Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 186 This is the gift you gave me
Because I have suffered setbacks, I want to hold an umbrella for others.

Hinazuki Kana, of course, this kind of thing is so painful.

He is obviously the person closest to him, but he is the source of great pain to him.

Moreover, they are all immature children.

There are not many choices that can be made, and there are not many reasons that can be understood.

So Hinazuki Kana wanted to hold an umbrella for them so that they would not regret it.

In this wonderful spring break, the cherry blossoms are blooming one after another, and the weather is getting warmer.

Spring is coming and it is a wonderful season.

Hinazuki Kana hopes that they can encounter unparalleled beautiful memories in this extremely beautiful spring.

The first day of March is the beginning of spring break.

On this day, Xia Tingfei was in a remote park.

This is one of the countless small parks in Qingchuan, and most of these parks are exactly the same.

The walls were mouse gray, and spider webs were densely spread everywhere.

Weeds also poke their heads out in spring, paving a green carpet.

Today is the time for Ichinose Kiyosuki to commit suicide.

She seemed to be deliberately looking for a secluded place to avoid Xia Tingfei.

However, no matter what, he could not escape from Xia Tingfei's grasp.

She was carrying a backpack with twine inside.

But before she hung the hemp rope on the horizontal bar, she saw Xia Tingfei sitting on the bench.

"Aren't you going to stop me?"

Ichinose Qingyue asked softly.

"I will only stop you from committing suicide, not from hanging a hemp rope on the horizontal bar."

"Aren't these things the same?"

Saying this, Ichinose Qingyue has no motivation.

He was not even willing to hang up the rope - if he would definitely be stopped, then he would not want to do such a waste of time.

"Don't you have anything to do during the spring break?" She said discouragedly: "I thought that people like you would travel around with other people during the spring break, and then enjoy the rose-colored youth wantonly. .”

"Rose?"

Xia Tingfei couldn't help but laugh.

"Did I said wrong thing?"

"If you think that you have to go through all kinds of trouble every day and even be exhausted from it. You don't think that way."

"This kind of life is simply hell." Ichinose Qingyue shuddered after thinking about the kind of life Xia Tingfei mentioned.

——Myself, I chose to escape precisely because I couldn't face it and didn't dare to face it.

And what Xia Tingfei did was like stuffing himself into a meat grinder and choosing this pain independently.

"However, it's amazing." She said softly: "Maybe I can't become such an existence."

This kind of discouragement made Xia Tingfei feel a little ugly.

"Aren't you unwilling to give in?"

He asked softly: "Aren't you unwilling deep down in your heart?"

Only a girl who is unwilling will have a mission in her body.

Because I still have hope, I can continue to live.

"There is nothing to be unwilling to do." She said: "I just want to escape from this life faster, faster."

Xia Tingfei couldn't say anything, couldn't even accuse such a thing.

Her choice, in her own opinion, may be a good choice.

It can even be called the best choice.

However, Xia Tingfei was unwilling to disappoint the child deep in her heart.

The child was crying and shouting loudly in the dark well.

"Let's go eat."

Xia Tingfei did not continue this frustrating conversation, but changed the topic.

"Ah."

The girl was very obedient, perhaps already familiar with this procedure.

Commit suicide, meet Xia Tingfei, eat, and then go home.

This cycle of going back and forth made her miserable.

Because this kind of thing was too beautiful for her, it made her even more unbearable and unable to reconcile with life.

Her mind was already exhausted from being suppressed, even to the point of crumbling.

The two chose to go to a dessert shop because desserts would bring good memories to people.

Xia Tingfei is the kind of person who is relatively nostalgic. Once he is familiar with a store, he will go to that store frequently and will not change stores easily.

In the dessert shop, the boss was already familiar with Xia Tingfei.

She was even a little dissatisfied with him - he took turns bringing girls here every day, looking like a carefree scumbag.

However, due to professional ethics, the boss did not tell Ichinose Kiyosuki directly, nor did he deliberately mess up the desserts.

The desserts are beautiful and very delicious.

Ichinose Qingyue scooped out the ice cream with a small spoon and couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth.

This may be a kind of happiness.

In the beautiful season, under the warm and bright sunshine, eating sweet desserts.

Happiness was like a bird flying above her, emitting tiny gleams of light that shone like scale powder.

These light, thin, almost invisible lights shine like the sun in Ichinose Kiyuki's eyes.

"Want to come camping during spring break?" Xia Tingfei didn't look at the girl, but looked out the window.

Staring into people's eyes can put a heavy pressure on them.

It was as heavy as a mountain, more like a kind of compulsion.

If you are looking out the window, it may give people a subconscious feeling that you don't pay much attention to.

But this kind of treatment will make some people feel relaxed.

Excessive expectations are like burning them on the cross.

Ichinose Qingyue looked at the desserts on the table that were no longer as beautiful as before, and stirred them with a long spoon: "During the spring break, I didn't have time. Because I have to work."

She raised her head and smiled bitterly: "They said that they would earn some wages during the holidays to support their family."

"They—I know who Ichinose Kiyuki is talking about, they belong to her parents."

"Recently, Mr. Sakuma lifted the ban. High school students are allowed to work part-time again."

"Because, no high school students died during this period."

"I don't know what that Qujian Ai is thinking."

"That's ridiculous, Ichinose Kiyuki. I'm asking for your opinion, not theirs."

"I wouldn't call them Ichinose Kiyuki's parents."

Xia Tingfei looked at Ichinose Qingyue: "So, what is your opinion?"

"Don't you understand?" Ichinose Qingyue said in a low voice: "They asked me to work."

"So, what can I do?" He looked at Ichinose Qingyue carefully: "You obviously hate them so much, but you don't dare to resist them at all."

