat, so why do I need you to worry about me?"

"I'm telling you, if you don't feed yourself today, I'll go find Wu Kuai and fight to the death! Kill hundreds of his ghosts to vent my anger!"

"You want to commit suicide so much, okay? How about I die in front of you first!"

When Xin Lailai finished shouting the last sentence, Ling Yuzi, who had been struggling, suddenly stopped.

"no, do not want!"

Two lines of tears flowed from Ling Yuzi's eyes. She looked at Xin Lailai, and her pupils that should have been completely swallowed by hunger and desire gradually regained their senses.

"Lailai...don't die..."

Ling Yuzi grabbed Xin Lailai's wrist with his remaining arm, his voice filled with tears.

"If you don't want me to die, just drink it honestly."

Xin Lailai reached out to wipe away Ling Yuzi's tears and said in a cold tone.

Ling Yuzi froze slightly, raised his head and glanced at Xin Lailai, who had an unusually cold expression, shrank his arms and nodded lightly.

"Um……"

So, in silence, Ling Yuzi gently bit Xin Lailai's elbow, closed his eyes, and licked his wound while sucking carefully.

After more than ten minutes, Ling Yuzi stopped and whispered:
"I'm stuffed."

"Go on, I've never heard of a ghost who is so hungry that he can survive by sucking more than ten minutes of blood. The little blood you sucked just now is not as much as the bleeding from my gums."

Xin Lailai looked at his own health bar that still had 95% of his health, his face was very ugly, and he said in an almost commanding tone:
"This time, you're not allowed to stop unless I tell you to stop."

Ling Yuzi hesitated for a while, but after seeing Xin Lailai's determined eyes, he still obeyed.

But this time the bite was even lighter than the last time. Angry, Xin Lailai hit her head mercilessly and smashed her fangs directly into her own flesh.

Tears immediately began to well up in Ling Yuzi's eyes.

"Are you going to waste all my blood on tears?"

Xin Lailai was also very angry at Ling Yuzi. He smiled first and then cursed:
"Try it harder, didn't you do it very hard when you dug out my heart? What, now you can't even take a bite!"

After what he said, Ling Yuzi calmed down and sucked his blood obediently, and the speed of sucking suddenly increased several times, as if he wanted to express his dissatisfaction in this way.

After the two people were in a stalemate like this for a full two hours, when Xin Lailai used two Holy Light Healing Techniques on himself again to bring the blood bar back to 80%, Ling Yuzi stopped and burped. He touched his obviously bulging belly and said lazily:
"I'm full, this time it's true."

This time Xin Lailai no longer had any doubts.

If his estimate was correct, this girl had already drank his blood to her fill an hour ago, and in the next hour, she was just venting her anger on him.

But he had no intention of stopping the other party's little thought. Anyway, to him, it was nothing more than a few bottles of mana potions and the Holy Light Healing Technique.

"Why, do you need me to help you out for a walk?"

Xin Lailai, whose expression softened, touched Ling Yuzi's head and asked softly.

"Hiccup~" He responded with a hiccup.

Ling Yuzi immediately blushed with embarrassment, making Xin Lailai couldn't help laughing.

"Okay, okay, come on, give me your hand."

After admiring Ling Yuzi's embarrassment for a while, Xin Lailai stopped teasing Ling Yuzi, put his four fingers together, and stretched out his palm in front of Ling Yuzi.

Ling Yuzi hesitated for a while, then slowly put his hand on it.

"Let's go, just enjoy the night."

Xin Lailai took Ling Yuzi and walked out of the cave, taking a walk under the moonlit night.

"It's rare. The night tonight seems to be much better than yesterday."

Xin Lailai looked at the bright moon in the sky and seemed to be very happy. On the contrary, he only had a few cents left, and he hesitated to speak several times.

"If you have anything to say, just say it."

After walking for a while, Xin Lailai led Ling Yuzi to a stream, sat down and said.

"I..." Ling Yuzi opened his mouth, but didn't know how to continue.

"Are you worried that I'm still angry with you?" Xin Lailai seemed to have seen through Ling Yuzi's thoughts and spoke the words in his heart.

