Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 214 Will you hold me back?
Ichinose Qingyue opened her eyes and glanced around slightly.

The girls were all in a drowsy sleep, and Haishio Zaozhi and Tsurumi Qianna were huddled together, curled up.

They were still noisy when they woke up, but now they are as close as sisters.

Hinazuki Kana and Xia Tingfei were together, leaning against a pillar and falling asleep.

"It doesn't look like he's about to wake up."

murmured softly.

However, Xia Tingfei is cunning.

Like a fox, like someone who can control people's hearts.

Ichinose Qingyue did not dare to be careless, she squinted her eyes and observed her surroundings carefully.

Like a little rabbit poking its head out of the ground.

After waiting for a while, when he saw that Xia Tingfei really made any movement, he slowly stood up.

Carrying his shoes, he stepped on the leaves quietly.

Kala, Kala.

Even if you step on it very slowly, there will still be this small sound.

She glanced at Xia Tingfei nervously. After seeing that Xia Tingfei didn't move at all, she breathed a sigh of relief.

Then he laughed again: "Why am I so nervous? I look like a prisoner trying to escape from the prison."

"I just want to be free. What am I afraid of?"

With that said, she walked slowly to the back of the shrine.

She carefully pulled out a dusty ladder from the narrow space under the shrine floor. The creaking sound made her even more afraid to breathe.

The ladder was made of wood, and the curved lines on the gray wood looked like circles of eyes.

The cracks were like daggers that completely destroyed those eyes.

The ladder head with a hook at the top hooked the eaves and stuck them firmly.

The sloping ladder is covered with bright flowing light.

The gray-white wood seemed a bit eye-catching at the moment.

She couldn't help but squint her eyes and hold on to both sides of the ladder.

Bend over and raise your head.

The soles of the feet wrapped in tender and slender socks stepped on the ladder bars, stepping forward step by step.

Facing the sky, bathed in sunlight.

Move towards that point little by little.

If you can reach that place, you can be liberated.

My mouth is unstoppably dry.

She looked around before ascending the final sections.

Looking at the ground covered with cherry snow, looking at the sacred tree swaying its branches and leaves in the crisp spring breeze.

Looking at the thin clouds, I saw the bright sun.

Only——I didn’t see the familiar shadow from before.

"—I won."

She smiled slightly, a smile on her cheeks.

The long hair ripples slightly in the spring breeze, giving off the childish light of a girl, and the beauty of 17 years old is fully displayed at this moment.

In the previous seventeenth level, her speed was very slow in order to prevent herself from being discovered.It took her almost ten minutes.

But after that, she only used the third level for a moment.

He climbed up to the broken roof of the shrine almost on his hands and knees.

The roof is a tiled structure, but there are holes everywhere, and you can see the debris piled up inside when you lie on it.

The horizontal forks are vertical like stacked bones.

She looked at it for a while, then stood up and walked along the thick edge.

Until you reach the highest horizontal line on the roof.

It is about a palm wide, like a balance beam.

The girl staggered on it, opening her arms and letting the wind blow her hair and skirt.

Like the most advanced balance beam athlete, she swayed and danced on her tiptoes.

Walk from this section to that section and to the side of the triangle.

Standing at the top of the triangular shape, she looked down slightly.

Below, there is a blue stepping stone.

There is fluffy moss on it, like a lovely blanket.

"——It would be very interesting to be able to lie down on it and rest."

Thinking this, she laughed softly.

She stood on tiptoe on the roof.

Open your arms and close your eyes.

"Relief, relief."

"I, if I am free."

"goodbye--"

The corners of her pink and translucent lips were slightly raised, and her center of gravity fell downwards.

"If - if it were the main hall of a high-level shrine, it should be more than ten meters high. If you jump from it, your head will be smashed and white brains will flow everywhere."

"But the shrine here is just an ordinary rubbish shrine. The main shrine is only three or four meters high. If you jump from it, your legs will be broken at most, and the bones will pop out like bamboo shoots."

