Give weak women a heart of steel

Chapter 110: Scream to the world, Nishimiya [[-] updates every day, please subscribe! 】

"What you said is pitiful. You and I have only met twice before, and our relationship is at best acquaintances. Even if I saved you once, didn't I say it before?"

"I'm not your savior, and I won't take advantage of you."

"So, you said I wanted to ridicule you, but there is really no reason."

Xia Tingfei blew the wind from the rooftop, and the sky was so golden that it made people's faces feel hot from the sun.

The cold winter wind was blowing at this time, which neutralized the discomfort in the sky and made people feel comfortable.

The speechless Tsurumi Qianna was unwilling to admit defeat.

She bowed her head and lowered her eyebrows in front of those classmates, and remained silent even when she was ridiculed.

But in front of Xia Tingfei, he was stubborn and wanted to save his face.

"Then what are you here for?"

She spoke coldly.

But such a tone is definitely not a sign of disgust or disgust, it is more like trying to show off in front of adults.

Because adults are indifferent, she also imitates their accent.

It seems that I am already an adult.

"Nishimiya Ruri and I are in first-year class A, while Hinazuki Kana and Nishimiya Yuko are in first-year class C." Xia Tingfei said this information: "This is the information I promised to tell you before. .”

"By the way, you know Nishimiya Ruri and Nishimiya Yuko, right?"

"Of course I know." Tsurumi Qianna said unhappily: "The boyish girl with short black hair is my sister Nishimiya Yuko, and the girl with pink apricot hair who always pretends to be gentle and smiles is called Nishimiya Ruri .”

"You also see that fake smile?" Xia Tingfei looked at the girl in front of him in surprise.

Nishimiya Ruri hides herself very well, and her character is also gentle.

So if you smile gently, most people won't be surprised.

But now

"Why can't I see it?" Tsurumi Qianna recalled: "That fake smile is very special. But I have seen a lot of things like that."

"When those who want to strike up a conversation with the dazzling people in the class, they will always say what everyone else says. When those dazzling people tell a joke that is not funny, they will also laugh at the right time."

"That girl's smile is no different from those of those people. They all exist to agree with others and protect themselves."

Tsurumi Qianna lowered her head and said, "It's just that she got it wrong. Her smile like that will only make people feel slighted and make them even more disliked."

"You obviously know a lot, but you still have no friends." Xia Tingfei looked at the girl: "Besides, you still look like this pitiful person eating alone."

"Even Nishimiya Ruri has a friend eating lunch with her today."

Holding her chopsticks, Tsurumi Qina forcefully said: "What's so great about having friends? As long as I can enter high school and change to a new environment, I can find friends."

"I don't quite agree with what you said." Xia Tingfei looked at Tsurumi Qianna.

"Oh." Tsurumi Qianna bit into the octopus sausage.

She doesn't like octopus sausage, but because it is popular to put octopus sausage in students' lunch boxes, her mother will make a lot of octopus sausage.

Then, use this kind of thing to show off to the neighbors or the group of mothers you meet in the park.

"But I agree with your previous sentence." Xia Tingfei looked at the girl.

His contradictory words made the girl confused.

"Why do you need to have such a thing as "friends"? Is it because everyone says you need to have friends, so do you also want to make friends?"

"But you are obviously in pain because of your mother's request to make friends, and you obviously disdain it. But in your heart, you are secretly longing for friends."

"Do you want everyone's approval? Are you afraid of being alone?"

Xia Tingfei looked at the girl with an ugly face: "So, Tsurumi Qianna, you are not a brave girl. You are not strong and patient like Hinazuki Kana, nor are you like Nishimiya Ruri, even though you know you will be embarrassed. But still brave enough to want to change.”

"You hang out in a fake friend group, but you can't stand the embarrassment in it."

"You want to change, but you dare not do anything. You can only wait until time passes and pray to God to change your destiny."

"So, you are the worst. Tsurumi Qianna."

"You speak so righteously, so what do you think I should do?" Tsurumi Qianna asked Xia Tingfei loudly.

"If you can only walk under the whip of others, then I will tell you." Xia Tingfei said to Tsurumi Qianna: "Don't be afraid of loneliness, don't hate loneliness."

"Loneliness is the beginning of not being lonely. When you are afraid of loneliness and are driven by loneliness to find reasons for not being lonely, it is the loneliest time."

"Why do you have to look for friends or partners? Is it just to express that you are like others?"

"Thoreau said: I love solitude, and I have never met a better companion than solitude. Being among the crowd is probably more lonely than being alone in a room."

"People are always lonely, surrounded by layers of loneliness."

"Being different from others is not a shame, but a flash of identity that only you possess."

"So, Tsurumi Qinai. Stop echoing others in a vulgar and cheap way. Stop following others and wasting your beautiful smile on a very boring joke."

