Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 295 That’s our regret

After a day of wind and rain, these sunflowers still held their heads up tenaciously.

The huge flower disk is dark, and the golden petals beside the flower disk are soft and tender.

The outer layer of green yaya branches is transparent.

There is a small wooden cabin next to it, probably for the forest ranger.

Xia Tingfei sat on the wooden steps, he was already a little exhausted.

Wet raindrops continued to drip from the corners of his clothes onto the wooden board, forming a small puddle.

Looking at the mud on his feet, he took off his socks and threw them aside, looking up at the girl.

The girl stood in front of the sunflower field in a daze, her figure like a weak willow supporting the wind.

But the light golden hair looked more and more golden under the dawn, and even a hazy halo appeared around her.

"She was standing in the sun, and I couldn't see her appearance clearly. But - I think there must be a very happy expression on her face now."

Xia Tingfei bent over, and the water dripping from his hand hit the stepping stone.

"So happy."

The girl picked off a bouquet of sunflowers and held them in front of her. She first said softly: "I'm so happy."

After seeing Xia Tingfei's expression, she said loudly: "So happy!"

Xia Tingfei didn't ask why, nor did he smile.

Just looking at the girl's hazy figure.

She was holding a sunflower, which was so delicate.

It seems to be burning.

The girl was more delicate than a sunflower. At this moment, she seemed to burst out all her brilliance.

The slight wind blew the girl's skirt, and she said: "Do you know? When I was a child, I used to imagine what kind of death it would be like if I died."

"It's strange. I obviously didn't have any dreams. But I predicted my own death first."

"Probably because there may be many dreams, and most dreams will never succeed or be realized." Xia Tingfei said, "However, everyone will die, and it is inevitable."

"Probably, that's it." The girl tilted her head, her long light blond hair flowing from her shoulders.

"I didn't want my funeral to be too lively, as it would be like some kind of punishment. I obviously didn't have any friends when I was alive. But after my death, a large group of people came."

"Everyone seems to be very sad, and everyone seems to be a friend you have known for a long time."

"Everyone can tell you that you have no memory at all, but they seem to value the memory very much."

"In fact, everyone will cry bitterly next to you. It seems that they care about your death."

"But you don't know them at all."

"It's strange."

"The funeral seems to have become a stage for some kind of display, showing their own softness and compassion."

"Everyone cries, and they compete to see who can cry louder. It's like some kind of competition, and it's really annoying."

"There are even some dedicated grave-weepers." The girl looked at Xia Tingfei and said, "Did you know? They will hold a microphone and use a high-intensity loudspeaker to weep the graves at the crossroads in the village."

"I know." Xia Tingfei said: "They will charge various fees, correction fees, and even other messy fees."

"Yes, that's it." The girl said: "Relatives and friends will each invite a set of such people, and they will compare how many people they invite. They even think of it as love - obviously before and after death, they He was dismissive of it. But he couldn’t wait to show his love after death. It’s really ridiculous, right?”

Her voice was a little low: "But using some small money to exchange for 13 billion yen should be a no-brainer."

"For anyone, there is no need to think about it." Xia Tingfei said: "Even lottery and gambling have so many people, let alone such a stable one, there will definitely be no problems. 【Lottery】"

"Yes, that's right." The girl said, "But I don't like it."

"I don't like this kind of hypocrisy."

"But that's the way the world is." Xia Tingfei said: "When you are alive, you are like a candle. No one cares too much about his light. But after you die, people will realize his importance and start to miss him. Those funerals It’s better to say that the things on the Internet are performed for others to see and let others know about this kind of thing.”

"Maybe so." The girl didn't seem to care, but she said extremely seriously:

"If it were me, I'd rather everyone be silent."

"Come in quietly and go out quietly."

"It would be best if no one cries, because I've seen too many fake cries."

Standing in the splendid flower field, she talked more.

"Whether it's in the ward or elsewhere, it's the same."

The girl turned her face sideways and looked at the sky.

Maybe it's to determine the time, maybe it's for other reasons.

She originally had a childish face, but now she seems to be extremely mature.

"I can even see the fine fuzz on her cheeks, but I can't refute it."

"I hate these, so I hope to die quietly somewhere in the world, just like I came into this world quietly."

"But I am really unwilling to do so. It's ridiculous." The girl lifted her hair from the side of her face: "I hope to die lifelessly, but I am not willing to do so."

"It's like - it's like he has resentment."

She said: "If I can't choose my life and birth, then I can at least choose death."

"I hope to die in a beautiful scene, like a blurred silhouette in an oil painting."

"I want to die quietly, but I want people to admire my death."

"I hope that if one day, someone discovers my bones, she can sigh and praise my luck in death. Standing where I once stood, she said how lucky I was in my last-minute choice."

"I don't want to hear them sighing among the dead branches and leaves in the valley that another girl has died unfortunately."

"Will you really pick up the bones?" Xia Tingfei said: "The popular thing in Dusui Village now is cremation torches."

There are no graves at all in Dusui Village. There is a cemetery here, the kind of cemetery that is densely arranged with a small stone tablet.

"I am bones, not yet turned to gold."

The girl even smiled, even laughed.

She said: "Originally, I wanted to plant white narcissus. However, narcissus seem to not live well in such an environment, and may even die quickly."