Ling Yuzi nodded timidly.

Boom!
Xin Lailai flicked Ling Yuzi's forehead hard.

"pain."

Caught off guard, Ling Yuzi let out a cry of pain and covered his head with his two little hands.

"You, you, are really hopelessly stupid." Xin Lailai shook his head and sighed.

"Sure, I'm angry today, but why do you think I'm angry?"

"Because I didn't listen to you, bit you, and got angry with you..." Ling Yuzi's voice became smaller and smaller as he spoke. "What a joke!"

Xin Lailai suddenly interrupted Ling Yuzi's words, but then he seemed to realize that he was a little too excited, so he paused, took a deep breath, and said again:

"Sorry, Ling Yuzi, I don't really mean to blame Li, but there is a question I want to ask you."

Xin Lailai, who barely controlled the impetuous emotions in her heart, held Ling Yuzi's shoulders, looked into his red eyes, and said:
"Ling Yuzi, let me ask you, what would you do if you woke up and saw someone inserting a knife into my heart and stepping on my body?"

What would happen if I woke up and suddenly saw Lailai being killed?
Hearing Xin Lailai's question, Ling Yuzi was stunned for a moment, and then said in a firm and cold tone:

"I will do whatever it takes to tear that person into pieces!"

Yes, no one is allowed to hurt Xin Lailai, not even herself!
"Well, I understand what you mean, but what if that person is myself?" Xin Lailai continued to ask.

Ling Yuzi was stunned and could not give an immediate answer like before, so he gritted his teeth and thought hard, but he still couldn't figure it out and could only give an extremely vague explanation:
"In that case, I would be very angry, very angry, because Xin Lailai was killed, and then...I, I don't know, I don't understand why Xin Lailai killed himself."

"Then what if I tell you that I received a mission from the Demon Slayer Corps and asked to kill you, but committed suicide because I was unwilling to do so?"

"Why? In that case, wouldn't it be nice if Xin Lailai killed me? He could have told me that we could just run away together!" Ling Yuzi shouted angrily.

"Then why didn't you just eat me today instead of committing suicide! Why didn't you even wake me up so I made the decision by myself! You clearly know that I have the means to heal myself!" Xin Lailai's tone was a little excited. geo asked.

"I...that's because I don't want to see Lailai get hurt. Why Lailai, you just don't understand!" Ling Yuzi, who was forced to panic, shouted regardless. She looked at Xin Lailai, her voice choked up.

"I don't understand? Yes, I really don't understand!"

After being rebutted one after another by Ling Yuzi, Xin Lailai could no longer suppress her emotions and angrily said:
"Why did you refuse to wake me up even though you were thirsty for blood? Why did you choose to commit suicide willfully? Do you think you will look great by doing this!"

"Then tell me, how can I solve the problem without hurting you!" Ling Yuzi's emotions became out of control. She shouted with a choked voice, with a cry in her voice:

"I had a dream, a very scary dream. In the dream, I ate Lailai in order to survive. I was so scared, afraid that I would really become like that."

"So, so..." Ling Yuzi covered his face and cried.

"So, I don't understand," a somewhat muddy voice sounded, accompanied by choking sounds.

Ling Yuzi was stunned. She stopped crying and slowly raised her head, unable to understand what she saw in front of her:
"Why... Lai Lai, you are crying." Ling Yuzi's voice was trembling.

Why, Lailai would cry like her.

It was obvious that she was the one who was in the wrong, Lailai only needed to blame her. Why, was it Lailai who was crying now?
"Because I'm afraid, afraid that I won't be able to convince you at all, afraid that you will suddenly disappear tomorrow morning, afraid that you will suddenly die in front of my eyes!" Xin Lailai's eyes were red and swollen, and her voice was hoarse.

"Do you know how scared I am to see you like that? If I couldn't wake up in time, if I were a few seconds slower, what would have happened? I don't dare to think about it!"

"I even hate myself, why am I so self-righteous? Why do I think that you will not be hungry for at least two days even though you have considered this situation? Why don't you force you to drink my blood on the first day to prevent this? Such a situation!"

"So, please, Ling Yuzi, don't do such things again, okay?"

