Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 156 How can I save you? 【4k】

You have changed - these words are like what a woman would say to an unfaithful man.

This is not surprising, after all, such words are rare and common.

But you have changed - these words almost make the feeling of shame spread throughout the body immediately, this is like something that only appears in hot-blooded comics.

In reality, it is so embarrassing.

Even Xia Tingfei will have a sense of shame.

Especially saying such words in broad daylight felt a little wrong.

But the person in front of me said this was a beautiful girl, and her smiling eyes were full of recognition.

This sense of shame gradually fades away and turns into something else that makes people happy.

Something that makes people happy.

"Has it changed?"

Xia Tingfei thought about what he was like before, only three or four months ago.But the memory seems so weak, and I can't even remember the details.

He didn't feel that he had changed, what he was like, or what he was like now.

Human cognition is not continuous.But there are obvious gaps.

It's like a bookcase leaning against the wall, pulling out a little more every day.You may not realize that the bookcase is opened at first, but after reaching a certain interval, you will definitely realize that the bookcase is opened.

Xia Tingfei didn't realize that he had changed: "Probably, it's because the degree of change is very small."

"Of course it has changed!"

The girl said in a conclusive tone: "Do you still remember what you looked like before?"

"Isn't it what it is now?"

"You really don't have the slightest bit of self-awareness."

The girl sighed in an indescribable tone and said again: "In the beginning, you just transferred to another school and acted like a perverted stalker."

The girl told Xia Tingfei one by one about the bad things she had done in the past, making Xia Tingfei slightly silent.

"Also, when you first met me, you were staring at my legs!"

"Besides, the first time I went to that place, I saw me like that. I didn't do anything, but took pictures."

That place——refers to the Hinatsuki family.

But Hinazuki Kana doesn't want to call it "home", so she always uses that place instead.

"He would also draw something on people's backs uninvited, and even try to abduct me home."

The girl seemed to be complaining, but the words she spoke made Xia Tingfei look like a pervert.

"But what about now?"

"Although Nishimiya Ruri is very beautiful, you haven't done anything like that. Although on the platform, you grabbed her by the neck and pushed her against the wall, which caused a lot of trouble. But , it’s always better, isn’t it?”

"There are also seaweed flakes. That girl has a special charm. That weak blue-white skin gives her a special charm, doesn't it? If you want to attack her, wouldn't you do it to her? Really? But you didn’t do that kind of bad thing, didn’t you?”

"I'm sorry, that skin-to-skin contact thing has really happened."

"Looking at it this way, haven't you changed a lot?"

She patted Xia Tingfei's arm and smiled slightly.

"If possible, I really don't want this to change. Such a change is simply like returning from a prisoner to an ordinary person. There is nothing to be happy about."

"Then please try harder. Maybe when you are old, you will become completely different from now."

"Then don't."

The two of them laughed easily again and talked about their previous memories.

It was obviously only three or four months ago, but it was covered with a layer of vague fog.

But as the two of them talked, that layer of fog was wiped away again.

The memories became gleaming again.

"You haven't changed much. When I first met you, you had a straight face and didn't pay attention to anyone. It took a lot of effort for me to talk to you."

"Now, it's still like this in front of outsiders. Others are afraid of you, and even say that you are made of ice and snow, just like a flower on the high mountain."

"What a flower of the high mountains, I'm just a girl who comes from a messy family. I'm really not as good as the slightly more prosperous farmers in the countryside. Moreover, I have changed a lot, and I have a few friends."

"Is it okay if you go to training every day and follow me everywhere? Don't you need to maintain a friendship? If you don't follow your friends all the time, you will be given up soon, right?"

"Those girls will never give up being friends with me. After all, I have very few friends. Being my friend is something they can brag about. The vanity of high school students is terrible. "

"Vanity."

Comparison is very common in schools, and uniform uniforms somewhat solve this problem.

But as long as something can be compared, it will always be compared.

Relationships that are more important, such as friendships, are naturally the top priority for comparison.

As a dazzling beautiful girl, Hinazuki Kana's friendship is a precious treasure that can be shown off to others.

Even though Hinazuki Kana is very busy, those girls are not angry, and even like Hinazuki Kana more - because she is very mature.

Not only a peace officer, but also a decorated man.

This kind of relationship and honor outside of school can always easily envy and worship the girls in the ivory tower.

"So, in school, I have always promoted: You are my boyfriend. How about it, don't you feel a little proud?"

She seemed to be teasing on purpose, pretending to be a royal sister.

However, the blush on her face betrayed her.

"Sure enough, you have changed."

"It's called growing up."

The girl looked sideways at the rain curtain outside: "No one can stay in the innocence of yesterday. Only after being beaten by various difficulties can one become comfortable with that kind of difficult things. This Planting things seems to be called growth.”

"When I'm 20 years old, maybe I can become a little more frank. When I'm 30 years old, maybe I can openly push you and spend the night in your room. When I'm 40 years old, I'll probably have Child."

"Do you have to wait until you are 30? It's so slow."

"Since you feel slow, then you should take the initiative! Otherwise, don't complain!"

"But this kind of life sounds really ordinary."

"Isn't it bad to be ordinary? This kind of ordinary schooling, ordinary love, ordinary marriage and children, ordinary death. Isn't it bad?"

