Serious Crime Unit 1

Chapter 41 Black Mandala (21)
After I got sick this time, I found that only by studying hard can I be as successful as a female doctor, instead of going up the mountain to cut firewood and work in the fields. I put all my energy into my studies and have been admitted to the township junior high school and county first grade with excellent results. I was in high school and later admitted to college. However, when I was 16 years old, when my classmates and I went to the toilet to urinate, we saw that my classmates’ penises were as thick and hard as carrots, but mine was limp and had never had an erection. I thought I was still I haven't reached puberty yet, but when I turned 18, I still couldn't get an erection. Only then did I realize that I might have been misdiagnosed by a female doctor when I contracted mumps, and that I might have become a eunuch for the rest of my life.

Before the college entrance examination, I went to the hospital for a physical examination. The result proved that I had no sexual ability. After I heard this, it was like a bolt from the blue and I almost fainted on the spot...

After my adoptive father passed away, my college dream was shattered. I came to Yangtze River. Firstly, I wanted to realize my dream of becoming a city dweller. Secondly, I wanted to find my mother who had so cruelly abandoned me, and asked her why she was willing to part with her own flesh and blood. abandon?If she had not abandoned me, I would not have been misdiagnosed by the doctor, because she was a barefoot doctor who graduated from a medical school.I blamed all my resentment on my cruel mother.

Cheng Liang and I came to the Yangtze River. After working for two years, we felt that it would be difficult to realize our dreams if we continued like that, so we ventured to northern Sichuan to dig mines. After Cheng Liang and I became friends of life and death, I told all my inner secrets to He said that he is two years older than me and has been comforting me, saying that when science develops in the future, there will be ways to prevent my testicular atrophy. I regard him as my spiritual support, maybe because the two of us are too lonely, maybe because We fell in love, we used our hands to caress each other, and we could get pleasure from it, we became homosexuals.

No.60 Chapter [-] Lu Shanru’s love affair and murder motive

After returning to the Yangtze River, my career went smoothly. After more than 10 years of hard work, I accumulated a net worth of tens of millions and became the envy of everyone. There were countless beauties who expressed their love to me, which really moved me. There are only a few of them, but whenever I want to fall in love, Chengliang will warn me: Don’t have any dreams about women, otherwise you will only get hurt.I don’t believe Cheng Liang’s words. I can’t indulge in my abnormal relationship with Cheng Liang. I have a strong admiration and desire for beautiful women in my heart. I firmly believe that in addition to sexual intercourse, there must be extraordinary spiritual love between men and women. .

This is the situation between Luo Xiaoxiao and I. She has been pursuing me and moved me deeply. I thought of my own shortcomings and wanted to avoid her, but she was too brave, determined and passionate, and I could not resist her fatal temptation. So I fell deeply in love, I loved her with all my heart, and she said I made her feel happier and happier than she had ever felt before.

She asked to marry me and stop being a bullshit car model, but not until I told her about my inability to have sex.She trembled and looked at me with big astonished eyes... She said she didn't believe it and that I deliberately used such boring things to test her, so I had no choice but to put her hand into my lower body and let her verify it. After she caressed her many times, but I still couldn't, she believed that what I said was true. I saw the light in her eyes gradually fade away, like the sunset slowly fading in the day.

She started to ignore me. I thought she was busy with work and tried to take the initiative to find her, but I read her meaning from her face and finally she proposed to break up. I endured the sadness and asked her why?She actually said: Which woman wants to be a widow for the rest of her life?When I heard this, I was like thunder, and the world was spinning. Oh my god, I didn't expect that she would say such a thing. I felt extremely insulted and never contacted her again.However, my youthful desire for revenge sprouted from then on, slithering out of the darkness like a poisonous snake, ready to bite at any time.

Later, I lowered my standards for choosing a spouse and no longer looked for lovers like car models who attracted much attention.At this time, Che Xiaoqin happened to meet me. She fell in love with me at first sight and began to pursue me crazily. Because of the lessons learned from Luo Xiaoqin, I am no longer so easy to be emotional. Although her waves are surging, I am as calm as a rock. She didn't move, but she was a woman who would never give up until she reached her goal. In the end, under her fierce attack, I became a slave to love again.After we fell in love for half a year, she repeatedly burned me with fierce desire, but I was like a solid ice, unable to melt at all, which made me very sad.Only then did she see what was wrong with me.In the end, she left me just like Luo Xiaoxiao, and she still left those words that I couldn't bear: I don't want to live with a eunuch for the rest of my life!