"You, just you."

"Tsurumi Chinana is just Tsurumi Chinana, not a clone of someone else."

"It's not just a rabble that can be seen everywhere."

After Xia Tingfei finished speaking, he stood up.

He arranged his clothes and patted the dust on himself: "I hope you will be different next time we meet."

After saying that, Xia Tingfei left.

Only Tsurumi Qianna was left.

The girl looked at her lunch box, which contained a lot of octopus sausages.

She lowered her head sadly and confusedly: "You say so much, how can I understand?"

The girl closed the lunch box and went straight back to the class.

There was a lot of noise in the class.

In the past, she would always stay on the rooftop and not return to class until class was about to begin.

In this way, you can avoid the embarrassing atmosphere.

She straightened her head and walked straight in.

Her desk was in the center, surrounded by laughing people.

Sit down straight away, as if you were an isolated island in a sea of ​​people.

The indescribable embarrassment and loneliness was almost like the ocean drowning her, and like a whip, it hit her back, making her want to escape.

However, in this tangle, class started.

While the teacher was explaining, she was drowsily thinking about what had happened before.

She felt embarrassed and lonely, but that was the blame given to her by her own consciousness.

From the illusory consciousness, he fell into a heavy reality that was as empty as the ocean and as crowded as the living environment.

She re-examined herself - she had never lost anything.

The desks were not covered with graffiti, nor were they deliberately used as eating places at noon, leaving grease residue everywhere.

It's as clean and stale as ever.

"The root of all pain comes from within oneself"

Tsurumi Qianna clearly realized this truth.

So, she smiled in class.

Xia Tingfei was in the classroom, and the first class in the afternoon was music class.

Because there is a game next, everyone is working hard.

But only Nishimiya Ruri couldn't do it.

She wears hearing aids in both ears, and she can hear the rhythm and lyrics of the people around her when she is in the choir.

However, when she spoke, she could only speak hoarsely and vaguely.

Just like a young child.

If Nishimiya Ruri is allowed to participate in the competition without any changes, he will definitely lose.

Everyone understands this truth, but no one says it out loud.

If you speak out, you may be "ostracized" by discussion and may be labeled as "discriminatory".

They don't want to become "evil", especially in the class.

On the surface, each of them appears to have no problems.

The teacher didn't use any words, he just gave strong instructions.

The teacher would have to face a heavier choice than the students if she really asked Nishimiya Ruri not to participate in the singing competition.

If you get a complaint, you won't be able to keep your job.

So they sang a song together.

Although Nishimiya Ruri tried very hard to make a sound, her voice was like hoarse wood, destroying all the beauty.

The harder she tries, the more she sabotages the efforts of others.

Everyone is silent, you look at me, I look at you.

They are all waiting for others to remind them.

Someone poked Naoko Ueno on the arm.

Naoko Ueno had no choice.

She is considered the leader of the class, and it is natural for her to do such leading things.

But, she doesn't want to do that.

Now the relationship with Nishimiya Ruri can be considered to be good, only she herself.

If she talks about kicking Nishimiya Ruri out of the choir, no one will say anything now.But if anyone is dissatisfied with her later, they will definitely use this matter to attack her.

"Don't be like this, Liuli is also in our class. As long as she practices more, she should be able to keep up with us."

Ueno Naoko whispered to the person next to her.

However, this is not possible.

Everyone understands this truth.

Nishimiya Ruri's current language level is almost that of a toddler.

There are only a dozen days before Christmas.How is it possible to keep up with their progress?

And what if you participate in a choir competition?
The results they can get are definitely at the bottom.

Everyone in these classes works hard and they are by no means the worst.

But because of Nishimiya Ruri, they can only get the worst.

In the end, people whose efforts were undermined would naturally vent their anger on Nishimiya Ruri.

"So, let me be the villain at this time."

Xia Tingfei thought so.

"teacher!"

He shouted like this, causing everyone's eyes to focus on him.

"What's wrong? Classmate Xia Ting."

The teacher asked.

She was a little uneasy. It was just Nishinomiya Liuli who was a little difficult to handle. If Xia Tingfei was making trouble, things would definitely get worse.

"The others have been practicing this song for a long time, right?"

Xia Tingfei first asked such an obvious question.

"Well, it's been about two weeks." The teacher said.

"So, it should be natural that we newly transferred students can't keep up with the progress." Xia Tingfei looked at the teacher, making the teacher a little confused about what he wanted to say.

"In order not to hinder the class from winning the championship."

"So, can we be removed from the choir?"

Xia Tingfei stared at the teacher.

He heard soft breathing coming from around him.

"Probably, they are relieved."

Xia Tingfei thought so.

"If Xia Ting works hard, he can keep up with us."

