Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 207 Your pain is not important at all
"So, what's wrong with this?"

Nishimiya Ruri closed her lips tightly and stared at the female doctor dissatisfiedly for the first time.

Hinazuki Kana quietly said to Xia Tingfei, "This must be her first time getting angry."

In response, Xia Tingfei just spread his hands.

This was indeed the first time Nishimiya Ruri got angry, when she was angry.

His eyes would be wide open and his lips would be tightly closed.

The slender and graceful calves will be pushed straight due to excessive force, revealing a trace of soft muscle lines.

The pink apricot hair seemed to be on fire.

"Haha."

The female doctor laughed heartily and crossed her legs.

The white coat he was wearing was pressed between his legs.

He supported his chin with his palms, and his long hair hung down from the side of his face: "You look like me before."

"Do you know why I became a psychiatrist in the past?"

Nishimiya Ruri shook her head, somewhat confused as to why the female doctor said this.

"The reason why I became a psychiatrist in the first place was just because I thought I was very powerful from TV, so I became a psychiatrist. Although it is easy for me to say this, I worked twice as hard to get into a good university. , studied psychology and became a psychiatrist.”

"It's great. It's like a movie. An ordinary girl finds what she wants through hard work."

The female doctor said this.

"Probably." Nishimiya Ruri thought carefully: "If you get what you want, it should be something really great."

"Ha." The female doctor laughed.

"But after graduation, I just couldn't find too many jobs. So, I came here. Because there are the most patients here, and they are the most peculiar. But my father didn't support me very much, but, who knows Do you care?"

The female doctor shook her finger and took out a cigarette case from the pocket of her white coat: "Do you mind?"

"I don't mind." Xia Tingfei gestured to the female doctor to continue. He was slightly interested in the female doctor's story.

"I have learned too many things, that's it. I know that he is just a traditional father who cares about his children. He hopes that his children can live a good life in the ordinary sense. Have money and free time. Then start a family, Give birth to a child and keep going.”

"Of course this is not a mistake. After all, this is how humans are passed down from generation to generation."

"Of course, I don't hate my father. Intellectually, of course I understand that he is doing good for me, and I should be grateful to him. But from a personal perspective, I don't like him too much. Nagging, Every day we talk about topics that I don’t like or even hate. Maybe it’s because he doesn’t know how to talk to me.”

"I sometimes feel that I need to have a long talk with my father, but every time we meet, he just talks about the old arguments from the past. Then I feel regretful, why do I do that, so This is where I came back.”

After saying that, she looked at Nishimiya Ruri again, "You see, psychiatrists can't cure certain psychological problems. Especially your own. If for some reason, you feel guilty, there is no need to do this. .”

"Of course, I'm not advising you to be heartless - or similar words with the same meaning. I'm just advising you to return to your old life."

"So, are you going to stop me?" Nishimiya Liuli pursed her lips and looked at the female doctor.

"Of course not, of course not." The female doctor looked at Nishimiya Ruri and couldn't help but smile: "I'm not stopping you, I'm just telling you what the consequences will be after your choice."

"It could be wonderful, but more choices would be terrible."

"When you are at a decision-making point in your life, if you are only swayed by temporary emotions and do not look at it rationally, then you will definitely regret it in the future."

What she said made perfect sense.

Xia Tingfei was noncommittal about this, even if the doctor said it, it might cause Nishimiya Liuli to give up.

"If Nishimiya Ruri had a responsibility and ideals on her shoulders, she might become strong again."

"But, if something can be easily changed by words, it cannot be called responsibility at all."

"To be honest, I don't have much confidence in what Nishimiya Ruri will choose."

"Whenever she encounters some kind of dilemma, she will involuntarily shrink back. Every time she takes a step forward, she will hesitate for a long time."

That's what he thought, and he was also very curious about Nishimiya Ruri's choice.

Nishimiya Ruri obviously did not expect the female doctor to say this.

The female doctor has always looked like someone who is slightly indifferent and doesn't care much about the facts.

As soon as she suddenly said such caring and kind words, Nishimiya Ruri was caught off guard.

"I will bear the consequences of my choices."

She seemed troubled and smiled, but after looking at Xia Tingfei, she felt a little relieved.

"No matter how painful the consequences are, they won't be more painful than they are now."

As she said this, her eyes were firm.

It's not the kind of self-defeating determination that involves risking everything, but a very decisive determination.

Just like standing next to a cliff, she would take that step as if she were walking on a normal highway.

"Alright alright."

The female doctor smiled: "Then I wish you good luck."

"So, what do you usually do?"

Xia Tingfei said something to break the awkward atmosphere and looked at the top of Xi Gong Liuli's head.

"Her tag is flashing, but the flashing frequency is slower than before. Moreover, new tags are constantly being born, although it is like a halo of ink wetted by water. But as long as she continues like this, she should be It will be fixed."

Thinking this, he felt a little relaxed.

"Normally, people lead a very regular life here." The female doctor pointed to the playground: "In the morning, these patients will move around freely on their own."

"You also know that the patients here are not bipolar or aggressive people. They are poor people with various problems and no way to live naturally."