"Ha." He smiled: "It would be great if we could really stay stable like this. However, the so-called daily routine we repeat day after day may actually be a series of miracles."

After sighing a little about their daily life, the two naturally thought of Qujian Ai.

That woman is simply the opposite of everyday life.

Every time it appears, it is like a hammer, breaking the glass of blurred daily life, pulling them into some kind of disturbing and terrible fact.

For example, I was besieged by that kind of crowd before.

Or maybe the girl stabbed many people with the knife in her hand.

Girls don't like such things. Although they don't have any psychological burden, they are still annoying and they don't want to face it.

——After all, she had killed a murderer with her own hands. How could she feel the psychological burden of doing such a thing now?

——After all, she has the gift given to her by Xia Tingfei.

"It would be great if that guy could never show up again."

Just like praying for blessings at a shrine, his words are full of sincerity like stars.

"If you say such words, the result will definitely develop in the opposite direction." "Don't say such words that are only in the game, it is really hard to understand."

The girl stepped heavily into the puddle, splashing a handful of rainwater.

"Well, how about we just go play a game?"

"I'm exhausted from training every day. When I get home, I just want to eat and sleep. I don't want to do anything else."

"Is the security officer tired? How about you say don't do it."

"How could I give up this job when there is a guy who is just a softie!"

"Eat soft food..."

"Xia Ting, think about how long it has been since you went to work and took money from your family. It is all maintained by the salary of a security guard. Isn't this called a soft meal?"

"Three or four months? It's indeed a long time. Then let's find some money tomorrow. College also requires tuition fees, and you really need to save some savings."

"College? Where are you going?"

"Kyoto? I heard it's quite beautiful there."

"Isn't that far away? Why not go to a school in Tokyo? Aren't there many famous schools?"

"I probably won't be able to go to a prestigious school. Although I am very proficient in textbooks, those guys are already preparing for the college entrance examination from now on. They go to private schools and hire tutors every day."

Xia Tingfei was a little troubled: "In the field of examinations, people like them who work hard are always much better than those who rely on talent."

"Is that so? Fortunately, I don't have to go to college."

Although she was rejoicing, what Hinazuki Kana said was reluctant: "After high school, I will probably officially join the Public Security Bureau."

There is a high probability that they will be separated.

Both of them understood this truth, but neither of them spoke.

It was too embarrassing to say it.

It was obviously best to speak out now, but neither of them did so.

"Perhaps, I really can only be more frank when I am 20 years old."

The girl felt a little complicated and a little angry.

"Don't just take away my heart."

This was what they were thinking, but neither of them spoke anymore.

High school students have the simplest and most relaxing days.

Although you are busy with studies, you can choose to work or enter higher education after high school.

Although the job is not a very good job, it can still support my life.

People who don’t want to go to school will accumulate precious memories at this time that they will use to recall when they grow old.

After becoming a college student, I feel that I have become mature all of a sudden.

Like an adult.

Although children always talk about becoming adults, it is just a beautiful fantasy about adults.

Becoming an adult means taking on a lot of responsibilities.

And responsibility is something heavier than an iron mountain.

Thinking about it this way, I became sentimental again.

"Sure enough, the urban legend that rainy days can make you moody is not wrong."

"But, the other boys in the class said that guys who become sentimental on rainy days are not real men." Hinazuki Kana thought about the interesting things in the class.

"Sure enough, it sounds like something a high school boy would say."

"However, Mr. Xia Ting has never said such words."

How could Xia Tingfei say such things? He was already past the age of saying such things.

But this kind of thing must not be discussed with Hinazuki Kana.

"It would be weird if I said something like this."

"Um"

Only after experiencing failure will you become mature.

So, what was his previous experience?

When he transferred here, he was probably alone.

The way he looked before must have gone through something.

Hinazuki Kana pursed her lips and shook her long hair.

——Her hair has already reached the position of the shoulder blades. If it is a little longer, it will become gentler.

If that were the case, she would become like a wife.

The girl had a small plan in mind, but she was still a little unhappy.

Because your own pillar is being used by others.

This feeling is bad.

But if they just leave those guys alone, they would be too pitiful.

It feels like letting go of your past self.

Betrayed his past self.

It really is impossible to do that kind of thing.

Therefore, I can only watch him deal with these things.

Sure enough, several more girls naturally pressed on top of him.

However, this guy is really an idiot.

Obviously he wants to save other girls and make them independent and self-reliant.

But he didn't realize that those girls were gradually relying on him.

He became a strong pillar of strength for those girls.

If he left, those girls would most likely collapse.

Maybe I will do the same.

But it's things like this that make people feel irritated.

Can this kind of thing still be considered a heart of steel?

I really don’t know whether this is right or wrong.

Perhaps, he could vaguely feel it, so he made such a request to himself.

However, if we don't do this, will we allow those girls to continue to live a life that can be called a tragedy?
It’s really unpleasant—it’s wrong to do something like this, and it’s wrong not to do it either.

You can only choose the option with relatively small losses - but this choice is inherently refuting your original persistence.

The further we advance, the more we deviate from the original direction, yet we still insist on thinking it is correct.

This kind of thing is indeed very depressing.

The girl sighed.

"How on earth am I going to save you? Xia Tingjun?"

　good night ww
　　
　
(End of this chapter)