"Spring comes and spring comes, and flowers fade and bloom again..." Zhang Lan sat next to the computer, watching videos in boredom. She didn't like watching TV series, and she had almost finished watching old movies, but she didn't want to watch new ones.

I felt bored after reading for a while, and I didn't want to study any skills. When I was idle and panicked, I just listened to music and gossiped.

Look at the articles written by people who are in beautiful countries and just after the plane talk about running on the train.

No matter what kind of software it is, in the beginning, it may be sticking to its original intention, doing what it should do, and making the software it wants to do.

But as time goes by, as the number of users increases, you will gradually face various temptations.

It is often said that enclosure is self-promoting. Another prerequisite for enclosure is that the organizer can afford the losses that continue to grow year after year and day after day.

At the beginning, maybe everyone's intentions are good, but as time goes by, things will gradually change.

Money and silk touch people's hearts, but nothing can stand the test. There are selfless people in this world, and there are also people who give everything they have for their ideals. But more people are just living like a dog.

Including Zhang Lan himself, he has never been a selfless person, but after reading books for more than ten years, he has a little bit of moral bottom line.

Having persistence and a moral bottom line in her heart enables Zhang Lan to control her desires when she has no power. And when you have strength, you can also restrain yourself.

Zhang Lan is neither a strong man wielding a sword nor a weak man wielding a sword. Most of the time, it's just that there are too many concerns in this world, which can make people feel awe and scruples.

As for what he is in awe of and what he is scrupulous about, Zhang Lan did it for his family before, and Zhang Lan does it for his family now. As for Zhang Lan himself, he smiled slightly, and he never felt that there was anything worth scrupling in this world.

Bodhisattvas fear causes and sentient beings fear consequences. What Zhang Lan fears are the people around him.

She may seem cold and cold-hearted, but in fact most of the time, Zhang Lan is still a traditional old master who pays attention to rules in his bones.

I stood up and sat on the recliner, with the sunlight outside the window shining on my face. I squinted my eyes and looked into the distance. What is the purpose of living?

For children? For family? For friends? When is it for yourself?
Zhang Lan's thoughts flew into the distance. What exactly was he trying to solve?

Zhang Lan doesn't have much appetite. Until now, she still likes to eat Chinese cabbage, scrambled eggs with garlic sprouts, and a bowl of rice.

Eat noodles, preserved egg and lean meat porridge, and beef and tofu soup. Home-cooked food is enough. As for delicacies from mountains and seas, I don’t have any special preferences.

What do you like to do most? At first, I opened a clinic to make a living and earn merit, but then I got used to it. It was not for money or to earn merit, but just to find something to do to make myself less boring.

After free time, I can do nothing for a day or two, a month or two, or play games for half a year, seven or eight months, but no matter how long the time is, I can't just not work all the time.

It's not that Zhang Lan has never done this before. There was a time when he stayed in a rental house for nearly two years. Either he didn't see anyone, or he just made some money and stayed in the rental house and got himself a computer. Pull out the internet cable and start playing games. I was very happy at the beginning, and I was confident that I would make money through games. Things like [-] to [-], making money and playing games at the same time.

After a long time, I realized that it is never easy to make money.

After those two years, Zhang Lan almost ruined herself. It's like staying in a rented house all day, playing games during the day, playing games at night, and occasionally going out to eat on the street, or go to the market to buy something to cook.

Day after day, my whole thinking becomes different. I don't interact with people all day long, and I become less and less willing to talk to people.

At the beginning, Zhang Lan insisted on getting up early in the morning to run and taking time to go out for fitness in the evening. As time went by, it became like going out during the day and occasionally going out during the day. Go out at night and occasionally go out at night.

In the end, I basically just went out to the supermarket to buy some food in the evening every few days, and went out to buy a late-night snack late at night.

The result was that when Zhang Lan realized that something was wrong with her and was about to pick up her old job again and find a company to code, she found that the interface and keyboard she was once familiar with had become so unfamiliar, as if she had never learned them before. .

After knowing his decadence, Zhang Lan spent three months just to restore his skills and status when he just resigned.

When the brain is not used for rest, it is really like a machine and will become increasingly rusty.

Even after three months of recovery, it only means that Zhang Lan is qualified for the job, not that Zhang Lan can be the same as before. The kind of inspiration that once flowed like a fountain. You could just give an order in one sentence and finish what you were told in half a day without even saying anything. This state of mind is really irreversible.

It is true that practice makes perfect, but more often than not, it is just practice that makes perfect, which is completely impossible.

As age goes by, some things just grow. But more importantly, once some things or opportunities are missed, it is too difficult to get them back or redeem them.

Or maybe it’s simply impossible. Time waits for no one. Some words seem to be simply there, and you don’t feel anything when you read them. Maybe when you were young, you would force yourself to write essays. I added a few words, but when I really understood it, it was an unforgettable feeling: young people are playing and old people are looking at themselves when they were young. When he frequently starts to recall the past, it means that he has been really... down and out?

When he thought of this sentence, Zhang Lan suddenly sat up from the recliner. What was the thought that just passed through his mind? When he starts to frequently recall the past, does it mean that this person is in a very depressed state now?

Are you depressed now? Zhang Lan asked herself in her heart. The game panel appeared in front of him, he stretched out his right hand, and a small green jade gourd appeared.

I have a magic weapon, a game board, a cheat from the sky, and Blue Star is currently the only transcendent in the era of law-ending, and I suddenly feel that I am down and out?

Zhang Lan stood up and walked to the window in disbelief. Looking at the figure reflected in the glass, Zhang Lan fell into silence. So was she really in despair?

It has been several years since I had the game board. At first, my children were not born, but now they are in kindergarten. What have you done over the past few years? Has this changed the world? No.

So what have you changed? He changed the fate of his family and some people around him, healed some people, taught some people a lesson, and saved a natural disaster. But beyond that? (End of chapter)

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