"These poor people don't have many social relationships outside. They have nothing except family. In fact, some patients don't even have family members. So, I just let them make friends with each other."

"Between patients?" Xia Tingfei asked. "Well, it should be between patient and patient."

"How do you say that?"

"We don't have any strong distinctions like doctors or patients here. We should be equal. After all, everyone has something wrong with us."

When she mentioned that everyone had their own problems, the female doctor actually burst into laughter.

But Xia Tingfei really didn't know what was so funny in this sentence.

The other girls were the same, but Nishimiya Yuko seemed to agree, covering her mouth slightly and smiling a few times.

"In the afternoon, we will go farming."

"Farming?"

"Well, when you came here, my father should have pointed out those farmlands to you."

"If those crooked things can be called farmland."

"Haha, you really like to joke." The female doctor smiled again.

"Of course that thing is considered farmland. It has always been self-sufficient here. We will plant fresh food and wait until it is harvested. I think these patients are avoiding things for various reasons, so they stay in the quiet mountains and forests. "To re-experience the world, touch the world, and then build their own social relationships will have a positive effect on them."

"Although those farmlands are indeed not very pretty, the patients have almost figured out the correct method. After the next time, those farmlands will become beautiful."

"You are trying to figure out how to farm on your own?" Xia Tingfei raised his eyebrows: "Abandon everything in the original society?"

"We are not farming, we are just having fun. Farming is just a vehicle for fun. We do not rely too much on these farmlands to survive, so we can get enough happiness from the activity of farming."

"Although there are indeed other methods that can easily allow everyone to master the correct method, why should we do that?" The female doctor said: "If we really do that, it will become learning. And farming has become something annoying but something horrible that cannot be escaped. For patients, something that cannot be escaped symbolizes fear.”

"They are all guys who hold the security door with one hand and stick one foot out. Any disturbance may make them nervous."

Xia Tingfei was noncommittal about this.

The female doctor takes the four of them around the nursing home - which, to be honest, isn't too interesting.

But the four of them didn't care much.

At least, all four of them have a rough understanding of the general structure of this sanatorium.

What are all the low buildings doing?

When they returned to the main building, the female doctor pointed at Nishimiya Ruri: "I'm going to get you some information, which should be about my school. If you want to become a psychiatrist, it's best to go to college there. Although, It can be difficult."

"Thank you, I will work hard." Nishimiya Liuli bowed, expressing his gratitude.

Nishimiya Yuko also quickly followed.

Xia Tingfei said: "I want to take a look around here. When you want to find me, just call me."

The female doctor shrugged and just gave a few notes.

Xia Tingfei really had no interest in this place. He and Hinazuki Kana went straight to the corner, under the tree - where the girls stayed.

"So, Fei, what did you find?"

Hinazuki Kana pursed her pink and crystal lips: "If you want to do something while these girls are autistic, I don't want to."

"···"

Xia Tingfei glanced at Hinazuki Kana, then looked away: "Don't worry, I won't attack this girl who is not as cute as you."

"This sentence really makes people unhappy."

Hinazuki Kana muttered and stood next to Xia Tingfei, looking out for him.

"Ai Qujian, have you come here to see you?"

Xia Tingfei stared at these girls, but these girls were as motionless as stones.

"it is as expected."

"So, do you want to use this silent attitude to let me leave?"

"Or is it because you have been abandoned by Qu Jian Ai, so you don't know anything at all?" Xia Tingfei said, and couldn't help laughing.

"Hey, hey, head maid. Although your title easily reminds me of a guy with a throwing knife, she is much smarter than you. You should know, right? She's mine. It destroyed your ivory tower of happiness and made you fall into this miserable situation one by one."

"Of course, it's not some kind of hatred or anything like that."

"It's just because I find you annoying. After all, this is my city. Of course, this sentence seems a bit arrogant."

"But, trust me. I hate it when these weird things happen around me."

"It's like a friendly mutual aid club. Don't you think it's funny? This kind of inferior version of the Matrix has no need to exist at all. And you are still committing suicide in this city? The end Lose your life.”

"To be honest, I am not a kind person. If you want to die, just die. The world will not stop running because of the lack of you."

"However, your suicide has made the city's police chief mentally disturbed, and everything is in a state of chaos."

"Also, she is loved by Qujian, who respects and believes in you. Think about it, your admiration, or something like that, to her, is just something that is worse than rubbish. Isn't it interesting? Isn't it interesting? painfully."

"But, I don't care."

"Because that damn Friendship Club was destroyed for only one reason - it got me into some kind of trouble, and I hate trouble, so I don't mind putting it out at some point, like pressing a toilet button. Rush away."

"As for you, no one cares, right?"

"Even to Nishimiya Ruri, you are nothing but a weight-bearing stone. The longer you exist, the more complete her transformation will be."

"See, your role is again. Your pain, or whatever it is, doesn't matter at all to others, just answer the question."

With love flashing in Xia Tingfei's eyes, she forced Natsumi Sugino, who was called the head maid by the other girls, to raise her head and look into her eyes: "Answer my question, head maid. Ai Qujian, I have contacted you. ? Did she say anything to you? "

"Or, what is her next plan? I really hate her appearing next to me, especially in an elusive way."

(End of this chapter)