"But at that time, I never thought about growing sunflowers."

"I may be able to think of an answer to this question. - Perhaps, it's very, very simple."

"Why?" Xia Tingfei asked.

"Because, I hate this color." There was even a hint of coquettishness on the girl's face.

She said something like this: "I hate this color because my hair is gold and my eyelashes are gold."

"In the early days, I was still complacent because of my specialness. But later I realized that my body would also turn into gold."

"——Perhaps, this kind of thing was already destined when my light golden hair grew."

She smiled, as if she had reconciled with something.

"At that time, I never thought that I would choose the same golden sunflower forest."

"If the me of the present were to tell the me of the past, I would not believe it either."

"However, I still chose the same golden sunflower forest. This color I was proud of at first is now the color I hate the most."

She smiled heartily, as crisply as the nightingale's song.

He didn't stop for a long time, as if he wanted to find the smile he had lost before.

"If I die here, they should become more colorful. It's like my blood, my soul."

The girl said so. "We have an agreement. If you die, your body will belong to me."

"I noticed that her body is already in critical condition."

"There was a sharp popping sound coming from her body, which was a sign that her body was in danger."

"Her body was so slender and frail, so shaky."

"Like a candle in a strong wind, the light of her life will be extinguished in almost the next moment."

"I noticed that she was saying her final goodbyes and delivering her last words."

"Although she rarely smiled, she laughed at the place of death she chose at the last moment."

"This laughter is so cheerful, so crisp."

"Maybe I'm the only one who hears this kind of laughter."

Xia Tingfei looked at the girl, and the girl looked at him.

"I have to stop something like this, not for the mission."

"But for something more important."

"Something Kana taught me."

"That's right, my body will be yours after I die." The girl said this without any hint of impatience, anger or annoyance.

Just talk about this fact quietly.

It seemed, as if Xia Tingfei didn't want to put her body into the furnace and do the same things as the people she hated.

She smiled, and there was trust in her smile.

——She believed that Xia Tingfei would never do such a thing.

——Even if you do something like this, it’s not a big deal at all.

Xia Tingfei felt that the sunlight was so dazzling at this moment that it even made him unable to open his eyes.

At this moment, he suddenly felt a little thirsty.

My throat is dry and my lips are dry and sticky.

In the past, he was so eloquent that he was speechless at this moment!

He calmed down his mood and said, "We actually have another agreement."

"Really."

The girl coquettishly said: "That was the only time I broke an appointment, so I don't need to keep telling you about it."

"Actually, our agreement is not over yet." Xia Tingfei said: "If, if you can stick to it until tomorrow, all the agreements you made will be completed."

"Shhh."

The girl tied her fingers in front of her lips: "Don't say such things."

She smiled softly, like a mother.

At the last moment of her life, she seemed to explode her feminine beauty and tenderness like a supernova.

"I can no longer continue. There is no other way."

She said so.

Walk into the tall sunflower forest.

She walked into it holding a sunflower, and Xia Tingfei could see her light golden hair fluttering among the golden petals.

Her back was extremely determined.

——It seems that we are not heading towards death, but towards heaven.

——Not enough. If it was really close to heaven, she would be unhappy.

"I know that after the sunflower field, there is a steep slope."

"There are strange rocks everywhere. If you fall down, you will definitely die."

"I was thinking so in my heart. At this moment, I didn't know what to say. I could only wish her well."

"Bless her, at this moment her dream comes true."

"Bless her to die in the place of her choice."

Facing her back, Xia Tingfei shouted again: "Hey... can you answer my last question?"

"Ah."

The girl did not stop, and the bunch of sunflowers moved in the sunflower forest.

The bunch of sunflowers that were picked were closer to the sun than the other thriving sunflower forests.

"Now, do you want me to hold you back?"

"That's what I asked."

"She once asked me this question in the sea."

"At that time, my answer was very decisive."

"Yeah... who knows?"

Her voice seemed ethereal and weak.

Even the bouquet of sunflowers swayed.

"Haha, even I don't know."

The girl turned her head, with a gentle smile on her pale face, like a mother.

Xia Tingfei stared at the girl, watching the girl turn around again and walk towards the depths of the sunflower field.

The breeze blew and the sunflowers swayed to the west.

Xia Tingfei couldn't see her figure clearly.

It's not even clear when she disappeared.

That popping sound seemed to be a memory from a long, long time ago.

"In this way, our four short days together are over."

"For me, it's probably just a time for a school trip."

"For her, it's the end of a 22-year journey."

"She made her own choice and reached the end firmly."

"Although, she always has an expressionless face."

"However, at the last moment of her life, the light of her womanhood shone brighter than the dawn."

"But unfortunately - her beauty only remains in my memory."

"Also, the sunflower field she once hated the most is now her favorite."

"Perhaps, many years later, a traveler will find her bones and be surprised by the light of the gold."

"But to me, it's the regret we have left."

Looking at the sunflower field swaying in the breeze, Xia Tingfei twisted the wet stains on his clothes and prepared to leave.

——Until now, he felt a little cold.

【mission completed】

Smoke-like writing appeared in front of Xia Tingfei, dense and misty.

(End of this chapter)