That year the flowers bloomed 1981

Chapter 19 Only when you lose it do you know how to cherish it

Lu Jingyao entered the dormitory sadly, startling Liu Muhan who was about to fall asleep on the upper bunk.

She said drowsily: "Lu Jingyao, I have your letter and I put it under the quilt for you."

"Oh, thanks!"

Lu Jingyao woke up a little and hid in her bed. She didn't want her weakness to be seen.

But Liu Muhan noticed something, and he leaned out half of his body from the quilt. His head was along the edge of the upper bunk, and he stretched out like a cat.

"What's wrong with you, Sister Jingyao? Are you feeling unwell?"

"No,"

Lu Jingyao quickly wiped the tears from her face with the quilt to avoid being seen by Liu Muhan.

But just when Liu Muhan's head was about to retract, Lu Jingyao suddenly thought of something.

"Mu Han, can you lend me 20 yuan?"

"20 yuan?"

Liu Muhan was stunned for a moment, sat up from the bed, took his coat and started to take out his wallet.

While taking out the money, she asked: "Sister Jingyao, what do you need 20 yuan for? Is there an emergency at home and need money?"

"No, it's because our literary club is having a dinner. I want to return the money to Qian Shun as soon as possible."

Lu Jingyao hesitated for a moment, then told Liu Muhan the truth, but omitted the part where Qian Shun went crazy after drinking.

Liu Muhan paused in taking out his wallet, then took out 20 yuan and handed it to Lu Jingyao.

"Thank you Mu Han, I will pay you back the money as soon as possible."

"You don't have to rush to pay me back the money, but there are a few things I have to say to you."

Liu Muhan said seriously: "Sister Jingyao, we have entered the world of adults. We can no longer trust others as easily as teenagers.
This society is very complicated. Some people seem to be good to you, but they may not have any good intentions. Some people may seem to be bad to you, but they may not have any malicious intentions. "

Lu Jingyao didn't quite understand and asked sarcastically, "Mu Han, what do you mean by that?"

Liu Muhan shook his head helplessly and said: "Sister Jingyao, think about He Xue and the others, what substantive help they finally gave you? Think about what kind of support your previous boyfriend gave you?
Any hypocrisy cannot withstand the measurement of material things. Just for the so-called "concern" of a few close friends who only know how to talk, you will belittle the people who have devoted themselves to you."

"Do you know that He Xue and the others just want to see your jokes!"

After Liu Muhan finished speaking, he retreated into his bed to warm up.

But Lu Jingyao couldn't calm down for a long time.

"Are you kidding me? Aren't I just a joke today?"

Lu Jingyao felt a little uncomfortable. Today she wanted to quietly borrow money from He Xue and others to pay the bill in order to maintain her most important self-esteem.

As a result, He Xue suddenly leaked the news, letting everyone know about Lu Jingyao's embarrassment and poverty.

Although He Xue was worried and told Lu Jingyao that it was unintentional, was it really unintentional?

Thinking back to what happened when everyone first entered college a few months ago, Lu Jingyao actually already had the answer in her heart.

At that time, we had just arrived at the university, and we were chatting and chatting closely, almost like sisters.

But before long, a vague estrangement emerged.

Liu Muhan's family is in a good financial position, and he has a complete set of daily necessities, many of which are out-and-out "high-end goods."

Lu Jingyao is sensitive and self-reliant, and rarely touches other people's belongings, but He Xue and others are carefree and often just take them and use them.

Liu Muhan didn't pay much attention at first, but when He Xue took Liu Muhan's soap, shampoo, and cream in succession and gave them to the senior students in the student union in the bathhouse, Liu Muhan became unhappy.

She looks like a delicate and weak girl from Jiangnan, but she actually has a very good idea. It’s okay if I give you a dormitory for your use. You use my things to show your face as a favor, do you want to lose face?
But He Xue didn't take it seriously and had a big quarrel with Liu Muhan, calling her "stingy", "petty bourgeoisie enjoying" and so on, and vowed to double compensation to Liu Muhan.

But it had been several months, and Lu Jingyao hadn't seen He Xue compensate Liu Muhan.

No matter how expensive a piece of soap is, it only costs one or two yuan. Can't He Xue squeeze it out?
But today, the stingy Liu Muhan immediately lent Lu Jingyao 20 yuan. He Xuehue knew that Lu Jingyao's family was poor, but he wanted to drag her to treat her.
"Ah~~"

Lu Jingyao sighed and took out his letter from under the quilt.