I don’t believe that I can’t find someone I truly love. I fell in love with two girls one after another, and the result was the same. In my life, I fell in love with 6 women. In the end, I was either humiliated by them or abandoned politely by them. , I don’t think women are any good and they deserve the harshest punishment.

I started my killing operation. I wanted to kill all these 6 women one by one. Of course, before killing them, I had to make careful arrangements and plans. It’s not that I’m afraid of death. I’m not interested in survival. There are no men in my life. What’s the point of having female love?
I named it "Black Mandala". I want Luo Xiaoxiao to be the first to go to hell, because she was the first to hurt me. Although I had two relationships before Luo Xiaoxiao, they were not the same. They did not humiliate me so bluntly, but left me tactfully. The harm to me was not serious enough to want to kill them.After killing Luo Xiaoxiao, it was Che Xiaoqin, Zeng Hua, Yu Feng, Bai Bingbing, Yang Shuishui... After I killed Che Xiaoqin, I was monitored by you, so I had to wait for the opportunity. It is not too late for a gentleman to take revenge in ten years. I Don't be in a hurry, I have plenty of time and patience. This is my character. I know that a drop of water wears away a stone. I can use my whole life to implement my plan.

I didn't expect that Chengliang would commit suicide in order to clear my suspicion. This incident shocked me deeply and made me feel that there is love between men and men, and it is the love of life and death. It is better than the love between men and women. I don’t know how much greater love is... I never thought that my selfish mother would commit suicide for me like Cheng Liang. The deaths of these two dearest relatives woke me up and made me question and question my own behavior. Reflection: Maybe I can’t kill anymore, otherwise there will be more pain and death. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you that Cheng Liang learned from Lawyer Luo that I hid the mandala in the insulation layer on the roof of the building. inside.

In fact, I found Zhang Juanyao as early as 5 years ago. She admitted that she was my mother and knelt down in front of me, confessing to me her cruelty and ignorance. But I would not forgive her. I insulted her severely. After that, I never saw her again, but she often came to see me and repeatedly asked me to forgive her, but I scolded her away every time.

She knew the reason why Luo Xiaoxiao and Che Xiaoqin and I broke up. After Luo Xiaoxiao and Che Xiaoqin died, she came to me and knelt in front of me again, begging me not to kill anyone again. She said that it was all her fault. Yes, she is willing to die for me.I said: Well, when the day comes that I need you to die for me, let’s see if you can give up that old life?She said: As long as you are determined to live well, what do I mean by this lamp with residual oil?Later, when I was arrested and sent to the detention center for the second time, she committed suicide for me.I was shocked by her again. I really didn't expect that such a selfish and cruel mother would die for me.

Time is running out. I don’t want to dwell on the reasons for my murder. I know that sooner or later you will find the evidence of my murder. I know that the crime is serious and I don’t want to waste the country’s money. I don’t want the police, procuratorate, and courts to invest more manpower and material resources. , a series of judicial procedures were implemented for me, and I decided to go to hell, where I would be tortured and repent at the same time. Perhaps this was the best way to alleviate my sins.

I have nearly 100 million yuan left in my name. I have told Lawyer Luo to auction it all and give 100 million yuan to Cheng Liang's daughter Cheng Tiantian and [-] million yuan each to Luo Xiaoxiao and Che Xiaoqin's parents. If they can accept it, , this is my greatest comfort, I will thank them under Jiuquanxia, ​​and donate all the remaining property to Hope Primary School, so that primary school students will not have to suffer the hardship of walking to school like me.

Sinner: Lu Shanru December 2008, 12.

After reading Lu Shanru's suicide note, all the members of the No. 1 Major Crime Team felt as if they had knocked over a bunch of seasoning bottles. They felt all kinds of things, but their biggest regret was that they could not bring Lu Shanru to court and let him face the trial of the people of the city.

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