The teacher encouraged Xia Tingfei.

She always has to do a job like a teacher.

"Singing is too tiring, so I don't want to continue participating."

Xia Tingfei answered the teacher's persuasion with a clean answer.

"Okay." The teacher sighed: "Then you and Nishimiya-san can sit next to each other."

"it is good."

Xia Tingfei glanced at Xi Gong and waved to her.

Nishimiya Ruri didn't know what happened, she looked around.

First he looked at Naoko Ueno, who didn’t understand sign language at all and could only turn a blind eye.

Instead, Miyoko Sahara gave her sign language and told her everything that happened.

Her eyes suddenly became a little gloomy, and a defensive and gentle smile appeared on her face.

Step by step, he walked out of the crowd and sat awkwardly next to Xia Tingfei.

The other students sang the chorus again, and they sang well.

Much better than before.

The sound echoed in the classroom, and even Nishimiya Ruri could hear the sound with the help of a hearing aid.

She was envious.

When the song ended, he said again: "Teacher, can we go to the infirmary?"

The teacher was very open-minded towards Xia Tingfei. She nodded: "Go ahead."

Xia Tingfei grabbed the arm of Xi Gong Liuli who was confused and walked out.

It made everyone else whisper.

Xi Gong Liuli was pulled outside, and she gestured to Xia Tingfei.

But Xia Tingfei didn't understand sign language at all. He knocked off Nishinomiya Liuli's sign language and said to Nishinomiya Liuli word by word: "If you want to sing, then learn the language again."

"The voice you speak now is very unpleasant."

He smashed the sugar coating wrapped around Nishimiya Ruri without any scruples and plunged her into this reality.

No one had ever said such simple and straightforward words to her before.

Her family loved her, though that love didn't make her a better person.

Their family would never treat her like this.

It's like not mentioning words like running in front of a person with a broken leg.

Nishinomiya Liuli was stunned. She was about to smile like that, but Xia Tingfei said, "After being accused by others, do you want to use that smile to escape?"

"Where can you escape to?" Xia Tingfei stared at Xi Gong Liuli.

The girl was stunned, and she didn't know what kind of expression she would make on her gentle and delicate face.

angry?

Her face bulged again.

But it quickly returned to its normal appearance.

She didn't know what expression to make.

【I will work hard. 】

She scratched her palms and told Xia Tingfei.

"Are you trying to escape?" Xia Tingfei sneered: "Besides, not all things can be solved by so-called "efforts"."

"Effort is not a universal wishing machine, nor is it a statue in a shrine. No matter how hard you try, sometimes all you do is a waste of time and push yourself further towards the abyss."

She was at a loss, and the twisted common sense she had established in the past was slowly crumbling.

"How could it be wrong to try hard?"

Nishinomiya Liuli thought so, she wanted to gesture with her fingers excitedly, but Xia Tingfei couldn't understand it at all.

Nishimiya Ruri wanted to use the method just now, using her fingers to write on the palm of her hand, to convey her heart.

But Xia Tingfei didn't look at it at all.

The girl opened her mouth wide, wanting to say something.

But all she could say was a hoarse "ahhh".

She was extremely anxious, but there was nothing she could do.

"Your efforts will only make the people around you more miserable at some point." Xia Tingfei said this.

Such cruel words were too cruel for Nishimiya Ruri.

"As expected, I am a person who should not exist."

"My father and mother divorced because of me."

"My mother is so bad and exhausted now because of me."

"Because of me, Yuko is forced to live like a boy and take care of her family. She can't grow her hair and wear skirts like a girl."

"Because of me, there is no way to cure grandma's disease."

"It's all because of me, it's all because of me."

"I've always been causing trouble to others. Others have been accommodating me."

"I want to die!"

Nishinomiya Liuli's eyes were dark, she lowered her head and pinched the corner of her skirt.

Finally, he raised his head with difficulty and smiled at Xia Tingfei.

"So, do you want to escape again?" Xia Tingfei said slowly, word by word, "With this attitude?"

"You have a lot of things hidden in your heart, right?" Xia Tingfei stared fiercely at the gentle girl in front of him: "If you want to be like ordinary people, then be in the right place and work harder!"

"If you want to be like a normal person, at least learn to communicate with others."

"Instead of being like here now, where you are self-righteous and do things that are good for others. Then you use a flattering smile to protect yourself and defend yourself."

Xia Tingfei looked at the girl in front of him: "I will teach you how to speak again like teaching a young child."

"Bite your teeth and endure it, Nishimiya."

He took Nishinomiya Liuli to the rooftop.

It's empty here and there's no one around.

"If you want to learn to speak, then start from the basics." Xia Tingfei said to Nishinomiya Liuli: "Shout to the world and open your heart."

"This is your first step in communicating with the world."

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