Xin Lailai clutched Ling Yuzi's shoulders, lowered his head, and shouted hysterically. But at the end of his words, his voice became weaker and weaker, becoming more and more humble, like a beggar living on the street, almost pleading. The tone said:

"I... don't want to be stuck with nothing anymore."

Xin Lailai choked with sobs, and the emotions in his heart completely collapsed at this moment. He collapsed on the ground, his face ashen, like a puppet that had lost all life.

Lailai...what are you talking about?
Looking at Xin Lailai, whose whole temperament had changed tremendously, and whose whole body revealed a sense of decadence, Ling Yuzi felt a buzzing in his head, and his thoughts were like a mess.

Why, will it become like this?
That figure who in her eyes made her extremely reassuring and reliable, and even almost made her think that the other person was omnipotent, why was she crying like a child at this moment.

Strong confusion lingered in Ling Yuzi's mind.

But suddenly, a certain scene flashed through Ling Yuzi's mind:

Those were the words Xin Lailai said when he just woke up.

Ling Yuzi thought it was just a self-deprecating joke.

'Is it strange?Ha, it would be better to say that you are a little desperate, right? '

"It turns out...that's how it is."

In an instant, Ling Yuzi woke up.

"Ah...what on earth have I done!"

Strong regret and self-blame arose in Ling Yuzi's heart.

Ling Yuzi finally understood the source of the uneasiness lingering in his heart, and understood why he was having trouble with Xin Lailai here.

——She is too willful.

In the past few days, she had almost relied on Xin Lailai with an attitude that could be called 'unbridled'.

She regards the other person as her salvation, as the dawn of her last days, and as the only light in the darkness.

Naturally, she poured out her doubts, confusion, and uneasiness to the other person, and threw all her pressure on the other person without any scruples.

That's right.

That's right.

She made decisions self-righteously, moved herself self-righteously, and sacrificed herself there self-righteously!
She had never even truly understood Xin Lailai's thoughts, worries and fears.

When I was scared, I could throw myself into Xin Lailai's arms and cry without any scruples, but I never considered where to put Xin Lailai's uneasiness.

She has never thought about how much despair it takes to make a man who can roar and overcome that desperate situation alone in the Vine Attack Mountain choose to give up the struggle!
She never thought about it at all!
"Ling Yuzi, you are a complete bad guy, you deserve to be thrown on the mountain to feed the wolves!"

Ling Yuzi cursed herself in her heart. She looked at Xin Lailai with tears streaming down her face, her nose felt sour, and a strong sense of guilt began to well up.

"Lailai, aren't you..." Ling Yuzi subconsciously wanted to apologize, but when the words came to his lips, Ling Yuzi suddenly stopped.

She saw Xin Lailai's eyes.

Muddy, dull, without a trace of brilliance.

wrong.

No, no, no, no!

A strong sense of familiarity arose in Ling Yuzi's heart. Every detail of her life with Xin Lailai flashed through her mind. A kind of understanding arose in Ling Yuzi's heart.

Yes, what she wants to do is not to apologize.

What she should do, what she must do, what she really should do, should be——

"Tell me." A gentle voice sounded.

Her soft hands gently held the face of the young man in front of her, and her thumbs rubbed the tears in the corners of the young man's eyes.

Xin Lailai was stunned. He stared at the leftovers in front of him, as if he had forgotten to breathe.

"If you feel uncomfortable, if there is anything that makes Lailai feel painful, then say it all."

Ling Yuzi's palm slowly moved along Xin Lailai's cheek, slid over the tear stains on his face, slid over his slumped shoulders, followed the curve of his body, and detoured around his back.

"I want to truly understand Lai Lai, not just Lai Lai's appearance, I want to see Lai Lai's heart, understand Lai Lai's true thoughts, Lai Lai's weaknesses, Lai Lai's flaws, Lai Lai's anxiety and uneasiness."

"Then I want to take it on with Lai Lai, even if there are only three nights left."

For the first time, Ling Yuzi took the initiative to hold Xin Lailai in his arms, his red pupils reflected Xin Lailai's face, and said his last words:

"Lailai, I like you."

(End of this chapter)