"You have even decided to commit suicide a long time ago, but you don't dare to go camping during spring break?" Xia Tingfei said in the same deep voice.

"You just made it easy!" Ichinose Qingyue glared at Xia Tingfei angrily: "Do you understand, what will happen to me if I do this?"

"I know." Xia Tingfei looked at Ichinose Qingyue: "But in the last time of your life, leave a time that you don't regret. Isn't this the most important thing?"

"Even if you may be subjected to violence, as long as you decide, don't you just have to go back to that room tomorrow?"

"So, what you're worried about is simply not going to happen and it's not going to hold up."

"So, what's your answer? Ichinose Kiyuki."

Xia Tingfei's words make sense - if you can really escape after the camping.

"But will you let me get my wish?" Ichinose Qingyue looked at Xia Tingfei.

"Probably." Xia Tingfei said, "I might agree now."

"That's it, that's good." The girl let out a long breath, as if she was relaxed.

"I'm just talking about myself now, not my future self."

Xia Tingfei looked at Ichinose Qingyue happily eating desserts, but in her heart she was discerning for herself.

Ichinose Qingyue didn't notice this kind of word game at all.

After eating the dessert, Xia Tingfei took Ichinose Qingyue to visit many places.

Take Tendai Shrine for example. Of course Ichinose Kiyuki has been to Tendai Shrine.

After school, when I don’t want to go home anymore.

She just spends time at the Tendai Shrine, but the Tendai Shrine is too high.

And there is no elevator, so you have to climb the stairs arduously.

Of course, Ichinose Kiyosuki, who has always been somewhat malnourished, cannot bear such exercise.

Therefore, she spent time hiding in her little park.

At dusk, the two came separately again.

Standing at the intersection of the street, Ichinose Qingyue looked at Xia Tingfei with some confusion.

The best person I have ever met is when I want to give up everything.

"Thank you."

She had ten thousand things in her heart that she wanted to say.

But when it came to his mouth, he just squeezed out two words: dry and flat.

"Didn't you say this a long time ago?"

Xia Tingfei waved his hand and turned to leave.

The girl stayed for a while and walked towards the house.

By the time she walked back, it was already dark.

"I am back."

She licked the corners of her mouth and walked into the home.

As soon as I stepped into the entrance hall, I felt almost out of breath.

"Did you find a job today?"

The man sitting at the table glanced at Ichinose Kiyuki.

His face was dull, but his body was majestic.

"..."

Ichinose Qingyue remained silent, facing this man's question with this attitude.

"Didn't you find a job?"

Her mother also frowned: "Now, hasn't the Sheriff reopened the policy for high school students to work? I have heard before that some stores are very short of people and even overwhelmed. Now , you should be able to find a job easily."

"Why can't you find a job?"

"She must not be looking for her seriously!" The man glanced sideways at Ichinose Qingyue: "I don't know who I am showing you this sickly look all day long! I think everyone else owes you, isn't it? I work so hard. How can you go to school! If I hadn't worked so hard, how could you have enough to eat!"

The man is proud of himself.

"It's really hard work." Her mother smiled and said to the man: "It's all thanks to your efforts."

"Qingyue, come and thank your father."

This woman shouted at Ichinose Qingyue again: "Don't you know how to be grateful?"

"Grateful? Should I still be grateful?"

Ichinose Qingyue's heart felt like death, and she looked increasingly weak, as if all the internal organs in her body were about to be hollowed out.

It was almost to the point where I couldn't stand.

"I'm going to camp in the mountains tomorrow."

"Why would I say such a thing?"

"Maybe it's to make him angry, or maybe it's to go against him on purpose."

"What can I do? I can only use this ridiculous behavior as a small revenge."

Ichinose Qingyue laughed to herself.

This smile directly angered the man.

"Camping? I won't give you any money! Guys like you who don't know the hard work of your parents don't deserve to use my money at all!"

The man squinted.

"I didn't even think about using your money."

Ichinose Qingyue said softly, as if she was relieved: "After the camping is over, I will die."

"Then you just go die!" The man shouted: "With this appearance all day long, do you think you are the heroine in a tragedy? If you want to die, just die! It's best to die where you won't give it to anyone. A place for trouble!”

After saying this, the man ignored Ichinose Qingyue.

And her mother also looked at her reproachfully, accusing her of making the atmosphere a mess.

It ruins the beautiful atmosphere in this home.

Ichinose Qingyue stepped onto the stairs in silence and locked herself in the room.
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When Xia Tingfei returned home, he did find a surprise.

Or it can be said to be a shock.

The tide algae was standing at the door of Xia Tingfei's house, waiting.

He held a large crank-handled umbrella in his hand and used it as a crutch.

"Long time no see, Mr. Xia Ting."

Hai Chao Zao Zuan looked at Xia Tingfei and tilted his head. His short blue shoulder-length hair was swaying, shining with scattered light under the illumination of the street lamp.

"We just met yesterday."

"But even if we haven't seen each other for a night, I still feel that it is as long as a year." Hai Tide Algae gave a somewhat heavy answer.

She has been hospitalized for nearly a month and has recovered to the point where she can barely walk, but most of the time she still has to sit in a wheelchair to avoid overexertion.

There was also a wheelchair beside her. Hai Chao opened her arms to Xia Tingfei and said, "Can you give me a hug?"

The tidal algae that had just been discharged from the hospital was so aggressive that it was scary.

"I'm just afraid that your injury will open again."

"But isn't this kind of romance? Isn't it natural that the happiest times are accompanied by pain?"

Hai Chao Zao Zu said so and looked at Xia Tingfei with open arms.

If she doesn't achieve her goal, she will never give up.

"This is the gift you gave me."

(End of this chapter)