Xia Tingfei didn't know when he was standing on the edge of the roof.

He looked at Ichinose Qingyue and provided advice to Ichinose Qingyue.

"Good day, Minister Xia Ting."

"Why are you suddenly using such a formal tone?"

"Because I want to use it, I just use it. Isn't it good?"

"I don't care."

"That's right, I don't care. Whether it's good day, good morning, or good noon, I don't care. I'm just chatting here to delay it."

Xia Tingfei looked at the girl and her face.

This once delicate and soft face was now crying.

Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes and across her delicate face.

On the contrary, she was smiling.

"What are you doing here?"

the girl asked.

"Are you here to enjoy the scenery too?"

She pointed into the distance and climbed up to look into the distance. The scenery was completely different from before.

Under the harsh light of noon, the forest on the hillside looks more and more delicate.

There are layers of green, as if the ocean is flowing.

It seems that there is no end in sight at a glance, it just makes people feel relaxed and happy, and their expression is relaxed.

Withdrawing his gaze, he lowered his eyelids and stopped looking at the girl.

Instead, he whispered: "What do you think I'm going to do?"

"They should be here to enjoy the scenery." The girl said firmly: "At least, at least it won't be like before."

There was a strong pleading in his tone.

"You promised me, didn't you?"

Saying this, she looked at Xia Tingfei pitifully.

Xia Tingfei looked sideways at her and said nothing.

But the girl took it as a yes.

She smiled slightly, but tears were still flowing.

On the roof she was squatting on, she pointed at the piece of bluestone.

"Look at that rock. As long as it falls on it firmly, it will definitely kill you."

It was obviously death, but he was so happy that he seemed to be running towards beautiful blessings.

Xia Tingfei walked over, stood beside her, and looked at the bluestone below.

A thin layer of moss covers Weiwei.

If you use the correct posture, you might actually be able to die.

"What about your ideal?"

he asked.

"Ah, that kind of thing." The girl touched her cheek with her fingers and said with some embarrassment: "That kind of thing is really too difficult for me." "How could I have that kind of thing?" thing."

She cooed.

"Oh."

Xia Tingfei said calmly: "Can you give in?"

Ichinose Qingyue slightly moved away so that Xia Tingfei could stand at the top.

Xia Tingfei stood there, turned around and looked at Ichinose Qingyue.

The girl was so close to him that he could just reach out and touch her.

But the girl was holding her arms, and her smile was like fragile glass.

The end of the world is so close, the end of the world is so close.

At this moment, she cannot be touched.

"That's what I was thinking. I don't know what she might be planning. But, I can understand. If I reach out and touch her, she will definitely do something unexpected."

"Do you need me to release you?"

he asked softly.

"Ok?"

The girl was confused, as if she couldn't hear Xia Tingfei's words clearly, and looked at him doubtfully.

Xia Tingfei opened his arms and looked at the girl: "Do I want to give you a demonstration?"

"Demonstrate how to end one's own life in the correct way."

Speaking so softly, it was as if the teacher was teaching the students to learn.

He also asked the girl in the same understatement tone: "Do you need it?"

But the girl didn't reply for a long time, her eyes were dim.

It seemed like he couldn't hear clearly, and he seemed like he didn't understand Xia Tingfei's motives.

"At this level, if you don't control it well, you will only be seriously injured, not dead." Xia Tingfei said seriously: "So, let me cover it up for you. What is the correct way."

Saying this, he closed his eyes and leaned back.

"no, do not want!"

He grabbed Xia Tingfei suddenly and stopped his demonstration.

Xia Tingfei opened his eyes and asked calmly: "Why don't you let me continue?"

"I don't need your demonstration."

Shaking his head stubbornly: "Even myself, I can do it."

"really?"

Xia Tingfei's voice was cold.

"I can definitely do it."