[There are actually three letters? 】

Lu Jingyao took a look and saw that there were younger brothers, Xia Yue, and Li Ye.

After thinking for a moment, she opened her brother's letter first.

After reading Lu Zixue's letter in one breath, Lu Jingyao felt worried.

Even though she was thousands of miles away, she could feel the resentment and grievance in her brother's heart at this moment, but Lu Jingyao felt deeply powerless against this resentment and grievance.

This matter is easy to say. As long as Lu Zixue buys a bicycle, his brother's predicament can be resolved immediately.
But who can give her a bicycle?And it’s the Phoenix card?
There is no one else but Li Ye.The last time Lu Jingyao wrote to Li Ye, he asked Li Ye to return the Phoenix car to Lu Zixue first, and she would pay back the car money slowly.

At the time, there was no problem with this approach, but after what happened today, Lu Jingyao was shaken.

It was only 30 yuan, but Qian Shun wanted to take her for a walk while he was in the dark.

How much does Li Ye's 26 Phoenix car cost?

There are more than 160 tickets, but if you don’t have tickets, you can’t buy even [-].

200 yuan is no different from an astronomical figure to the Lu family.

Why should I give it to you?

Did you let Li Ye hug your waist?Are you playing hide and seek under the quilt with others?
Li Ye doesn't owe you anything.

"Ah~"

Lu Jingyao sighed again and opened Xia Yue's letter.

Lu Jingyao was still very close to this former best friend. Their personalities were very similar. They both came from humble backgrounds, both were confident and self-reliant, and both were full of yearning for freedom in the future.

In the past days, the two mentally encouraged and supported each other and went through the most difficult days.

But when Lu Jingyao finished reading Xia Yue's letter, he couldn't help but be stunned for a long time.

[Li Ye, the person with whom I was connected, entered the express class through the back door. 】

[Li Ye’s close friend made a black record, which made me lose my position as squad leader.]

[That bitch landlord Li Ye secretly improves your English. He will probably chase you to the capital to harm you in the future.]

In the entire four-page letter, Lu Jingyao did not feel any "self-improvement" or "confidence". Instead, she felt the same "resentment" and "grievance" as her younger brother.

However, what Lu Jingyao cares about is not Xia Yue's resentment and grievance, but Li Ye's rapid improvement in English.

"His English has surpassed Xia Yue, so will he really be admitted to the Foreign Languages ​​Institute next year?"

"If Li Ye can get into the College of Foreign Languages, then should I accept or fulfill my father's original promise?"

Lu Jingyao's father had promised Li Ye in front of the neighbors, "If you can get into college, I won't stand in your way."

Lu Jingyao was very angry at the time, feeling that his father was forced to compromise.

But now it seems that my father is the master who knows everything and knows everything.

If Li Ye is admitted to the School of Foreign Languages ​​next year, will the relationship between the two be restored naturally?

Thinking of this, Lu Jingyao suddenly felt ashamed and felt a little shameless.

But vaguely, there is some expectation.

If Li Ye was around, how could someone like Qian Shun dare to treat him like he just did?
Although Li Ye is naive, his fists are not generally hard.

Moreover, Li Ye's handsomeness alone can make countless suitors look dirty and put them off.

Li Ye doesn't understand literature or poetry, but he is a college student!
The brilliance of a college student is enough to cover up countless shortcomings and match himself equally.

. . . .

"what?"

With anticipation, Lu Jingyao opened Li Ye's letter, only to find that it contained the original letter she wrote to Li Ye a few days ago.

After looking through it carefully, Lu Jingyao saw the reply written by Li Ye on the back of the letter.

Then, Lu Jingyao was completely stunned.

Li Ye's fierce words and decisive questioning caught Lu Jingyao off guard and at a loss as to what to do.

And Li Ye's last words were like a basin of cold water, pouring cold water over Lu Jingyao's head.

[Since you choose to pursue your freedom, why should you interfere in my life?Why should I be so generous as to give the bike to your brother? 】

[Don’t contact me anymore. The swan flying in the sky please don’t harass the frog at the bottom of the well. Even if one day he becomes a prince, it has nothing to do with you. 】

After a long time, Lu Jingyao murmured to himself: "He actually... hates me so much..."

And a strong sense of loss emerged from the depths of her heart and quickly spread throughout her body.

Only when you lose it can you learn to cherish it. Once many things are missed, they will never come back.

(End of this chapter)