She said swornly, using both hands to push Xia Tingfei away who wanted her.

However, Xia Tingfei was like a nail, firmly nailed in place.

Like an iron mountain, it stood firmly in front of her.

"I do not believe."

He spat out these words and looked at Ichinose Qingyue: "I don't believe you can do it."

Heart—beat violently.

It looked like a stab wound, as if a piece had been gouged out.

She was stunned, and the arms she was exerting became weak.

Smiling sarcastically.

I wanted to do this, but I couldn't laugh at all.

"I-am I even unable to do this kind of thing?"

she murmured.

Like asking.

But it’s more like saying it to myself.

"Is this the only thing I can't do?"

She looked at Xia Tingfei.

"No." Xia Tingfei said, "Just because, if you jump from here, I will definitely jump too."

"If you die, then I will definitely die too."

As he spoke, his voice was as light as a feather.

However, it was difficult for Ichinose Qingyue to get up.

"I don't believe it," she said.

"Whether you believe it or not, it doesn't matter to me."

Xia Tingfei's words were arrogant and unreasonable. Ichinose Qingyue wiped away her tears and glared at him angrily.

"What does your death have to do with me?"

"It doesn't have anything to do with it. Just because you died, I will die too." Xia Tingfei repeated.

He was confident and confident, as if he was messing around.

But Ichinose Qingyue didn't dare to gamble, and couldn't even gamble.

Xia Tingfei said that he would do it.

She understands.

Looking at Xia Tingfei angrily, Ichinose Qingyue covered her face: "Why, why do you have to stop me."

"why why."

"You have obviously promised me, you have obviously promised me before."

"Promise not to stop me."

she questioned.

"I didn't stop you." Xia Tingfei tilted his head and looked at the girl: "I was just talking about the situation after your death."

"This... this..." Ichinose Qingyue frowned, not knowing what to do.

It took a long time for her to react: "You are quibbling! You are quibbling."

"No, this is just the wisdom of adults, despicable and shameless." Xia Tingfei said this, leaving Ichinose Qingyue dumbfounded and speechless.

The wind blew again and again before Ichinose Qingyue finally reacted.

She looked at Xia Tingfei indifferently and said, "No matter what it is, I will never change my mind."

"me too."

Xia Tingfei smiled slightly.

Watching the girl's expression keep changing, it was like some kind of strange fruit.

The girl gritted her teeth and stamped her feet.

There was nothing she could do with Xia Tingfei.

"Hey, do you know what you will become after death?"

"I know, of course I know." Ichinose Qingyue choked and said, "It is happiness and peace."

"Maybe." Xia Tingfei said, "Your 17-year journey is over. You made your own choice. It may not be right, but it is your will after all."

"One of the [-] people who committed suicide."

"This is all you need. Maybe others will remember you as a good student. But more people will only remember you as an unpopular person."

"These are everything to you."

"So, so what?" Ichinose Qingyue said softly, as if a snake was spitting out its core: "I don't care."

"But, I care." Xia Tingfei smiled slightly: "Actually, I don't want to stop you. Because this is a choice you make based on your own will, and it is the ending of your own choice."

"If you can't choose the beginning of the journey, you can't choose the scenery during the journey. But at least you can choose the end of the journey."

"I don't think there's anything wrong with that."

"In fact, I am very happy. Because you rely on your own will to seek an inconvenient death again and again."

"If you had died before, then you wouldn't have to hide in the abandoned toilet full of weeds and dust in the park and cry."

"If you had died before, you wouldn't have suffered so much."

"I used to think that, but I hate it. Because such a beautiful thing only ended up broken in the end. They should have been able to shine more brightly."

"I understand that this is undoubtedly a very selfish idea."

"But I will give you a choice."

Xia Tingfei looked at Ichinose Qingyue and smiled slightly: "If I fall down behind me now, will you hold me back?"

Open your arms like a cross.

He closed his eyes and slumped backward.

(End of this chapter)